this would be my second post here. The first post i wrote was when i was involved with a separated guy. God knows, the difficulties that i went through just to get over him. And i could say that i had succeed. But then, for the second time, here i am again stuck in the same situation and it's even more complicated now. Having a relationship with a married man with 3 children. I know i've been a fool. This guy had deceived me. He made me believe that he was single and would even make plans of our future. I was really clueless of the situation.It was only after 5 months that i learned the whole truth. I was badly hurt. i thought then we could make a perfect couple since we really got along well. But,all of this are just fantasies now. (sigh) How cruel life sometimes is. All i want is to be happy,to love and to be loved. But look what i'm getting from all this relationships that i am into; heartaches, sleepless nights, dissappointments, and frustations. However, i'm keeping my fingers crossed that someday, somehow I'll find the one for me. I will never get tired of looking for that "one" coz i believe in an old adage saying that"you have to kiss a million frogs before you gonna find your prince". But yes, i have to be careful this time, not to rush things, to use my mind, my heart and my instinct before committing myself to someone. I've already learned my lesson the hard way. But what bothered me most now is on how can i get this guy out of my life. I know it's very wrong to still stay in this relationship after knowing the truth, after what he had done but i'm having a hard time putting an end into this relationship. I know that this guy has real feelings for me. I could feel that. And i do feel the same way towards him. Whatever happens only time will tell.
