Can you advise?

Hello there,

I've decided to post this mesage to you Scorpios also, as I feel you are
good advice givers.
I am a Pisces with a problem! I hope someone can help.
I have just read this description of
Pisces:

Pisces, when active in the chart, is loving, caring, communicative, easily influenced,
easygoing, dreamy, pleasant, comforting, philosophical,
idealistic, creative, volunteering, contemplative, spiritual, reverent,
empathic, devoted, unpretentious, visionary, romantic, versatile,
musical, open-minded, gentle, polite, charming, gracious, lucky,
enthusiastic, prosperous, tactful, healing, trustworthy, psychic,
and tolerant.


Unfavorable Pisces can be manipulative, passive-aggressive,
timid, helpless, degenerate, psychotic, ungrounded,
have poor concentration and follow-through, procrastinating,
bad with money, lacking in goals, undefended emotionally, lazy,
indulgent, gullible, tearful, impulsive, unreliable, airheaded,
unsettled, indecisive, confused, superficial, melancholic,
inconsistent, addictive, overzealous, a loner, uncommunicative,
bad with details, and misplaces trust.

Unfortunately, at the moment, the 'unfavorable Pisces' description
applies to me.
I was at one stage have of the 'favorable' description. In fact
I know I was. The biggest thing I had, was the Piscean hope and foresight.
I was optimistic about what I wanted to do and what came natural to me.
But being a Pisces ( although I never realised it at the time, and that it
would bring me to this point) I lacked the practical skills to put
my dreams in motion.

I was naturally very quick and bright,and funny - with lots of ideas
bouncing around. Musical, entertaining etc etc.

A few months ago I moved back in with my parents - and as
they are quite straight, cynical 'down-to-earth' insensitive ( I don't mean that
disparagingly they are just like that) people who don't go in for anything
ethereal or flimsy, like the arts- I have found myself being so influenced by their attitudes,and
getting more and more discouraged and sinking deeper and deeper, that I am ending
up once again doing things and jobs just to please them at the end of the day
that I feel I am my losing my own identity. Not only am I doing things to please
them, but I am BEING ways to please them. Naturally when I am around people that respond
favorabley to me, I am quite high-spirited and funny and all the good things about Pisces.
When I arrived here, I was like that to a degree, but they disparaged of it more and more.
It is only my nature, and how I deal with things, by using humour. I mean I can get
things done better if there is humour about it. But I wasn;t being 'serious; enough
for them, and more and more I felt worse and worse.
When I came back to live here I thought they would help, but they don't want to
help, because they don't believe in the things I do, and are not so open-minded.

All I want to do is go to drama school. But they have trampled all over my
dreams and feelings long enough already, that I don't want them to do it to
my one true dream. But I am finding it harder and harder to help myself. So I am at
the stage where there is NO WAY I can reveal my true dream, becaus they will onl
be extremely cynical and disparaging of it and I couldn;t take that.

I am slipping in to unfavorable mode more and more each day due to
these difficulties.

Not to blame them or anything - but I didnt realise it would affect me so
much, otherwise I would have avoided coming here.

I need to ask anyone out there, who might have a little expertise in
Astrology ( or psychiatry!)- will I be stuck in this mode forever??
I am doomed to be the Pisces victim, failure?? What can I do to help myself?

Oh Ellie,

I read your entire post and I must say first of all, you seem to understand where you are, maybe not where you want to be, but exactly where you are. I assume you moved home because of financial reasons— When we are back under old influence's after being out on our own, we do see things differently.

You say you want to be an actor, and you also say you are willing to work as a waitress to provide for yourself. Your only reason is 'I would have to lie to my parents'. I think if you are providing for yourself to enable you do pursue what your true passion is, that isn't a lie but the absolute truth.

Let's see what Sloane and Phoenix write to you, they are really good at this sort of thing.

Take care,

Linda

Ellie, I can relate deeply with your feelings right now. I left home in search of freedom of expression also, and I'm very happy. My father could sometimes be a bit unsupportive about my dreams and wishes, and I always took it to heart because I thought that he wouldn't be there for me. It really hurt alot, because I needed his approval so much. I now realize that back then, all he wanted was what was best for me, and I appreciate that even more at a distance. I found a way to go school abroad, and from there I learnt to support myself financially and emotionally. (can be tricky) This might actually need a few test runs or so to perfect, but once you get it, you'll appreciate and treasure your efforts so much more..and you'll probably be happier too.. Ellie, is there a way for you to get training for acting somewhere? The other thing that I'd toss some colour onto is just finding a way to make yourself financially secure enough to get an apartment somewhere.. (As long as waitressing can cover most if not all of your costs).. Look around for a few options. Also, try to talk about all that's bothering you with your parents further. Try your mum if she makes you feel real comfortable when you talk with her, but do gently try to let her know that this is hurting you..I'll be willing to bet that she'll want for your happiness, and try to help you in her own way. She may provide a solution to the problem. Don't give up hope, and do follow your dreams.
Luv J.

Linda, thank you for the kind words! 🙂

But I honestly think that you and dear Jaya have given excellent advice and it's always good to have advice that comes from personal experience.

Ellie, the best of luck in whatever course you take. Update us, what are your thoughts now? Have they changed?