Childhood Sweetheart.

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Daniela1980Action
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20 Years

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Oh god help me!

Dated a Pisces in the past.
I was 16 years old and I'm an Aries female, and he was 18 years old.
I had just broken up with my first love that moved away when he asked me to be his girlfriend and I once mentioned that love to him, because I was a little sad about having my virginity taken away and didn't want to be sexually involved with him. Also, my mother wanted to meet him and I guess that made double pressure for the guy, so he dumped me, gently. [atleast this was my assumption] I felt kind of used by him, because I gave in and had sex with him. The guy took me a bath and painted my toenails; he was the sweetest guy. But that he dumped me afterwards.

That same week, a girl that was hanging around at the park that we used to hang around in couldn't face me, so her younger sister told me that the Pisces was now seeing her. Hmm. Well, I was devastated, but moved on. And also back then I was naive and shy, but certainly not dumb. Weeks went by and Pisces male comes knocking at my door, so I ignore the call. A week passed and he tries again, but this time I answered the door. He didn't ask me to be his girl; only wanted to say hello and seemed nervous, but left quickly. I wasn't all that opened and kind of neutral with him.

Never saw him again after that, nor did I ever touch the grounds of that park in NYC after he broke it off, and I started seeing someone else. But then as time went by, I moved to Texas and married my first love and divorced him and remarried. Anyway, I always thought about him [yes, they have a lasting affect on us..LOL] Now I am 40 years old and guess who's name I came across on the Internet? Yep. Mr. Pisces who is now 42 years old. I was excited, but leery about contacting him again..I was nervous! He always made me kind of nervous and shy, but he was shy as well.

I finally contacted him and he replies..I was even more nervous, but replied back. This went on for a month and then he emailed me his digits to give him a call. I waited another month to finally make this call. I dont know why it is that I acted this way, especially me being 40 years old and all. Maybe it had something to do with the fact that I was really young and hurt by him? Anyway.. Phone conversation started off with me calling him a liar because I saw some info that was on the net that I knew different, so that gave me the ammunition to calling him! Before I knew it, he was proclaiming his love for me [in emails he was not like this, but only sweet] He wanted me to know that he never used me and in fact loved me very much but was unable to express himself, but that now that he is older he has changed. Also.. he said he broke up with me because of fear of me leaving him for my first love. AND THAT HE NEVER DATED THAT GIRL FROM THE PARK!!!

Before I knew it, I was also telling him how much I had felt for him and was unable to express it back then, myself. I was just afraid that he would leave me as well. I am currently in a depression and in an unhappy marriage, AGAIN! [I tend to find men that abuse me, mentally] And he is alone and lives with his mother; has never been married and has no kids! I have 3 kids. I was kind of thinking: Hmm.. never married, no kids..—?? Strange. Then he shoots out that he still has feelings for me. BUT HE KNEW THAT I WAS GOING THROUGH A DEPRESSION. So I'm now thinking: Venerability. And all kinds of thoughts racing. I have to admit that I have feelings but not the kind that he was proclaiming. I guess I am thinking that they are sentiments of the past. Or, I'm not sure. I know we are different, but I got to know him NOW..at least some things about him. He is writing a book that will be out in April, and I have writing skills. [at least he seems to think that I do..lol] Again.. thoughts r racing! User—?

It's been 3 months and all was going great. He was asking me to come see him in NYC or that he