I wish I could forget this Taurus

Spring is nearly here and I am yet again reminded of my past Taurus fling. This weather reminds me of him. His face, his body, the way he smells, the sound of his voice... and of course, his beautiful eyes fixed on me. I want to send him a message, just a quick "hello" but I don't want to let him know I am thinking about him. That's probably what he wants.

He has a bunch of bitchy girls around him telling him to stay away from me. Really, I should stay away from him. But I can't. I try to get my mind on something else but the smells of fresh flowers and the anticipation of planting all remind me of him. I don't know why; I did all of these things long before I first met him. I can't help it!

I don't want a relationship with him, I just want to see him again. Neither one of us was in the right place two years ago for a relationship, and I wonder if the universe is still against us? It seemed that nothing fell into place for us and we kept getting pulled in opposite directions.

At the same time he was talking to me he was talking to a Capricorn, and he chose to go with her. He refused to tell me he was with her but instead told lies about me to her and she spread those around. I heard about their relationship through her. These are the things that angers my little Cancer heart. But I still want him.

You don't want a relationship with him but you want him?

:/2 years and you still wondering about this Taurus.

Wanting to see him for what exactly? So you can fall deeper..

With all this emotions you seem to have for him,rather than wanting to see him, i would actually run the other direction if i ever came across to him. just for self protection. Though i know its easier said than done.

Exactly. My problem being that I don't want a relationship with him but I can't get him out of my mind. I want him naked and in my bed, because his bed is probably shitty.

Posted by rockstar
Exactly. My problem being that I don't want a relationship with him but I can't get him out of my mind. I want him naked and in my bed, because his bed is probably shitty.

Know the feeling!!

They are no longer together. I don't know the exact details of their breakup except that she ended it and seems to bounce from one relationship to the other. She seems to always start a new relationship before ending her current.

Posted by rockstar
I want him naked and in my bed, because his bed is probably shitty.

Once you let a Taurus in your bed, good luck with taking them out of your mind..

Posted by seezythescorpion
:/2 years and you still wondering about this Taurus.

Wanting to see him for what exactly? So you can fall deeper..

With all this emotions you seem to have for him,rather than wanting to see him, i would actually run the other direction if i ever came across to him. just for self protection. Though i know its easier said than done.

I met him three years ago, started talking to him two years ago, and haven't seen him in one year. I know I should run away, but I have these constant reminders of him and I love the good things about him too much.

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Posted by rockstar
I want him naked and in my bed, because his bed is probably shitty.

Once you let a Taurus in your bed, good luck with taking them out of your mind..

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The struggle is real in this...even trying to date/talk to other women my mind always drifts back to my last Taurus...

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Posted by rockstar
I want him naked and in my bed, because his bed is probably shitty.

Once you let a Taurus in your bed, good luck with taking them out of your mind..

The struggle is real in this...even trying to date/talk to other women my mind always drifts back to my last Taurus...

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Thank you! No matter what I do I always go back to him. No matter how attractive/charming/WORTHWHILE anyone else is, I always go back to this Taurus. I don't understand it, I have never been so obsessed with anyone before. And he's never even been in my bed.

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Posted by rockstar
I want him naked and in my bed, because his bed is probably shitty.

Once you let a Taurus in your bed, good luck with taking them out of your mind..

The struggle is real in this...even trying to date/talk to other women my mind always drifts back to my last Taurus...

Thank you! No matter what I do I always go back to him. No matter how attractive/charming/WORTHWHILE anyone else is, I always go back to this Taurus. I don't understand it, I have never been so obsessed with anyone before. And he's never even been in my bed.

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I am just having this issue and its only been slightly over a month trying to get my Taurus off my mind! So I am hearing here that it won't be easy and a year later I will still be thinking of him! SIGH!!! How do they do this and they don't even know it! Ahhhh

Posted by scorchedearth
i've had this situation with a cancer happen before. more than one cancer.

the truth of it is you're not seeing him for what he actually is. you're building him up in your head. even if he did take you back and banged the daylights out of you and then told you to GTFO you'd still feel exactly the same way.

it's a fantasy. it's not real. this is attraction gone terrible wrong.

and please, whatever you do, realize it's not love. if you can get that idea out of your head you're much better off.

I know this isn't love and I know that I am only stuck on the wonderful parts of him. I'm not sure if sex would take the feelings away, but I am more than willing to give it a shot. Deep down I know its a bad idea and I have been avoiding the areas in which he may possibly be found. Example: his neighbor works at my local grocery store and he visits there sometime. I no longer grocery shop there for fear of seeing him. I hope to one day have the nerve to go back.

Posted by scorchedearth
i've had this situation with a cancer happen before. more than one cancer.

the truth of it is you're not seeing him for what he actually is. you're building him up in your head. even if he did take you back and banged the daylights out of you and then told you to GTFO you'd still feel exactly the same way.

it's a fantasy. it's not real. this is attraction gone terrible wrong.

and please, whatever you do, realize it's not love. if you can get that idea out of your head you're much better off.

This is true.

It's easy to build someone up in your head. I'm guilty of that too. I still like the 'outer packaging' of a Taurus. I see an attractive, mature man, good humour, humble, intelligent etc. However, the harsh reality is that despite my attraction to his physical being, the inside package just does not match up to what I thought or hoped. He's immature, no clue, arrogant, selfish etc. Sure, I like to look at the outside but the inside was such a let down that it was never going to go anywhere. I still think of him far too often than I should but you just have to ensure reality sets and see it for what it is.

Posted by AgentP911

Posted by scorchedearth
i've had this situation with a cancer happen before. more than one cancer.

the truth of it is you're not seeing him for what he actually is. you're building him up in your head. even if he did take you back and banged the daylights out of you and then told you to GTFO you'd still feel exactly the same way.

it's a fantasy. it's not real. this is attraction gone terrible wrong.

and please, whatever you do, realize it's not love. if you can get that idea out of your head you're much better off.

This is true.

It's easy to build someone up in your head. I'm guilty of that too. I still like the 'outer packaging' of a Taurus. I see an attractive, mature man, good humour, humble, intelligent etc. However, the harsh reality is that despite my attraction to his physical being, the inside package just does not match up to what I thought or hoped. He's immature, no clue, arrogant, selfish etc. Sure, I like to look at the outside but the inside was such a let down that it was never going to go anywhere. I still think of him far too often than I should but you just have to ensure reality sets and see it for what it is.

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AgentP - excellent truth! 🙂 This just helped me greatly! Thank you.

This basically is your scorpio obsessiveness that cant let go.

When you sit down and think for a second, you realise hes not all that, you in your head are the one who has built him up so much and are blinded to others which only keeps you from moving on and obsessing over him even more.

On the flip side.. Being a scorpio, never underestimate your own magnetic power on Taurus. If you had the chance, You surely have done something somewhere that they will remember for a long time.
something good, of course..

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Posted by scorchedearth
i've had this situation with a cancer happen before. more than one cancer.

the truth of it is you're not seeing him for what he actually is. you're building him up in your head. even if he did take you back and banged the daylights out of you and then told you to GTFO you'd still feel exactly the same way.

it's a fantasy. it's not real. this is attraction gone terrible wrong.

and please, whatever you do, realize it's not love. if you can get that idea out of your head you're much better off.

This is true.

It's easy to build someone up in your head. I'm guilty of that too. I still like the 'outer packaging' of a Taurus. I see an attractive, mature man, good humour, humble, intelligent etc. However, the harsh reality is that despite my attraction to his physical being, the inside package just does not match up to what I thought or hoped. He's immature, no clue, arrogant, selfish etc. Sure, I like to look at the outside but the inside was such a let down that it was never going to go anywhere. I still think of him far too often than I should but you just have to ensure reality sets and see it for what it is.

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Exactly this.

Posted by AgentP911

Posted by scorchedearth
i've had this situation with a cancer happen before. more than one cancer.

the truth of it is you're not seeing him for what he actually is. you're building him up in your head. even if he did take you back and banged the daylights out of you and then told you to GTFO you'd still feel exactly the same way.

it's a fantasy. it's not real. this is attraction gone terrible wrong.

and please, whatever you do, realize it's not love. if you can get that idea out of your head you're much better off.

This is true.

It's easy to build someone up in your head. I'm guilty of that too. I still like the 'outer packaging' of a Taurus. I see an attractive, mature man, good humour, humble, intelligent etc. However, the harsh reality is that despite my attraction to his physical being, the inside package just does not match up to what I thought or hoped. He's immature, no clue, arrogant, selfish etc. Sure, I like to look at the outside but the inside was such a let down that it was never going to go anywhere. I still think of him far too often than I should but you just have to ensure reality sets and see it for what it is.

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This is a truth I know well. The way he presents himself is totally amazing - he looks good, smells good, is generous, funny, and is responsible - however, I feel that he is probably the total opposite of these things. Maybe its fate, but I feel like some invisible force is keeping us apart. This all makes me feel like a total nutcase because I cannot get his face out of my mind.

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Posted by scorchedearth
i've had this situation with a cancer happen before. more than one cancer.

the truth of it is you're not seeing him for what he actually is. you're building him up in your head. even if he did take you back and banged the daylights out of you and then told you to GTFO you'd still feel exactly the same way.

it's a fantasy. it's not real. this is attraction gone terrible wrong.

and please, whatever you do, realize it's not love. if you can get that idea out of your head you're much better off.

This is true.

It's easy to build someone up in your head. I'm guilty of that too. I still like the 'outer packaging' of a Taurus. I see an attractive, mature man, good humour, humble, intelligent etc. However, the harsh reality is that despite my attraction to his physical being, the inside package just does not match up to what I thought or hoped. He's immature, no clue, arrogant, selfish etc. Sure, I like to look at the outside but the inside was such a let down that it was never going to go anywhere. I still think of him far too often than I should but you just have to ensure reality sets and see it for what it is.

This is a truth I know well. The way he presents himself is totally amazing - he looks good, smells good, is generous, funny, and is responsible - however, I feel that he is probably the total opposite of these things. Maybe its fate, but I feel like some invisible force is keeping us apart. This all makes me feel like a total nutcase because I cannot get his face out of my mind.

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You are not a nutcase! I think we all need this 'one we can't be free of' once in a lifetime. Mine has made me realize so many things about myself and what I want now and one day. Here's hoping that the memory/thoughts will fade eventually - I know I hope mine do!

Posted by scorchedearth
you should be spending all of this energy on someone who is worth it. there are plenty of taurus men out there that are douchehats and they aren't worthy of all of your time and energy.

don't get caught up in who he pretends to be. you will lose years of your life on this.

This once again makes me realise ive done the right thing by cutting his sexy ass off..

Posted by seezythescorpion

Posted by scorchedearth
you should be spending all of this energy on someone who is worth it. there are plenty of taurus men out there that are douchehats and they aren't worthy of all of your time and energy.

don't get caught up in who he pretends to be. you will lose years of your life on this.

This once again makes me realise ive done the right thing by cutting his sexy ass off..

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+1 🙂

It's because the Scorp board is full of nutters so we all doss over in the bull board!!

Posted by scorchedearth
you should be spending all of this energy on someone who is worth it. there are plenty of taurus men out there that are douchehats and they aren't worthy of all of your time and energy.

don't get caught up in who he pretends to be. you will lose years of your life on this.

I know this but one of my biggest problems with him is that I was left without any closure. One minute I want to yell at him and the next I want to fuck his brains out. I just want to know why he couldn't just tell me the truth, why he wouldn't admit to having a girlfriend, and why he was speaking negatively about me in the first place. I knew about his gf because she told me and I decided to cut ties with him after trying so hard to get him to just say it. But now here I am one year later wanting him again.

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Posted by scorchedearth
you should be spending all of this energy on someone who is worth it. there are plenty of taurus men out there that are douchehats and they aren't worthy of all of your time and energy.

don't get caught up in who he pretends to be. you will lose years of your life on this.

This thread is depressing : ( I have lost years of my life with a Taurus... It haunts me but the pain is still fresh. I ache for him. The worst part, Im in my bubble STRUGGLING to get over him and doing my best but and he won't fully leave me alone even though he has a new girlfriend and it's serious. From what you are all saying, this feeling will be here for a long time.

Why is dxpnet filled with so many people loving a Taurus and needing answers? What is it about their love that does this to people?

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Yeesssss! "The pain is still fresh" that is soo correct, I keep reminding myself that this all went down in 2013 and not yesterday. I too am wondering about the Taurus man and why this happens. I have known a different Taurus man for over 10 years and he isn't visually appealing, however each time I see him I feel completely drawn to him. On my 21st birthday we both decided that dating was a good fit for us. Nothing ever came from our drunken pact. Strangely enough, I tend to run into this Taurus a few times each year while we have never planned anything. I only wish that would happen with the Taurus I want.

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Posted by scorchedearth
you should be spending all of this energy on someone who is worth it. there are plenty of taurus men out there that are douchehats and they aren't worthy of all of your time and energy.

don't get caught up in who he pretends to be. you will lose years of your life on this.

I know this but one of my biggest problems with him is that I was left without any closure. One minute I want to yell at him and the next I want to fuck his brains out. I just want to know why he couldn't just tell me the truth, why he wouldn't admit to having a girlfriend, and why he was speaking negatively about me in the first place. I knew about his gf because she told me and I decided to cut ties with him after trying so hard to get him to just say it. But now here I am one year later wanting him again.

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He didn't tell you because he's a knob. The trouble with these days is that there are many people who don't appear to have good manners.

Mind you, previously when I've been fair and told someone I wasn't interested in continuing I got 'stalked'

This whole thing has been a 7 months of crazy rollercoaster for me. All the Push and pulls. Hot and cold. Thoughts and desires. Not knowing what the hell was going on. Promisg myself to walk away but couldnt.

The more time spent the crazier it got. And it still got nowhere.

i deleted him off and im still at that cant be with him, cant be without him phase. When in reality, he hasnt done anything for me and he should be the one feeling hes done me wrong by taking my kindness for weakness.

Posted by busyeyes88
I am a female Taurus. @AriesLady8. As hard as it may seem, if you still have him as a friend or he has your contact details you will never be free of hiM. That Is one of the reasons why I cut off contact and I have already been called a sociopath because of this method.

@rockstar. I have had to accept in all my past relationships that 'closure' with all your questions answered is not always possible.

We can all build up a perfect image of a person (I did that with my ex sag) but the reality of who they really are is nowhere near as wonderful as in our heads.. So when I feel I am letting my imagination take me away I quickly bring myself down to the reality of what he was really like and I then begin to count my lucky stars that he is no longer in my life. He is now a part of my past. Not my present or my future and that is where I leave him as I continue to take one day at a time....

Good post.

I do that too. When thinking about someone too positively I send myself a 'postcard from reality' with some of the negative things to balance it out.

It sounds something like 'ooooh he's still soooo cute, look at his little smile, I want to put him in my pocket and take him home with me...'

Then I recall how he didn't fetch me from the airport and didn't even take me out for a beer amongst other things. I remember how I felt back then and it soon wakes me up.

Mind you, it's good to remember the nice bits too and not dwell too much on the bad bits.

I still do this process with an ex of mine. Sometimes I think on things and recall the nice 'connection' we had and I hope to feel it again one day but with someone else. I soon wake up and recall all the lies he told and all the pure shit he created.

Jesus, I sound like I'm fucking bipolar or schizophrenic!!

I think you know deep down why things are as they are. No point wasting your time pining over someone who didn't want you when you could be working on having someone who does.

I think they call it being human or something— :-)

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Posted by busyeyes88
I am a female Taurus. @AriesLady8. As hard as it may seem, if you still have him as a friend or he has your contact details you will never be free of hiM. That Is one of the reasons why I cut off contact and I have already been called a sociopath because of this method.

@rockstar. I have had to accept in all my past relationships that 'closure' with all your questions answered is not always possible.

We can all build up a perfect image of a person (I did that with my ex sag) but the reality of who they really are is nowhere near as wonderful as in our heads.. So when I feel I am letting my imagination take me away I quickly bring myself down to the reality of what he was really like and I then begin to count my lucky stars that he is no longer in my life. He is now a part of my past. Not my present or my future and that is where I leave him as I continue to take one day at a time....

Good post.

I do that too. When thinking about someone too positively I send myself a 'postcard from reality' with some of the negative things to balance it out.

It sounds something like 'ooooh he's still soooo cute, look at his little smile, I want to put him in my pocket and take him home with me...'

Then I recall how he didn't fetch me from the airport and didn't even take me out for a beer amongst other things. I remember how I felt back then and it soon wakes me up.

Mind you, it's good to remember the nice bits too and not dwell too much on the bad bits.

I still do this process with an ex of mine. Sometimes I think on things and recall the nice 'connection' we had and I hope to feel it again one day but with someone else. I soon wake up and recall all the lies he told and all the pure shit he created.

Jesus, I sound like I'm fucking bipolar or schizophrenic!!

I think you know deep down why things are as they are. No point wasting your time pining over someone who didn't want you when you could be working on having someone who does.

I think they call it being human or something— :-)

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Ohhh man... isnt being happy all we want. Why does it have to be so hardd!

Agent would you say the scorp venus is what makes weight all the good and bad and particularly cant let go of past dissappointments?

Just wanted to ask c

Posted by seezythescorpion

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I want him naked and in my bed, because his bed is probably shitty.

Once you let a Taurus in your bed, good luck with taking them out of your mind..

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This. If it's worth the time, it's worth all the effort!

Cut of ** just wanted to ask cuz i find alot of simillarities to your way of thinking in myself.

Plus if your moon is where your emotions lye, why is my strong aries moon not at work alreadyy!

Thanks everyone. I am sick right now and have nothing to do other than lay in bed and wish for him. I realized while napping that thoughts of him came once I first got sick. I wonder if the sickness is messing with my brain.

I know I need to pull up some patience and wait for the man who has the good but not the bad. But the older I get the less patience I have. Anyway, this is great therapy.

I've no idea what my Pisces moon contributes. Wallowing in own shit occasionally before my Scorp bad ass pulls me out and my Sag Merc and rising gives me a good fucking slap!

I'd say the Scorp Venus is the reason for the extremity of feelings I get. There's little middle ground. I have held on to past disappointments and relationships but not really for long.

A break up or disappointment hurts at the time but the level of hurt depends on how much I've invested in it, in what way I liked the person etc.

For example, there's no one in my distant past who I think of and reminisce in that way. I don't think I'd want to get back with anyone and they've all been let go within an appropriate time frame. Any thoughts I have no longer provoke good or bad feelings. They're just memories. I occasionally think of one from years back but only because he still tries to make contact but I don't think of 'I wish we were still together'. It didn't work out for good reasons and that's it. Finished. It's ok to think about people but I think it's important to see what emotions they bring up. All my distant ex's don't bring up any emotions.

Recent scenarios are different. They're more fresh, current, even though it's ended, you're still going through the motions.

I'd say I'm a more logical person than emotional. I always thought it was the other way round but it's not. It makes it easier to some degree. Weighing stuff up I guess is more logical. I never thought Scorp Venus was logical. Perhaps it's just how I am. How I see things. How I deal with things.

I think too many people deceive themselves and don't see reality. I'd hate that. I'm always curious about what I'm feeling and why I'm feeling it. However, I trust in myself enough to know that any hurts now will pass. Just like the others did. I have better days than others but you just have to get the fuck on with it.

I'm not sure if that answers your question Seezy?

I think right now I've two 'recent past' people I think of. Recent past being within the last 12 months or so.

The Virgo ex came to an end last Feb. We still do business together but we had a few months break from each other with no contact after it ended. It was for the best.

I think the Taurus guy from April to Nov last year gave me something or someone else to focus on so I focussed less on Virgo. I don't mean I was 'using' him. Each have their own merit.

Business contact started up again with Virgo over the summer. Funnily enough, he was the one helping me with the Taurus! It gave us both something to talk about. It kind of brought us back together again but as friends and business.

I still think of the Taurus every day. It helps if I don't stalk his social media account but that's not going to happen!! It's been four months since returning from my trip to see Taurus. I can reflect better. I'm still curious as to why I still think of him more than I should. We didn't have this 'amazing connection' as many others describe. I had that with the Virgo instead. I just thought he was a good looking fella who would look good on my arm! (Leo Mars!!) As time goes on I know Taurus will become less important and someone new will arrive. Seriously though, I've had some crazy, stupid thoughts and I'm like 'wtf am I thinking this for—?' I'm sure time will tell.

I think it helps to try and understand why you're thinking something. The connection with the Virgo is still there but there's no going back with that one. I look at all the crap and I wouldn't want more. I just hope I find and build that connection with someone else. It was intense on all levels. No explanation. I do wish things were different but the facts of the case are that they are not different. He made his decision and did not want me so now I sit back and watch. The best revenge, if you can call it that, is knowing he's still in his situation which is shit but does nothing to change it. Meanwhile, I'm free to do as I please.

Not sure what the moral of the story here is but I certainly don't fester about what 'Bob' did to me a decade ago or what an arse Fred was from way back when. Life is too short for that shit.

Don't go.

That will piss him off 😉

I say go to the cookout and don't talk to him. He's a fucking stalker, be polite but give him as little time as possible. Not going may piss him off but 1) don't make your stalker angry on purpose and 2) this isn't about you, this is for your friends. If you feel comfortable with going then go.

Agent, it all definitely makes alot of sense.

I feel my heart and mind is in a constant battle. I cant figure out why im going through all this nonsense emotions and its so out of my control. i guess its the heavy water and firey bits in me. I do something when i feel its the right thing to do, and later i question if that was actually the right way to handle things.

Especially recently with Taurus.

i went with what my mind said, and my heart is still beating me over it. I have dealt with heartaches and dissappointments in the past so when i look at this from outside the box (when my senses are here) i know it will come to pass like all others happened in the past.

i probably tried my best ever possible to just not overthink and believe what i did is for the best but it haunts me day and night.
Is this ever gonna stop?

And then comes the part of me that thinks.. you really tried. you tried to communicate, u made effort, uve been patient, youve been there, u showed consideration, affection and all the good in you and this guy just treats you like u partly exist, so you cut him off.. good on you, know ur self worth, hes not appreciating you.

Then back to why the hell i just cut him off like that..

Whatever way i chose to handle the situation and protect myself, till today, i still think. So where the hell is the self protection im talking about in all of this mess.

I know i sound fucked up. This is where im at.

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I feel my heart and mind is in a constant battle. I cant figure out why im going through all this nonsense emotions and its so out of my control. i guess its the heavy water and firey bits in me. I do something when i feel its the right thing to do, and later i question if that was actually the right way to handle things.

don't even get me started on this. just be grateful you're not a libra. then try making a decision you can stick with for longer than 5 minutes.

i'd like to believe that feelings pass eventually and like a person trying to give up an addiction, sometimes you just have to ride the craving out. with that said, given this thread is about rockstar continuing to pine after 2 years, i don't know how likely it is to truly 100% let go. maybe like an alcoholic, you're always just one drink away from being back under its influence.

Posted by jeane

Posted by seezythescorpion

I feel my heart and mind is in a constant battle. I cant figure out why im going through all this nonsense emotions and its so out of my control. i guess its the heavy water and firey bits in me. I do something when i feel its the right thing to do, and later i question if that was actually the right way to handle things.

don't even get me started on this. just be grateful you're not a libra. then try making a decision you can stick with for longer than 5 minutes.

i'd like to believe that feelings pass eventually and like a person trying to give up an addiction, sometimes you just have to ride the craving out. with that said, given this thread is about rockstar continuing to pine after 2 years, i don't know how likely it is to truly 100% let go. maybe like an alcoholic, you're always just one drink away from being back under its influence.

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I think it comes down to the individual. Some let go and some hold on. Some pine after two years and others let it be.

Seezy,

I hear you. It's not fucked up. It's just how it is. In three to six months from now you'll feel differently.

Four months on for me and I feel less inclined to kill the Taurus. Now I just 'friendly stalk' and I think 'yeah, he's still so cute and I'd like to do very naked and very naughty things to him... but he's very odd, wtf was he all about, what a dumb arse! He couldn't even get his shit together to take me to Taco Bell for a steak quesadilla for $ 3.42, why am I evening thinking about this knob... He's still very cute though...' And that is seriously how it goes in my brain! I need a new brain!!

It just is. What's the point in beating yourself up about it. As soon as you realise you won't feel this way forever then it's just easier to deal with. Ooooh and my little brother who is 9 (big age gap) say his school rugby teacher is single... Plus the teacher plays rugby at my brother's club and they have a kinda night out type thing for singles... Lovely!! Might have to check it out and take a look! Just a little look...

Then I might flit and have a think on the Taurus. I think 'wtf was I thinking?? What on earth did I hope to achieve??' Then I think 'ah well, I went, I had balls, I tried, I stuck it out, there were never any guarantees with anything anyway... The cunt could have bothered though... He's still cute... What a waste of a perfectly good outside package... Loser... Hope he's feeling happier than when I last saw him, he looks happier, he's still cute...'

Then I might think about the Virgo...

This is seriously my thought process... If you thought yours was fucked...

Posted by AgentP911

I think it comes down to the individual. Some let go and some hold on. Some pine after two years and others let it be.

you're the speck of light in the darkness, agentp! there is hope for us yet!

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Posted by AgentP911

I think it comes down to the individual. Some let go and some hold on. Some pine after two years and others let it be.

you're the speck of light in the darkness, agentp! there is hope for us yet!

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Ha! I'm rocking n rolling tonight... It seems!!

Can't help but state the obvious most of the time but I'm liking putting my 2pence worth out there... They don't call me the Oracle for nuffink!

God I'm full of shit!

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Posted by seezythescorpion

I feel my heart and mind is in a constant battle. I cant figure out why im going through all this nonsense emotions and its so out of my control. i guess its the heavy water and firey bits in me. I do something when i feel its the right thing to do, and later i question if that was actually the right way to handle things.

don't even get me started on this. just be grateful you're not a libra. then try making a decision you can stick with for longer than 5 minutes.

i'd like to believe that feelings pass eventually and like a person trying to give up an addiction, sometimes you just have to ride the craving out. with that said, given this thread is about rockstar continuing to pine after 2 years, i don't know how likely it is to truly 100% let go. maybe like an alcoholic, you're always just one drink away from being back under its influence.

I think it comes down to the individual. Some let go and some hold on. Some pine after two years and others let it be.

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i certainly cannot be holding on for 2-9 years. At this moment reading all what Aries and rockstar have gone through for this long makes me feel like i did good for myself by cutting off before it got any worse in how its effecting me.

@Arieslady I totally agree with the statament "you beat yourself up because you choose to walk away, when u really didnt want to". Thats exactly why i am going through this mess of emotions. i had no other choice. i have to deal with it.

You may not want to walk away but sometimes you need to walk away.

It's not always clear at the time or even for time afterwards but then you start to see better.

I had to walk away from the Virgo. It was unhealthy. There's only so much holding on you can do before you wake up and think 'this isn't right, it's not how it should be, it's not what I want or need, it won't change or get any better, he doesn't want me enough to make it happen'.

I'm sure there's sometimes reasons you meet the people you d... but it's not always for the reasons you think it is.

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Seezy,

I hear you. It's not fucked up. It's just how it is. In three to six months from now you'll feel differently.

Four months on for me and I feel less inclined to kill the Taurus. Now I just 'friendly stalk' and I think 'yeah, he's still so cute and I'd like to do very naked and very naughty things to him... but he's very odd, wtf was he all about, what a dumb arse! He couldn't even get his shit together to take me to Taco Bell for a steak quesadilla for $ 3.42, why am I evening thinking about this knob... He's still very cute though...' And that is seriously how it goes in my brain! I need a new brain!!

It just is. What's the point in beating yourself up about it. As soon as you realise you won't feel this way forever then it's just easier to deal with. Ooooh and my little brother who is 9 (big age gap) say his school rugby teacher is single... Plus the teacher plays rugby at my brother's club and they have a kinda night out type thing for singles... Lovely!! Might have to check it out and take a look! Just a little look...

Then I might flit and have a think on the Taurus. I think 'wtf was I thinking?? What on earth did I hope to achieve??' Then I think 'ah well, I went, I had balls, I tried, I stuck it out, there were never any guarantees with anything anyway... The cunt could have bothered though... He's still cute... What a waste of a perfectly good outside package... Loser... Hope he's feeling happier than when I last saw him, he looks happier, he's still cute...'

Then I might think about the Virgo...

This is seriously my thought process... If you thought yours was fucked...

My goodness! And here you have me thinking the way we think is similar. Im sorry to say this but that was a wrong statement i made there. Because my friend, this thinking process is truly fucking exactly the same!!

Lol perhaps others have the same process!

Sometimes I get easily distracted. It's like a potential new interest or idea is like a shiny new toy and I'm distracted by the bright shiny lights over there... It's like 'oooooh new toy!!!' I get excited by the prospect but only for a few minutes. It's a bit superficial but it's more excitement and wonder... Enthusiasm if you like. Perhaps that's the Sag in me! I'm not an overly positive person. I don't gush and I'm certainly not 'bubbly' but I like to keep optimistic because let's face it, no one wants a miserable fucking bastard!!

That's not to say I get distracted when I'm with someone. Totally opposite. They're the only one in the room as far as I'm concerned. I'm quite conservative and respectful of the social stuff. I don't make eyes at people I shouldn't. I don't do stuff to get attention.

That reminds me, at my sports club one of the girls bf started talking to me as we were all playing a match together, I knew who he was and I said I was the one who'd given his gf holiday tips. He loved the tips and we talked for only a minute or so, just polite shit. The gf stormed over and started putting her hands all over her bf and did the 'what are you two talking about?' While she tried to give me evils. Wtf is that shit all about!! He's not even that great!! I looked a right state too so I was hardly thinking I was in with a chance... Women!! She's a Leo!