2010 VS 2011

So it hurts a lot because I AIN??T woman enough to come clean about my feelings for HIM.

Everybody here (on DXPNET) was of a great support when I needed it. Unfortunately at times, for things to unfold, it has to come from within.

Lately I took some time to reflect and came to the conclusion that I had grown a lot emotionally.

The past few months — past year have been quite cathartic. I have gotten myself into such wrongful and harmful situations (workwise, school wise, personally). Today, I can say that 2010 was a year of ASHES! The cherry on the sundae was my 25th birthday which was awful to endure because 2010 had been such a bad year!

But hey, you LIVE and LEARN! 2010 was particularly hard because I was at the begin of my life's purpose QUEST! I'm probably better off now than I was last year in the sense that I AM at peace with certain things (#1: pick & choose battles Theory) (#2: I have narrowed down my professional interest) (#3: good lovin?? takes time).

This being said, I can quite see the light at the end of the tunnel just yet??_still a few turns I have to make in order to get that perspective!

One other positive aspect: Him and I are becoming more at ease with each other (more friendliness, less awkwardness). Rarely have I had a guy friend (usually girl friends and even so) care so much about my well being. He believes so much in my capabilities and is always supportive of my decisions. I had been looking for love (lust) from him but truth is, he has given me so much more (care, sensibility, affection, reassurance, ect). Monday night, I sent him a short email after a conversation we had on Sunday thanking him for his supportive ways and again when he responded he was so complimenting. When I need reassurance, I read his precious lines and my heart trembles with warmth.
I hope that we will become ever better FRIENDS. I care so much for him!

As a Scorpio, I have often been infatuated by Men. Thank God for my Sagittarius moon. However only 2 struck a sensitive chord and he is the third! Unfortunately I wasn't able to remain friends with the 2 previous ones because I ran away. This time I am not running away. I am here to stay and accept our friendship!

Posted by ScorpSage
Unfortunately I wasn't able to remain friends with the 2 previous ones because I ran away. This time I am not running away. I am here to stay and accept our friendship!

Glad to hear 2011 is looking better for you. It will be a great year for you to actually live out the insights you mention. You sound more grounded. I guess maybe you weren't last year and that is why you ran away from promising relationships?