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Scorpio people, What was the deepest emotional hole you have been into?
Understanding Scorpio's Emotional Depth
Scorpio individuals are often seen as emotionally intense and deeply private. Their emotional experiences can be profound, involving significant periods of introspection and transformation. While stereotypes suggest extreme depth, each Scorpio's emotional journey is unique and shaped by personal experiences and growth.
Where will I start lol
What is yours OP?
Posted by MyStarsShine
Where will I start lolWhat is yours OP?
I have a few...
There was a phase when I was constantly having suicide thoughts tho.
My parents divorced when I was 5, for both families (mother and father new families) I was treated as an outsider, they would travel and leave me with my grandparents, when they come back with all those photos, I wasnt in any of them...
I have a lot more, but I wont open them all lol
Posted by aquarius_beauty
Wow. you must be a very intense and dark individual. Do you feel like you can't control your emotions? or you spend your life trying to control that inner intensity? or do you just let go?
Now its easier to control, I cant remember one time of my life where I let my emotions speak louder than my mind.
Deepest one at 17
This period in my life when I spiked in emotional heights and lows the hardest.
I made myself very sick from negative thinking, told myself I wanted to die every day, would stay in my bed all day and just cry and cry all night until my stomach would cramp, I hated everyone and everything but most of all hated myself, would always think of ways to kill myself without pain and then that would upset me even more because I knew I didn't have it in me to do it and that I was going to be miserable forever. That was such a deep hole for me to be in, it wasn't drug induced it was just me being really bad to myself. My mum couldn't take it anymore and sent me to a psychologist, I went to one session, balled my eyes out and never went back because I was too embarrassed of everything I told him.
I remember the day I fixed myself though and it happened like flicking a light switch, it was so random I was in the car with mum and we were pulling into the drive way and I started to tear up for no reason and she asked what was the matter? And I told her that I'm fixed! Lol That was the biggest feat I've ever endured and after that moment so many good things happened to me really quickly one after the other up until I was 23.
Posted by blackphase
Deepest emotional hole you ask?.. I met a Libra -_-
Same here!
i grown up thinking all people feel the feelings i feel and this much intensity.I realized late that most people dont feel that deep,i always wondered how easy people control their feelings until i realized that most of them have only 10% of my feelings strength
Posted by blackphase
Deepest emotional hole you ask?.. I met a Libra -_-
Same here!
Lady killers I tell ya.. And I've suffered with depression, anxiety and insecurity my entire life.. Nothing did me in like that relationship.. enhanced every single one of my pre existing issues as well.
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I'm still on the Libra hole
Lol!! As Scorpios, do you think we actually discuss that stuff here?
Deepest emotional hole...
The last 6 months. Thanks to the Scorpio.
I've gone back and forth, letting him back in. Even after I've "moved on". He shows up and it's like I have no willpower.
He disappears and it magnifies all my insecurities. Hate. It.
He's quickly becoming my MOST favorite mistake!
Posted by Teena
Lol!! As Scorpios, do you think we actually discuss that stuff here?
lol
u changed profile pic?
its just so funny but fits u perfectly
Posted by Teena
Lol!! As Scorpios, do you think we actually discuss that stuff here?lol
u changed profile pic?
its just so funny but fits u perfectly
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Haha!! Ikr!!! 😄
But wait...now you gotta tell me why you think it fits me perfectly
I think I'm dealing with the most painful moment of my life. I've been bullied for the last 3-4 years and it is unbearable. I screwed up with someone who I wanted to get to know better. The only thing I hear every day is criticism from everybody and I have no means of dealing with it. Inside I feel like a dead person, the only thing left is some kind of a walking corpse.
It's got to the point where I sometimes want to grab my dad's AR-15 and go on a mass shooting spree. The world is responsible for my suffering and they should pay for it. Sometimes I've been thinking about ways of committing suicide, trying to figure out the most effective one. I am alone and isolated in this world, no one needs me and I'm useless. A failure, so to say. This immense pain has forced me to lock down on the inside and turn to online environment such as video games and message boards, to forget about the shit I'm dealing with, even if it is only temporary. It's the only thing besides sleeping which allows me to feel remotely okay. I'm dealing with a massive amount of anxiety on daily basis and I stopped taking any kind of medication several months ago. Every time I see people, I become more and more unhappy.
I don't want to see the real world at all and there is no way for me to deal with this. I'm feeling more and more suicidal with every day passing, this struggle is a torture. At the same time I'm angry at the entire world. No one has helped me or cared about me during this decade and half. Everyone seems to either reject or hate me, despite my good intentions. I would help others if I wasn't on the verge of suicide.
This world doesn't even need me. If I die, there are hundreds or even thousands of people who can take my place.
Posted by blackphase
Deepest emotional hole you ask?.. I met a Libra -_-
Good one but you didnt met many Taurus, i guess
Posted by Teena
Lol!! As Scorpios, do you think we actually discuss that stuff here?
I dont have a profile pic for a reason 😉
Posted by Teena
Lol!! As Scorpios, do you think we actually discuss that stuff here?I dont have a profile pic for a reason 😉
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Lol!! Nope...still won't be talking about stuff like that. Not because it's something really really huge, disturbing,dark or anything...just wouldn't. Personal things,good or bad, are sacred . There's something about keeping them close to heart.
Posted by Teena
Lol!! As Scorpios, do you think we actually discuss that stuff here?I dont have a profile pic for a reason 😉
Lol!! Nope...still won't be talking about stuff like that. Not because it's something really really huge, disturbing,dark or anything...just wouldn't. Personal things,good or bad, are sacred . There's something about keeping them close to heart.
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You dont need to go that far
the thing i said is fine for me... there are more dark than that 😄
Posted by Teena
Lol!! As Scorpios, do you think we actually discuss that stuff here?I dont have a profile pic for a reason 😉
Lol!! Nope...still won't be talking about stuff like that. Not because it's something really really huge, disturbing,dark or anything...just wouldn't. Personal things,good or bad, are sacred . There's something about keeping them close to heart.
You dont need to go that far
the thing i said is fine for me... there are more dark than that 😄
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??
C'mon if that's fine, this is not fair. That doesn't justify your title 😛
Posted by Teena
Lol!! As Scorpios, do you think we actually discuss that stuff here?lol
u changed profile pic?
its just so funny but fits u perfectly
Haha!! Ikr!!! 😄
But wait...now you gotta tell me why you think it fits me perfectly
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bc it looks exactly like u?litle dark too?
Posted by Teena
Lol!! As Scorpios, do you think we actually discuss that stuff here?lol
u changed profile pic?
its just so funny but fits u perfectly
Haha!! Ikr!!! 😄
But wait...now you gotta tell me why you think it fits me perfectly
bc it looks exactly like u?litle dark too?
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Youuuu!!!!!
Lol!! But actually I thought so too 😛
Posted by Teena
Lol!! As Scorpios, do you think we actually discuss that stuff here?lol
u changed profile pic?
its just so funny but fits u perfectly
Haha!! Ikr!!! 😄
But wait...now you gotta tell me why you think it fits me perfectly
bc it looks exactly like u?litle dark too?
Youuuu!!!!!
Lol!! But actually I thought so too 😛
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?angry woman are cute,that gif shows passion, i love it
Posted by Teena
Lol!! As Scorpios, do you think we actually discuss that stuff here?lol
u changed profile pic?
its just so funny but fits u perfectly
Haha!! Ikr!!! 😄
But wait...now you gotta tell me why you think it fits me perfectly
bc it looks exactly like u?litle dark too?
Youuuu!!!!!
Lol!! But actually I thought so too 😛
?angry woman are cute,that gif shows passion, i love it
click to expand
Haha. Right gifs like right words maybe 😛
Posted by Teena
Lol!! As Scorpios, do you think we actually discuss that stuff here?lol
u changed profile pic?
its just so funny but fits u perfectly
Haha!! Ikr!!! 😄
But wait...now you gotta tell me why you think it fits me perfectly
bc it looks exactly like u?litle dark too?
Youuuu!!!!!
Lol!! But actually I thought so too 😛
?angry woman are cute,that gif shows passion, i love it
Haha. Right gifs like right words maybe 😛
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i always loved to annoy my gf's,only to see their expression on face when they realize that they cant stay mad bc i get so sweet after that?
Posted by Teena
Lol!! As Scorpios, do you think we actually discuss that stuff here?lol
u changed profile pic?
its just so funny but fits u perfectly
Haha!! Ikr!!! 😄
But wait...now you gotta tell me why you think it fits me perfectly
bc it looks exactly like u?litle dark too?
Youuuu!!!!!
Lol!! But actually I thought so too 😛
?angry woman are cute,that gif shows passion, i love it
Haha. Right gifs like right words maybe 😛
i always loved to annoy my gf's,only to see their expression on face when they realize that they cant stay mad bc i get so sweet after that?
click to expand
Lol!!! That sounds so cute!! I dunno why I'm relating this to pillow fights 😄
Posted by The_eleventh_sign_11
Deepest one at 17This period in my life when I spiked in emotional heights and lows the hardest.
I made myself very sick from negative thinking, told myself I wanted to die every day, would stay in my bed all day and just cry and cry all night until my stomach would cramp, I hated everyone and everything but most of all hated myself, would always think of ways to kill myself without pain and then that would upset me even more because I knew I didn't have it in me to do it and that I was going to be miserable forever. That was such a deep hole for me to be in, it wasn't drug induced it was just me being really bad to myself. My mum couldn't take it anymore and sent me to a psychologist, I went to one session, balled my eyes out and never went back because I was too embarrassed of everything I told him.
I remember the day I fixed myself though and it happened like flicking a light switch, it was so random I was in the car with mum and we were pulling into the drive way and I started to tear up for no reason and she asked what was the matter? And I told her that I'm fixed! Lol That was the biggest feat I've ever endured and after that moment so many good things happened to me really quickly one after the other up until I was 23.
Fixed how?
Posted by Teena
Lol!! As Scorpios, do you think we actually discuss that stuff here?lol
u changed profile pic?
its just so funny but fits u perfectly
Haha!! Ikr!!! 😄
But wait...now you gotta tell me why you think it fits me perfectly
bc it looks exactly like u?litle dark too?
Youuuu!!!!!
Lol!! But actually I thought so too 😛
?angry woman are cute,that gif shows passion, i love it
Haha. Right gifs like right words maybe 😛
i always loved to annoy my gf's,only to see their expression on face when they realize that they cant stay mad bc i get so sweet after that?
Lol!!! That sounds so cute!! I dunno why I'm relating this to pillow fights 😄
click to expand
its a way to keep a relationship exciting and not boring,fight and love are both passion and they keep relationship fresh?
Posted by Teena
Lol!! As Scorpios, do you think we actually discuss that stuff here?lol
u changed profile pic?
its just so funny but fits u perfectly
Haha!! Ikr!!! 😄
But wait...now you gotta tell me why you think it fits me perfectly
bc it looks exactly like u?litle dark too?
Youuuu!!!!!
Lol!! But actually I thought so too 😛
?angry woman are cute,that gif shows passion, i love it
Haha. Right gifs like right words maybe 😛
i always loved to annoy my gf's,only to see their expression on face when they realize that they cant stay mad bc i get so sweet after that?
Lol!!! That sounds so cute!! I dunno why I'm relating this to pillow fights 😄
its a way to keep a relationship exciting and not boring,fight and love are both passion and they keep relationship fresh?
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Haha!! That's true. We need both!!
Posted by Neno
i grown up thinking all people feel the feelings i feel and this much intensity.I realized late that most people dont feel that deep,i always wondered how easy people control their feelings until i realized that most of them have only 10% of my feelings strengthThat is an interesting way of looking at it. Most people on here think I'm nuts because I am exasperated all the time....but maybe it is just that I have stronger feelings than them, and most others around me?
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yeah,the only one that can fully understand u is u
Posted by starwars
I find sags more 'deep' & 'intense' than scorpiosExcept scorpionic scorpios
LOL of courseee
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ofc,only one planet or only sun sign in scorpio doesn't make u a real scorp
Posted by The_eleventh_sign_11
Deepest one at 17This period in my life when I spiked in emotional heights and lows the hardest.
I made myself very sick from negative thinking, told myself I wanted to die every day, would stay in my bed all day and just cry and cry all night until my stomach would cramp, I hated everyone and everything but most of all hated myself, would always think of ways to kill myself without pain and then that would upset me even more because I knew I didn't have it in me to do it and that I was going to be miserable forever. That was such a deep hole for me to be in, it wasn't drug induced it was just me being really bad to myself. My mum couldn't take it anymore and sent me to a psychologist, I went to one session, balled my eyes out and never went back because I was too embarrassed of everything I told him.
I remember the day I fixed myself though and it happened like flicking a light switch, it was so random I was in the car with mum and we were pulling into the drive way and I started to tear up for no reason and she asked what was the matter? And I told her that I'm fixed! Lol That was the biggest feat I've ever endured and after that moment so many good things happened to me really quickly one after the other up until I was 23.
Fixed how?
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I think that one time I went to a therapist really helped me get the gears in motion, I was so bottled up and shook up by life I couldn't cope. I was gay, failing, being constantly, constantly being put down by friends and family, was rejected by friends, father, fired from work because people were calling me gay and stuff.
I was dealing with so much despair I was drowning in it and my mum had no concept of personal space or boundaries, she would constantly ask me stupid questions when all I wanted was to be left alone in peace, I was just so tortured at that stage....when I went to the therapist and told him my deepest darkest secrets and felt comfortable to be vulnerable and show myself it let off just enough pressure for me to do it by myself and slowly I just let go....I ended up moving to the city at 18 and the rest was history
"What was the deepest emotional hole you have been into?"
This one.
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Scorpio moon/sun/rising/venus/mars...
Im focusing on Scorpio because all the depth hype, to the other people confirm if we really are that deep or if its just a stereotype.