He Came Back. . .

Hey Ya'll,
As you may have suspected from the title. Yes, my Libra admirer returned. I haven't seen him since August and when I saw him, I was so numbed by the indifference that had over-takened me. I was behind the counter at the BP sitting on the floor, while my Sagittarian co-worker (Chrisie) was on the register. Mr. Libra walked in, but shot a glance at the register like he always does to check for me. He spotted me, but I never budged from where I was sitting. When he was coming up to the register, he was waiting for me to get up to ring him up, but I never moved. So Chrisie did his transaction. During the whole time he was at my co-worker's register, he was looking over the counter past her at me, and then said, " You look down. What's wrong?" I wasn't sad, but I just felt numb, but I didn't tell him that. I only said, "Tough times." He nodded and said, "I hear ya." He knew exactly what I was talking about because I told him about how I've been dealing with my sexuality. He continued and said, " I've been so meaning to stop by and thank you for the birthday gift you sent me. It really helped out alot." My co-worker had this look on her face wondering what's going on because she noticed that his voice got alittle heavy. I was a bit dumbfounded and had the look on my face to match it because I sent him that gift a few weeks back. I sort've forgot that I did, and I was trying to get over him and I made progress too. I then began to wonder if all the things I thought about him avoiding me wasn't so. When he showed up, it was 10:27 pm and he was in his construction work clothes. In August, he told me about putting in more hours with that job, but I never thought it'll cause him to make less visits. Like I was saying, I was looking dumbfounded and said, "Thank me?" Then he said, "Yeah, the birthday gift you sent me." Then I remembered the customized money clip and the heavy note revealing my sexuality to him. I really made myself vulnerable in telling him that of me. From the way he was showing that he was still dedicated in chosing my services, he doesn't seemed phased by the things I've told him. Still though, I do not want to go thru the emotions that I went thru while dealing with his absense. It kinda feels like heart burn when you really miss somebody. I really don't know what to think, because he showed up yesterday, but does this mean that Mr. Libra will be making more returns. Heck, all I can do is just sit back, relax and watch.

Hi Dreamy

Anyway my libra has popped up again too. Act disinterested or just continue acting cool and calm so they wont freak out as much. His birthdays today and he spent the entire time with me, which is weird because we just met and havent really kept in touch. But, im still playin cool.

GoodLuck.

Keep hope alive...thats sooo cheesy, but effective.🙂

Hey Ya'll,
As it turns out Mr. Libra seem to be getting a bit more confident. His birthday was on the 14th of October this past Saturday. I mailed him a birthday present a few weeks early, because I felt like giving up at the time. He showed up on Sunday evening at the BP while I was in the cooler re-stocking all of the beverages. He was in the store, but I didn't really make any eager attempts to go to the register to ring him up. I just wasn't feeling it as much like how I use to. As he was heading for the door, I was grabbing some of the beer from the display outside of the cooler. Then I heard someone say, "See Ya Later, Anthony." I looked up to see that it was him with his back against the door waiting for me to notice him. I swear to you, that is the very first time that I've ever heard him say my name. When I got done with the cooler and went back to the register with my Gemini co-worker, she relayed a message to me from my Libra admirer. He told her to tell me, that he was using the customized money clip that I got him for his birthday. He was really showing it off to her. Everytime after a period of absence, he comes back with actions more ardent than before. I even told him that I was gay, and he's not shakened by that one bit at all. I'm not even trying to be cool, I just am because I was so insecure when he was absent, now that he's back I'm a bit indifferent but still friendly. Like I said before, all I can do is relax and watch. Dreamy-Eyez out.

So true Libras like chasing.