I'm pretty sure I blew it with the Aquarius woman I'm into.. I was giving her space, haven't spoken to her for a few weeks. I was out with a now EX friend who apparently hid from me that my Aqua girl was at a party we went to. I found out from another friend that I was with. Apparently I came out of the bathroom and my EX friend was waiting for me, so I wouldn't see her and got me to leave. Found out this betraying friend of mine has a huge envious problem with me. Anyway by the time I got back to the party I was very intoxicated, and upset. My Aqua girl was still there, we hung out for a while, I took her home. Things went wrong she pretty much left me out in the rain. I was so stupid and drunk, and pissed off.. Anyway I have a wordpress that no one knows about. Never showed anyone, and while I was pissed off and upset after being left in the rain. I sent her the link to my wordpress.. SUCH A FKIN IDIOT.. I had written a poem about her in it. I was basically like wow you left me out in the rain and I've cared so much about u I've even written about it... FEEL LIKE A FKIN PATHETIC LOSER. She apologized to me as I her when I woke up sober the next day. Haven't heard anything else from her.. Never been so embarrassed. The poem was nothing bad or obsessive just about how I feel, it's pretty damn sweet.. But I feel so stupid, no clue if she'll come back or start showing me any kind of affection, this sucks so much.. The night could've turned out so much better if it wasn't for my scumbag friend.. Is she gone?
