just messy

Ive just been suppressing this for a while but this voicemail got me.
I stopped seeing this scorpio sun, moon, venus because I found out he was having kids.

This matters a lot to me and he does not really see why.
I think when you bring kids into this world you need to stop being selfish.
He needs to go to that girl and be by her side.
He does not have to love her but to be a man and support her.

He has no business trying to be with me..

That's just how I feel I don't want to be the reason why that child does not have his or her daddy.
Cause I know what it's like to not have one..
I'm a spiritual person and I feel that would be ungodly of me to do so.

He still thinks I am being ridiculous. I'm kinda losing respect for him.
This entire situation is messy and I don't need to be apart of this
I just want to have positive relationships in my life.
No sneaking around no two timing.
no fwb shit.

I still feel some type of way.

Why does this shit have to happen to me?

Sounds like he is a lesson to learn and one step closer to being ready for that guy that is just for you.

I think you are doing the right thing in this situation. Always go with it gut instinct. Keep that conscience clear.

Yeah I don't think I could start a life with someone knowing they have offspring out there.

It's just not right....

Egotistical? LOL Yes that is a word hon.
LOL but your reaction leads me to believe where you come from it is acceptable.

Im trying to say that he needs to be with this baby mother.
This baby is not even born yet and he trying to be with me?

It's against my beliefs if you have to spend your entire life being in a loveless situation.
You should not be having sex.
It's not like his ex is abusive.
Children should be brought in a stable environment.

he's like 20 years old student.
How is he gonna support his child?
Am I suppose to be a step parent at 21 and help.

This shit is ratchet but the conflict between your logic and feelings is the real struggle.

It's like where I come from this shit is so normal people having babies left and right.
Even my sister who's 25 has a 3 year old kid, single mother.

I thought I had left that environment.
So excuse me if Im am freaked out about having to deal with this.

I think you're doing the right thing by holding to your standards. You know what you want and what you can handle. Don't ever let someone make you feel like you should feel grateful or ashamed that you're turning down someone when that person has something about them that goes against YOUR standards and beliefs.

Personally I would have done the same and left him to his responsibilities.