WOE iS ME !!!

WELL .. TO MAKE A lONG STORY SHORT .. iT BEGAN WiTH ME THiNKiNG HE WAS Mi OTHER HALF .... THiNGS WERE ABSOlUTElY FABUlOUS FOR ABOUT 4 MONTHS .. WE GOT N2 A CONVERSATiON ABOUT PEOPLE i WAS WiTH .. TURNS OUT SOMEONE i HAD 'PHYSiCAL' RElATiONS WiTH iS SOMEONE HES QUOTE UNQUOTE FRiENDS WiTH NOW .. THEY WENT TO MiDDLE SCHOOL TOGETHER .. N HiGH SCHOOL .. N PLAY BASKETBALL ERRY NOW N THEN WHEN THE FEllAS GET TOGETHER .. WHEN i TOLD HiM THE TRUTH HE SPAZZED .. HE SAiD iT ATE HiM UP TO THiNK ABOUT iT AND iTS NO WAY HE COULD BE N A RElATiONSHiP WiTH ME BECAUSE HE WOOD JUS RANDOMLY THiNK ABOUT iT N GET MAD AND DO SOMETHiN AND/OR REACT N A WAY THAT WOOD HURT THE RELATIONSHIP .. I CRIED A RIVER .. THIS WAS N FEBRUARY .. WEVE BEN N SOMEWHAT OF A SUSPENDED ANIMATION SINCE .. EVEN THO HES MADE IT CLEAR HE CANT HANDLE A RELATIONSHIP KNOWING THAT BUT HE STILL WANTED TO CHILL .. N HANG .. N SPEND NIGHTS .. N DATES .. N NOT BE WITH NEONE ELSE BUT EACH OTHER SEXUALLY .. iM LiKE DAMN!! WHUT iS THIS?!? NEWAY .. I FINALLY HAD ENOUGH AND ABOUT 2 WEEKS AGO I TEXED HIM A SERIES OF TEX MESSAGES STATING MY CASE SAYING I KNEW HE TALKED TO OTHER PEOPLE AND HE CANT POSSIBLY LOVE ME BECAUSE IF HE DID HED OVERLOOK SOMETHIN THAT WAS YEARS AGO N IF HE DID HE WOODNT BE SO INSECURE ABOUT SHH BECAUSE HES THE ONLY ONE I WANA BE WITH N THE LIKE ... SO HE TRIED TO CALL ME THAT NITE BUT IT WAS LIKE 3 IN THE MORNING N I WAS ASLEEP .. HE CALLED A FEW TIMES THE NEX DAY BUT I WAS STILL UPSET SO I DIDNT ANSWER .. HE SENT ME A TEX MESSAGE LIKE THE NEX DAY SAYING HE REALLY DIDNT KNOW WHAT I WAS TALKING ABOUT BUT 'I GUESS' .. THAT HURT THE MOST .. ITS LIKE THATS ALL U CAN MUSTER UP IS FCKIN I GUESS?!? WTF?!? NEWAY .. I HAVENT STOPPED THINKING ABOUT HIM N IN SPITE OF ALL THE NEGATIVE SHH SOMETHIN N ME STILL WANTS HIM N IM BEGINNING TO THINK ITS SOMETHING WRONG WITH ME .. LIKE SOME KIND OF SELF I DONT KNOW. . I MEAN THE GOOD BETWEEN US WAS SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO GOOD BUT THIS BAD STUFF .. ITS LIKE ITS REAAAAAAAAL BAD .. HE HASNT CALLED ME THOUGH .. N I FEEL LIKE IF HE WAS N LOVE WITH ME .. HE WOODVE CALLED BY NOW .. N I KNOW HE HASNT BEEN ALL EMOTIONALLY TORN UP LIKE IVE BEEN .. JUS BECAUSE WE HAVE MUTUAL FRIENDS N HES STILL BEEN GOIN OUT HANGIN WITH THE FELLAS AND THE LIKE .. SO THATS BASICALLY Y I REFUSE TO CALL BECAUSE IVE ALREADY BEEN SO HURT BY THIS .. BUT I MEAN WITH 2 WEEKS OF BEING APART .. UD THINK IDVE GOTTEN OVER IT BY NOW .. I STILL WANT US .. WHAT IS THIS ...?! AM i BEIN RIDICULOUS?

You're too immature to be having sex or a relationship with anyone right now. Go to school, get an education and a well-paying job. Stop hooking up because it will bite you in the ass either with this situation or a baby.