Aires & Aquarius - what's next? - PART II (Page 3)

Hello again my beautiful Duncan friends! Rammette is back from her extra long weekend........and altho the weather SUCKED.......the down time was exactly what this princess needed!

Alana - I did get a chance to read your post on Friday (from home) but did not have a chance to respond. I was THRILLED that my lady had such a F.A.N.T.A.S.T.I.C. time with Mr. Virgo....but 3 TIMES my lady........share girlfriend....share the joy 😉

Hope the rest of your weekend was just as exciting, full of adventures...and plenty of S.E.X!!!!!!!!!!

Freebird.....how are you my fellow ram? Can I join you on that magic carpet that keeps you floating above the clouds? Must be a very special place...but you are so missed here on Duncan land!

As for me.......it was a very nice relaxing weekend. As I stated above, the weather didn't cooperate, however tried to make the most of it. Did the usual clubbing scene with friends, and altho all of Mr. Aqua's friends seemed to show up at one or the other clubs we frequent.......he himself was a no-show!

I continue to be baffled as to why Mr. Aqua would just leave things hanging like this.......and how one can't possibly interpret any other way but NEGATIVE. Perhaps Ms. Alana (the wise one) has some theories she would love to share with me??

But the interesting part of my weekend is that I did get to spend some time with my Ex. Cappie. Yes, the one that took me to those same heights as Mr. Virgo does for you my lady. We dated for almost a year.....he was 27 at that time, I was 36.......but MAMA MIA the sex was FABULOUS! Anyway, we've worked real hard these past couple of years since our break-up to build at 'just being friends' and letting go of the past. Well, I think Mr. Cappie has finally done some growing up.......just the way he was talking, the way he now sees things that I couldn't get him to see at the time we were dating ....anyway, it was REAL nice to spend some time with him, talk about the past, our time together cuz girlfriends we had a BLAST together, alot of fun and some f'cken amazing rock'n'rollin sex. We did some pretty wild things together....but it was nice to hear from him that he always loved me (still does) was just to immature to handle it....did some pretty stupid things as a means to run away from it, but he misses ME, misses being with me, wants another chance and is willing to move SLOW if that's what I want to do, but he wants me back in his life in one way or another. He plays hockey...so he asked if I'd come to watch one of his games this week (I said yes - didn't even flinch)....he also invited me and my pals up to his cottage for a partying weekend sometime soon (whenever I decide, to let him know) and I joked....what are the sleeping arrangements? - he smiled as only a charming Cappie can - whatever "I" am comfortable with....but he says Nat, I just want to hold you in my arms again - I miss that....I miss YOU!

You know what my ladies.....they all f'ken miss me when they don't have me, and when they have me........they disappear! And I told this to Mr. Cappie.......he says no Nat.......I have ALWAYS missed you...and I've always thought about being with YOU, but I had to get my s.h.i.t. in order, and I'm still where I want to be....but all I know is, I want you in my life. It was very nice.....some special tender moments and as much as I wanted to JUMP his bones (and nice bones, VERY VERY nice ponytail - hmmhmmm), I just left well enuf alone. I did not close the door........I told him I would go watch him play hockey....and we'll take things as they come.....I even told him about Mr. Aqua.....I don't know what (if anything) further will develop there, but I suspect in time my path with Mr. Aqua will once again cross....sooner rather than later....but in the meantime....I am gonna have some fun getting re-aquainted with Mr. Cappie.

Either you or Freebird have any experiences with a Cappie you

Hello to you too Ram of many "roaring" adventures!!! Oh - la - la...sweet 🙂 You have such an exciting life along with Ms. Alana X..I so enjoy reading about all of the wonderful experiences that you both have.....ME— yep, still flying around observing the two legged creatures that grace our planet with their much needed joy, mystery, unpredictability and love. Amazing they are...never a dull moment when one is with a man. I find them so fascinating....I hold back quite a bit...it is my Cappy moon I am a thinkin...

My dearest, dearest Nat...I KNOW how you are feeling regarding your Aqua pals dissapearance..this too happened to me with my Aqua friend...we were talking having a great time nothing major going on in our lives and then one day....nothing for 3 weeks. He even ignored me at the gym when I saw him. Yes, I did approach him and I asked him what was wrong and he said he could not talk about it...at that point? I decided to let it go, he was not worth my time if he was going to treat me this way. I moved on ...(you know us Rams once we get something in our little heads it seems to stay there) He eventually called me and we reconnected however I will say that things have not really been the same between us since...that type of abandonment tends to leave a whole in the relationship..a lack of trust. Our "weird" relationship has been going on for almost 3 yrs. I have experienced many muffling mind games that he has concocted up for me...at first this really bothered me as I have never experienced such a sport...I am now a qualified game receiver and I KNOW how to give it back...he has become baffled by me. Everything he has done was a set up for control...no controlling this Ram. He still calls and I have called him many times on his game playing...I have ended our relationship (physically) and he asks to be friends..yes I say and no more. He keeps trying...It won't work as I have emotionally taken myself out of his life to protect my heart and well being.

Nat, I am not saying this is what is happening to you...I was just sharing with you my experience for whatever it is worth...I hope that your Aqua friend reconnects with you and helps to make you feel safe...they can be very hard to understand. Since then...2 other Aqua men have entered my life...I stand back and observe not getting too close..just yet. AND....a past Cappy friend of mine has re-entered my life...friends only but you are oh so correct in the sex being awesome!!!! Our fire makes their earth move and errupt big time! Nothing like the glow of a warm fire to warm the center of the earth...

My experiences with my Cappy buddies is....they are work alcoholics...work comes first and then play. They need to feel secure and work/money helps them feel this way. They will do anything to help those they care about as they are very loyal and true but seem to lack the adventureous spirit of letting go and enjoying lifes moments...they say that as they get older, they become younger. What good looking men they are as well...I have yet to see a funky looking cappy....traditional men they are.

I am about to have a reflexology pampering session so I must go and get prepared....

My best to you my lovely Ram...I just know that your Aqua pal will indeed return as you are much to lovely to ignore..too much passion and feel good energy to give...he will be back, I promise. I think it is great that you are moving on and enjoying your moments...

"This is my life. It is my one time to be me. I WANT to experience EVERY GOOD THING." ~ Maya Angelou

Gonna fly now my friend....enter...Alana X!!!!!!

Is this becoming the longest thread in history or what!!!:-) - but then we have to go into the tiny nitty-gritty, do our dissecting and our analysing and our duncan-ising!! as only us girls can do:-)!!!

Hello to you my beautiful Canadian starlet....bad weather for the weekend - hey but I bet you lit up every room with your razzle dazzle once you entered.....did you blind anyone by chance??:-)

I will get my weekend out of the way and then get to yours:-) I have nothing no dramas to report for once!!!....no life at the cutting edge stuff....no fites, no quarrels, no jealousy...just flat-linish sugar-pie stuff and for once I am liking it....Me thinheth I am losing my wicked-lady sticker:-)!!! Just spent most of the weekend with Mr. Virgo...wine, meals, movies, jiggy-jiggy - (lots!!) - well I had to make up my rations after the two-week diet!!! I feel comfortable and at ease and peaceful when I am with him....we talk when we want to talk, can be silent when we want to be and just sit....- he got a bit chickeny with his sexual prowess at one stage...and jokingly said to me - and where would you find such a beautiful! boyfriend who gives you so much jiggy-jiggy all the time!! I replied - And where would you find a more beatuiful girlfriend that makes you UP so often!!! We both just laughed:-) - he ain't gonna get one over on me - no sir:-)!! Didn't see him last nite and I won't tonite....will just connect via telephone land:-)!!!

Now over to you my lady:-) and your Mr. Aquar....where is he gone? what is he thinking? why no reply to your attempts to make contact? All these little queries/questions are a-buzzin thru your head most of the time.....and I don't have any dam answers for you either.....let's get the bad stuff out of the way first (hope this won't frighten you too much or make you feel too uugh - that's certainly not my intention at all).

No. 1 - Are you positive positive there isn't another woman stashed away some where—

No. 2 - Maybe he just likes you but doesn't see you as "the love of his life" (god I know this must hurt - but I am just throwing it out for you to reflect on). Having said this, when you are together, his words and actions don't match this scenario - do they?

Now let's return to our Cinderella land of fluff and spice and everything nice where dreams really do come through, anything is possible if you believe it can happen, and everyone lives happy ever after:-)

No. 1 - Perhaps he is so dam busy he's put you in second place for the moment.

No. 2 - Perhaps he is aware that he has powerful feelings for you and is afraid of what may happen if they spill out with you - aquarians are so afraid of showing their true feelings and the more they are falling for the person, the more aloof and detached they become - it appears to the other that they are distancing from them when that's not the case.

Either way, I wish he would just connect with you and tell you once and for all how and why he is behaving as he is. And when he does, I suggest the following - you play it cool but still make your point about not following thru on what he said....ask him does he always not follow thru!!?? And the "let's just forget things" phrase will rattle him up!!

I laughed at your phrase...."You know what my ladies.....they all f'ken miss me when they don't have me, and when they have me........they disappear!" - the dry wit is still there.....good for you.....Forbid me something and it's that what I most desire....(as the a wise sage once said)......:-) Why don't you go AWOL for a year....then the whole of the f..ckin Canada will be queuing up to greet you with open arms after it......now that's a nice scenario - I will come with you to Canada on your return and we can share the spoils:-)!!

But yikes, tikes and silvers bikes as the bird would say.....let's not think or spend too much cry-time on Mr. Aquar just for the mom

Well, good morning my beautiful ladies! Thx to you both for your responses. And yes, this is certainly getting to be the longest thread indeed. I guess we all have something to continually share - that's a good thing isn't it? 🙂

Freebird - so glad you're keeping busy with 'friends' and thank you for sharing your stories about your Aqua friend, as well as Mr. Cappie. I so wish for you all that you wish for yourself. I am striving and working towards getting to that same place you're at.....a place of 'detachment'- ooops is that an Aqua term 😉 but seriously - a place of just taking care of YOU. I look forward to hearing more from you.......and look forward to hearing as things unfold with your Aqua male friends, or Mr. Cappie himself.

Alana - WOW! You had a drama free weekend? How nice! I'm glad for you my lady. I can hear your calmness - must be that wonderful 'jiggy-jiggy' land that did it! But OMG.....haven't heard that term (jiggy-jiggy) since my ex husband. He used to call it that ALL the time. WOW!

Also, thank you for your 'spot' on questions regarding Mr. Aqua. You have, as as Freebird has, given me food for thought. As to whether there is any truth to either of the 'bad' scenarios you shared - I don't know! How would one know my lady, unless they want you to know? If there is another woman, or if I'm not the love of his life(which I never indicated I was).....Mr. Aqua hasn't shared this with me - and altho his actions do contradict those statements.....I cannot honestly answer them. But it does pose a question in my mind - and perhaps from reading some of your adventures and keeping in mind that not all Aquarians are equal. But it does seem be your Aquarian trait. You've indicated many times that when things between you and Mr. Virgo go ackey-breaky, you find 'comfort' elsewhere with your 'in-between' friends. Does Mr. Virgo ever really know what my Lady has been up to? Have you ever shared with him of your actions? I think we all TRY to work at building trust (maybe I'm naive) and up til now, Mr. Aqua has not given me any reason to doubt him or question his motives. But as you so 'spot on' put it....one never knows. I can only trust based on the person I believe him to be, the things he has shared, that that isn't the case. But whether he is too busy....or is too freaked out at his feelings for me....or is with someone else, or if he just plain doesn't give a s.h.i.t. - all one Ramette expects is to hear and seek the truth. I think thats the least we ALL deserve. Like I said before.......I think as adults we SHOULD be beyond these kinda hurtful games. But maybe I do sit in Cinderella Land much tooo much my ladies.....but that's only becuz I truly want to believe people are good and that they will give me the same courtesy I give them. Perhaps one day I will take off the 'rose colored glasses'.......but just not ready to do so just yet.

I'm sure Mr. Aqua and my path will cross once more. And I will 'play it cool' Alana.....but not as a means to play any game....but becuz its how I truly feel!

But I will enjoy Mr. Cappie as a sideline..........a sideline 'friend'. Getting involved with him (nice ponytail or not) is just asking for more hurt. As I said b4.....its taken us a long time to build up our friendship again, and altho we shared ALOT, and had ALOT of fun.....I'd feel I was going backwards instead of moving forward! But you know what my ladies...the universe does bring you what you need.......when you need it. Mr. Cappie has at least taken 'some' of my mind off Mr. Aqua.....he has allowed me to put closure to our past, get some of the answers I needed (even after all this time). Sooooo, some good did come of our getting together. And I will be his friend........off to watch him play hockey tonight....and that's all I've agreed to......(wink wink) 😉

I am forever grateful for having this avenue of sharing with you, and getting yo

Hello dearest rammette and hope you are on high buzz frequency today:-)
I have to make this the quickiest ever....well I do like quickies😉 - up to my eyes and boss hovering like a hawk!!!
Didn't mean to upset you in shape or form by what I had to say previous - perhaps just looking at the bottom of my own heart!!!
Yep, for some reason, jiggy jiggy is a BIG term over here in Dublin, not so much used by the Irish but by the foreign Irish:-) and of course your ex-husband....was he foriegn by any chance??:-)
Did Mr. Virgo know of any of my extra-curricular activities....well No-ISH!!
When asked what I did and who I was with - and he would always ask me point-blank, I would always retort to him and still do - if and when I am with you, I am with you 110% . If however, you do something wrong on me and we are apart, I will not talk about what happened when we are apart....or you have no right to ask me such a question, if you choose not to be in my life - say, for the last week and a half etc., then I will not talk about what happened!!! This way, although I am not telling the complete truth (and being evasive!)...I am leaving him a tiny avenue of doubt, which I believe he knows deep down in his heart, that I have been "unfaithful"! But I would never in a thousand years, or million trillion come out and admit that I had been with someone else......however, these days, I find I am swallowing when I tell a lie and he's on to this so I have to have a glass or water ready for the interrogation:-) Oh em oh my!!
Anyway, my beautiful one, you are a wise wise arian....he knows it, you know it, we all know it...no pulling the wool over your peepers.
Have a wonderful weekend.....whatever happens or doesn't happen!! Enjoy clubbing! rubbing! pubbing! whatever, whenever!!
Hope the hockey game went very OK last nite...we await to hear if you pulled his pony-tail!!! He really has a pony-tail??
Got to go for now Natash.............remember it's all happening perfectly!!!! Cuh!!:-)
A x

Hello my dear friends. Hope you had a most enjoyable weekend and ready for another exciting new week.

Alana - you did not upset me at reading your previous post my lady. Not at all...it was 'food for thought' as I had put it, and only wanted to re-interate that one never knows and I think we all TRY and move forward expecting others to put their best foot forward and are honest about who they are and what they want or don't want. I always welcome your thoughts, suggestions, opinions my lady (as I welcome those from Freebird). You have both been very helpful and I thank you sincerely for your ongoing friendship and guidance.

So, how was your weekend my ladies? Is Freebird still in that wonderful peaceful place? Anything happening with Mr. Cappie.....or the friendly Mr. Aqua's?

Alana - did you have another 'drama free' weekend or did my lady rock the city? Details my lady.....details...

Ms. Ramette did go and enjoy watching Mr. Ex Cappie play hockey Thurs nite. We went out for a couple of beers afterwards....had more good conversation, more of that 'going down memory lane' stuff and had a good time. It was real nice....and YES YES YES Alana - he has a beautiful ponytail....from what I can remember of course 😉

Went out clubbing with the gals Fri/Sat nite...no Mr. Aqua to be seen. But our paths WILL cross once more. And I will deal with it WHEN it happens.

Sunday, I spent 'some' time together with Mr. Cappie again......he invited me over to his place for a couple of beers as he had work to do in the yard....so I went, watched him work (and sweat, and sweat........and work those muscles) OMG!!!!..........but still all strictly 'friendly' of course. Flirty yes.....hot yes, but FRIENDLY! We had a real good time laughing, playing, drinking.

But........WHO calls me as I'm driving home from Mr. Ex cappie's place? Mr. Ex Scorp himself? Yup! Rememebr him? He's the GHOST that disappeared after my 'imagined' fairytale nite with him months ago now! He NEEDS to talk to me....I say what the heck for? He rather NOT get into it over the phone but WE have lots to talk about. I said, oh really. This should be interesting to hear.....but don't think I want to hear it anymore Mr. Scorp. He says PLEASE....just meet me for coffee and let's talk. I said NO to last nite, but agreed to meet him this evening. Soooooooo my ladies.....stay tuned for the next chapter being written in the continuous saga of "SECRETS OF THE HEART"!!

Is this for real or what? My life is all but a f'cken circus!

Gotta run for now.......will update you when I get a chance.

Luv ya both!
Nat
xoxo

And a grand hello to my wonderful friends of distinction~

So, Nat...you got a f'cken circus going on in your neck of the world huh? SECRETS OF THE HEART....continues and is full of eventful moments 🙂 The men just love you...and love you and cannot seem to get enough of Nattie! How did it turn out with your meeting of Mr. Scorpio? This is sure becoming a page turner of a book!!! Don't keep us hanging on the hook too long my friend....I'm anxious to hear of the details. I'm glad that you had a good time with "cappie" they sure can be fun to be around as they do have quite a creative sense of humor!

Not much new in my world...I am finding myself slowly retracting from relationships...don't desire them for now...and that may change when the wind blows south...as our favorite and wise friend, Ax says..."a mind is for changing" ....

Time to close for now as I only had a moment to write...be good but not too good!!!!!

Good wishes and fairy tale moments...xoxo

Freebird

Well, top of the morning to both my beautiful ladies!

Freebird, so nice to hear from you my lady and so hoping you DO head south real soon. My lady is much to special, beautiful, intelligent, and vibrant to be alone.......but one handsome dove is around the corner my friend who will cherish the all beautiful YOU! So, you recharge those batteries for now...and glad to hear you are taking care of YOU!

Well the next chapter to the ongoing saga of "SECRETS OF THE HEART" is:

1) Had a very good time with Mr. Ex Cappie on Sunday, but did leave things strictly friendly.

2) Saw Mr. Ex Scorp Mon nite and he said everything right my ladies. I played it calm and cool altho it was hard cuz he looked for friggin HOT. In a nutshell my ladies.......after our fairytale nite he vanished to think things thru. His conclusion......he wants me in his life......wants a commitment (meaning no other dating) and wants to work (by taking baby steps) at merging our lives together. Mr. Scorp and I have NEVER exchanged the "L" word.........and that night...he says you know how I feel about you Nat, and I know how you feel about me. I replied, I know how "I" feel, but don't know how you feel. I thought I did....but I cannot convince myself of that anymore.

Mr. Scorp is not one to easily express his feelings/emotions and I have always understood that (having a Scorp moon) myself, but I added that I had to draw my own conclusions based on HIS actions. And once upon a time, he made me feel like the centre of his universe, made me feel like a princess, now all he has done is make me question everything we once shared. He pulls me in close and he SAYS IT.........Nat, you know I love you.....I have always loved you and I know you love me (pretty presumptuous eh?) and we belong together. Nobody knows me/understands me like you do and I'm tired of being alone. Tired of coming home and YOU not being here. Tired of waking up alone, and not seeing you next to me. I know its been ME.....and I never wanted to hurt you and thought becuz I was so messed up, that by walking out of your life (twice now) that I would save you the hurt, yet I've done just the opposite - hurt you more! All I know (he continues) is....I want and need you in my life and am prepared and ready to move forward (taking babysteps of course) by forward nonetheless.

It truly was a nite out of a fairytale story my ladies. It truly was!! The way he held me, looked at me, the tender moments, the not letting go of my hand........we went back to his place and NOOOOOOOOOOO, Ms.Ramette was a LADY and did not cave into Mr. Scorps MAJOR sex appeal. Instead he poured the wine, we cuddled, listened to music and just enjoyed being back in each other arms. I must admit my ladies....Ms. Ramette (for as hard as she TRIES to be strong) fell victim to the man she loves with all her heart and CRIED like a little baby in his arms. All the weeks/months of hurt, confusion, lonliness, it all came pouring out. He held me tighter and tighter and just allowed me to 'let go'. He was the most tender I have ever known him to be.

I've said this before my ladies...but he IS the absolute (without a doubt) 'love of my life'. He is the soul I belong with. Will it be? Here we go again........time will tell right?

He called me last nite.......we talked for a bit like two school kids, then we turned it into phone s.e.x. He says, you belong here next to me....I want to wake up and see your face when I open my eyes. WOW! You don't understand, Mr. Scorp has never revealled himself in such a way. He is the master of "conceal". Perhaps after all this time (our journey first began 4 years ago - OMG!) we are finally in a place where we can actually move forward and merge our lives together. BUT........hold that thought ladies....cuz you know with me things change quickly........and Mr. Scorp has disappeared before. So Ms. Ram here is a littl

Well blow me over with a feather!!!......staggered beyond the power of expression!!!speechless!!!cat got my tongue!!! hells bells!!!! - what other superlatives can I use to try to capture my state of WOW when I read what you have just said Nat.....fcukin hell!!! I thought my life was a dizzy go-round........it palses to insignificance beside your wondrous world.
I am just about to leave the office....the bloody technicians were in all day working on the computer and I am only now having a sneaky read......and boy am I glad I had a snuk!!!
Hopefully will have time to throw my tuppence worth in tomoro:-) - so glad you have found your Mr. Scorp again or should I say, he has "found himself" at last.
As for my seas of tranquility with Mr. Virgo of late...cuh and cuh again!!!well they sea turned into a frickin... tidal - wave last Sunday!!!...enter the circus!!!
Have to fly.
Bird.....if you are here later, no time to email you today....but thinking of you big time and will be in touch tomoro my feather friend.
A x

Whohooooooo! Nat and Shazam~bam bam....I so ditto everything that Ax has expressed!!!!! Wowzier...I see the fireworks all the way over here..there is NO hiding those Ms. Ramette! You must be on Cloud 9 or perhaps 10, 11 or 12? Needless to say, I am very happy for you 🙂 I see a book in the works with all the frills, thrills and chills of love and adventure. I hope you continue to share with us the unfolding of the magic. My eyes are wide open!

Hey you, Ax...thanks my pal...I look forward to hearing from you BIG TIME..hope your day is a little lighter 😉

Freebird coasting.....

Hey...you dudes...sorry I only entering the arena now...but broadband came to my Dublin offices...in other words last two days, office full of computer guys setting us up on broadband (big fcukin swing!!) - and not a dam good-looker among them!!

I digress....natash....I am just so blown away by all this happy ever after stuff between you and Scor. guy...Cinderella gets her happy ever after story....we all know that there's been Mr. Aquar...Mr. Fauner Scorp, Mr. Ex-Cap (among others!!)...but deep down, down in the squishy squashy land where heart soul and mind collide,,,,that you and Mr. Scorp. were connected even though he hid it for so long from you...as I always say, the tide turns when least expected...and he has turned once again to you...you are right to take baby steps.....what a babe you are!!!! and what a tale to tell......it must have taken courage for him to admit the L word.....(often the more you love a person the harder it is to say the L word to them, isn'that so?/) And I can understand why you cried a river....just cuddled in his arms.......so much pent-up, let-down emotion to be expelled and de-toxed and where better than in Mr. Scorp. arms......

I hope the adventure continues and lives up to all your expectations etc....or better still..have no expectation...and see where that leads both of you:-)

me...have to make it quick...I haven't been nice at all to Mr. V. all week....he accused me of going off early to fcuk someone else when I had to leave early last sunday from a bar we were in to attend to my sick son....and so I got my own back....I didn't answer his calls all week, I texted saying "let's forget everything...yada yada yada!!...and I diverted my cell phone saying that I was no longer at this no.:-)...oh the games i play but he did hurt me and I always get my own back....anyway, we talked this morning...but his credit ran out.....I will call later (well I think he deserves one phonecall after his 100 during the week)!!!

So over and out to you and the feather bird!! Have a great time.

Love A x

Hello my 'Secrets Of The Heart' readers! How are you?? Hope you both had an enjoyable weekend and ready for another exciting & adventurous week ahead! 🙂

Any further news to report from your worlds?

Freebird - are you still enjoying the comforts of 'friends'? Alana, have you connected with Mr. Virgo after your non-phone exchanges? Continue to look forward to hearing all that is part of both your worlds.

Should we perhaps start a new thread - or should we continue so we can set a new record on the LONGEST thread here at Duncan??

Thank you both for your posts and warm wishes, support and excitment as I get ready to embark on either another roller-coaster ride OR enter into the twilight zone called "L". So glad you are both here to take the plunge with me - for which ever one it ends up being, I welcome your support, guidance and wisdom!

Spent last Thurs nite with Mr. Scorp - not quite as 'fairytalish' as our Monday nite together.......a little misunderstanding that I think we have cleared up, but I think it had more to do with both our 'frustrations' as to the busy lives we both lead.....moreso Mr. Scorp than I.......and him finally getting fed-up with everything (time constraints that is) and finally at a point where he just wants to do what HE wants to do. For the first time since I've known him, I feel he is finally feeling the strains of being everything to everyone.......yet not getting what HE needs. Anyway........we managed to make the most of both our frustrations with what we call 'life'..........and good ole fashion emotional s.e.x. cures all those frustrations doesn't it 😉

I did not go the Club that we frequent on Fri nites - was just not in the mood and needed some down time after an emotional week so not sure whether Mr. Aqua showed up or not......but Sat nite (being my brothers birthday) a group of us went the Club we frequent on Sat nites to celebrate. What a nite my ladies....."Secrets of the Heart" has another chapter.......

Mr. Scorp shows up with his sister (he didn't tell me he was coming) and nobody in my family knows of our getting together this past week. So, it was a surprise to all to see him there. We talked, he talked to my brothers/sister-in laws, but kept his distance and watched as only a Scorp can. But we did manage to get OUR time in there throughout the evening. A couple of hours later........WHO shows up but Mr. Aqua himself. MAMA MIA....the dodging begins.....Mr. Scorp went to the mens room as Mr. Aqua walks in with his friends. They come straight to us to say hello.....warm welcome from Mr. Aqua....good to see you - did you get my txt msg, etc etc. I told him we were there with family/friends to celebrate my brother's birthday, introduced him to a few people, then he went on his way to walk around....get a drink at the bar....Mr. Scorp returns from the men's room. The girls had a f'ken good laugh at my expense waiting to see how Ms. Ram here was gonna handle this little scene. Anyway, with their help of course....we managed to keep Mr. Aqua and Mr. Scorp apart.........I spent time with both of them (at opposite ends of the Club) and talked to Mr. Aqua on the patio, being a fellow smoker (Mr. Scorp isn't - thank God)...and with it being a 'family' get together Mr. Aqua kept his distance (perhaps another saving grace?) All Mr. Aqua and I talked about was me getting his txt msg....apologizing for not returning my calls/txt msg's...lots on the go but I'm sorry its impacted you Nat, he says. But we'll talk further he says...just not here ok? I said ok, the ball is in your court. I've done my part - IF there is something you want to talk about, I'm all ears but I leave it up to you. But OMG ladies.....he looked friggin HOT! (I sure know how to pick'em - HOT looking, sexy, dashy dressers, and they ALL bloody drive me to drink).

I return to our 'reserved' area and re-convene with Mr. Scorp who is already ho

For god's sake woman of a thousand revolving doors!!!!
I am laughing out loudly over here in Dublin.....Mr. Aquar and Mr. Scorp.....no no no, I for one certainly believe you...you are definitely not making this story up....almost the same thing happened to me the week previous when Mr. French-guy Sagitarrius!! and Mr. Virgo stood almost back to back in the same friggin pub and Mr. Sag. came over to talk to me!!! That's why I was so "bad" to Mr. Virgo all last week:-)...
Listen my pal, I it's just 5 and I have to run for the bus...so I will swoop by tomoro to add my 5 cents worth.....
For god's sake woman..get your act together:-)..

Love and hugs N.

A x

Oh my stars Nat...Freebird is flying around lost in the tops of the circus tents from the activeness of your being...getting dizzy!!!No way out!!! Hopefully my wings won't flap out on me causing me to suddenly drop into the piles of elephant muck below (I hate when that happens).

A crazy wonderful life you have indeed "sparky"... and you seem to be handling it very, very well. There is nothing dull about your life is there? Caps, Scorps and Aquas all desiring the passions of our lovely Nat...I so enjoy hearing of your interludes with each one. Keep writting the book, Secrets of the Heart for us kid!!

I'm staying tuned in for the next page!!!

Hope all is well in cyberville for my two wondermous pals.

Freebird flying high with tired wings...

Yes, Freebird..no other word for it but "sparky" - we are heating up here just reading it:-)

So golly gosh, my oh my....aren't you SO glad it was your brother's birthday and both Mr. S. and Mr. A, thought that each other were part of your family/friends:-) Nice one Nat!! Nice one indeed:-) Life at the cutting edge stuff:-) I'm lovin'it - as McDonald would say...I am devouring your story:-)

Well first off, I am so glad that you and Mr. Scorp are back to basics.....(sex included!! - nothing better to heal and seal a rock-ish start):-) - OK so it wasn't so fairy-talish stuff the second encounter....(but that's to be expected....there's only a certain high peak a girl can scale and you my lady were on Mt. Bleedin' :-)Everest!! after the first fairy-tale encounter...then it has to begin to subside, if you get my drift:-) And for Mr. Scorp to actually "verbalise" his inner feelings to you...well that took courage and guts on his part big time...even if he nearly lost the rammette on the way...but he didn't! did he:-) and now you have him where you want him:-)

As for the escapades at the Club with Mr. A. suddenly showing up - flamin' Nora...you'd win an oscar - I can just see that club...one end Mr. A and his buddis...t'other end Mr. S etc. and you running and hopping all nite, trying to cut yourself in two...but hey job well done, you handled it all so effortlessly:-) with the help of your good pals:-)

So I am going to put you on the spot...hand on heart...if you had at this moment in time to choose ONLY one - Mr. A. or Mr. S. to spend the rest of your life with, who would it be— In cinderella-land, we could cut both of them horizontally down the middle and stick the two halves together so you would continually see half of Mr. A. and half of Mr. S. - best of both worlds- hey!!!:-)

If Mr. A. gets in touch...how you gonna handle him— Will you meet up— Will you divulge about Mr. S— A thousand and one questions:-) and so many possibilites:-)!!!

Everything is A-Ok-ish with Mr. V. - but there was nearly a week for when I wouldn't talk with him....like your story - in new pub with Mr. V. and his friends when suddenly Mr. Sag. (French guy! I had danced with and just kissed a few weeks earlier ) is standing back to back with Mr. V. I hope and pray he won't turn round to see me...nobody listened from above!!- turns round - bit wave etc.. and actually kisses me french- style on both cheeks while sweet-talking...the only saving grace was the very loud music - Mr. V. didn't quite hear what he had to say...anyway, I detangle myself from him and went back to Mr. V - who was in a jealous huff!! I just say - he's only a friend honey!!! Cuh!!! I later had to go home early to attend my sick son and Mr. V. rang later that evening to accuse me of going early to meet up with and fcuk Mr. Sag. who left just before I did!!! So me went into a huff, I diverted my phone saying I had new no. etc. etc. so Mr. V. thought I had moved on from him and didn't want any more contact...anyway, after a week of game playing, I answered my phone and we sorted it out....I was with Mr. V. last nite - we went to local pub...I had a little too much vino to drink...I can't remember the exact details of the passion delights!! Dam:-) - but now I have a problem, call it poetic justice....you might remember that I diverted his cousin's calls to my phone...weeks ago in order for him to ring me...well I then "undiverted" them or so it said in computer-land!!....but hey ho!! now it won't work...I keep getting the cousin's calls all the time....he has family all over the world so I am getting rung up in the middle of the nite from people talking strange language and looking for Mr. L....Mr. V. keeps asking how I am getting his cousins call and I have to keep saying that his cousin must have tapped my no. some way into his diverts....talk about friggin' complications!!!

Anyway, my pal, this lady of contradic

Ok, Parallax...I'll go first. I have no clue what I am "doing" half the time--and doing what with whom? Apparantely I'm not "doing" that either...shucks.

Next-----

Oh Parallax, good question:-)
Well the truth is: I am doing Freebird (we are actually closet lesbians):-)
rrad52 is actually James Tate wife:-)
Cancerbuddy and Q-bone are both having a gay affair:-)
Simplyme and Pato are having an extra-marital affair:-)
Mellow-dee and James 13th are actually inter-bred cousins:-)
And we all meet up once a week and have a gang-bang because we all live in the same house:-)

Fact is stranger than fiction.............:-)

A x

Well, I ditto your comments Freebird! Hello Parallax and welcome to my 'circus' world.

I am gonna quote Ms. Alana X's line of 'minds are for the changing' and changing it does. But not just for me and my ladies.....seems the men in my life keep a-changing as well! Certainly makes life interesting and adventurous but Ms. Ram here is certainly looking forward to things slowing down somewhat in the circus land.

Wanted to stop by and say hello to my beautiful ladies....another busy day awaits me but hope your day is full of sunshine, rainbows, smiles and LOTS of love!!!

Hopefully seeing Mr. Scorp this evening after his game - if not, perhaps on the weekend. Trying to take it 'slow' and learn the art of patience my ladies. Mr. Scorp and I have waited a LONG time to get to this stage and I'm forever hopefull that he and I will make it work this time and have our fairytale ending [sorry, but its that darn Cinderella twin that sits inside me] 😉

Many chapters to 'Secrets of the Heart' have been written and I am so hoping we can finally write the LAST chapter and make it that fairytale ending. Time will tell!!!

Alana - glad to read all is well with Mr. Virgo again and laughed out loud so hard when I read your post about a similar experience at the pub with Mr. Virgo and Mr. Saggie. OMG - too funny my lady. But I have NO doubt you are MORE than capable of handling the 'dodging' game!

As for your VERY spot on question.. "if you had at this moment in time choose ONLY one - Mr. A. or Mr. S. to spend the rest of your life with, who would it be—" - WOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!

But I think my lady already knows the answer to that question. Without any doubt.....without any hesitation....it would be Mr. S. He IS the love of my life and truly the soul I was put on this earth to be with. Whether Cinderalla gets her fairytale ending or not is yet to be written.....but her one true prince will always be Mr. S.

That said........should I hear from Mr. A (or should he appear this wknd at the Club) I will NOT close the door 'just' yet. I want to hear what he has to say to me....I want to also say many things to him. I want us to remain friends so I'm not sure YET if I will share news of Mr. S being back in my life ....for now and only becuz Mr. S has disappeared b4 and left me hanging. I suspect this time is different - but one never knows and until I get to a more 'secure' place with Mr. S.....I will hold that info back. I am totally and completely taken by Mr. Aqua and I love him too in a very different way than I love Mr. S. Mr. Aqua has helped me change for the POSITIVE and he has (and continues) to bring the good out in me. He is very very special to me and I do not want to lose the friendship we have tried to build....and I would welcome the opportunity for us to give that friendship another try and move to another level (as we once did) again should things not work out with Mr. S. I truly do care about him, and want him part of my life!

That all said.....am I being selfish for not closing the door on Mr. Aqua until I know better where things with Mr. Scorp are going? You know my life IS that circus my ladies...so now that Mr. Scorp is around and being attentive, I just KNOW that Mr. Aqua will step forward to complicate things. I don't want to hurt either of them (including myself) so suggestions are VERY welcome!!!!

Gotta run for now my ladies....have a super day and will post soon!!! 🙂

Nat
xoxo

i am so diggin' this thread. the dilema of choosing one over the other sounds alot what i went through a while ago. i don't know if it's possible..life has a mind of it's own. ride the wave as long as you can, and keep those details coming. :-)

I am in charge of snacks for all of you... the popcorn is popping and the drinks will be served momentarily. Anything else—?

junior mints, please.

I'm all over it, Pato!!! Be back in a flash with your mints...

Well hello Duncan world! A warm welcome to Pato and Parallax. So glad you enjoy reading about the adventures of "Secrets of the Heart".

How are my favorite ladies Freebird & Alana doing? I hope you both had a most enjoyable weekend. 🙂

But for those new to the adventures of 'Secrets of the Heart'..... I think my lady Freebird nailed it right when she said its a land of no seatbelts. Among that its also the land of only the strong will survive....a circus land and of course the land of Cinderella as she awaits her Prince and that famous glass slipper indeed!

Wish I had more to report on this Monday morning....unfortunately the next chapter has not yet been written. I have not heard from Mr. Scorp since last Thursday and we didn't end up getting together that night after all. Mr. Aqua did not show up at the Club Fri nite as expected for my cousin's birthday celebration sooooooooo not sure what to tell ya beautiful folks.

Mr. Aqua - he didn't commit to showing up when we saw him last Sat nite. So his lack of appearance (altho somewhat of a disappointment) not a surprise as he warned us he might not be able to make it but that he'd 'try'.

Mr. Scorp - here we go again folks....so hang onto your hats....let go of those seatbelts that you want to strap on cuz Ms. Ram is ready to BLOW her top again! 4 days without contact, 4 days without making any plans to get together....4 days of NOTHING! To some it may seem like a mere '4' days - what's the problem? But to Ms. Ram its a clear sign of just that - HERE WE GO AGAIN! Just becuz he said he's ready to commit to taking 'baby steps' doesn't necessary mean to me NO steps. Am I missing something? Am I just not getting/reading the message clear enuf— How does one move forward (babysteps or not) without ANY contact in 4 days after you tell someone you "L" them—

I am trying to remain calm and cool but admit its real fkcken hard for this Ram to be cool about it cuz when I do hear from him I just want to blast him. But until I 'do' hear from him....I'm not sure what else to say....think....or feel at this point. All I know is it doesn't have to be THIS hard every single time and if he's taken a leap of faith and gone as far as admitting his feelings, admitting to not wanting to be alone and wanting ME in his life - his actions these last 4 days surely don't reflect that now do they?

And before anyone asks........I did call him on Thursday expecting we were getting together. He was tired....had fallen asleep and had a few errands to run. If not too late, we'd get together BUT he'd call me back. To which I have NOT heard anything since.

Sooooooooo my Duncan folks....stay tuned and if ya'all hear some fireworks in your neck of the world.......it will be a clear sign that Ms. Ram blew her top @ Mr. Scorp and have sent him to Kingdom Come land. 😉

Til we meet again soon.........

Cinderella in the waiting
xoxo

Happy Monday to you my Cinderella Lady (my grandmother used to call me that when I was a wee little girl) :-) Maybe it had something to do with the fact that I enjoyed riding around the house with a mop pretending it was a horse--the only thing missing was the bucket, soapy water and me on my knees!!! (me on my knees came later in life *snicker--snicker*)

Oh me- oh my- oh my dear...beautiful rella in "waiting"...if you don't object too much, I would love to have the pleasure of playing one of your "fairy-feathered" Godmommies...you have so many of us out here in cyberville 😉

With my star wand being held in my hand, waving in circles...I am feeling that the very special one and only Cinderella is not being treated as top notch as she should be....first thought...NO WAITING!!! You must move on with your precious life creating each moment my dear...with or without a man. Perhaps the Scorpion has crawled under a rock to rest a bit...to think...to just be...who knows...who cares!!!! What I do know is that ALL men are hunters...they need to "hunt" their prey and you have just now become a smart little fox...see me waving my magical wand up and down and all around with sparkles landing on the incredible you? *pooferooni and zapatoni* a fox you now ARE!!!!

* Anything a person chases in life runs away.
* Sometimes a man deliberately won't call, just to see how you'll respond.
* If you tell him you are not interested in jumping into a relationship with both feet, he will set out to try to change your mind.
* When you alter the routine, your not being there is what will make him come around. Men don't respond to words. They respond to no contact.
* A little distance combined with the appearance of self-control makes him nervous that he may be losing you.
* Men treat women the way they treat other men. They "play it cool" because they don't want to appear weak or desperate.

All of these attraction principles and more are found in the "Fairy-feathered--Godmommy" guide book of relationships by Sherry Argov....I have personally tested out many of these and hunny bunny...they work!!! There will be no more mopping floors for you and before you know it...that missing beautiful glass slipper will soon be slippin on yer footsie and you will be enjoying that long awaited no seatbelt ride in the fantabulous pumkin!!!

Now, hop on the white stallion of a horse over yunder and gallop to the nearest bookstore and grab this incredible book....WHY MEN LOVE cookiemonsterES by Sherry Argov

I have posted this title before on this board and the word *cookiemonster* suddenly appeared...like angels dropping out of the sky...it really is a wonderful book, I promise...please do NOT let the title fool you..it is about "powerful" women and that my Cinderella you are!!!

Time for me to whisk away onto another adventure for now...gotta find the missing toad..someone is needing a kiss 😉

Oh you clever, clever bird....or better put...you clever fairy godmother! Thank you so much for your post....and so nice to know I have a beatiful fairy 'feathered' godmother looking out for me.

Everything you wrote (and quoted) are so true and already tested some of it (before I even had a chance to read your post yesterday). Mr. Scorp called but I let it go to voice-mail and he left me a msg to call him back. I took my time doing so and when I did he asked where I was and what I was doing. Told him I had plans and was out but just getting home etc etc etc. He had hoped we could get together last nite, but I cooly replied "oh well, that would have been nice, and had I known you wanted to, we could have made plans to do so. But I did have other plans. So what does he do— Yup....asked me if I had plans for tonite...to which I replied - no don't think so.....so he ASKS IN ADVANCE to get together tonite!

Let the 'games' begin.......(and I hate that word) but a gal has to do what a gal has to do right? 😉

THANK YOU my beautiful feathered friend for your wisdom. Altho I didn't read your post til today.....great AIRES minds think alike.....or perhaps you waving that magic wand reached me all the way in Canada!!

Will touch base tomorrow........keep spreading that 'ray of sunshine' Bird. But where is my Lady Alana X??

Nat
xoxo

Oh you very, very smart foxy woman!!! I did not need to tell you anything...you have had it ALL the time🙂 No puttin nuthin past you oh wise wonderful sexy Rammella!!! But, thank you very much for your kind words of appreciation my Lady Cinderella--

I believe that we have an innate ability to be clever when needed...(instincts of a woman) Now, doesn't that sound like a good movie title— Give that Mr. Scorp a hunt of a lifetime...when a man works hard to attain the affections of one he admires, adores, loves..he will sure do his best to keep her. You are a prize and he knows just how valuable you are...

Please keep us all posted on your developments as they unfold...I'm gonna sit here in my lovely sparkling white highback soft chair waving my magical wand in your direction...look to the sky for the "sparkling" stars above...that is me sending them to YOU!!!!

Ta-ta for now Rella-Ramella-- my wings are needing to spread and I feel like soaring high above the earth...

Our Lady Alana will hopefully be back tomorrow (Wed.) I miss her too...so very mucho!!

For god's sake....once was enuf!!

My My My.......warning to all readers - you are not just entering Duncan Land - You are entering the world of where 'Secrets of the Heart' and "Instincts of a Woman" are born, lived, laughed, cried and explored. We cannot promise you a safe ride....... but we can promise you it will be full of adventure....where no seatbelts are allowed......but then WAIT......... its also where 'minds are for the changing'!

WOW!!! is all I can say my beautiful ladies Bird and A.X. What a friggin journey we began together indeed! Never a dull moment....and even my Lady Bird is back to flying high above the clouds. I always knew you had a special 'magic' my lady. Must have been when you first displayed your magic carpet rescuing our beloved A.X. from the monster man 😉 What a special, special lady you are!!!!!!!!

And Ms. Alana....Mr. Virgo, Mr. Aires, and now enter an ex Mr. Scorp?? Holly Tamoli!!!!!!!!!!! Talk about a whirlwind life. But would you have it any other way my friend?? Get that Scorp man and I'm sure you already know...intimated or not....they are WORTH every 'inch' of it 😉

Had just a few mins today as its crazy here and gotta rush out today (arrrghhh) but soooo glad I stopped by. YES, YES, YES (3 times YES) had an amazing evening with Mr. Scorp last nite and Cinderella promises to share everything tomorrow, but get this... ALSO got a txt msg from Mr. Aqua touching base...and a call from Mr. Cappie wanting me to go to his hockey game again. I had to obviously decline as I had a date with Mr. Scorp (no, of course I didn't tell him that)....but OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!! This is TRULY TRULY becoming one h.e.l.l. of a THREAD! It's gotta be a full moon as all the foxes are out on the playing field.

Til tomorrow my beautiful friends.....

Happy Friday Duncan World!! 🙂

I didn't have a chance to post yesterday as work has been absolutely CRAZYILY ABSORD lately and today is no better. Once again I have only a few mins to say hello to my favorite beautiful ladies as I always want to keep in touch.....stay connected and find out what's happening in your worlds.

My lady A.X. - are we speaking to Mr. Virgo again yet? Has he come to his senses or have you found some exciting distractions with Mr. Aires or Mr. Scorp?? Details my lady....details!!!

My beautiful Freebird....are you still flying high above the clouds waving that magical wand?? I am so grateful for your 'fairy godmother' guidance - can I get any luckier?? 🙂

As for my evening with Mr. Scorp the other night.....in a nutshell (as I am pressed for time again today)...it was MAGICAL. (See Freebird, your wand DID work all the way in Canada).

Somehow I have resigned myself to something a beautiful Bird indeed told me...enjoy the 'moments'. Mr. Scorp may not have the more 'time' we need together right now (but promises it will come) but the QUALITY time we do spend when we come together is second to none! He continues to say all the right things (babysteps, patience, one day @ a time, we are meant to be together, etc) and I have to just trust that that IS the case. Enjoy each moment as it unfolds and live without any expectations....for now! At the risk of sounding REPETITIVE...he IS the man I was meant to be with so I have to trust that it WILL be and allow things to unfold as they must. I do see a BIG change in him this time around...he is slowly but surely bringing down those walls and allowing me in....sharing more of himself with me than ever b4, more relaxed and more attentive, affectionate when we DO come together. We are more at ease when together...and it - just simply put - feels like where we BOTH belong! Fairytale or not my Ladies....he is Cinderella's true prince - for I am putty in his hands. He melts away all my fears when I am with him. He strips me of my walls, allowing me to be ME....the REAL vulnerable me! Life stands still when I am with him, for nothing else matters when in his arms. We shut out the rest of the world...if only for one nite...but OMG how I wish we never had to part. If I ever doubted Mr. Scorps feelings for me in the past...I doubt them no more. I may doubt his 'actions' at times but have to somehow accept that this is a part of who he is, but when he gives of himself...he gives 100% . That's all I have time to say for today.

Mr. Aqua's text msg the other day was a touching base msg.....'see ya soon' saluation so we'll see if he shows up in Club Land this weekend. As for Mr. Cappie (sweet and all and the invite to his game again)....as I've said b4, friends yes.....but nothing more. 😢

Here's hoping you spend your day/weekend full of happy thoughts, exciting adventures, and plenty of WILD passionate, loving s.e.x. 😉

Nat
xoxo

And a good day to you our leader of WILD passionate, loving s.e.x.!!!!!! Whooooohooooo girlie, what a post! I am so glad that you and your Mr. Scorp are enjoying the moments that life is presenting to you. That is all there is and that is all that we are given and as you are doing...make the BEST of them~ each one!!! What an incredible story you are writing...anybody who strips you with no walls standing and you still feel good also has a glass slipper in his right coat pocket. Becareful tho...it is very delicate and he is holding it close to his heart to share with you at the perfect moment. You may not even know when he slips it on but...you will feel the magical effects from the powers of the slipper. (so you think you have felt magical powers? perhaps you have but these powers are gonna be different..the BEST is yet to come!!!)

Hope your weekend is awesome full of wonder, mystical mystery and lots of love,

Freebird xoxo

freebird, alana, rad:
i read your posts here and the lust for scorps and how you think they are the ones for you. i wrote a bit of what my ex scorp wrote to me last year on the taurus board, trying to help this girl out. please read it. it amazes me how much alike scorpios are, and how much they can make one feel like they are they ones they truely love. i wish you the best with your scorps. they are delicious. i wish i could've kept mine. oh well... onwards and upwards to better things.

freebird,
hello...this has been the longest intermission i've ever experienced. i need more junior mints, and a nice cup of tea..i'm feeling a bit chilly this am.

Heloooooooooooo there to you Natash and all the gang....so sorry I haven't been writing of late but I have just been so dam busy, every which way.....work, life, etc. Have only gotten the time to catch up and read up on all your lives and loves today.

Anyway, Natash....hope you are Mr. Scorp are still baby-stepping yourselves back to our cinderalla ending.....whats the story with mr. aquar and mr. Cap and all the mad Canadian gang you hang round with:-)!!!!

Alot has happened and alot I suppose hasn't happened since last I was on.....
Well last time you might remember that Mr. V. had actually (the audacity of the creature!!!!) told me finito because I hadn't beleived him over a gambling debt issue.....he basically told me I either believed him or I walked...and give me an ultimatum with that tone of voice....and I will walk forever!!!!!.....and so there was no contact for about a week. That weekend I met Mellow-dee from this actual board for the first time for a girly nite out here in Dublin.....we met in city centre....can you imagine it....two aquarians girls on the loose:-) and that girl is certainly a beauty...so we went drinking and clubbing....I won't tell you her story - I will let her do that:-) but mine was I met a guy....black, not black black, honey-ish, he turned out to be a Mr. Aries and I went back to his (as I always do when Mr. V. and I are apart!! - you know now how I operate) and we had a truly lovely nite.....I stayed over, he made me breaky...he wanted for us to go out during the day for another meal..but me only wanted a one-niter - light entertainment:-)....I found him very intelligent, good humour, a big boy!!! and very affectionate:-) - like all ariens....we are still in touch....at about 4.30 am in the hieight of passion - who bloody rings but Mr. V. and asks me to ring him back!!! I didn't- naturally!!! The following nite I went into city centre pub to meet my girlfriend - its her birthday....out of the corner of my eye I see Mr. Virgo's cousin way up the other end but he appears to be by himself...I can't really see as he is in a booth....then my friend enters and I forget...I go up to get a drink from bar and who is sat inside cousin only Mr. V!!! My heart is all a flutter now and weaky tweaky.....although I would win an oscar...I just say to them both - hi how are you...Mr. V. taps the seat for me to sit down beside him but I pretend I don't see and go to bar...return back to my friends and tell them...then I get a text asking why won't I join them for a drink!! I trot up again to their table and wine is ordered....Mr. V. is hardly talking or looking at me and cousin is all talk...he says HE misses me - long time no see!!! I just say well that's your cousin's choice!!! - that's the way he wants it....immediately Mr. V. begins to talk talk....still convinced I am wrong over the debt..blah blah....goes on an on and on and on.....I give as good as I get.....anyway the girls are going off clubbing and calling me to come with them...I tell Mr. V. I have to go....it's a girly nite birthday thing...and just peck him on cheek (I could have gone down on him then and there he looked so dam good, but you know me...the ice-maiden cometh!!! Anyway, go over to our club, I go to toilets...I get a text from my pal...the two musketeers have followed us over!!! What can I do...we all go down to the disco....there follows another heated discussion about the gambling topic - Mr. V. puts his arm round me while he talks 90 to the dozen about how I am so wrong blah blah...a slowy comes on...I pull him on the dance floor....and the rest is history:-)!!! We are lost again in each others eyes...back to his - to be honest I got so drunk that nite - can't remember the passion:-)!!!

Mr. V. then left on the Wednesday to go home for a week to his country for his sister's wedding.....last time he went home he never rang for 3 weeks and I finsished with him over that..this time round he's b

PS Meant to thank you personally Duncan for your "elimanation" procedure...I think only you and I know what we are talking about so thank you for that....as I said...too small a place and too large the eyes!!!

alana...you are my hero. i need to find and connect with that "ice" gene inside me. it truly seems to work. i'm reading that book that someone mentioned a while back... why men love cookiemonsteres. it's great, but i'm just too much of a softy. i need help..so thanks for the inspiration. :-)

Hello to all my Duncan pals! Ms. Cinderella has returned - but only for a brief moment as I'm playing catchup at work today with having been out of the office for over a week now.

I did not get a chance to post I was taking some vacation before I left (in the midst was a planned girls trip to celebrate my best pals 40th birthday bash.) We got back last Wed, but it was also a holiday here in Canada on Thurs, July 1st (Canada's birthday) so we had a LONG weekend, and just back to work today - YUCK!!!!!!

Will hopefully get a chance to post some further updates later this week, but will say this much - not sure where things are at with Mr. Scorp. If I was writing this 2 days ago - it would be a different post than it will be today (plus I truly don't have too much time today). Altho I have seen him since I got back in town - alot happened before I left, to which he even called me while I was away with the gals. He's been very attentive and calling daily since I returned home Wed and made plans to get together Thurs & Sat nite before all heck broke loose last nite. I swear this man goes from one extreme to another with his behavior & moods and I am feeling extrememly sensitive and hurt by it today. I love and hate him in the same breath. Amazing!!!

Again, hate to drop this crap and run....but will post again as soon as I have a chance to "breathe" here at work.

Freebird - miss ya my beautiful bird. How are you??

Alana - full of excitement and adventure always my friend. Missed ya too!!

Pato - welcome to my screenplay. So sorry for the long intermission, but hang on as I'm sure the next scene will more than make up for it.

No mints for me tho, no popcorn, no gummy bears.....just a box of tissues....sorry, but I've always been sucker for a good tear jerker ending!!! 🙂

Gotta go for now folks......but will return shortly!

Nat
xoxo
xoxo

Hi Nat and welcome back!!! You were so missed my Cinderella-fella friend..glad all is well...and, Happy Birthday to Cananda...how old might she be? What do you do to celebrate her special day? Are you like JT..part-a-ing down and gettin drunk? Share details....please--I love to hear about a good party!

Oh the woes of a relationship with the male species..never a dull moment--and for an Aries, I know this can be maddening at times but it sure does stimulate your noggin doesn't it? I am looking forward to hearing about you and the scorp...what events lie on the pages of your story...soon to unfold and delight us. For now, we will sit back and enjoy the intermission.

Pato....my aplogies for the delay in getting the mints and tea for you...I must admit to you that while I had grabbed them in my awesome beautiful bird claws...the box had opened unexpectedly and the mints went flying all over the place---this is where my precious beak came into perfect use.....yes, I did it---I ate them all. I found myself taking a leave of absence as I had one unbearable yucky stomach ache!!! BUT, never fear--Freebird is here and with your special request. So, have a sit, eat and drink and soon Nat will be back to share the next episode of ~Cinderella and the Wild Scorp Loose in a Pumkin~

And for you dear Nat...here are your tissues. I found the ones that have lotion in them or some kinda stuff that will keep yur purty wittle nose soft and touchable...got 'em right here under my wing...hopefully, you will not need to use them.

Not much new with me....except one of my Saggie buddies swears that we are going to get married..I say "no way!" he says, yes we are, you just don't know it yet. Okie-dokie. My Cappy pal has finally realized that he and I do not have a future so he has gone to his cave for awhile...I have found that I am enjoying eating pistachios (correct spelling?). That about covers this birds life..I am presently reading the book, The Five People You Meet in Heaven by Mitch Albaum. Good read.

Ta-ta for now my friends...hurry back everyone!!!

Lots of love,
Freebird

My dearest Pato...thanks for all your interjections....always delighted when the rest of the gang get involved, esp you:-)
As for being your hero!!:-)...oh my....well I don't think I will be yours or any one else's hero for that matter tomoro when I get proper time to tell you my story over what's happened over the weekend etc. Never put me on a pedestal..I fall off way too easily....:-) I am the proverbial fallen angel!!! Don't go out to buy that ice gene....I have a freezer load at home.....will put one in there for you tonite and send it to you via dreamland:-) - they are way too pricey...as I have discovered to my own cost!!!
As for being a being a b.i.t.c.h. - it is not so much about being bad or mean or even out to hurt your guy in any way. It's more an attitude thingy. It's quite simply being unpredictable!! being extremish!! a drama-queen when least expected!! and not being willing to make the first move to "get back" after a bust-up (being slighly unavailable)....for some reasons guys love it.....bottom-line from angel to slut in the blink of an eye!!:-)
Rememrber good girls go to heaven! Bad girls go everywhere:-)
Natash, Freebird, Pato - etc. will try tap the story tomoro
Chin up Natash - I am that soldier with you at the moment!!

A x

Oh I get so frustrated..I want to tell you guys and gals all the ins and outs but I just don't have the friggin time in this office with the boss a-hovering so here goes anyway - as quick as I can.

Mr. V. came back home last week from his country after his siter's wedding....showed me photos of his 5 brothers at the wedding (cuh....if only I could get my hands on them or they on me:-)!!! The sister was equally beautiful also...damn her!!!!:-) had a nice re-union nite....you know how it goes:-)

Next day I get all dollied up - it all came together for me - hair, clothes, makeup...and I knew I could stop traffic!!! Overall had a great day at our other pal Mr. Virgo's wedding....everyone got on fine even though there were different nationalities there:-) I smiled to myself but said nothing when I heard one particular person say about the bridegroom that he was a great guy (which he is!!) and that she was lucky to be marrying someone who isn't a womaniser!!(unfortunately that bit ain't true...this particular virgo has had more ladies, even when engaged!!, than hot dinners!!!) Eveyone said I looked great but I was annoyed that Mr. V. never made one comment on how I looked (so that was filed away for consumption later)!! Next morning as he is upstairs making breakfast, I am scrambling around on his bedroom floor looking for a lost earring (again snoop doggy dog is a-sniffin!!!) - how many times here have I swore that I will never open a wardrobe or locker or his!!! I open his locker and find - yes you have guessed it!!! an unopened packet of condoms....f.hell he has been screwing around me thinketh...(my purer than the driven snow coat is thrown round me immediately - me forgetheth that I was with Mr. Black Aries a few weeks ago!!!) and I confront him...he tells me that they are my friend's- he bought them as a birthday joke a few weeks previous for her in a nite club we were all in for her birthday - she forgot them and he put them in his pocket when she left!!! It sounds a chicken and bull story....I don't believe him...tell him I am second to nobody..yada yada and prance out of house...I wont take his calls all day or nite....anyway turns out following day when I ring my friend that everything he said is correct...he did buy them for her...she did leave them at the table and saw him pocket them as he left....Alana has to eat humble pie and say sorry to Mr. V. on the phone - he is not impressed!!

Go out later that nite and he is in a foul mood because of what happened..he wont talk, kiss, look or romance me in any way...talks his own language to his cousin all nite...then we bump into his other cousin who confronts him over a gambling debt he didn't pay and he knows he has been found out now in a lie to me which makes him even more distant and non-communicative....we eventually go home....he wants jiggy jiggy immediatley even though he has barely said a word...no way hozay....one thing leads to another....basically I say he doesn't love me, never makes an effort, is not there for me emotionally....he says I never initiate anything romantically with him but he does everything for me!!! cuh!!! I end by saying I need time away from him to reflect and think about who and what I really want in my life, what is best for him and me - I aks him to take time out to think what he really wants....he keeps saying he only wants me...why do I need time out?....I end by telling him I do love him but maybe that's not enough.......he's rang a couple of times since but I answer and hang up...I don't really know what to say anymore to Mr. Virgo - becasue I don't really know who or what I want anymore....I think the wedding may have brought up buried feelings and memories for me....as I say I am a mixed up chick at the mo....me thinketh I will have to drive in reverse for a while..ie lose my senses and come to my mind!!!! forget the heart and let the head rule and return to headland.....I need to think, think thin

Hello my fellow Duncan pals! Ms. Cinderella has returned to write the next pages of "Secrets of the Heart"!

Are you ready—?

But first things first.......

Freebird my lady, you are so special to me! You have no idea how warm and comforting your words provide to me. Perhaps becuz we are fellow Arians, I feel you soooo understand me most times! Hope things with your Saggie 'friend' progress as YOU wish my lady! But what a combo that would be (Saggie/Aires) ooo-laaaaaa-laaaaa - talk about HEAT!! And a sincere thanks for getting me some of those SPECIAL tissues with lotion. They so help out with the dry wrinkles that come from plenty of tears at times. Have missed you my friend 🙂

FYI - (and thanks for asking) Beautiful Canada celebrated its 137th birthday on July 1st. Its YOUNG, VIBRANT, but oh sooooo BEAUTIFUL and we celebrated with a beautiful display of FIREWORKS baby....PLENTY of fireworks down by our waterfront!

Alana - my beautiful fallen ANGEL....or Miss "Attitude". Hog Wash I say....you're not-a-foolin this Ram. Ice melt my beautiful friend.....just need the RIGHT person who knows how to melt that ice in proper fashion. You are warm, friendly, vibrant, honest & direct, but ohhhh soooo sexy of a beauty queen! Heaven is where you are a going my lady.....for you are much much too SPECIAL to go anywhere but where ANGELS go!!! I just read your post about all that has recently happened with Mr. Virgo as I was just about to post my message (and a LONG one to boot - talk about yattering on and on - but I do it so well).

Perhaps you also have another chapter in the writing Ms. A? Taking time out and putting things into perspective is something we all need to do at times. But if you believe what Mr. Virgo has said, try and move past it but at the same time totally understand that 'shadow of doubt' so to speak. But search your heart my lady and NOT your head. Our head is logical and practical....and I deem you to be a bright star but our hearts see nor hear logic when it comes to loving someone. Thats not to ignore the bad qualities, or ignor our own needs, it merely to ignore the 'fear' that our head sometimes instills in us. Our heads can convince us of anything it wants (ie. becuz its logical/practical). But only our heart truly knows what's right/wrong for us my lady. Take all the time you need to make the right choice. I look forward to hearing the next chapter of your exciting life! 😉

Pato - get ready my new friend as INTERMISSION is over. There are TWO scenes....that of which Ms. Alana has just written.....and of course, that of Ms. Cinderella................Ms. Cinderella begins:

Before my trip with my gal pals I did not hear from Mr. Scorp for FIVE days (and I'm getting a little tired of having these WOW nites with him, then him disappearing and making NO contact for days after). I 'intentionally' did not remind him of my upcoming trip as a means to see if HE remembered. Anyway, he called me the nite before I was leaving wanting to get together to which Ms. Ram put on her ACADEMY award performance.....played it calm, cool, made NO mention of his lack of contact........and said I would have loved to, but busy tonite. When he asked doing what? I went in for the kill.......reminded him this was the long weekend I was going away with the girls, how excited I was, I needed to run some errands to get ready for my trip, pack, etc etc etc. He asked TONS of questions, who I was going with again, WHY was I going, WHERE was I staying, WHEN am I coming back. I couldn't have been more proud of myself for handling it in the manner I did. I did not once quiver, did not once show my disappointment in his lack of calling me, did not once show him I had counted the days/hours/minutes until he DID call. I was continuing with my life and NOT sitting still waiting for him. That message was clear...and I believe it hit him good! You'd be so

WOW WOW WOW - what a story, what a woman...you write so well and with feeling Natash...about the ups and the downs and the fireworks....yep!! saw them over here not so long ago also:-)

First off....well done - we award you here actress of the year for your preformance on the phone to Mr. S. the nite before you left for the girly weekend:-) Gold statuette winging its way to Can:-)!!! And also for the manufactured "left my phone at the hotel" line next day:-) - gosh you are learning the art of being a superbtich fast and furious:-)!!!

And then you had wonderful phonecalls, touchy touchy times at the movies...stolen kisses.....the stuff that fairy-tales are made of......and both of you literally go on an "Endorphin" high...coz that's what "chemically" anyway, love is....a rush of certain chemicals to the brain:-)

Then family day and cherry picking day occurs and you can't wait to see your guy - but what you got to rmember is that highs can't last too long....(for everything there are peaks and troughs!!) - As high as you go, you must go that low later - it's a natural law.....and so you gave him the massage of your life (and no we don't think you funny at all when you were nearly moved to tears....we all go weak in the presence of beauty)....so having gave your all, of coruse you expect to him now to give his all to you in bed....but he didn't live up to expectation...and naturally you get upset and go into cold sarcastic mode (most women do when they sense their needs are not being met). But now we gotta step into the mindset of that man or guys in general...(he had a hard day's work, was all achy-breaky all over....and basically just wanted a quick fcuk...probalby to relieve the tension all over his body!!! 99.9 % of men would probably have behaved in same manner....you probably shouldn't have taken it so personally or sensitively....perhaps you should have acceted it...but made sure to stay over and get your morning delight next morning....but that's all in hindsight now - we cna't rewrite hisotry nor would we want to!!!! So cold Natash prances out of house (oh you remind me of me ice-lady!!) and natually next day both of you know deep down, that you have let one another down in a certain area...and now you are in the trough!!! He won't talk about it....and the more you try, the more he won't...it's a classic....(your lucky in one way about that - I know Mr. Virgo would want to talk and analyse it for 5 hours if I say i want to talk about anything bad! he did - but he's of a differnt planet than most!!) but hey, all is certainly not lost...you sexy btich!!! woman of substance, you can be certain of one thing now that you are in the valley or trough the next peak or high is automatically just roundthe corner for your next experince:-)!!! Yes, yes, he shouldn't have brushed you off....and I know it hurt you to the core...but the core will slowly but surely heal......my advice for what it's worth...as you say, don't ring...men respond to lack of contact rather than words (as the wise Freebird always says and it is so true)..but call he will, don't make too big a deal or talk or think yourself into a crisis...it's only a spit, a megabyte blip in the grand scheme of things....overall 90% of the time everything seems to be going swimmingly well:-) for both of you.....it was another time...another place....today is can be sparkly new for you both if you choose....choose sparkles:-)

My tale since yesterday....well I did something last nite - very Alana-ish!!! Mr. Black-guy Aries had been texting since my "light entertainment" nite asking to meet again. And honey, I did last nite. I went over to his. As you know yourself being an arian, romance is paramount.....he had the scence burning and candles a-blowing in the wind!!! Soft music and dim lights (this man doesn't drink! so I was wine-less for once!!) Said he had missed me since last time (felt that there was someone else in my life -

Hello to you my beauties..........and welcome to the next saga of sagas:-) So my wonderful rammette Natash...what has happened since last we cyber-ed!! I bet you and Mr. Scorp have reconnected somehow!!! And what of the wonderful Mr. Aquarius—? Is he still wonderful?:-)

My weekend was quite eventful:-)!! As you know, it was "time-out" week from Mr. Virgo (in between which I sandwiched in one nite of passion with the new-ish Mr. Aries)....by Saturday I needed a girly nite out:-) Mr. Aries is texting asking me out - I don't reply and an ex Mr. Pisces is texting asking for a drink....in the meantime none of my girly pals are available..all tied up with other stuff...me gets dollied up anyhow sure that I will bump into someone inn city centre I know. About 8-ish my phone rings and guess what! Never! It's Mr. Virgo. In the beginning I am cool, he is wondering just what did he do wrong...blah di dah....I begin to slightly melt when he says he wants me now...and flamin nora shortly after we have phone sex...he says get a taxi over honey to my place. So as there was no-one else to go out with...I did:-) 99% of population would talk and talk about what happened over a row but Mr. V. doesn't beleive in this..he believes no matter what type of row lovers have...when you meet up, you immeidatly have jiggy jiggy, then the barriers are down and then you heart to heart....so we did and it worked:-) We went out that nite to club, on the way, bloody Mr. Aries rings when we are on the bus and I have to talk a kind of gibberish to him so Mr. V. won't cop on! Next I bump into his arch-enemy on the main street (who used fancy me) - another near miss!!! Mr. V. is all over me this time in club, yellow rose, lovey dovey, attention personified!!!...trying to make up for previous week!!! I lap it up:-) ON the way home, the "Chat" or "interrogation" begins...how could I walk out on him, He did nothing wrong...He loves me..he would marry me tomoro...yikes, tikes and silver bikes..me lets that sentence go over my head at the speed of lightning!!!....that nite we didn't have jiggy jiggy - can honestly say, we "made love" - he was the tenderest he's ever been....Nearly get caught out on sunday morning when my phone rings and we are in bed and it's the other Mr. Aries...him of the Christmas period episode!!! Had to pretend it was my Dad..when he said hi darlin' how are you and then hang up!!!So Sunday nite we had an equally nice nite, ended up dancing in his place with other couple to his country's version of top of the pops!!! Talk about 4 loo-las!!! Last nite we had a few spats!!!! Silly-billy stuff really but it ended with me prancing out the house again....over the condom issue - he pretended he hadn't any when I knew he had and I get all huffy puffy - then as I walk out of house he produces the packet!!!! He rang this morning and I was very curt, but my mother was beside me and I couldn't actually talk....now the dam boy is not answering his phone to me...to get me back!!! Will try call him again tonite...if he doens't answer after two phonecalls, I stop. And I know, when I stop...he will begin..and that is my life...Mr. V. - love, fites, Mr. V., some more lovin' and fites and again Mr. V. (nites of light entertainment when he hurts me and then Mr. V. again...if I am sounding like groundhog day to myself..I bet I am souding SO groundhoggish to you and all the gang........I might ring my ex Mr. Cap tonite - really want to hear about his life - he's so fcukin intelligent....it's a turn-on and I also intend to ring that other guy I bumped into in the city center...Mr. V's arch-enmey - I just want to hear how he's doin!! he's a pal of the Mr. Scorp. I told you about that I am seeing most nites on my bus.....oh the cheek of me:-)!!!
Anyway, overall, I am happy to be back with Mr. V. - we tried to analyse why we fite so much last Sunday nite...he said I over-react to and go crazy to what he says and won't talk enough l

SOS where are you...where are you—:-) Searching the Canadian Alps for you with the Canadian mounties....oh what boys!!!

Not much to report today....last nite on bus, once again Mr. Scorpio gets on....smirks.....and sits a few seats up....I pretend I don't see him....we get off at same bus-stop, he stops to light a ciggy (Me thinketh so I will say hello to him) but I just skip by him and walk as quick as possible to my house....he's the one guy that intimidates me!! Oh yeah, just as we are about to get off, he is in front of me...I spray a little bit of perfume on me that he used to love....hmmmmm:-) Scent of a woman and all that!!!!

I had a few glases of wine last nite and rang my ex Mr. Cap - chatted for about 45 minutes - just filler-in stuff on life (he never talks about his love life to me or if he does always says, you know me A...I always work too hard to have any time for that stuff!! - Cuh - yeah right...I am equally as evasive although he has seen me with Mr. Virgo a couple of times recently...he says nout.....it's lovely lovely flirty banter....so glad we are still friends:-)

Then me ringeth my goodest buddy virgo pal from this board...Q-bone, yes the one and only....he's a delight to talk to...and to look at I remind him:-) What a man:-) what a file!!

Then me thinketh it's time to ring bad-boy Mr. V! I do and his phone keeps cutting out...I think he is cutting me off and closing his phone on purpose and get all annoyed even before we talk proper...eventually when I do get thru, he says his phone's signal is a bit funny all nite..he keeps losing all his calls!!! He starts going on about the condoms again and again and again and again...I am all-condomed out!!!! Next he got real uppity and said - and anyway I will do what I want with them...throw them in the bin, put them in the cupboard, do what I want.....I reply...Oh yeah, is that right...well you go do what you want with them but you aren't going to fcuk me around....and then I hang up!

So there you go girlies.....nothing resolved yet....options open:-) weekend a-cumin!!! and life is sweet:-)

Tune in tormor.

A x

Hello my lady Alana - so sorry I have not posted sooner. No SOS required....Ms. Cdn. Alp was on training course these last 3 days and only returning to the office today but CRAZY busy playing catchup so have only a brief moment to post.

I promise to write more on your posts about Mr. Virgo, hopefully tomorrow........but oh the games we continue to play when we both know you and Mr. V are so meant to BE. Mr. Aires, Mr. Cappie, and even Mr. Bus-Stop Scorp himself is not where your heart sits my lady. Forgive my mood today please, as I sit in a reflective state, searching for my own answers. Again, I hope to add more value to my post tomorrow than I've done today.

As for me and Mr. Scorp - wish I could say we have come together and worked out our little mishap, but seems he's STILL in that 'do not disturb' mode. That's right - still no contact. I sit with sadness as this man continues to hurt me - yet I know without any doubt that he does love me (isn't that sick or what?) Not sure what to do my lady......this no contact is slowly but surely making me sick inside, but I continue to have patience because I miss him so much, continue to feel he is so close to me, yet so far away, but believe I will hear from him soon.

I have even begun to write him a letter (not sure I will actually mail it) but I have come to the conclusion that I must say all that I need & want to say to him for I may never get the chance again. We are so similar in many ways it scares me so and as much as I am afraid to love again (for fear of being hurt once more) I am much more afraid NOT to love and be loved by this man. As I know there is no greater love for me than he. So what I seek is help to understand what steps I should be taking to help him find that same clarity and the courage to move forward for we are meant to be. If our relationship was not what either of us wanted, needed, and desired - I do not believe each of us would have, once again, opened our hearts and my heart continues to tell me that this time, it will be!!

Apologies again for the mushy, melanchony mood but so want to reach out to him as I feel we are both sitting on the edge, on the very brink of what will either make this happen for us or break us (once and for all).

Mr. Aqua, and Mr. Cappie are both still afloating around in their own lands. Sometimes making contact, sometimes seeing them 'around'.....yet until I know what the outcome with Mr. Scorp is, I cannot even think of looking elsewhere. I cannot handle any 'in-betweens' right now my lady. I only want to be with Mr. Scorp for he is the one my heart belongs to. And even tho his distance and lack of contact hurts me so much, I know without any doubt what truly resides within his heart - a man capable of loving me like no other.

A doman my beautiful friend.......xoxo

Nat

Hello Duncan world - so where are my beautiful ladies Alana and Freebird?

Freebird - perhaps Alana and I should be sending out an SOS for your return? Are you enjoying yourself flying high somewhere? Have you found a peacful land above the clouds where you wish to remain away from the uglies of what's called 'land'— Looking forward to hearing all that is going on in your life my friend.

So my exciting friend Alana - how was your 'options open' weekend? Did you hook up with Mr. Virgo? Are you both still in the 'no speaking' mode or did you find a safe haven to come together once more?? Also awaiting to hear about your exciting weekend and any further developments with Mr. Virgo et al.

As for Cinderella, she did finally hear from her Mr. Scorp on Thurs evening (amazing just after I posted my last msg). He must be physic!!!!! 😉

Me playith cool once more.....small idel chit chat....no mention of our last 'brushing me off' conversation. We made plans to get together on Friday nite and that is where we had the conversation needed that has been brewing for the last week or so. We had dinner, PLENTY PLENTY of vino....and the motor mouths began. He even opened alot more........confessed to his mood and his FEARS once more and altho he believed he could hurt no more...how I react to him, DOES hurt him. We spoke of NO promises....only of our fears and how we pave the way to moving forward. Perhaps writing that letter to him helped ME put things into perspective and search for clarity cuz it just flowed out of my mouth. He sat and listened, he spoke from HIS heart, and OMG (at the risk of sounding oh so repetitive) what this man does to me. I can honestly say....this time I truly believe he's trying to do HIS part (even tho old habits die hard) and at the same time (as I also said to him), perhaps the universe continues to bring us together so we can both help each other work thru our fears, bring down our walls, and allow ourselves to just love each other. To remove all the old baggage we both carry....and just trust that what we are feeling and seeing is real.

Anyway, its been a slow process for Mr. Scorp and I....but I have to continue to believe that our love is strong enuf to endure this process and come out with flying colors! We are so good for each other....and so bad for each other. Its amazing! But the tender, loving, affectionate, and GIVING lover of mine returned on this evening. Yes, my lady "A"........it was ALL good and I got 'mine' this time around as you stated in your post.

So I leave you for today....gotta get back to work but Cinderella is feeling back on a HIGH today but feeling more sure and confident that the glass slipper is on order and will be delivered sometime soon. No waiting, no expectations, no hurry.......just reassurance that life with Mr. Scorp is unfolding as it should and each 'moment' we share (good or bad) helps bring us together stronger and more determined to get it right this time. I'm sure plenty more chapters are in the writing (and again, some good and some will be not so good) and can only continue to hope that my beautiful Duncan friends stay on this ride with me.

FYI - Mr. Aqua is still MIA. His friends have indicated he isn't gettin out much. Last time he called me he said he missed talking to me...and he would call again soon so we could get together - it has not yet unfolded.

Mr. Cappie - seems to have found 'excitment' somewhere else. Have seen him around with a new 'girlie' and lets just say he is making it obvious to me that there is someone new. I have no patience for this 'childish' games. I wish him well........as I said in other post - my heart resides with Mr. Scorp and seeing this thru to the end.

Until we chat again my fav ladies!!

Nat
xoxo

Hello to you our Cinderella happy ever after glass slipper ram:-) and so nice to read your posting......equally glad to read you are on a high again after the downer of the previous!!! Isn't life strange...you are on a high one minute, then your lover does something that kicks you in the heart and you feel you will never ever again feel or want to be with them - no matter what!! And then the fairy waves her magic wand and you begin to sour once again....always remember what a differnce 24 hours can make to any situation.....everything in the end turns out well and if it doesn't, then it isn't ended!!!

So glad that our good friend "Vino" was at the table too and helped loosen the tongues.....it's a gift at times like that, isn't it...and writing your letter probably sharpened your mind to what you wanted to say and say it so eloquently...hey and I am so glad you got your "bit"!!! You say he brings out the best and the worst in you...I myself feel that is one indicator that it's true love...you ain't afraid to show yourself at your worst - you're shameless....that is good:-) that is the best.

Glad too that you ain't pining away too much for Mr. Aquar...however delicious he is....he kind of missed the boat!! didn't he!!! And glad too that Mr. Cappy has new girly:-) - sure why not!!!

My weekend came and there was no call from Mr. Virgo and even though I was mostly to blame, I wouldn't ring him! I decided another girly nite was due me so her got dollied up accordingly and headed to meet my two pals in city centre. They are a little late and I am sitting in bar having one glass of wine...suddenly an aparition appears in front of me and sits opposite...It's very strange....He is so like Mr. Virgo - same eyes, smile, and even a pony-tail. He aks do I know you? I reply No, I don't think we met...anyway, he sweet-talks me and I realize he is from the same country as Mr. Virgo...I throw in some small talk in his language and he is impressed:-) Then he asks for my no. - I give it - although at back of my mind there is a nagging doubt that he may know Mr. Virgo in some way or is even related...they just look too darn similar!!
Onto the club with my girlies and next shock....who do-eth I see standing at the stairs looking over only Mr. Scorpio (him who is always on my bus home and him who I was with for 2 months 2 years ago until he announced that his fiancee was flying in!! - cuh!!) He never ever ever in a thousand years comes to this club but he is here tonite....I feel I am being stalked!!! We accidentally on purpose ignore each other but dance back to dance a few times accidentally on purpose!!! I leave the club and my phone rings - it's Mr. Virgo...."I want to see my best friend Alana now" he says....as Alana hadn't clicked with anyone, I decide I really do want to see him too - we are actually on the same street talking and don't know it!! We meet up....he is two shades in the wind and is trying to kiss all the way home, like a teeny-bopper!!!! Anyway, we make it home and talk some....he says if I don't want him that nite, I need only sleep with him - he loves to sleep with me and that is the best for him....(me too:-) I love sleeping in that man's arms - needless to say, sleep wasn't the only activity that nite!!! Spend Sunday nite with him again (had to duck and dive with the phone when his look-alike rang to ask me out for drink - cuh)......was supposed to meet Mr. Virgo Tuesday but there was a misunderstanding and both of us went into huffs...however I rang him last nite (Yes, yes yes!! her actually rang!!) and once again I wound him up and he got huffy and I closed my phone in another huff (I had a few glasses of wine on me and when I do I tend to tease alot - at one stage when his ego was talking, I said..listen, you're not exactly Brad Pitt are you!!! He'd fcukin leave Brad Pitt in the half-penny place anyday but he don't know that:-)....anyway, all is well, I once again rang him at

Hello my dearest Alana - another work week full of chaotic/crazy schedules, meetings. Arrrghhh gotta win me that darn lottery already cuz this working sucks!!

Where'o'where is my lady Freebird? Long time since she posted 'here' and just want to make sure all is ok in Freebird land— Have I lost a special friend?
😢

So Ms. Alana - tell me please of your nite with Mr. Virgo where you were to tell him all that you wanted and especially about the no more 'huff n puff' stuff. Details!!!!

As for Cinderella - everything seems to be moving along just fine for now with Mr. Scorp. As you said Alana - trying to enjoy the 'moments' and not fester so much - but not always easy. But this upcoming weekend is a long one for us (an extra day off as its a civic holiday) so looking forward to doing/seeing LOTS of Mr. Scorp as he's been working much to much lately (as have I) and I think we both need some major time off, along with some major R&R (romp & MORE romp) 😉

Short visit today.....gotta get back to work but wanted to say hello to you my lady A....and to the MIA Freebird!

Thinking of you both........and hoping its a smiling sunshine day for ya both! 🙂

Nat
xoxo

Hello to you my dearest natash.......and so nice to read your last post as ususal......I really hope you had a great weekend with your Mr. Scorp......plenty of love, lust and addiction and you gettting your bit!!!! The bird is fine...she's on her hols at the moment but said she would pop into an internet cafe at some stage so sure hope she does......sure hope she does!!! You seem darn busy these days.....I know the feeling...don't feel under pressure to post - if you can you can, if you can't you can't...but I love it when you do:-)

To fill you in....well kiddo, the end has finally come. THE END - after 2 years and 20-ish days, I have finally decided that it must end between me and Mr. Virgo and I know you and the rest of the gang are probably smiling ruefully - saying yeah, yeah, we' ve heard all this before from Ax - but this time everything is different for me - copernically different!!! Paradigm-shift!!!! WOW - look that one up!!1

When I was with Mr. V. last Thursday - talk about Dublin being a small place!!!...he was quieter than ususal when I was with him and after jiggy jiggy, I knew there was something up....he wouldn't say what for ages...and then after much coaxing....he said, do you always go round giving your tel. no. to guys my country x (his country!!) and then going off for a fcuk with them if they even say hello to you!!....me kneweth then that I had been rumbled with other Mr. Ponytail guy from previous week - (even though I didn't fcuk him)!!! OK so technically I suppose I shouldn't have given him my no. but at that stage on the Sat. nite, Mr. Virgo hadn't called so I was "a free-ish agent"! I told him he was wrong...blah blah, I didn't fcuk...anyway, he told me I had no respect for myself blah blah...I was NOT/NEVER to say hello to any guy...I say listen I am 38 years of age...I will say hello to whoever and whatever, whenever I want to....then I turned the tables on him and said and what kind of man are you that you would let someone say a bad thing like that about me...without defending me—....one thing led to another....I found the tears running down my face...mascara and hair every which way!!! Although he tried to calm me, and back-track a bit, I just walked out...I didn't hear from him since.
And then something strange and surreal happened on Monday when Mr. Virgo. is supposed to be at work....as I walked down Dublin's main-street in the afternoon...who pops up in front only Mr. V. I was with my son so I just veer out of his way and cross the road immediately - I don't want a show-down in frong of my son....we are trying to hide...4 times in about an hour I keep bumping into him in different back streets...it's like I am in a maze and I keep returing to the centre to find Mr. Virgo!!! (I am not following him and he's not following me)...at one stage I see him entering into a gambling shop - (his fav. haunt!) - I enter behind him and say..see your still gambling your life away XX!! I don't wait for any response....just trot off with my son and get on bus....again very strange, as my bus pulls off and even though it's so crowded, Mr. V. is standing at another gambling shop, he sees me on bus and stares and I just stare back...last nite I lay awake for hours, thinking, thinking, thinking, - up till now Mr. V. has been my drug...but last nite I saw it, almost visionary-like, I have to and can finish and want to finish with Mr. V. In the vision, I see me walking down this tunnell, Mr. V. is at the end of the tunnel but he is tied in rope just at the end - he can't move forward or backward. Just beyond him there is a whole new world or vista....I know I can walk past him and into this new world without him and it will still be good. I know this sounds corny but this is exactly how I saw the dream or whatever it is...Then and there I know my world is not his world...his world is full of gambling, drink, casinos, clubs, poker, shady characters - full of no responsibility, c

WOW! What have I missed my lady Alana? I know things have been busy here at work, and have not had time to post or read posts here as often lately but OMG my lady - what do you mean its OVER with Mr. Virgo— Are you sure this is what you truly want? What is Mr. Virgo saying to all this? More details please.....just want to make sure my lady is doing ok, and is making this decision with clear mind and not re-active to some argument??

You know whatever you decide Alana....I am here to support YOU my friend. Just want to ensure you are sure that its time to call it quits with Mr. Virgo. You have shared ALOT with him.....does it need another glance before your final decision— I await further news on how you're doing....and how you spent your weekend - rock'n'rolling I hope with pals....and breakin hearts everywhere u go! 😉

Looking forward to hearing from Freebird when she gets back from holidays. If you're talking to her offline....pass along my hello and warm wishes to her.......she is greatly missed!!!

As for Cinderella here.......had a great LONG weekend with pals....clubbing, bbq's...plenty of outdoozy stuff and weather wise - almost perfection! But sad to say 😢 did not see my Mr. Scrop as he was away at a tournament but he did call while away...and hopefully seeing him tomorrow nite if all goes well. Trying to take each day as it comes....enjoy each moment as it unravels, but all with a POSITIVE attitude of what is meant to happen.....meant to be....will unfold o'natural!

Ok, who am I kidding...this Aires Ram take each moment as it comes? 😉...........all I can say is I wish at times I could push up the speed dial........but I'ze 'trying' to learn the art of patience, but DO have more calmness this time around with Mr. Scorp and not so much the 'fear' I had in the past. Perhaps my physce recognizes things are 'different' this time around.....and I guess its me that also different and taking a more relaxed approach....as Mr. Scorp and are gonna enjoy this dance of our to completion all awhile letting things unfold one day @ a time, perhaps cuz I believe this is meant to be....so just 'let it be'—

Gotta run for now but will check back later to see if you've posted Alana...and to know you're doing ok??

(((((HUGS))))))
Nat
xoxo

Where are you Natash?
What's hapapening?
WE miss you?
I've been on hols myself for past three weeks.
Love-wise Mr. Virgo is gone, gone, gone - but tries to connect via phone-land.
God, you won't believe it but just as I write this post, my mobile just rang and his no. is showing up. Me not answereth!! He rang 21 times last nite!!! The dam man is wasting my bloody battery...!!hey but what's a battery when your minus a Mr. Virgo:-)!!!
But this lady no longer answers that loo-la!
Bye for now - hope all is well in your world.
A x