Being Vulnerable

How do you deal with being vulnerable? I recently expressed some of the feelings I have for someone and afterwards I felt like I wanted to jump off a bridge. I've kind of been dodging her for a couple of days. I'm really glad I didn't express everything because I can only imagine how much worse I would feel. I've never felt this way about anyone and it makes me think back to other relationships where I actually thought I was in love. I realize in the past I was just going through the motions and not being true. The other person and I are not together and she's currently in another relationship. I just don't know how to put myself back into the stable mode I'm used to. I can't stop thinking about what I said and was having a crazy "YOLO" moment.

Ya ya. I hate being vulnerable too. And just generally don't put myself in those uncomfortable situations often BC it really just throws me out of my element.

I can't see myself expressing my feelings for anyone anytime soon. I've been hurt too many times this past year. I'll have to wait for them to express their feelings to me first.

It sucks, but your emotions are a part of you.

I think it comes down to acceptance. Once you accept your feelings then expressing them won't be so hard..

BUT, I know how you feel. I usually withdraw after I've expressed something too. You never know how the other person is going to take the vulnerable side of you.

It seems sometimes people are drawn to our cool/coldness, and maybe subconsciously we know that. When we care, there is a lot going on inside, and we become extremely sensitive. I guess it's just fear that person won't handle our vulnerability and sensitivity with care, especially since it's such the opposite of why they were drawn to us in the first place.

Just my take on it...can't speak for all caps.

I've expressed myself once in that manner, and I'll never do it again. She was a Capricorn as well actually. I listened to the advice of my sap ass Virgo friend and decided to "go for it" and express myself... NEVER AGAIN! IT WAS A DISASTER !!! I was down for about two months after the fiasco. Being that she was a Capricorn as well, we both were new to this situation .... we were so infatuated with one another... talked on the phone for hours each day. We both were business / industry professionals... I'm an accountant, she's a college basketball coach... so imagine us both in our offices, doing work AND on the phone... we always FaceTime'd.. there were a couple of times where we bumped heads. You know how us Capricorns are ...we play defense when we're in that process of getting to know each other. She came down to see me and we were in the car for hours having a conversation.. I took the chance and expressed myself... I let it out and it didn't go so well.. So not only did I beat myself up for doing something that I've never done before, but I was also mad at myself for listening to my Virgo friend, who is a love-crazed maniac. Never again .... never again.