MINI EARTHQUAKE!!!

oke i admit, i bit misleading on the title but no lie: my world was a taken a bit aback by the events im about to share. i wood love for this to help in the whole closure thing so please be brutal, lol i mean honesty n all...
i cant figure y my love ( boyfriend, or so i thought..) wood lie to me about his feelings. Why wood he get me to let him no how much i wanted to be with him only to put me at arms length at some point over like 4 years. What wood make him Let me believe we were n a relationship and not even attempt to make it seem different. maybe my slip up was n not taking it seriously him not answering the fone at different times. we're both busy sociable people so i just gave himt he benefit of the doubt.its funnie because he nevr used to do it but hes a workaholic so i just figured as much. i told he didnt have to lie to me and he for like all nite held on to not knowing wat the _ i was talking about. then the next day he came out with agen me playing too many games and him being lost so then he says some more i play too many games and thats y he never got n2 me then he sed "You act like we were n a relationship" i was like speechless.....those were the last words between us Oh i was going through my mailbox the other nite and on a drunken expedition i sent him a tex message telling him April Fools. i dont know wat that was about...the alcohol can bring out bad jokes at times. neway, i just cant believe hes this dirty i mean like @#8#* it and me basically is wat hes sed to me so there was reallie nothing for me to say at that point..... im rambling...please get back to me im still spinning, lol