Gemilie
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I think I've lost him... (Page 2)
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Well, a lot happened since then. Last Friday, our whole department went out for a drink after work and everything was normal till one of our colleague decided to make a toast to Mr. Taurus. That is then and there that I??ve learned that Mr. Taurus might leave us. He's been offered a new position in one of our subsidiary in Japan. Needless to say that took me completely off guard. He's been working very hard lately and everything make sense now??_He had sooo much to do before he leaves??_They gave him 2 months to make his decision to either accept the offer or not. I didn't really realize what just happened there to be honest??_It took me some time to understand that I might not see him EVER again??_ that when I'm sick, my cough will go unnoticed, no more gentle smiles and as awkward as it was??_ no more nods/greetings from him ever again. I started to panic and drank quite a lot??_ was trying to get my mind off all that. Well every party has to end and as usual he gave me a ride home especially since I was a little tipsy. It was very quiet in the car and I decided to go ahead and asked him??_.Why didn't he tell me that he's leaving? He replied he didn't think he had to??_I just couldn't take it anymore??_I was so angry at him but at the same time so sad??_ I just didn't know what to do anymore and just crumble under the pressure and started to cry. He stopped the car and said —Please don't do that—?_ I told him that I??ll walk home, then he quickly lock the door and said —no you??re not??. I told him I needed some air and he quickly replied —then lower the window... you??re drunk and upset and there's no way I??ll let you out of the car alone and in that state?? I wanted to jump in his arm so bad but just couldn't do it??_I told him that I'm tired of being ignored, I'm tired of being polite, I'm tired of being happy and the second after angry. I asked him what does he want me to do? And he replied:
Him: No! what is it that you want from me? We've talked about this many times already.
Me: I just want you back! Why did you care so much when I was sick last week? How could you turn so cold within days? You made me so happy that weekend then just slap me in the face right after.
Him: I cared??_ just because I do??_.I'm sorry I??ll try not to bother you again.
Me: You know I didn't mean that!
Him: Then tell me what am I suppose to do? Why all this now? You had no idea what I had to go through back then??_ seeing you happy and cheerful was nice and all, but then I realized that was WITHOUT me! I had to go through everyday knowing you choose to be with someone else, that my existence meant nothing to you??_ You keep saying you miss what we had??_.then tell me what is that we had back then? Cuz I sure as hell don't miss any of that...
Him: please stop crying??_ I just can't deal with this right now??_I??ll give you a ride home??_I don't think we??re in the right mood for a conversation right now.
So he drove me home as planned and waited for me to get inside the house before driving away??_I cried so hard all night??_ fell a sleep??_ woke up and cried again??_.Then around 2am I received a text message from him:
Him: I'm sorry, hope I didn't wake you up??_
Me: No you didn't??_I really miss you??_
Him: you doing better?
Me: not really you should come check up on me??_
Him:??_you??re unbelievable??_what am I gonna do with you?
Me: I don't know??_ what do you want to do to me?
Him: Heh??_ you??re such a flirt??_ guess you??re doing better??_. Get some rest now.
Me: ??_I really miss you??_ you know that? I would really love to see you now??_ could we meet?
Him: Then open the door??_
Me: I just want you back! Why did you care so much when I was sick last week? How could you turn so cold within days? You made me so happy that weekend then just slap me in the face right after.
Him: I cared??_ just because I do??_.I'm sorry I??ll try not to bother you again.
Me: You know I didn't mean that!
Him: Then tell me what am I suppose to do? Why all this now? You had no idea what I had to go through back then??_ seeing you happy and cheerful was nice and all, but then I realized that was WITHOUT me! I had to go through everyday knowing you choose to be with someone else, that my existence meant nothing to you??_ You keep saying you miss what we had??_.then tell me what is that we had back then? Cuz I sure as hell don't miss any of that...
Him: please stop crying??_ I just can't deal with this right now??_I??ll give you a ride home??_I don't think we??re in the right mood for a conversation right now.
So he drove me home as planned and waited for me to get inside the house before driving away??_I cried so hard all night??_ fell a sleep??_ woke up and cried again??_.Then around 2am I received a text message from him:
Him: I'm sorry, hope I didn't wake you up??_
Me: No you didn't??_I really miss you??_
Him: you doing better?
Me: not really you should come check up on me??_
Him:??_you??re unbelievable??_what am I gonna do with you?
Me: I don't know??_ what do you want to do to me?
Him: Heh??_ you??re such a flirt??_ guess you??re doing better??_. Get some rest now.
Me: ??_I really miss you??_ you know that? I would really love to see you now??_ could we meet?
Him: Then open the door??_
I ran to the door and opened it and without thinking jump into his arms??_he had no choice but to catch me??_ and IT FELT REALLLY GOOD!!! I??ve never guessed that he has such a solid build??_it was warm, gentle and tender. We walk around for a while and since it was 3:30am??_everything was closed so out of the blue, he asked me if I wanted to go out of town for the rest of the weekend??_He said he has a chalet about an hour and a half out of town??_ and since we both needed some air so why not. He drove me back to my place to get some clothes and off we go. I was exhausted from the drinking and from all that crying so I fell asleep in the car. The next thing I know was??_ I woke up in room I don't know. I went out of the room looking around and found him sleeping in the room next to mine??_I'm creepy I know but I had to go in and look at his sleeping face??_ he's so at peace and gosh he's cute. Anyway after staring at him like a possess freak in one of those horror movies??_ I went back to my room and slept till 10:30 in the morning. I woke up and breakfast was on the table waiting for me. I teased him asking if he did something to me while I was passed out last night??_He shook his head and told me to eat??_ then we spent the whole weekend hiking, fishing, cooking and resting. I was treated like a little princess throughout weekend??_He's an awesome cook and took care of every little thing for me??_I was in a dream and didn't want weekend to end??_ but back to reality on Sunday afternoon when he drove me home. Before he left??_ I asked him what did it mean??_ this little weekend we just had??_He said he thought we both could use that??_.He said he can't give me more at the moment??_ he is still confused and he still need to deal with some issues. He said there are things he just can't forget, but he just can't bared to see me upset??_ that was good enough for me??_
hahaha. Gemilie.
Just chill. Relax. I know you feel panic now because the company offer him to go overseas.
Don't worry. Taurus men are online subscriber. They like chatting. Aww.
Nice story.
Applause!!!!!!! Pops champagne cork!... Beautiful!!..loved your story ...it was like a story book romance lol..
AWWWWWWWEEEE Gemilieeeeeeeeee....OPEN DA DOHR....I was so rooting for you....then wanted to offer you a tissue........Now I'm about to burst open. So.......spilllll. please.....🙂
Finally got to read the last part.... that's really nice, cheers. No matter which way it starts to go I hope you stick with it and see it through. Such a stand up guy 🙂
another one fall into taurus playbook 😛
Thanks everyone for all the rooting and cheering. Since that weekend, he's been back to his old self??_ distant, cold and very quiet at work. I do get a —hello?? or a smile every now and then, but to be honest, I was expecting much more. This past Wednesday, he invited me for dinner??_ and of course I accepted. We talked about all sorts of things, his hobbies and mine??_he was a little more shy when I tried to ask about his future and his past and I was very surprised at how deep his thoughts are. I manage to learn that he had a single girlfriend and that was 8 years ago??_and when I asked him if he still thinks about her??_he said —you don't forget someone you loved??_?? and I said —Glad to hear that??_Guess you won't forget me anytime soon then!?? I think it took him by surprise as his face completely change and he burst out in laugh??_I haven't seen him laugh like that in a long time??_it was really nice??_ I forgot how much I love that laugh of his??_I mean??_ he's always so cool and in control. Anyway that lighten up the mood a little and he got a little more talkative. I know he wanted to call his first boy Nathan, one of his biggest dream is to witness the aurora borealis in Alaska and he's an accomplish musician??_but he just refuse to tell me which instrument!!! At one point during our conversation he looked at me straight in the eyes and without blinking said —I really like how free spirited you are?? that was when the conversation got more serious. He said, that day when I told him that I have someone else in my life, he was devastated. He said he was attracted to me for specific reasons??_ and that those reason won't change today, tomorrow next month or next year??_but through all this time, he had to work so hard to control his emotions and feelings??_ he had decided to invest himself in something that would allow him to forget everything to forget me??_and after all this time??_ he's gotten so good at it.. at controlling his emotions and feelings for me that he just doesn't know how to act around me anymore. He said that night when I was pass out at his chalet??_ he stayed by my side for the longest time??_He was so worried, but he kept picturing SOMEONE ELSE by my side and that thought was tearing him apart??_.He said:
Him: that could have been our best night??_ souvenir together and all I did was sabotage it all by myself??_All this time I wanted one thing??_ press that reset button and stop feeling like an asshole, but how could I when you??re right next to me? So I did the next best thing??_ distant myself and isolated myself from the problem (you). I'm not stupid??_ I'm well aware of how much of a jerk I??ve been to you and for that I'm deeply sorry??_ hurting you is the last thing I wanted to do and it seems like it's the only thing I could do lately.
Him: I need this??_Please understand that I really need this. This trip, this opportunity is everything I??ve got left since that day.
Me: What about me? What will happen to me?
Him: You??ll get a new neighbor that won't ignore you on purpose??_and be a total jerk.
Me: But I love that Jerk!!! That jerk took care of me when I was sick, that jerk was always there for me whenever I needed him??_ that jerk took all the blame on himself even though I was the one hurting him TWICE!
Him: I need this??_Please understand that I really need this. This trip, this opportunity is everything I??ve got left since that day.
Me: What about me? What will happen to me?
Him: You??ll get a new neighbor that won't ignore you on purpose??_and be a total jerk.
Me: But I love that Jerk!!! That jerk took care of me when I was sick, that jerk was always there for me whenever I needed him??_ that jerk took all the blame on himself even though I was the one hurting him TWICE!
Then what happened??
Sorry to cut it short last Friday, as I was typing, Mr. Taurus came to my desk to ask me a bunch of questions work related??_ and I didn't want him to see all that lol. Anyway so here's the rest of the story??_
After what I??ve said, he told me that if that was months ago and if I didn't have someone else in my life in between, he would have jump through the roof and been the happiest man on earth??_but after all this time and knowing that I was with someone else??_ he can't help but feel like some leftover. He said being able to take care of me while I was sick, genuinely made him happy because that was all he desired all along, but whenever he tried to take it a step further or whenever I tried to take it step further he felt this immense anger within him??_and getting away from me and isolating himself from me allow him to cool off??_ then he started to be worry about me again. He said this little back and forth from caring to anger really wears him out.
Me: so you do care about me??_?
Him: Of course I do??_ you should know that by now??_.but I'm also so mad at you??_and this isn't a healthy relationship. I think both of us could use a fresh start??_please understand??_
So I took all the courage I had and replied:
Me: I do, but you??ll have to understand that all this time you were next to me and always took care of me without never expecting anything in return and twice I??ve hurt you??_ and even though it was never my intention I did nonetheless. Twice did I walk out on you and away from happiness. From what you??ve said, I understand now that you??ve been hurt and there's nothing I could do to erase that pass. However I will not start over! I will pick it up at wherever we left off. You do what you have to do and I??ll do what I want to do! Is this acceptable to you?
After what I??ve said, he told me that if that was months ago and if I didn't have someone else in my life in between, he would have jump through the roof and been the happiest man on earth??_but after all this time and knowing that I was with someone else??_ he can't help but feel like some leftover. He said being able to take care of me while I was sick, genuinely made him happy because that was all he desired all along, but whenever he tried to take it a step further or whenever I tried to take it step further he felt this immense anger within him??_and getting away from me and isolating himself from me allow him to cool off??_ then he started to be worry about me again. He said this little back and forth from caring to anger really wears him out.
Me: so you do care about me??_?
Him: Of course I do??_ you should know that by now??_.but I'm also so mad at you??_and this isn't a healthy relationship. I think both of us could use a fresh start??_please understand??_
So I took all the courage I had and replied:
Me: I do, but you??ll have to understand that all this time you were next to me and always took care of me without never expecting anything in return and twice I??ve hurt you??_ and even though it was never my intention I did nonetheless. Twice did I walk out on you and away from happiness. From what you??ve said, I understand now that you??ve been hurt and there's nothing I could do to erase that pass. However I will not start over! I will pick it up at wherever we left off. You do what you have to do and I??ll do what I want to do! Is this acceptable to you?
After that speech, I was shaking like crazy, but at the same time it felt so good as if I was able to remove a huge load off my back??_To be honest.. I was scare to death that I was about to lose him forever??_He took a deep breath and gave me such a gentle smile and a nod and said he??ll drive me home??_.So he drove me home as usual and before getting out of the car, I asked him if it's ok to give him a kiss??_ he said sure??_ so I moved in closer to give him a kiss but I suddenly felt this urge so I jump into his arm and give him a very tight hug and of course a kiss on the cheek??_It surprised him of course and he said —I thought you said a kiss?? and I just replied —Well I lied—?_Since that evening, I??ve decided that I will not give up and I will not let him get away from me??_because I really love him??_his honesty, his caring and tender nature, his soft voice and most of all even pissed and mad at me??_ he deeply cared for me??_ He's a keeper right??
Posted by notyourtypePosted by Gemilie
Mr. Taurus came to my desk to ask me a bunch of questions work related??_ and I didn't want him to see all that lol.
I don't know.. it might not be such a bad thing if he does. 😛 Based on your last several posts, I can tell that you really like this guy. I'm rooting for you!click to expand
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I don't know.. it might not be such a bad thing if he does. 😛 Based on your last several posts, I can tell that you really like this guy. I'm rooting for you!
I do really like him... and I love him more every day. I have a lot of time lately to think about everything. It's been what? 2 years now that everything started... and all this time whether I had feelings for him or not, he was always there for me...and even lately while I thought he was trying to ignore me and move on... he still unconsciously care for me...He always give me a ride home... sometime he even stayed out later just to ride me home. While I thought he didn't care for me anymore... then how to explain those medecine on my desk when I was sick? I really don't know how, but I want to be there for him now as he always was for me. I've always been restless... I like going out, meeting other people, doing new stuff...but through him, I've learn so much more about myself...Never would I have imagine that what I thought to be boring all this time is actually what I??ve been craving for. It's very hard to explain, I'm very chatty, but with him it's different??_ he's so quiet and getting him to talk excite me! Getting a smile out of him or any kind of reactions/emotions make me feel as if I??ve just conquered the world. Lately, I??ve been dying to know what about me attracted him?? I mean??_ we are so different??_I want to know who and how was his previous girlfriend? That weekend out of town was very special to me??_nothing intimate happened??_he didn't even tried??_there were quite a few times I hope he would have to be honest lol.
He's leaving the country in a few weeks and the thought of going to work and not seeing him scare me to death. I understand that he needs time to heal those wounds that I??ve created and I'm totally aware that he might get use to NOT seeing me??_but I don't want that so I??ll make sure he won't??_
Thank you Noname! I'm well aware that he's been hurt and that he??ll need time to process all the things that have happened lately. Even though I never wanted to hurt him, the end result was still the same. Sometime I get a little mad and angry because he doesn't react the way I was expecting, but then I realize??_if I can feel this awful about our current situation??_ then how it must have been for him all this time. I know for a fact that he never stopped caring for me??_even if he's acting very cold and distant, even if he trying to ignore me and even if he's trying to convince me or himself that he doesn't care. Facts are??_I got sick, he was there! I was drunk, sad and mad??_ he was there! I was upset and cried, he was there! You see??_for some reason he's always around when I'm desperate and needed him??_ and that is no coincidence. That is why he's so precious to me??_And now what hurts me the most is... I??ve realize that I was never there for him??_ and to be honest, even now I have no idea how to be there for him. He's so quiet and so calm??_I never know if something is bothering him??_I??ve always been able to get people to talk easily, but with him it's different . He's very secretive and very hard to read.
Last Friday at work, I??ve got a call from the front desk downstairs??_ they told to come and pick up my package. It was a gorgeous bouquet of flowers and it didn't have a name attach to it so I didn't know who it's from??_it was flattering and all, but I didn't want Mr. Taurus to see them. When I got back to my desk, everyone was gathering around to tease me asking me who??s that secret admirer? Fortunately, Mr. Taurus was in a meeting. But then, the worst thing happened??_when the crowd cleared out I saw Mr. Taurus and he gave me a very awkward smile then went back to his desk. I felt horrible and went back to my desk as well and quickly hide the flowers away. Then I sent him a message trying to explain that I didn't know who they??re from:
Last Friday at work, I??ve got a call from the front desk downstairs??_ they told to come and pick up my package. It was a gorgeous bouquet of flowers and it didn't have a name attach to it so I didn't know who it's from??_it was flattering and all, but I didn't want Mr. Taurus to see them. When I got back to my desk, everyone was gathering around to tease me asking me who??s that secret admirer? Fortunately, Mr. Taurus was in a meeting. But then, the worst thing happened??_when the crowd cleared out I saw Mr. Taurus and he gave me a very awkward smile then went back to his desk. I felt horrible and went back to my desk as well and quickly hide the flowers away. Then I sent him a message trying to explain that I didn't know who they??re from:
Me: Hi, I just want to let you know that I don't know who they??re from.
Him: They are nice??_ you don't like them?
Me: yes they are but I don't want you to have the wrong idea??_I don't know who sent them ??_could be just a prank??_
Him: ??_I hope not??_it took me an hour to choose them and put them together??_
Me: !!?? they??re from you??
Him: ??_I'm not good at this??_but I just thought you should have flowers today??_hope I didn't upset you??_sorry If I did.
Me: Awwww of course not! You scared me to death though??_ I didn't think it was you and I didn't want you to have the wrong idea. They are gorgeous! Thank you!!
Me: Now I can safely show them off!
Him: I have a lot of work today??_ but do you think I can invite you out for Dinner?
Me: Yay!! I??ll be free at 5
Him: Yea me too but I have to do some extra work from home hope you don't mind?
Me: I can accompany you if you want??_ that way you won't have to drive all around to pick me up after?
Him: Hmmm ok??_but my place is a mess??_.
So we went back to his place after work. It was the first time ever that I get to see his place! It was so clean and it has a very cozy feel to it. His clothes were all over his bed as he didn't have time to fold them yet. And now I know which instrument he plays??_ I mean there's a huge piano in the living room so that wasn't hard. He apologized and said that he??ll try to hurry and that I should feel free to visit around and make myself at home. Then he open his laptop and started working in the living room. So I jumped on the sofa where he was and looked at him with puppy eyes??_
Me: Think I can lie down on your lap?
Him (all surprised):??_
Me: but you said to make myself comfortable??_
Him (laughing): You??re too much??_sure??_
Him: They are nice??_ you don't like them?
Me: yes they are but I don't want you to have the wrong idea??_I don't know who sent them ??_could be just a prank??_
Him: ??_I hope not??_it took me an hour to choose them and put them together??_
Me: !!?? they??re from you??
Him: ??_I'm not good at this??_but I just thought you should have flowers today??_hope I didn't upset you??_sorry If I did.
Me: Awwww of course not! You scared me to death though??_ I didn't think it was you and I didn't want you to have the wrong idea. They are gorgeous! Thank you!!
Me: Now I can safely show them off!
Him: I have a lot of work today??_ but do you think I can invite you out for Dinner?
Me: Yay!! I??ll be free at 5
Him: Yea me too but I have to do some extra work from home hope you don't mind?
Me: I can accompany you if you want??_ that way you won't have to drive all around to pick me up after?
Him: Hmmm ok??_but my place is a mess??_.
So we went back to his place after work. It was the first time ever that I get to see his place! It was so clean and it has a very cozy feel to it. His clothes were all over his bed as he didn't have time to fold them yet. And now I know which instrument he plays??_ I mean there's a huge piano in the living room so that wasn't hard. He apologized and said that he??ll try to hurry and that I should feel free to visit around and make myself at home. Then he open his laptop and started working in the living room. So I jumped on the sofa where he was and looked at him with puppy eyes??_
Me: Think I can lie down on your lap?
Him (all surprised):??_
Me: but you said to make myself comfortable??_
Him (laughing): You??re too much??_sure??_
So I lied down on his lap and kept staring at him all focused on his work??_he's so cute, then he said it's not polite to stare??_ I laughed and quickly turned away... but then he suddenly grabbed my head and caress my left cheek and look at me straight in the eyes with those tender eyes of his??_I just couldn`t move... then he said let's go and tried to stand up, but I stopped him and told him I??d like to stay like this for a while. I was happy and sad at the same time??_but I didn't want to spoil the moment so I tried to act cool, but somehow he seems to be able to read my mind and asked me if something??s bothering me? I said —you do??_.everyday??_?? he pulled me up and hold me in and whisper a soft —I'm sorry?? into my ears??_I couldn't control myself and hug him very tightly and my eyes were getting wet??_he rubbed my back and said:
Him: Don't be like that??_ it's valentine day??_ let me spoil you today.
Me: don't you have work to do?
Him: I??ll finish them tomorrow...
He pulled me out and wipe away my tears with a tissue then we head out to nice and cozy restaurant. After our meal, he drove me back home and ask me if I want to go back to his chalet for the weekend? I was so excited and happy about that so with a huge smile I replied a big —YES!!?? I grabbed some clothes and we drove all the way to his chalet. We spend the rest of the night stargazing and flirting with each other. I was so tired but I didn't want the night to end so I tried to keep my eyes open but I dozed off a couple of time lol. He carried me all the way to my room and I can vaguely remember he gave me a kiss on the forehead before leaving the room.
Him: Don't be like that??_ it's valentine day??_ let me spoil you today.
Me: don't you have work to do?
Him: I??ll finish them tomorrow...
He pulled me out and wipe away my tears with a tissue then we head out to nice and cozy restaurant. After our meal, he drove me back home and ask me if I want to go back to his chalet for the weekend? I was so excited and happy about that so with a huge smile I replied a big —YES!!?? I grabbed some clothes and we drove all the way to his chalet. We spend the rest of the night stargazing and flirting with each other. I was so tired but I didn't want the night to end so I tried to keep my eyes open but I dozed off a couple of time lol. He carried me all the way to my room and I can vaguely remember he gave me a kiss on the forehead before leaving the room.
I woke up the next morning and went into his room??_ he was still sleeping, then I noticed his laptop was open he must have work all night??_I went ahead and gave him a kiss on the forehead and that really made my day lol. The rest of the weekend was nothing short of awesome, we took walks in the mountains and forest, we cooked meals together, watch movies together and Saturday night I asked him to stayed with me at least until I fall asleep??_.he gently comply and I grabbed his hand and pulled it in closer as we spend the night talking about all sort of things. Really love holding on to his arm and hands??_ they are so warm and comforting. He was very tired as he basically pulled an all nighter Friday to finish his work??_ but I insisted that he promised to stay till I fall asleep??_it was actually fun to torture him for a change lol. I moved aside and told him to lie down next to me??_ and he was so tired that he didn't hesitate at all lol. As I moved in closer to him??_ he let you a shy —please be gentle?? then we both burst out in laugh. We shared the bad that night??_ of course nothing happened but it was still the best night I??ve had since forever!!!
Sunday he drove me home and I gave him a hug and a kiss before leaving the car??_since then all I do is daydreaming about our last weekend??_ I really miss him even though he's right next to me??_.sigh??_
Sunday he drove me home and I gave him a hug and a kiss before leaving the car??_since then all I do is daydreaming about our last weekend??_ I really miss him even though he's right next to me??_.sigh??_
I've follow your story,so... what happened? Did he reply to your last e-mail? I'm a bit addicted to your story lol... sounds like one of those romantic movie 🙂
Hi Leylia and thank you for your support. I don't know where to start...I've sent him an e-mail and waited for a whole week... and never got a word from him. I was angry and devastated. I missed him and yet hated him so much, I thought how could he bee so cruel. I wasn't expecting anything, but just hearing from him would have made me happy, but after a whole week... nothing! nothing at all! I spent another week crying and hating him... till last week I just couldn't take it anymore and asked his childhood friend that works with us if she had any news about him. Her face completely changed and she dragged me into the hallway and told me that My Bull was involved in a car accident the day he landed and was in the hospital since then. As I started to panic, she told me that he told her that he's doing ok, but that he needed her to send him some paper for insurrance and stuff since he's a foreigner...He needed her help as he didn't want his parents to be worried. I felt so ashamed hating him all this time and thinking how much of a jerk he was. I was lost in my thoughts until I heard:
-So you're the one huh? The one that was hurting him for the last year and a half.
-I don't particularly like you but he chose you so I'll trust his judgement.
-He's a really good guy so don't you hurt him again... he'll most likely forgive you over and over again because he loves you, but I won't.
As she walked away, I stopped her and ask her if there's something I could do, and what I should do? She gave me the exact same suggestion you did Leylia...she told If I were him and in his situation... what would I want to most? That was a wake up call...So I booked my plane ticket for Japan for this coming Friday...I'm taking 3 weeks off to go and take care of him... because if it was me all alone in a hospital in a foreign country... nothing will make me happier than waking up and seeing him next to me.
-So you're the one huh? The one that was hurting him for the last year and a half.
-I don't particularly like you but he chose you so I'll trust his judgement.
-He's a really good guy so don't you hurt him again... he'll most likely forgive you over and over again because he loves you, but I won't.
As she walked away, I stopped her and ask her if there's something I could do, and what I should do? She gave me the exact same suggestion you did Leylia...she told If I were him and in his situation... what would I want to most? That was a wake up call...So I booked my plane ticket for Japan for this coming Friday...I'm taking 3 weeks off to go and take care of him... because if it was me all alone in a hospital in a foreign country... nothing will make me happier than waking up and seeing him next to me.
This is the MOST amazing and romantic story ever...
damn lucky man to have such caring lady ...
and possible having fun inside hospital which is always my dream
and possible having fun inside hospital which is always my dream
Oh crap....I'm sorry to hear that. I really hope he's ok. Don't worry about your mixed feelings for him...Just remember you wouldn`t hate someone unless you actually love him or care for him. Don't overthinkg it. He is in a tough situation and you're going there to help him... just focus on that... as for who to help him, I'll leave it to your imagination 🙂
Just remember to pay very close attention to his first expression when he sees you...I think that would be as close to the truth as you can get of what his feelings are for you. Those first few seconds are always honest and uncontrolable. Just be there for him as he had always been for you...the rest will come natually. Please keep us update on the situation...this is indeed somehow very romantic despide the fact that your man is in a hospital... but traveling the distance just so you could be together...CUTE as hell!
Just remember to pay very close attention to his first expression when he sees you...I think that would be as close to the truth as you can get of what his feelings are for you. Those first few seconds are always honest and uncontrolable. Just be there for him as he had always been for you...the rest will come natually. Please keep us update on the situation...this is indeed somehow very romantic despide the fact that your man is in a hospital... but traveling the distance just so you could be together...CUTE as hell!
Posted by hexum
This is the MOST amazing and romantic story ever...
heh... thank you but if you're in my shoes...you wouldn't find it that romantic but rather scary and stressful. I haven't slept a wink for the last 24 hours...just can't do anything but thinking about how Mr. Taurus is doing. I'll get to see him in 22 hours or so...All my luggages are ready since yesterday and all I'm doing is walking around panicking. I'll try to pay attention to his first reaction as you mentionned Leylia... that is if I actually manage to remember it... as uncontrolable as those few seconds are for him... I'm pretty sure it will be 10x worst for me... let just hope my mind won't go blank...I'll also try to focus on what I've been planning in the fist place which is taking care of him...but to be perfectly honest...I can't help but wish this will be the turning point where we end up living happily ever after. His childhood friend gave me all his insurrance papers as well...Everything is ready and the time just seem to be so slow...it's unbearable!
Posted by NaughtyTaurus
damn lucky man to have such caring lady ...
and possible having fun inside hospital which is always my dream
Yea well if he's all bandage up and couldn't move... I'll be sure to have my way with him...
Posted by GemiliePosted by hexum
This is the MOST amazing and romantic story ever...
heh... thank you but if you're in my shoes...you wouldn't find it that romantic but rather scary and stressful. I haven't slept a wink for the last 24 hours...just can't do anything but thinking about how Mr. Taurus is doing. I'll get to see him in 22 hours or so...All my luggages are ready since yesterday and all I'm doing is walking around panicking. I'll try to pay attention to his first reaction as you mentionned Leylia... that is if I actually manage to remember it... as uncontrolable as those few seconds are for him... I'm pretty sure it will be 10x worst for me... let just hope my mind won't go blank...I'll also try to focus on what I've been planning in the fist place which is taking care of him...but to be perfectly honest...I can't help but wish this will be the turning point where we end up living happily ever after. His childhood friend gave me all his insurrance papers as well...Everything is ready and the time just seem to be so slow...it's unbearable!click to expand
Thinking of you today as you fly - you are in my thoughts and prayers! GOOD LUCK!!!!
Good luck from me as well!!! and go get him!!!
Posted by M143
Oh My God.
I am Scorpio I don't cry that much so I don't have a chance for a Taurus man.
You don't cry so much—!!!
Very interesting.
I have many female scorpio friends and they have tears instead of blood.
Gosh I can wait to hear the next part of your story...
Hi Gemilie,
are you back from Japan? how's going with your bull?
are you back from Japan? how's going with your bull?
Hi everyone, sry for the late updates. I got back a while ago but was very busy. A lot happened since then... and I mean A LOT...
It took me 15 hours to get to Japan...I rushed to my hotel to drop my stuff and get to the hospital as fast as possible...and the fact that it was 3 AM in Japan and passed visit hours never crossed my mind...So yeah...All that for nothing... had to get back to the hotel, got some sleep and get back to the hospital a little bit later. When I got into his room...he was still sleeping... and for some reason I had difficulty breathing. Seeing him lying there, all bandage up made me realise I could have lost him forever...but he's ok... he's really ok...I was glad, sad, relieve, angry...I was a mess and it took me a few minutes to pull myself together. I sat down and closed my eyes...it finally caught up to me...I was exhausted and fell asleep. I woke a little later and he was staring at me.
-Did I wake you up? You look tired? (he asked)
That voice...I missed it so much! I was afraid he'll be mad at me, but that wasn't the case at all...He wasn't angry or mad... but concern about me... his eyes are tender as ever and they don't lie. I walk to his side and started to cry...that made him very uncomfortable as he once told me... he doesn't know what to do when women cry. I was happy and just couldn't control myself. I gave him a hug... he could barely move so he was completely at my mercy 🙂 I kissed him all over the face...he asked me to stop but I didn't want to let such an opportunity go to waste... heck! I practically raped the guy! Took me a while to calm down...I mean... he was blushing and it was irresistible...so yea those plane tickets was totally worth it! 🙂
I sat down and told him everything and why I'm here...We didn't want to get into a heavy discussion so kept everything very simple and lighthearted. He has to stay at the hospital for a few more days and gave me the keys to his appartment.
So for the next few days, I came to visit him everyday and spending hours with him...We talked, Laugh and flirt a lot. I love holding his hands... they are always so warm... and I love how he robbed the back of my hand with his thumb.
It took me 15 hours to get to Japan...I rushed to my hotel to drop my stuff and get to the hospital as fast as possible...and the fact that it was 3 AM in Japan and passed visit hours never crossed my mind...So yeah...All that for nothing... had to get back to the hotel, got some sleep and get back to the hospital a little bit later. When I got into his room...he was still sleeping... and for some reason I had difficulty breathing. Seeing him lying there, all bandage up made me realise I could have lost him forever...but he's ok... he's really ok...I was glad, sad, relieve, angry...I was a mess and it took me a few minutes to pull myself together. I sat down and closed my eyes...it finally caught up to me...I was exhausted and fell asleep. I woke a little later and he was staring at me.
-Did I wake you up? You look tired? (he asked)
That voice...I missed it so much! I was afraid he'll be mad at me, but that wasn't the case at all...He wasn't angry or mad... but concern about me... his eyes are tender as ever and they don't lie. I walk to his side and started to cry...that made him very uncomfortable as he once told me... he doesn't know what to do when women cry. I was happy and just couldn't control myself. I gave him a hug... he could barely move so he was completely at my mercy 🙂 I kissed him all over the face...he asked me to stop but I didn't want to let such an opportunity go to waste... heck! I practically raped the guy! Took me a while to calm down...I mean... he was blushing and it was irresistible...so yea those plane tickets was totally worth it! 🙂
I sat down and told him everything and why I'm here...We didn't want to get into a heavy discussion so kept everything very simple and lighthearted. He has to stay at the hospital for a few more days and gave me the keys to his appartment.
So for the next few days, I came to visit him everyday and spending hours with him...We talked, Laugh and flirt a lot. I love holding his hands... they are always so warm... and I love how he robbed the back of my hand with his thumb.
Gemilie,
Wow. interesting I've been there.. but for some reason I can't be that tender in 2nd chances.
My Taurus and I split up. I chose it. He made it up for me.. but I think I want different way.
Congratulation!!! so keep him.
ShyCapLady,
True. Some Scorpios who are unevolved do cry a lot.
True. Some Scorpios who are unevolved do cry a lot.
A few days passed and he was able to leave the hospital. I came to pick him up of course and we got back to the appartment. He was doing a little better, but still need my help to move around. We had lunch together and took a walk outdoors after that. Later that night, we had our first serious talk. He asked me if it's really ok that I was here...he asked me what I was thinking...So I just told him everything. How I was mad at him for not replying to my e-mails, how I thought he was a jerk... and how ashamed I felt when his friend told me what happened to him. He apologize and told me he didn't have a chance to check his e-mails since he arrived to Japan. Then I asked him if he really intented to get away from me and leave me forever. He just gave me a simple "I Don't know" then stays silent for a while...then he started to talked again. That night, I've learn so much of what he went through all this time...I've never realise how hard it was for him... but then how could I when he always kept everything to himself. He's a very complicated man, but after hearing everything he said... it does make sense. He said back then seing me dressing all nice and being all happy was fun and all until he realise that it wasn't for him (I had a boyfriend back then). He said he still can't get over the fact that back then I choose to be with someone else, that despise him doing his best...it still wasn't enough. He said he was always pretty good at controling his feelings and that he consider himself quite resilient emotionnaly but that at the end of the day... he's just another guy. He hated seeing me texting while smiling back then, He hated hearing about my weekends with my ex boyfriend, he hated that it didn't bother me when other girls flirt with him, he hated being next to me and not be part of my life...he hated that he had to endure all of that for all this time...and that when he was finally able to slowly move away... I got back into his life reminding him what he's missing. He hated the fact that no matter how much he wanted to move on... he was always looking for an excuse to care for me...He hated himself for being so possesive of me while he had no rights to. So when he got offered the job here in Japan, he had to take it. To be honest, I just didn't know what to tell him after hearing all of that. I asked him why does he think I'm here? I told him how much of an idiot he is for not realising how important he is to me...how helpless I am when he's not around
I'll continu tomorrow...phonecall from Mr. Taurus 🙂
I'm so glad you updated! I've been wondering about you 🙂 What did he say when you showed up in Japan? I'm surprised he only wanted to make sure it was ok for you to be there vs. feeling like that was a huge indication of your feelings. How long did you stay? I think what you did took a lot of courage!
Thank you Hexum. To be honest, I miss his first reaction when he saw me as I was asleep. All I remember was him staring at me when I woke up. The first few minutes following that, our conversation was a little slow and awkward...I was still trying to read him out and see if he was angry at me...But his eyes was so soft and tender and the tone of his voice didn't show any anger at all I asked him how he was doing of course and what happened... and as he told me the whole story I was I was starting to panick as if I was living the whole thing...I told him that I was very glad and happy to finally see him "kinda' safe and sound. Then he gave me that sweet little smile that I missed so much. He is extremely difficult to read... he's one of those people that suppress their feeling to a point where it's physically impossible to read them... I just can't read him or pick up any clue at all as how he is actually feeling when he saw me sleeping there on the chair. I could however tell that he was avoiding any kind of heavy topic might may end up in a confrontation...as he didn't mention the letter he left on my desk, in fact he act as if nothing happened between us...I was a little upset at first then seeing him in his current state I really didn't have the heart to stay mad at him. Before I left though, he did say "Thank you" and "I've been thinking about you" then suddenly all of my worries just disapear...I didn't have any doubt at all after that...
After that I went back to my hotel, picked up my stuff and went straight to his appartment. I unpacked my stuff, took a shower and was going to take a little nap (jetlag was terrible)... then I saw a picture of me of us from our last trip together on his bedside table...I don't know if I was actully happy or sad, but I cried myself to sleep. I woke up hours later and decide to go back to the hospital to visit him again... and this time I saw his reaction 🙂 He was smiling... till I showed him the picture I found in his appartment then he started to blush...he's adorable! I grab his hand and stayed with him for hours. 🙂
After that I went back to my hotel, picked up my stuff and went straight to his appartment. I unpacked my stuff, took a shower and was going to take a little nap (jetlag was terrible)... then I saw a picture of me of us from our last trip together on his bedside table...I don't know if I was actully happy or sad, but I cried myself to sleep. I woke up hours later and decide to go back to the hospital to visit him again... and this time I saw his reaction 🙂 He was smiling... till I showed him the picture I found in his appartment then he started to blush...he's adorable! I grab his hand and stayed with him for hours. 🙂
I stayed in Japan for 4 weeks. The last week and a half he was doing a lot better and was able to move/walk around on his own. It was very nice to live under the same roof together 🙂 I remember our first night, I was going to sleep on the couch in the living room then I suddenly heard him say "No you're not" He told me to take the bed and that He'll sleep on the couch or he's just lay out the Futon and sleep on the floor...Of course I declined! So I finally persuade him to share the bed 😄
I told him I wont take advantage of the situation and that it won't be fun anyway in his current condition...well... I lied!!! 😄 I was teasing him all night, hugging him agains his will, caress him, massage him and even rubbed my leg agains his...he was blushing like an idiot and kept saying "Stop it" while completely defenseless... it was hilarious...I gently blew into his ears and he instantaneously got goosebumps it was soo darn cute! I tortured him for an hour and a half then we just fell asleep. We woke the next day and as I was making breakfast...I heard him say "Could you put some clothes on?" (I was wearing nothing but my lingerie) 😄 so I said sure and went ahead and put an extra shirt on... and as I walked out of the room, he was blushing and said "Awwww come on!!! you're doing this on purpose don't you" 🙂
I went to work with him to pick up some stuff and we went back home. I went to the grocery while we was working. After dinner, we went for a little walk in the neighborhood got some delicious ice cream and went back home to watch a movie together. That night, I was happy and decide to hum/sing a little song for him...but at the end of the song...he was laughing his butt off saying how horrible I was...He told me he'll show me how it's done... and HOLY MOTHER OF GOD!!! he's really good!!! he turned around to face me and sang that song Run from Snow Patrol...I couldn't even look at him...I was afraid that I would actually rape him!!! Then after another song Can't help falling in love from Elvis, he caught me completely off guard and kissed me...we kissed for a long long time that night
I told him I wont take advantage of the situation and that it won't be fun anyway in his current condition...well... I lied!!! 😄 I was teasing him all night, hugging him agains his will, caress him, massage him and even rubbed my leg agains his...he was blushing like an idiot and kept saying "Stop it" while completely defenseless... it was hilarious...I gently blew into his ears and he instantaneously got goosebumps it was soo darn cute! I tortured him for an hour and a half then we just fell asleep. We woke the next day and as I was making breakfast...I heard him say "Could you put some clothes on?" (I was wearing nothing but my lingerie) 😄 so I said sure and went ahead and put an extra shirt on... and as I walked out of the room, he was blushing and said "Awwww come on!!! you're doing this on purpose don't you" 🙂
I went to work with him to pick up some stuff and we went back home. I went to the grocery while we was working. After dinner, we went for a little walk in the neighborhood got some delicious ice cream and went back home to watch a movie together. That night, I was happy and decide to hum/sing a little song for him...but at the end of the song...he was laughing his butt off saying how horrible I was...He told me he'll show me how it's done... and HOLY MOTHER OF GOD!!! he's really good!!! he turned around to face me and sang that song Run from Snow Patrol...I couldn't even look at him...I was afraid that I would actually rape him!!! Then after another song Can't help falling in love from Elvis, he caught me completely off guard and kissed me...we kissed for a long long time that night
Posted by exxtasyx
You gave away your power when you admitted your feelings and begged for things to go back to the way they were. Now he knows you're obsessed with him and he's gonna drag this out and ignore you even more to make you be even more obsessed.
He obviously still likes you, he's just stubborn. I hate to give this kind of advice, but... If you really wanna get to a Taurus and lock them down, you make them jealous and pretend you've moved on. Start very subtly flirting with someone else you work with and make sure he's around or hears, get on your Facebook and like another guy's status and make sure it pops up on his news feed, write an update status and pretend to be happy and content. This will make him want to chase you again.
Hehehe thanks for the advice, but We're no teenagers anymore... and after all he had done for me...I think he deserve more than some little mind games. As for Facebook, we're not even friends on it. He chased me long enough and I've hurt him twice.. not planning on doing so a third time.
Posted by M143
My Story with my ex Taurus Man.
the first fight begin this: after he heard my negative comment about his friend.
Him: M, I don't like the M talking my negative words. I want M who I first met.
Me: It was negative story then?
Him: I can't live with that woman...referring me.
Me: ok.
till he wasn't satisfied and kill me more..
Him: I lied when I tell you I love you.
Me: calmly say... ok.
Him: I am not trying to kick you out in my house. Just think a lot of it before you decide.
Me: (in my mind) this is BS. lol
the last huge fight we had.
Him: Yelling.. Get out in my house!
Me: kept pestering him that annoyed him completely.
Him: Get out of my life!
Me: no problem darling. Pack my things and that's it.
Him: packing my things...
lol.
hahahaha
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