First Kiss: 'I Love You'

Hi all,

There is something I have been thinking about for the last few weeks.

A few weeks ago, I kissed someone who entered my life two years ago first as a colleague. We hadn't seen each other in a year before we started 'dating'.

Then something strange happened during our first time kissing which never happened to me before. I've kissed plenty of guys, some I had a crush on from before, some others I didn't, one I was absolutely in love/crazy about before even dating him ... yet what I'm about to described never happened with them.

While I was kissing this guy, I felt extremely at peace. I didn't feel overly excited or completely drugged by love. I simply felt inner peace. Then, while we were kissing, I almost blurted the words 'I love you' (I didn't since I realized what I was about to say) to him. I heard these words in my heart, not in my head. I heard them once, then nothing after that.

I'm not entirely sure where this was coming from since I've never said 'I love you' to any partner and I'm not very expressive of my emotions. Yet, I felt these words with him, for the first time in my life.

We kissed but have not spoken since for some strange reason. I haven't felt the need to reach out and clearly neither did he.

Why these words? Can anyone enlighten me? It freaked me out a bit.

Posted by TrueBlessings
Hi all,

There is something I have been thinking about for the last few weeks.

A few weeks ago, I kissed someone who entered my life two years ago first as a colleague. We hadn't seen each other in a year before we started 'dating'.

Then something strange happened during our first time kissing which never happened to me before. I've kissed plenty of guys, some I had a crush on from before, some others I didn't, one I was absolutely in love/crazy about before even dating him ... yet what I'm about to described never happened with them.

While I was kissing this guy, I felt extremely at peace. I didn't feel overly excited or completely drugged by love. I simply felt inner peace. Then, while we were kissing, I almost blurted the words 'I love you' (I didn't since I realized what I was about to say) to him. I heard these words in my heart, not in my head. I heard them once, then nothing after that.

I'm not entirely sure where this was coming from since I've never said 'I love you' to any partner and I'm not very expressive of my emotions. Yet, I felt these words with him, for the first time in my life.

We kissed but have not spoken since for some strange reason. I haven't felt the need to reach out and clearly neither did he.

Why these words? Can anyone enlighten me? It freaked me out a bit.

😕....What the...? Enjoy it.

It sounds like you've already been enlightened by the experience itself, why pick it apart with a lot of analysis that really won't bring you any closer to what the experience was. Which is the point. The experience. Not the reasons why it happened.

Jesus. If it were me, I'd be laying up in that b*tch like a warm blanket on a cold day. Simply enjoy the feeling for as long as it stays with you.

Alternatively, you two are twin flames and the kiss sparked something deep within as it was written in the stars....

You know, with all of my other exes, as soon as they 'disappeared', I blocked them right away and remained resentful for months even years. They triggered extremely negative feelings after the falling out, insecurities and plain hate, even years later.

With this one, even though it initially hurt when he didn't reach out after the kiss, I can't bring myself to 'hate' him or feel anger. On the very contrary, my heart is opening up more and more. I empathize more with him than I've ever done with anyone else. Every single time we experienced something together whether good or bad, I ended up understanding the lesson and I found myself progressing in how I loved myself, loved others. Every time we fought and stopped talking, as soon as I'd understand the lesson, he'd come back around.

I definitely feel as though our encounter is fated.

He's three years younger than me, which is not something you can dismiss in your twenties. We're at different stages of our lives, but I never thought I'd even experience something close to this.

Something quite bizarre just happened:

Today, I was telling myself 'Ha, it's been months since he last changed his profile picture.' aand I was also thinking about updating mine.

Then, I checked his profile about an hour later and he changed his profile picture! He also set it to completely private which is really really strange because in all the years I've known him, he's never done this! We used to be friends on FB, but I removed him after one of our fights.

This is super weird because he's such a 'people' person whereas I'm the one who is a privacy freak and lock every single picture I upload on there.

This also happened when we worked together. I one day noticed he never wore yellow/mustard pants (he likes colored pants) ... one Sunday I was thinking about this. Then, the following Monday, he came to work wearing yellow/mustard pants!

Really bizarre.

Yes, I think he may have been a soulmate of some sort.

It's very sad he chose to disappear after our first kiss. I don't even know what I did wrong or didn't do.

Posted by tiziani
Seems all right. Feeling at peace is invaluable.

Oh common!

You can do better than that!

It sort of pains though, to think that I felt this way about him and all he managed to do was 'disappear' on me. It makes me wonder whether he ever felt anything for me at all ... Of course, this amazing feeling happened with the wrong person.