Spring of 2019 I met a Scorpio. Our connection was accidental, he kept persuing me and I accepted. After being severely abused in the past it was really hard for me to get back in a relationship. I moved back in the city with my parents to do my masters and my plan was to leave right after. I did not want a relationship to distract me. Well it happened. When I met the scorpio, we had such a connection, things were going well.....and as months went by they were getting better and stronger. However, he had a background.....he was a recovering heroin addict. He was very opened about it from the get go and I appreciated it because he hid nothing from me (at least I don't think). An old friend of his decided to throw him a birthday party. He relapsed....I can not even tell you the stress I went through. He was not himself anymore. 5 days later he overdosed and it did not make it. This was 5 months ago, and as traumatized as I was I kept myself busy with school and work. Now, being in quarantine all the pain is coming back. It is so unbearable. After finally getting out of something abusive, finding someone who truly was great and losing them to drugs. I cant even express how much fear I have being in a relationship. Has anyone been through something like this?
