leaping into love or certain death

SO last night at midnight i was having a conversation with the cappy and hes telling me how much he likes me and im telling him my genuine fears. i do not want to get hurt. im worried that he will tell me that he loves me and then somehow fuck me over.

i want to trust him and become one but i feel so stifled. i feel like i cant leap into happiness.

i just dont know if hes lying to me or being straight up. i want to believe dammit, but i cant. i dont trust myself.

something is causing me to put the brakes on him. he stares at me while we talk even though i cant make eye contact; i fall in love when i do. i watch him while he sleeps and i want to see what IT would be like. i never want to leave his side, i want to give him the world, but i dont want to give him my heart.

any and all comments are appreciated.

fml

Posted by oldskoolflavor
get another moon

true, this must be what goes thru my ex's mind.

You water moons are something else!

eh, a bit but i could deal with it. but it would just further the emotional distance between us.


hes a good looking guy and i know he has options. so i told him that i didnt mind. i told him that i sleep with other guys and he minds that. but i could just be another girl on his bench ready to be put in the game and he doesnt have another dude gettin in the way.

i dont know the he truly gets that when im in the zone, im a completely different person. no more of that lackadaisical shyt. i become demanding and have certain expectations.

I agree with oldskool your moon sign makes you more catious, It is funny hearing you say that cause the I have learn from experience with the sag that they will love you but not totally surrender their heart until they are ready. The sagg even told me he luvs me but he hasn't surrender yet but he is very close, so you will get there but he has to continously prove his self.

I think it's really hard for sags to love someone who doesn't give them totally freedom