Aires & Aquarius - what's next? - PART II (Page 4)

And a wonderful Hello to the "special" Alana...and that is also how Mr. Virgo sees you! You my friend have made a "mark - on - his - MIND" and it is there permantly! The lesson for him now is learning how to let go of the BEST thing that ever came into his life. (It's gonna be a tough ride for him...does he perhaps wear seatbelts?)

When precious people enter our lives we must treat them as such and it appears to me that he has not learned that yet.....his loss and soon someone elses gift 🙂

Glad you are back cuz YOU were MISSED!!!!

Freebird flying away for the weekend to play with the seagulls...Hey, I just might fly into Jonathan Living Seagull 😉

To Natash...I ditto Alanas words...hurry and come back to share with us the adventureous tales of your life!

Hope all is well and happy in your very special and unique world~

Freebird

Found hello's to both Alana and Freebird. Apologies, but I haven't really had time to post lately, LOTS going on personally, work wise, and family wise. I think Ms. Ram here is experiencing a new chapter in her life - where the old must be cleaned out to make room for the new......the new beginning.

To summarize..........Cinderella's story does not have a happily ever after finish! Not only did Cinderella lose her man (yes, Mr. Scorp) she lost her job (do to some major head cutting by my company), as well as some family health issues that came up. And the best part..........all in a matter of one week apart! I lost my job just days before Mr. Scorp walked out of my life again...this time telling me he THOUGHT he had 'those' kinda feelings for me (yes, the "L" kind) but he had hoped that in time they would grow to that, but its not a reflection on ME. What we share intimately is just PERFECT, and I'm this wonderful person (yada, yada, yada) but it isn't fair to me for him to continue this with me when 'its just not there'. But of course this conversation came AFTER I told him I was fed up with things as they were - meaning nothing had changed from the other times we came together, he didn't PROVE to me that he was ready to move forward as he had PROMISED etc etc etc. To try and tell you how I felt after hearing what he said to me...I cannot find the words. My heart still hurts......my mind still confused....my instincts tested beyond any belief. I still have not found the peace I need to find to TRY and make sense of all that happened with Mr. Scorp, or the words of "I love you, I have always loved you" that came from his own mouth only months before. I am at a loss in trusting my own instincts cuz I cannot believe they steered me so wrong! That the 'man of my dreams' broke my heart beyond ANY belief. That all this time I 'thought' he loved me, as I loved him, yet he was only too scared to move forward. I guess I'll never know the truth....if its more fear on his part, but his words cut thru my heart like never before.

As for losing my job....it came as a surprise to many of us, but I'm trying to look at it as a fresh start and I had wanted a change. I have some time to try and think about where I want to go from here as we all got a severance pkg to help in that search, so financially I'm ok for awhile.

After receiving the news about my job, and only 2 days later having the above conversation with Mr. Scorp (and NO, he doesn't know I lost my job), we had to also deal with the passing of my favourite uncle (my mom's brother). He was battling cancer and his battle came to an end. I guess with so much happening all at once - Cinderella here (or at least her body) just shut down. I am 'just' these last couple of days after recooping from phenomia (sp?).

Yes, once upon a time my motto was 'its raining men'.......as we stand today...its more like 'its raining tragedy'. I am at the lowest I have been in a very very long time (probably since my divorce almost 5 years ago). I am determined to TRY and makethis a new beginning for me, (have even distanced myself from some of my friends as I just need some "ME" time). So my ladies, I am working on my new novel "Nourishing The Soul"(its the sequel to Secrets Of The Heart where Cinderella is out for the count these days, trying to replenish her batteries....recharge her soul and TRY and re-enter the land of the living.

A for you beautiful ladies......

Alana, hope you had a most enjoyable vacation where you were able to rest your mind as well as body. Ditto on what Freebird has already written - its Mr. Virgo's HUGE loss to have lost such a lady! I assure you those same words (regarding my own situation with Mr. Scorp) do not offer me any comfort at this time, I hope they offer YOU that comfort. But I so wish you peace and happiness my lady, and ALL that is good in this life for you deserve all that IS good!

Oh my beautiful beautiful beautiful rammette of low emotion.......I've just read your story. What can I say....words seem so "not good enough" to offer you the sadness I feel for you in your painful situation.

I wish I could say beam me up Scottie and I'd be over there in Canada right now with you to give you a hug and pop open a bottle or two or vino and just ride the storm with you!!

We all know you always put your heart and soul into your relationships - esp. this one with Mr. Scorp. I guess he just didn't make your grade and I know it cuts one to the core when the other tells them that they just can't love the other......rejection is rejection is rejection...you can dress or dolly it up in whatever fancy sugar-coated language you want....bottom line - they don't want to be part of you or your world anymore.....all I can say and I know for certin is that you will handle the situation with the same dignity you handle every other situation with.

And then to lose your job and the sickness etc. - all happening all at once - it's not fair. But who ever said life would be fair.......all I do know is that the one day, your heart will be lighter, one day you are going to come up to the Natash notch! we so love...but until that day comes, feel free to use us as your sounding board.....scream, cry, curse, do whatever you need to do and we will always be here to listen and write a few words of encouragement.........for now it's Natasha time. I know you have good friends over there...lean on them now....let them be there for you, like you are for everyone else.

I won't go on.....just consider yourself hugged by me and the Bird - the chapters on your Mr. Scorp, my Mr. Virgo and her Mr. Aquarius are on their last page........soon we will all begin another book - wonder who will be on our first page??:-)

Chin up my friend.

A x