When a scorp gets tired....

I guess this would go for anyone, especially a woman it seems. I am tired... Sooo tired. I am grateful for my life, my daughter my family and my friends... However don't you ever just get tired.

I get tired of being strong ALL the damn time
I get tired of always being the one to do everything myself as well as for others.
When the hell can I be weak? I can't afford to, but I sometimes want to. Just for a moment be weak, feel human. Not shut out the bad things in life and just cry just because. I get tired of saving face. I get tired of Always being the example. Being the one there for others.

I get tired of not having somone to do shit for me sometimes. Or, being able to rely on someone to look after me. Just for once. For once in my life I would like a moment where I can just not have to be on top of everything and make sure eveything in my life is running smoothly and correctly. For once I would like to be able to ask for something rather than always having to get it myself.

Sorry guys, I am frutrated and needed to vent. I am tired. When is someone going to be tere for me like I am for them and so many others. I am not speaking of a particular individual or my dear family and friends. However being the oldest sibling and I guess always a responsible independent adult on my own since 17. I have always had to look after others.

The most joy I have is watching my daughter grow and providing the best life I can for her. However, I pray everyday some day she will not only have me to be there for her but many others and she will never feel like I do today.

Again sorry. I am just tired.

I reread that and I need to make one thing clear. It is my nature to be there for others, maybe I should rephrase that. I guess I am tired of not feeling like others will be there for me. Not tired of being there for others, because it is a choice not an obligation. However I think you get the point.

I understand completely...and I think we all deserve the right to feel the way we do sometimes. Its natural and healthy.

"However being the oldest sibling and I guess always a responsible independent adult on my own since 17. I have always had to look after others."

That says more about how you view being raised than it does about being a scopio. Placement as the eldest sibling means you always had to be the first to learn how shtuff works, and be the initial forebearer for all of your families experiences

BTDT, and it sucks sometimes

Many times the others cant be there for you since they havn't shared your life history yet

Hi Queen, I have been reading this forumfor a while and just joined in your honour... to say that I have come across SO MANY tired people (Scorps and others) this last few weeks that I think it's bigger than all of us. I'm Scorpio Rising, just beginning a relationship (I think/hope!) with a Scorpio guy who texted melast night that he feels so tired 'it's pathetic'... Like you I have nurtured others most of my life once I'd healed from my childhood, and am staggering through...

But that's what we do, isn't it? We cope, and you know that you will too. (In fact isn't that what sometimes makes the exhaustion worse, knowing that you WILL?) I had always wondered why I felt so UnVirgoan (though I am nit-picky and hyper-analytical I am an extrovert with a messy house! lol) and lately realised how very Scorpionic I am. I even almost died at birth (I read that was quite a typical Scorp-Rising thing).

I'm appreciating reading all the Scorpio Men stuff here, though I think we are more than our charts, still - it's interesting. Giving him space seems to be the order of the day!

Anyway Queen, may you feel back to strength soon and may those Scorpio rejuvenating powers work for you ASAP.

SAV x

yup


but i just tell myself to take it. cuz life goes on. and i still have my mom at least. she's adorable.


ppl shun complaining, i dunno why. it should be allowed every now and then.

***and another thing!!! being scorpio makes it worse. people think that because you aren't overtly emotional that you can just keep on taking crap without it effecting you, sometimes even deliberately saying hurtful butter just to get a reaction.***

Exactly!!! We have feelings too inspite the stregnth we posses.

***this is good qs....this is the first time that ive seen you be soft***

See what I mean and with all the ((hugs)) I distribute on this forum, oh wait that is mostly on the Libra forum. LOL!!!. No, just joking irishlibra, but I know you aren't. I can be a softy especially when in love, but that doesn't look like it is in my NEAR future and it has been awhile.

Thanks guys. Last night was just bad and shit came to a head. I feel like my old scop self today. sleep did help. I think I will get a massage today.

Thanks, you guys rock!

hahaha @ roxi


you're adorable

Shaka


You're an idiot. I dunno what I ever saw in you. Don't ask to see your children, they have a new father.

hehehe


You make me blush.


p.s. I'm not a lawyer *yet*, pumpkin. I'm gettin' there.

Lawyer...

what a purrfect occupation for a skanky b1tch.

Oh, Shaka...you love me! 🙂



Thanks, MsP. 🙂

Find yourself a balance...I've learnt this from my Libra friend...Be nice and helpful to people but know when to stop by using your tact and diplomatic touch...The bluntness can be easy but too hurtful and the moment you hurt someone , that pain will come back haunting you...Also, when you do something nice for people , you do it just to see their smiles without any motives , any expectations , somehow peace just comes naturally...



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My sideline story, you don't have to read 🙂 )
It's strange but today I saw oldself 7 months ago in a Scorp girl friend , she was clever but too blunt to the point of hurting other feeling ...The questions she asked were exactly what I had in mind but I stopped and thought about the consequences..guess what, I felt much better and I connected with people better in the end...This was what my mother(Gemini) has told me and has tried to make me understand but I thought I just wanted to be myself ..actually be my competitive self...I wanted to come near her and hug her but then I realise everyone needs to learn the lesson on their own ...It's part of grown- up

*relised*
*needed*
*being grown-up*

too many mistakes ! I give up!

***Also, when you do something nice for people , you do it just to see their smiles without any motives , any expectations , somehow peace just comes naturally...***

I am sure we all do this because we want to with no expectations. Scorps don't do things they don't really want to.

LOL!!! Exam you have a gemini mother too?

Yup, anotherscorp, I wonder if we put out the idea or air that we don't need others. I know for a fact that I have always had a hard time asking for help from others even my parents. I would rather tough it out... However, that doesn't mean we don't need a shoulder sometimes too.

I am over that mood, refocused stayed to myself mostly this weekend. Shockingly one of my friends picked up on my mood (can you believe it? My scorp friend) He left a vm on my phone of one of my favorite songs, not a word, just the song. Which made me feel a lot better.

''I know for a fact that I have always had a hard time asking for help from others even my parents. I would rather tough it out... However, that doesn't mean we don't need a shoulder sometimes too. ''

Because we appear strong and ice cold, people think we are fine and that we can handle ourselves. It is those VERY few people who are close to us that can sense when there is something wrong. For example, my best friend knows when Im upset because I go all quiet and withdraw.

Because we dont SHOW it - how can anyone be sure that we are okay or not? Even if a person asked me if Im okay - I would reply 'Yes, im fine'. And they would think Im fine.

They just dont dig deep enough. They dont REALLY want to find out whats wrong, even if they have an inkling that there may be something wrong.....

This topic is the TRUTH! I was just saying this yesterday night. It feels as if I always have to put up this strong demeanor, yet never show my weak face. I'm the one people always come to for advice, support (emotionally or financially), or with questions for projects that I have. And I mean, I LOVE what I do and the person that I am, but it's like when I need people there so that I CAN get the advice or support or ask a question, there are few... I know that they don't take my kindness or strength for granted, but it's like damn, when is it my turn to rest my head on ya shoulder?

Then again, there are times where I feel I have to remain the strong young woman that I am because of how people already portray me. I have to maintain this image.. but it's just hard sometimes to always keep the strong face even when you feel so weak and tired sometimes...

"LOL!!! Exam you have a gemini mother too?"

Yes! And you do too!? Tell me about your experiences! lol!

I love her very much but she is driving me crazy sometimes! Or I am driving her crazy(so she said!) 😄

We have learnt from each other alot ...She is my best friend and 'almost' a soulmate(if you believe in that kind of thing) 🙂
People think that we are too muck alike , appearances and personalities .... Guess what !My father is a Gemini too! They do have strong influences in my personalities....Yeah, talk about flirting and chatty....My mum is a good example! Somehow she turn me into a scatterbrain like her whenever we have conversations 😛

She appears childlike and very joyful but there is a very serious and thoughtful side of her...A very unpredictable person for a stranger and accquaintances..even her close friends...It seems that I'm the only one who can comprehend her multi personalities...That's why she told me I'm her best friend....sweet mum!

Yeah..sorry for the bragging 🙂

QS

I don't get tired anymore of what I do for people...because I have STOPPED!!!! Most of the friends I have do for themselves...as for my son he is 21 all I do know is guide him while sitting on the sofa :-). I was so tired of doing for my sister I cut her off completly especially once I sat back and realized she is the most selfish person I know....so she is gone....I don't get tired anymore because I refuse to allow people to disrupt my inner and outer peace...if I can't help them then I tell them simple, I remember I used to feel so bad if I have to tell someone NO I can't help them but today, I can no longer wear myself out with other peoples shit, that is most of the time nothing but drama that they done and got caught up in and know begging for help. All my friends are loyal to me as I am to them, and I surround myself with positive people that are "DOING IT FOR THEMSELVES"

I remember when I was tired here at work with the Aqua co-worker...I went home reflect on it..and decided I can't give him the benefit of working my nerves or my productivity here at work so I keep my door closed or slightly ajar....and when he comes in I keep it strickly business....I get more happiness from seeing patients then seeing my pain in the ass coworker because I know the patients appreaciate the kindness and the unconditional love of support from someone the don't even know.....

My most recent helping of a someone is my Aunt she has breast cancer had a masectomy a week ago and will be coming up here for her treatment...and she is giving me the blues saying how she does not want to come here and nobody in the family is going to support her, but I took the initiative to bring her closer to me so that I can give her the support she needs...I know that she is being fickle,very negative but I know a big part of it is because she is trying to come to terms with the disease but when she get here I will make sure she is treated like royalty, and let her see that these people will take care of her because that is what we specialize in.

So today I am going to go home and relax and meditate and breath deep breaths so that I can continue to have the strenght to get through this with her...and some days it will be hard but it is all par for the course because in the end the rewards will be greater than the efforts.

***I love her very much but she is driving me crazy sometimes! Or I am driving her crazy(so she said!) 😄***

This exactly my experience with my gemini mom. My dad is a Pisces, love him to bits, but his over sensitivity and self pitty drives me to drink - literally.

***Because we appear strong and ice cold, people think we are fine and that we can handle ourselves. It is those VERY few people who are close to us that can sense when there is something wrong. ***

True, or another scorp...

LOL@scorpionlady!!! I enjoy helping, this is just my nature. It brings me joy. I just would like some support in return ya know— Not that I never do, just very rarely.

Yea I know but you will probably never get the support at least not the way you want it.

I agree.
It's the same for my friends. Since I am a scorpio I don't let my true feelings outshine my power.
I'm always there for my friends when they break up with someone or lose a family memeber.
Like today I got hurt and no one asked me if I was ok, I had to take care of myself. I am such a good friend, when someone needs something I will jump. I just want to have a friend that will help me for once. Like my friend got dumped for a stupid reason and she was devastated.
I'm the one that got her back with her boyfriend because he is in my class. As soon as I saw her crying I came to comfort her.
SOMEONE COMFORT ME!!
Well, I take that back b/c I have my mom and also I like to feel powerful and strong.
Sometimes I don't want people to see the weak side of me.
And when I got hit in the gosh darn eye with a friggin jumprope I didnt cry and no one came to see if I was ok!!
That pissed me off and then they have a the nerve to get mad when I snap at them......ITS BECAUSE I'M UPSET!! DUH!
How would you feel if you got hit in the eye and friggin couldnt see and no one asked if you were ok!! And then got mad when you yelled at them?!?

Yes i know exactly what you mean QS..I swear that i have feel just like that sometimes...people act like we don't need the same affection and love as the next person but we do...just because we're strong people its like people think we're machines or something...we have feelings too..and the comment you made about people saying and doing hurtful things to us to get a reaction, yes i totally agree..some of the worst things have happened to me in life and people act like i always have it together and never offer to help out and i'm tired of it...men act the same way...they think just because i'm strong i don't need to be taken care of..they need to stop getting it twisted, we're strong females but we still want to be taken care of the way that a man is supposed to take care of a woman...girl i'm really feelin you on this...

I agree with you too ScorpioRose...I was laid off for about a month and a half recently and no one cared...everyone just kept saying "oh you'll find something"..only two of my friends helped me out but no one else cared, even my kid's lame father...and i am always always always there for people..always...but when it comes to me, hey who cares... and this experience has made me say to myself that unless it's for my kids or family, i'm not helping anyone out anymore...i'm just not going to give a damn...i'm always there for people but no one is ever really there for me....and then people act too jealous too...maybe they're just jealous of our strength and like it when we are having bad times..