Help I'm a cancer man and I'm broken on the inside.

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Moonman88
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I feel like women don't like me .all my life its been this way.ever since I was in high school it was like this. I feel utterly useless and alone.if I could fade away I would because life just isn't for me anymore. And that's not an over exaggeration. I dont want to live.the pain is just to much.you see I'm a nice guy and I always think of the female.I love to love.but women always use me and throw me away. They say 'your just to sensitive; but when it comes to them, the world comes to an end.Im tired....so tired of women now.I just can't take it anymore. I try to be there for them and be patent.I try not to show my emotional side to much but still I fail.I fail......I fail so much. Its coming to a point now where I don't like to go out.I eat by my self and spend time alone.women have messed over me so much I hate them all. The hate in me has become something deep.so deep I can feel my inside throbbing. Every time I see a girl I become sad and hurt. Women are os vain and materialistic is sick.literary sick. I'm so hurt now I just can't take it anymore. I can't! I just can't! I'm so tired of giving and they just take! Im saying this because I think I need help now. The anger and saddness in me has been bulding up for years.help me.......I don't know how long I can last now.
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Posted by Moonman88
I feel like women don't like me .all my life its been this way.ever since I was in high school it was like this. I feel utterly useless and alone.if I could fade away I would because life just isn't for me anymore. And that's not an over exaggeration. I dont want to live.the pain is just to much.you see I'm a nice guy and I always think of the female.I love to love.but women always use me and throw me away. They say 'your just to sensitive; but when it comes to them, the world comes to an end.Im tired....so tired of women now.I just can't take it anymore. I try to be there for them and be patent.I try not to show my emotional side to much but still I fail.I fail......I fail so much. Its coming to a point now where I don't like to go out.I eat by my self and spend time alone.women have messed over me so much I hate them all. The hate in me has become something deep.so deep I can feel my inside throbbing. Every time I see a girl I become sad and hurt. Women are os vain and materialistic is sick.literary sick. I'm so hurt now I just can't take it anymore. I can't! I just can't! I'm so tired of giving and they just take! Im saying this because I think I need help now. The anger and saddness in me has been bulding up for years.help me.......I don't know how long I can last now.
Talk to someone professional about this, there is no shame in asking for help and I'm glad this post is a step in that direction. But the risk of online help is too great, you get inconsistent and sometimes troll posts. Additionally a professional can give you medicine to help feel better too.



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Posted by Moonman88
I feel like women don't like me .all my life its been this way.ever since I was in high school it was like this. I feel utterly useless and alone.if I could fade away I would because life just isn't for me anymore. And that's not an over exaggeration. I dont want to live.the pain is just to much.you see I'm a nice guy and I always think of the female.I love to love.but women always use me and throw me away. They say 'your just to sensitive; but when it comes to them, the world comes to an end.Im tired....so tired of women now.I just can't take it anymore. I try to be there for them and be patent.I try not to show my emotional side to much but still I fail.I fail......I fail so much. Its coming to a point now where I don't like to go out.I eat by my self and spend time alone.women have messed over me so much I hate them all. The hate in me has become something deep.so deep I can feel my inside throbbing. Every time I see a girl I become sad and hurt. Women are os vain and materialistic is sick.literary sick. I'm so hurt now I just can't take it anymore. I can't! I just can't! I'm so tired of giving and they just take! Im saying this because I think I need help now. The anger and saddness in me has been bulding up for years.help me.......I don't know how long I can last now.



How would you feel if your need to succeed with women, and more broadly, if your self-worth's reliance on the approval of others (no matter the gender) were taken away?

If you didn't have this need, how would you feel?
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I guess I wouldn't feel so bad. but the pain and know of how ....they are. there like parasites. Eating my nutrients away.
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Posted by Ajna
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Just breathe

Woman are beautiful and so are you.

This pain...with you is something we may

all feel at some point. Feeling lonely or useless.

The love you show those you cared for...

Those women...now it's time to show it to you.

What would you do if the one you loved

Came to you and said the exact thing you

Posted here to you? You would be there

For her right? You would hold her right?

Do these exact things to you. Hold your

Self in your arms now. Do this to heal now.

One day you will be ready to be with

one you disserve. This is to prepare

Yourself to brew what real love is.

You and the love of your life (that's

On the way)

Deserve this love







Thank you so much.
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Moonman88
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Posted by Moonman88


Your right and I know I have to get over it

and I know that I can.but when I try to get up in the morning, that's when reality kicks in. You see when I had a good mind (and when I say good mind I ment a logical mind) i was a lover and I would think about all the good things I could do for a woman.I would find out what makes them happy so I could make them happy.I would see what makes them sad so I could cheer her up.I would see how I could satisfy them, mentally, physically, sexuality and spiritually.If a woman was hurt then I would know someone before me hurt her, and I would try to heal her wounds with my love.If she was alone I would be there for her.even if she did have people to be there, I would still be there.

I would enjoy taking them out and buying them food, flowers, candys! I love to see them happy.table wines where what they loved the best. Its so sweet. To see the smile on there face, the eyes would be so wide with joy. I celebrated the woman. Just like a cancer man would.but when I was down I found out I was alone and only had the flesh of my bones the comfort me. I hear the demons kackling in the back of my mind for me being a fool....
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It seems like you are measuring your self worth by the women you date. You need to take a step back and realize that you are enough. You need to learn to love who you are, alone, before you can ever be in a happy relationship.

Remember this, we attract (and accept) the love that we think we deserve.

I really, really think you need to commit to a period of time, where your actively try not to meet someone, and work on making yourself the best version of you. Once you're an the right mental state for a relationship, and you learn what the right kind of girl for you is, I think you'll be in the best position to attract that girl.

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I know some men who pick/like all these user types of women who show what they are all about, but then they get butthurt when these very men fall victim to their typical ways. My older brother happens to be one of these guys. He likes all these user/cunning types of women and when they do to him what they normally do with men, he comes home whining and crying. I'm not saying you're like that, but if every single woman you pick turns out to be a user, then you need to reflect on who you pick as lovers or like.
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I know some men who pick/like all these user types of women who show what they are all about, but then they get butthurt when these very men fall victim to their typical ways. My older brother happens to be one of these guys. He likes all these user/cunning types of women and when they do to him what they normally do with men, he comes home whining and crying. I'm not saying you're like that, but if every single woman you pick turns out to be a user, then you need to reflect on who you pick as lovers or like.

Quoting you because you've got so much Aquarius, lol. I've got Mercury, Venus, Jupiter, and Uranus in Aquarius, although I'm not too sure how that's supposed to manifest in my life
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I know some men who pick/like all these user types of women who show what they are all about, but then they get butthurt when these very men fall victim to their typical ways. My older brother happens to be one of these guys. He likes all these user/cunning types of women and when they do to him what they normally do with men, he comes home whining and crying. I'm not saying you're like that, but if every single woman you pick turns out to be a user, then you need to reflect on who you pick as lovers or like.

Quoting you because you've got so much Aquarius, lol. I've got Mercury, Venus, Jupiter, and Uranus in Aquarius, although I'm not too sure how that's supposed to manifest in my life
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LOL. Well, forget Jupiter and Uranus because they aren't part of the mainstream planets. As for Venus is Aqua, that makes you picky in love and you require an intelligent partner. As for Mercury, you probably have gift of gab and are a logical thinker. Patient and not so much an impulsive thinker. You like to make your decisions in peace and cannot be rushed.
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Posted by Moonman88
I feel like women don't like me .all my life its been this way.ever since I was in high school it was like this. I feel utterly useless and alone.if I could fade away I would because life just isn't for me anymore. And that's not an over exaggeration. I dont want to live.the pain is just to much.you see I'm a nice guy and I always think of the female.I love to love.but women always use me and throw me away. They say 'your just to sensitive; but when it comes to them, the world comes to an end.Im tired....so tired of women now.I just can't take it anymore. I try to be there for them and be patent.I try not to show my emotional side to much but still I fail.I fail......I fail so much. Its coming to a point now where I don't like to go out.I eat by my self and spend time alone.women have messed over me so much I hate them all. The hate in me has become something deep.so deep I can feel my inside throbbing. Every time I see a girl I become sad and hurt. Women are os vain and materialistic is sick.literary sick. I'm so hurt now I just can't take it anymore. I can't! I just can't! I'm so tired of giving and they just take! Im saying this because I think I need help now. The anger and saddness in me has been bulding up for years.help me.......I don't know how long I can last now.
Yeah, we feel to deep....i get it.

Try to set a goal for your self, for you alone.

Try to live alone and don't think of anybody else. Like and love yourself. When this happens, the rest will folow.

Don't expect things of people , go with the flow. Everything you will get, will be a bonus and not a disappointment.

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I know some men who pick/like all these user types of women who show what they are all about, but then they get butthurt when these very men fall victim to their typical ways. My older brother happens to be one of these guys. He likes all these user/cunning types of women and when they do to him what they normally do with men, he comes home whining and crying. I'm not saying you're like that, but if every single woman you pick turns out to be a user, then you need to reflect on who you pick as lovers or like.

Quoting you because you've got so much Aquarius, lol. I've got Mercury, Venus, Jupiter, and Uranus in Aquarius, although I'm not too sure how that's supposed to manifest in my life
LOL. Well, forget Jupiter and Uranus because they aren't part of the mainstream planets. As for Venus is Aqua, that makes you picky in love and you require an intelligent partner. As for Mercury, you probably have gift of gab and are a logical thinker. Patient and not so much an impulsive thinker. You like to make your decisions in peace and cannot be rushed.

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This all sounds pretty accurate for me.

I CAN think logically, although I rely on my gut for making most decisions.
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This thread needs Miguel Ruiz

Life brings to you exactly what you need. There is perfect justice in hell. There is nothing to blame. We can even say that our suffering is a gift. If you just open your eyes and see what is around you, it’s exactly what you need to clean your poison, to heal your wounds, to accept yourself, and to get out of hell.

Miguel Ruiz, The Mastery of Love: A Practical Guide to the Art of Relationship --Toltec Wisdom Book

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The hell part is our suffering. Heaven and hell are within us and me must stop the lies and start being nicer to ourselves. You can't be loved until you master the practice of love. That starts with self love. If you're too busy loving yourself and loving life you don't need the acceptance or love from others. You can appreciate but you won't need it because it's already there within.

So cool huh? I love that Ruiz fam. They're so jedi.
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I agree with Harruka and Aquarius09 to a certain extent.

"The real voyage of discovery consists not in seeking new landscapes, but in having new eyes."

-Marcel Proust

Change your approach to love with a new set of eyes. You're in love with the idea of being in love. It's over-romanticized, superficial, intangible and fleeting. Which means it never existed. You never had the opportunity to experience love in its purest, unapologetic form. The courting process, the in-depth conversations, the vulnerability, the yearning, the evolution. Have you grown as a person from any of these relationships?

Unfortunately, you're the common denominator for these women, which means you need to look inward, not seeking external validation. You're not suffering from a broken heart. To have a broken heart would simply mean you have truly loved this person, have given this person your heart and soul, and connected with the individual on all different levels.

Honestly, what I see is a bruised ego, mainly from women you barely knew.

Don't love to love. Learn to live in the moment, and love will occur organically, and find its way to your heart.

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Stop basing your life value on women and love. Direct your attention to other stuff. What are your dreams? What career/personal goals would you like to pursue? What about hobbies? Do you have one? If not get one! It will not only distract your mind but it will also increase your chances to meet the right person for you. As the saying goes " you'll find the one doing what you love the most" . But first things first, get help and take of yourself.
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Posted by Moonman88
I feel like women don't like me .all my life its been this way.ever since I was in high school it was like this. I feel utterly useless and alone.if I could fade away I would because life just isn't for me anymore. And that's not an over exaggeration. I dont want to live.the pain is just to much.you see I'm a nice guy and I always think of the female.I love to love.but women always use me and throw me away. They say 'your just to sensitive; but when it comes to them, the world comes to an end.Im tired....so tired of women now.I just can't take it anymore. I try to be there for them and be patent.I try not to show my emotional side to much but still I fail.I fail......I fail so much. Its coming to a point now where I don't like to go out.I eat by my self and spend time alone.women have messed over me so much I hate them all. The hate in me has become something deep.so deep I can feel my inside throbbing. Every time I see a girl I become sad and hurt. Women are os vain and materialistic is sick.literary sick. I'm so hurt now I just can't take it anymore. I can't! I just can't! I'm so tired of giving and they just take! Im saying this because I think I need help now. The anger and saddness in me has been bulding up for years.help me.......I don't know how long I can last now.
Dude. Focus on making you're self better. Personal development. Work out. Social activities. Live without thinking you need someone to make you whole. You are valued because you exist.
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Hear me out mate,

if you're gonna continue thinking this way, there's no other way that you're gg under then downhill. It isn't easy to change the way you think, but as cancer, there is a need to express your thoughts and feelings, look for a counselor or a friend that you trust. But in the meantime, focus on yourself, improve yourself, work hard and aim to get somewhere brings you happiness, it works! Good luck bro