Moloko Im taking your advice... (Page 2)

fed up?! you have NO IDEA! I'm starting to wonder if this is all worth that much...

Any good word of encouragement from you!? I'm this close of giving up!

Well i woudn't blame you if you did give up, as its be going on for some time now, and for you to step forward and take the plunge admittedly aint easy, you could end up waiting for him for a very long time, but its your choice to make, he may be your dream come true after all the wait.

yeah well i don't know that i want to wait that long...
so I'll have to give this some serious thinking.

i have a question for you...

I know you Cancers like to revenge...
so i'm a little afraid now, I've ignoring him for a week and a half and now i've stopped... now that i'm nice, would you consider doing the same thing to me?

Well maybe not for a week and half but for a good 4 - 5 days...

I wouldn't do the same to you just for this moment, it would wait till you have done something really bad, my revenge can be a lot worse, i would and will take things to extremes if i feel the need to, i know revenge wont help me in the end, but il take it all the way, and i mean all the way if i have to.

Hi Moloko!

I'm thinking of sending him this email...
When you have a minute check it out and let me know what you think and feel free to add or change anything to it if you'd like, I'd appreciate your input! THANK YOU!
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You know, I can get angry at Joe here at work and then turn around and life goes on, just like that.
If get angry with you it?s a different story, first of all it?s not what I want, It?s not pleasant and secondly it completely breaks my heart because I do care? and therefore no I can?t just turn around and life doesn?t just go on. And when I say angry at you, it?s not really you, it?s more this whole situation and not you.

I can?t come to you to talk, because I know or I fear the answer will be??there?s nothing wrong, everything?s fine, I don?t know what you?re talking about, you?re just imagining things!? Honestly, I?d rather have a slap the face than to hear something like that. And besides, I could never believe that, not for one minute, sorry. And if it were the case, then there is really NOTHING else to say, that?s where it ends, enough is enough.

Anyhow, I think we both know this, that we do need to talk, communicate, open and honest, pride & stubbornness left behind, just honesty, (yes I have to admit, my pride does get in my way far too often than I?d like it to be). If we could just ?talk things out? , upset, angry, sad whatever it is? we need not to be afraid to say what?s on our minds?. No point in hiding feelings, whatever the feeling may be. And perhaps we can get somewhere and move on from this mud we?ve been in for so long, and make this little something, this friendship much more nicer, warmer, sweeter, comfy, cozy?. Just what I?m dying for it to be! Deep down I know it?s all there, so much to talk about, so much to share, I feel it?. it?s just covered with a little mud, but it?s all there to be enjoyed? and I want it, do I ever?.

SO? is that good? I thought i could guide myself on his reaction after, see how he reacts... and then have the talk...

What do you think?

I think its ideal, i wouldn't change any of it, this has got to work surely. If you feel ready to i would send it, or maybe you already have, you need to know sooner or later so that you can either take it to the next stage or at least move on from it. Good luck with this email.

yeah?!
I did not send it yet, but if you think this should do it then i do too.
I'll let you know when i do and what happens next...

FYI...
He just came in to work a few minutes ago and said good morning and all...and asked how things were... i said "oh just fiiiine" sarcasticaly, i sounded a little depressed... and he looked at me and said "you making fun of me now?" i sort of smiled a tiny bit... he says well i wish things were that fiiiine for me too... and he went.

I think he's a little sad... could it be?

He may be, being a cancer he's got that ultra sensitive thing in him.