Im so torn apart! Why!?

Why did I have to fall in love with her— Why cant I control this?? im crying inside all day no matter how happy I try to be with everyone..this hurts soooo bad...nothing helps...its 1 am im still up thinking about her....I go to work and Ill think everything is fine...then I see her smile or put her arm around another person...and I get choked up inside...I been out with my friends all day today and only thought of her lightly...yet when I get home and im alone..and it all comes back how I love her with everything in me..it hurts and wont go away...im lying in bed looking at the ceiling for hours...my logic says this is stupid its just a person a friend..get busy etc...I do and I have a lot to do but my day is so lonely...im surrounded by so many people and yet she completed me...made me soo happy still does...but yet shes not mine...and doesn't look like she ever will be...im too late...I cant take this..im tired of my face w tears...im tired of it I cant take this...everytime I think im fine it floods in again...its been a whole week of this...

It seems this libra couldn't decide which board to post this on.

*slowly pats libra*

there there, everything uh...will be okay.

Vainth,


Why Are you Teasing... That's rude. hahaha

airfive,

She is your great love I think. Be Happy when you see her happy.. let it be.

I am happy shes happy...that's all I want for her....every time I even looked at her I wanted to give her the world...anything to make her smile...that hug when i see her..just holding her..what do I do when she was why I was my best...I felt complete with her..now when she calls It makes me cry...you cant just replace people or feelings...I feel like she will always be in my life...even if im not in hers...I haven't slept all night and I have work today..i just don't know what to do right now...

airfive,

I believe you loved her that much to let her go..why you two broke up?

yeah sorry airfive, about that, that was mean of me. i apologize. i mistook it and see that you've posted it here for some grounded taurus advise.

From Taurus perspective...

Time will heal you. Trust me. I know it hurts and is miserable, and that nothing I can say or do right now will heal you, you will go through this and it will be painful. But accept that, accept you have to go through this and accept the fact that you will get through this. Just remember, there will be a time in a not too distant future, where I swear to god, you will think "I was feeling bad for nothing". Just know in comfort that you are not and never will be alone when it comes to this tragic chemical called love (actually it's called Oxytocin) and you will find someone who will complete you.

Just remember, we're all gonna make it 🙂

Posted by M143

airfive,

I believe you loved her that much to let her go..why you two broke up?

we weren't really ever official...so that I guess was part of it...we were best friends...and worst part is shes been in a relationship...it seemed on and off..and we use to talk about her relationship and sort things out...but as it turns out its more serious than I thought...shes always known how I feel about her...six months ago I told her I was in love w her..it just came out that day...but she never did give a straight answer...she said she liked me in return...but then again she didn't say love so I should of seen it coming..i even a week ago told her again how I feel even though she s now with this person..she has changed toward me...she avoids any real conversations and seems to be a little indifferent to me..this past sunday..she hugged me and we kissed one more time and that was it...she now avoids hugging me and wont even go near me...this is very hard as i said we were best friends and talked about everything...yet she still calls me and wants to know if im ok..with the situation I guess? my face is just tears but no sound...im not sobbing...its just pain in my chest and tears out my eyes...I can ask a million whys and theres just no answer...it just hurts...ive never loved someone the way I love her...worse part is...my feelings for her are the same haven't changed...she still likes me as a friend and I can see that but its different and its the way everything is different that's killing me...I cant just be a come and go friend...she means so much more to me than that...I still even now want to be there for her...if she asked id be there for her in a heart beat and do anything for her...

Posted by Vainth
yeah sorry airfive, about that, that was mean of me. i apologize. i mistook it and see that you've posted it here for some grounded taurus advise.

From Taurus perspective...

Time will heal you. Trust me. I know it hurts and is miserable, and that nothing I can say or do right now will heal you, you will go through this and it will be painful. But accept that, accept you have to go through this and accept the fact that you will get through this. Just remember, there will be a time in a not too distant future, where I swear to god, you will think "I was feeling bad for nothing". Just know in comfort that you are not and never will be alone when it comes to this tragic chemical called love (actually it's called Oxytocin) and you will find someone who will complete you.

Just remember, we're all gonna make it 🙂

hey thanks for the advice...and I know u ment no harm...I know everyone goes through this...ill try to remember what u said though...im gonna sort out my thoughts and go to bed now..I feel terrible... i m regret not sleeping tomorrow...

airfive,

You will be ok soon. I can sense she is a good person. She still cares but not for lover but just

a friend. She loves you as a friend. That should be nice to hear even if it's hurting you inside

enough to see her she is happy.

Tell her you'll be fine soon. Cry it all the whole day and ask God to give you more courage to face

her everyday... You will be fine sooo soon. I promise you that.

What is it you are torn apart about?

:/

I saw this earlier this morning bfore I went to work...u guys were all really helpful...I was ok at work and when she came in later she asked if I was ok...I just told her how I felt...not the dying inside part...but that I was thinking of her all day yesterday and im just adjusting to the situation...and that yes im sad.. I found out she feels very much for me..the relationship shes in shes been in for some time and chose to stick it through...I said I was happy for her and how lucky her partner is..and that no matter what I will still be there for her...her eyes teared up and she hugged me tight..she said she was stand offish because she thought I didn't want anything to do with her..she said she doesn't want to lose me as a friend...i told her that was wrong and I was so sorry for not realizing my behavior...shes was/is first my best friend...

Is all water under the bridge best now to get on with what you got to do now

Also things always work out in the end for the best they always do.

Posted by mfwb55
Also things always work out in the end for the best they always do.

people say this a lot but it never feels right until years later...tbh...I don't think im ever gonna get over this one...not completely...this is a wound im afraid is gonna scar...but in an odd way...im comforted that shes still in my life and hasn't cut me out...that she does care for me in her own way and does kind of need me...but nonetheless...its not easy...especially since I cant even dig up a bad memory of us..the worst we got in was really bad communication about some girl we worked with...but even the argument wasn't hateful...it was frustration but it never stayed that way..either way I don't feel as bad...at least not tonight. I felt close to her again...and I hope I can keep it that way...without feeling sad....