What to do when an Aquarius female cuts you off completely? You must read the story trust me

Ok so my Aquarian best friend cut me off completely a few days ago. I am a Taurus on the cusp my moon sign is a leo. Hers is a piscies. It's seems totally irrational and is killing me. We've been close now and known each other for almost a year. We became best friends. She was dating a guy I knew who was abusive to her physically and verbally. He also cheated on her several times. I was there for her the entire time consoling her, coming to her aid til she finally listened to my and got restraining order on him. This was 3 weeks to a month ago. Before the restraining order she would go back to him just like most abused victims. Early October around the 4th i told her that I really loved her. And was attracted to her to my surprise she felt the same way and said she knew she loved me when she had'nt seen me or heard from me in weeks. We began to speak or at least text everyday. It was beginning to feel like a relationship without the title. A few weeks ago she got upset with me because she had saw I was face timing with another female. I had to go through her vanishing on me and then actually bumping into her at a club when she finally opened up about it. She was jealous and hurt over it which I could understand but thought about like it we are not in a relationship. She told me she didn't feel special because it had been something I would do with her. Everything got smoothed over and we were cool. She had told me she was afraid of us getting together in a relationship because we could potentially loose the friendship.

I had assured her nothing would change and that we'd always been friends no matter what because of the kind of guy I am. I understood the fact she was going to have severe trust issues and was abused so she needed to be handled with care. I also knew she would have the most insecurities because of the bad relationship. We were going good with no title because I respected her enough not to be dating or talking to other females. The reason being because I wanted to be with her one day. Some time last week she got mad again because she had saw me post something on my page about horoscopes and a friend of mine who she actually knows commented can you please do mine. So I did the the is I think those insecurities came up because I used to date the other female. Me and the other female stopped dating because she vanished on me in a similar fashion because she to was in an abusive relationship. The difference was she is a libra and she left to get herself together and we were just really good friends with benefits. We don't do anything physical anymore. I pleaded with the girl for at least 2 hours through text. She wasn't having it she keep saying she didn't believe you anymore, then it happened she responded with a kiss emoji and said I love you. She revealed the reason she acts like that is because of abandonment issues. I see and understand so. We were all good friday night last weekend we link up go out and then I spend the night we have sex. I spend the entire day with her. It was the best. I leave to go work my friends party at a nightclub and had my share of drinks. My friend calls her drops me off at her house. Before that I had left the other club around 2:30 but before leaving I remembered I left my drink I get it then we go to her house. . I am intoxicated wondering why I am more drunk then usual but not sick she locks me in and I pass out. I don't know how long I was passed out but I wake up spaced out seeing things, paranoid and my heart is going a thousand miles per hour. I am going crazy I feel like shes abandoned me and I feel sort of like I'm left behind. And there is no people on earth. I clean her house and room then I kind of black out but remember a vision of a letter on a bed. I black out hours go past its now daylight outside and I am by the river and the zoo. A guy is running past and says hey are you ok I had been tripping on Acid it all became clear when I could see his aura and I was seeing things. I had been tripping on LSD for hours. The guy was kind enough to take me close to home. I leave my bag in his car and he departs I don't know who is is so thats gone forever. She calls me twice I don't pick up mind you I am tripping. I text her I am with my mom smh. What an idiot. After she asked where I am at. I attempt to call her back a little while later but she doesn't answer. I get home and the LSD begins to wear off now I look through my phone and see I had been sending messages to all kinds of people as well as calling friends who felt something was wrong. I call everyone back......... theres more so keep reading. I attempt to call her and tell her exactly what happened she doesn't answer I go on my facebook trying to get help nothing happens. I know she is pissed but shes doesn't want to hear any of it. I plead for days on end like my life is on the line she tells me. Stop talking to me. Now I am pissed off because shes like you say that to all the woman and had been accusing me of imaginary females. I literally cut every last female off period. She finally says something that gives me a clue. She says these exact words I don't like how you went about this jumping to conclusions and I don't like the letter you wrote and your always lying to me. I then think about it and reply saying Insecurities and self doubt led me to write whatever I said in the letter. But I was under a real drug not by choice for someone put it in my drink. It brung out allot of demons that I have dealt with and that I haven't felt like this in a long time. I also said I was trying to get good and needed her help to do so with a promise not to make her feel pain or hurt like that again. Basically reassuring her. She said Ive been lying to her and how she doesn't look at me the same. But not once has this woman ever talked to me about anything not one issue or even express anything about how she feels. She had made a post when it happened that sunday like one part of me knows we are not together but the other side says no your married go off on him. So I have been confused. I send her a goodmorning happy thanksgiving she responds with a period. I say I just can't win I'm tied. Pretty much I was giving up for now because I didn't want to harass her.I told her how much its was draining me and how I didn't want to hurt anymore and should stop. Shes answers with stop. Now I feel Ive lost the girl I love, my best friend and girl I want to be with forever. Somebody tell me there is something I might be able to do.

I left it alone for a day. then on my facebook she likes a comment I place on a friends page. I immediately text her you confuse me why would you like my comment. I tell her I understand what she might be mad about so I say I'll get rid of facebook for you it means absolutely nothing to me. I'm thinking it was responding to other females. It possessive on so many levels which makes me not understand. I had responded to and was talking to a friend she knows named Akaila and I guess she was really bother by that because me and the girl used to date.But we are completely friends and she was saying things to help me with her. I deactivated my facebook told her I did it and will leave it like that until we speak face to face.I also told her I can't fool myself like I'm just done and it doesn't hurt me. I go on to tell her I didnt have the strength to block her or unfriend her she didnt do it to me either. I also stated I saw all the hurtful post she put up and knew they were about me saying I will never forgive him. I said I know we weren't in a relationship and really didn't know where we stood I wouldnt have been responding to woman if I had any clue. I said first you were my friend and I made it clear I didnt cdare how foolish I was looking telling her the truth. I knew it wasn't making her feel any better posting those negative things and it was effecting me as well You are my bestfreind. Please think about what you are doing and before you respond. She sends an emoji of some sort but I cant get it on my iphone. I was going crazy tryong to figure out what it was. Then I said well please let me know something if you can she. Replied with another one then said cool.I asked will you talk to me. She replied What are we talking about.

I then respond with hey you know I don't get the emojis and sent a laughing emoji to soften the mood. You are the woman of steel cold as ice I prey to Good for any of your enemies because I know they aren't as strong as me smh lol. We are going to talk sensibly so I can know whats going on not assume, thats the reason we are in this position now. Talking face to face would be best. I said you know in your heart you don't want this. I know its hard for you to admit it but look at me I really understand. I'm really still here like I promised I kept my word. Never gave up on you. Even through all the foul words never called you out of your name saw all the post yet I am still here with you. I said I was never going to leave or abandon you and I meant it.

So I then tell her how I want yo to be secure. What ever its going to take to earn your trust I will do, I am built to last. I also said my loyatly should have never been questioned but I know what you've been through I was here for all of it. I said I don't need you to tell me everything but a few pieces would be nice. Thats all I need to complete the puzzle. No pressure I know what it is exactly and how you are as well as your boiling point. I mentioned it being like that because the high esteem and level you placed me on and how honored I felt that she did that. Pretty much said thats why I can't be without you. Thats it. Somebody please help tell me something good or should I just move on and assumed shes insane. I really love her with all of my heart don't want to loose her as a friend we were never in a relationship this is sickening. Please help lol

Lol op, you used to be with all her friends or what lol? you sound like a fuc boi

She also sounds like she's afraid of her feelings because, apart from being an aqua, she was attached to some abusive dickhead.

This "relationship" sounds like a headache. You said all that you needed to say, give the aqua space and see what happens. You can't force an aqua to commit, or do anything really. But you seem to have some commitment issues as well, since you seem to always be chatting with one of your fuckbuddies, lmao.

You got any guy friends man?

Posted by Ophiuchus
Lol op, you used to be with all her friends or what lol? you sound like a fuc boi

She also sounds like she's afraid of her feelings because, apart from being an aqua, she was attached to some abusive dickhead.

This "relationship" sounds like a headache. You said all that you needed to say, give the aqua space and see what happens. You can't force an aqua to commit, or do anything really. But you seem to have some commitment issues as well, since you seem to always be chatting with one of your fuckbuddies, lmao.

You got any guy friends man?

You read all that?! I'm impressed!

How old are you guys?

Posted by JohnTheBaptist100
You writing a book? Seriously.

Leave her be. She has a bf...

And always keep your eyes on your drinks

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😆

Posted by aquarius09

Posted by Ophiuchus
Lol op, you used to be with all her friends or what lol? you sound like a fuc boi

She also sounds like she's afraid of her feelings because, apart from being an aqua, she was attached to some abusive dickhead.

This "relationship" sounds like a headache. You said all that you needed to say, give the aqua space and see what happens. You can't force an aqua to commit, or do anything really. But you seem to have some commitment issues as well, since you seem to always be chatting with one of your fuckbuddies, lmao.

You got any guy friends man?

You read all that?! I'm impressed!

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Haha, only because I'm obssesed with aquas atm and it was about an aqua female. 😉