More brainfart

What's that feeling when someone has taken away prematurely from you. Should one mourn the loss or celebrate and commemorate? To have something found and something lost, optimism diminished and faith demolished.

The notion of grief is ridiculous. Like everything else this all will be but a fading memory, the point of the question would be lost and sealed forever away hidden in void. Tell me Aquarius does your heart bleed? Are our vessels strong enough to contain the flood of emotions? Will our brains perpetually turn to defend ourselves from misery?

Knowledge of the past brings not wisdom but constant evaluation like some sadistic scheme on a grand scale to stabilise what is in constant flux. Yet is it courage or stupidity that propels us to fight against it. Seems all but pointless.

I wonder if you thought the sheer weight of it all cannot be burdened by others. Is that why even on death row you chose not to salvage the past even for a fragment of conclusion. Although I can't truly say I've met the real you or come close to knowing you, you've always been my beacon. Even in facing grim circumstances playing with my mortality, you've unknowingly become my silver lining. Perhaps like moth to a flame maybe my twisted perceptions became my undoing.

Can it be pride and legacy or my stubbornness? You asked me once if I truly knew myself. In that trademark smile reasoning that we all have karmic tie to the past that some people are destined to despair and loneliness. I have failed in convincing you.

At the end of it all it's all but naught as I said. These words have no meaning or purpose but a selfish gesture of my own emotions. I don't know who I am but I know what I've done and what I'll always continue to do. Nothing in this universe compares to how great you are to me.

I love you, I miss you, I wish you are still here. I'm glad you never had to see these tears. If only I could just hold you one more time, I'd sing you the lullaby you've always sung to me. I know you love me and I just hope you'd see that you were never alone and wherever you're going I'm always with you.

apologies in advance.

Is this about your Pisces girl? If it is reach out, talk to her. Even if she's far away acknowledging your feelings would bring a lot more comfort to both of you than denying they exist.

No need to apologize.

Posted by piscesgirl77
Is this about your Pisces girl? If it is reach out, talk to her. Even if she's far away acknowledging your feelings would bring a lot more comfort to both of you than denying they exist.

He might mean the other person has passed?

*Hugs*

aquanoz-

That is beautiful