Can't word my feelings!

So recently I've met this pisces girl. At first it was all fun and games. I knew I liked her and she enjoyed my company but it wasn't til today that it actually hit me that feelings may have developed between us. I think subconsciously there was an attraction and I know my actions definitely showed her I'm interested even when my brain is still caught up in the thinking stage.

Things are never as easy as they seem, I know she's a traveller and through speaking with her these couple of days I know she's doing this as a form of self discovery given the things that have happened. I understand that because I went through that.

This is where I ask you aquas whether you've experienced the pain and completely forget how to act or know what to say or think. I can't verbalise anything, I can't seem to work out what I want internally as much as I try to detach my feelings from it all.

It was all fun before until she finally told me she wished she can stay longer here that she wanted to know me more and to the point calling me 'her' sweet guy. And now I'm at the crossroad where my rational mind says she needs to experience things for herself, and find herself. The other side of me wants to tell her to stay and reciprocate the love... so torn.

Oh my other aquas, have you ever tormented yourself like this before 😛

Lol I have.... And I usually feel compelled to let the person know verbally how I feel because I don't want them to get the impression that I didn't care

Although I have a hell of a lot of water in my chart for an Aquarius

Enough to make one sick I think ^.^
Venus Pisces
Moon Pisces
Pluto Scorpio
Saturn Scorpio
North Node Cancer
And
Midheaven is Scorpio

haha god that's the same as me. I have more water than air!

Yeah I feel a lot like a water sign honestly .... Except when it comes to how I think about something or what my decisions are based off of.

I think if u have alot of water in your chart its gonna be alot more better for u guys.......personally I think some really weird shit goes down between aquarius and fish ppl......when i first started sleeping with my ex i would have dreams about our demise I would wake up feeling the remnants of the future of our shattered relationship... no shit I would dream about us walking down a road and hes 4 meters ahead of me and were not talking and were pissed off at each other......towards the end of the relationship it was always like that us fighting walking off on each other down the street and not talking I swear ive never been so exposed to such raw emotion that i made myself so depressed and sick and i felt that waking up from a dream.......it was so plain and easy to decypher but I was too stubborn and stupid to listen to my intuition and subconscious.......thanks to my ex i learnt that but it has scarred me lol
try it theres alot of karmic lessons to learn

@The_eleventh_sign_11 - Well my intuitions tell me to tell her I feel the same lol. Still I don't see that can help because I don't like forcing anyone to a decision. I don't want her to feel she has to stay which is why I haven't said exactly how I felt yet.

@NotYourAverageAquarius - how did that go? I often don't let my feelings go unheard either but for some reason I'm going against all my rules for this pisces. We talked about our past and how we are on a self discovery to love ourselves. I told her I understand that even if I don't know I've discovered it yet. It wasn't long after this conversation that she said she wanted to stay.

This is how I view it in my head at the moment:

a) I tell her how I feel and that I really want her to stay which can lead to these -
(i) Pushes her away if she feels it's just not the right time or place
(ii) We have fun for the remainder of the time she has here, ultimately leading to being upset when she leaves
(iii) she stays or I move back to europe and happy times to come.

b) I don't tell her how I feel:
(i) She will just slip away without ever knowing my answer
(ii) She'll push it further like she is now which goes back to (a)
(iii) We just keep hanging out and continue to have these connections to each other until she leaves never knowing what could've been and just another story for later on.

So you can see at the moment the negatives far outweighs the positive. If I had the chance I would say I would love to be part of her self discovery journey. I just want to support her but ultimately it is her choice and should I try to sway her and be selfish given my own feelings?

I would say.... Tell her his you feel.... At the end of the day you won't have to wonder especially if she is the one pressing

It's her decision to stay not yours.... Your merely being honest and that is her response

If she gets pushed away or leaves... Then the sooner you can move on...

Don't you want some stability with this.... So it is off your mind?

I know I am having the Same problem at the moment scept....
Mine does not push anything she just acts really awesome in person...
But becomes super distant away w/e...

Posted by Metoo
Get out of your aqua head and TELL her.
Otherwise you risk the what if forever.
You said she knows secrets, u trust her.
Join her on the journey, book a trip or two with her and sometimes let her go alone & take your space.
Do it, enough thinking.
I just sense she is right for u.
You gotta know.
If your wrong, u took a chance.

Hear, hear 🙂

If you lose her for not opening up then shes not worth keeping 🙂

Another thing aquasnoz...

youre such a gorgeous guy with a huge heart, be free to be you, thats your evolving, thats part of your journey to learn to love yourself, a piece of your spiritual awakening.. you know what, you know within yourself that you are good, kind and worth loving and when you know that you know rejection doesnt mean that youre not worthy it just means that sometimes the other person hasnt grown with you or to where you are yet to appreciate the value of what you are offering, sometimes its just that you dont fit and someone else will, never be afraid to be you because the people who matter will accept you for you, when you realise your own true value rejection isnt so bad, it doesnt hurt.. Aqua`s are suposed to be all about freedom, now within that it includes having the freedom to be able to express exactly who you are and not being afraid of it, do you see what i mean as in why you shouldnt be afraid of it? you have nothing to lose, only something to gain, do you see? 🙂

Thanks guys I really appreciate all the support and encouragement 🙂 I extend my love to you all.

It happened all last night and I guess I was just lost as to what to think that I felt the need to rant and connect to make sure I'm not some weirdo about my thought processes lol. Kinda like what was pointed out in the other thread about us Aquas feeling alone when we are locked up in our own brains!

I guess it's the way she said it, I don't know what she wants. This isn't the exact words but very close to it: (somethings won't make sense because I haven't talked it about it here)

"I talked to my uncle last night again about Jamaica and he said we can definitely have the house. I know I said I was leaving but now I wanted to stay longer. You are a great person and I want us to know each other more but for now it's just friends I guess. Maybe when I come back from Brisbane I can stay with you before I go back?"

This is the part where I kinda gave my bravest smile (I was dodging this moment I really was... completely retreated into a submissive mode) and I just said "You know I'll miss you".

"I know" and she gave me a pretty long hug and I wanted to pull out of it but she just held on tighter and said that she really doesn't want to leave. The fact she said "my sweet guy" to me almost makes me certain she knows I care for her on a deeper level. The way she uses the word we is something I'm still trying to figure out as often she says that when we talk about our futures and where we want to be.

Gucci remember when I said it takes time for me for feelings to develop, I meant that. I find it unnerving because I've seriously only known this girl for just over two months. We both know we've barely got to know each other. I really don't understand why we are connecting so well it's almost scary in a good way. We are so similar in our beliefs and how we view love that we refrain from getting too close to avoid that permanent attachment.

Sorry 😢 as you can see I'm still trying to work it out internally. What I want is for her to be happy, if that means she has to be alone to find it, I'm not going to force what I want on her.

Yes I do remember sweetheart which is another reason why I agree with the two posts above me, Then write it in a mail the way you are writing it to us.. as a woman in her position, i would still be wishing that you spoke up, she likes you its plain to see and maybe she is afraid to open up to you also, theres lots of pressure on us gals ya know, how many threads do you read on here with us love struck girls, "i need an insight into this guys mind" whats he thinking" .. Do it today 🙂 .. start by "you know i said i will miss you, well this is how much..." stick the biggest snog right on her chops, then proceed with all the info 😄 ...

Like others said, tell her! Say everything you're feeling/thinking so that you can't regret it later. It's okay to say 'I want you to stay', as long as you also add 'I won't make you, though, and I know you need to do this for yourself.'

Mm, it's good you do have some water in there. My aqua has mostly air and I'll tell you, like 11th sign said, we argue a lot. What I liked about it all, though, is that the moment my aqua had feelings for me, he told me. Even though I wasn't sure nor interested at first, he stuck around, kept telling me, and then we ended up together. He makes an effort to talk about his feelings, even though I know he doesn't like to, and that lets me feel secure. There's never any questions. So, I think with this girl, it's definitely best to tell her everything. She doesn't seem uninterested, so saying what you feel shouldn't get her upset or make her leave. Could be she's also thinking that she wants you to say more to make her stay, or to at least know she has a place to go back to once she's done.

Well a bit of update, still not sure what to think. Just posted the full story on the pisces board to get their insight.