Sad ;(

I am so sad today, it hit me last night and i cant shake the feeling, i just want to cry, but i dont, dang i hate this feeling!

Anyone else?

I am going to go out in my truck, roll down the windows, let the wind blow and crank up some music see if i can change this funk, got a date tonight dancing w/someone i have not met in person and this mood will not be the one i would like him to meet, dang..........

yea me too. but i know the reasons why. still hate it tho.

lol no. for me it's just life in general is getting me down. all the confusing, controlling ppl in my life.

I worked hard trying to get out of that mood today, i finally shook it for a few hours while out, danced, played couple games of pool, had a decent/good time. by midnight, poof! CInderfreakinrella lost her peak............hormones? IDK, possible, sheeze, I dont know what it was today or the past 24 or so hours, I hope its gone in the morning.


Thanks Shak's (part of it s-t-u-p-i-d-i-t-y on my part, that i just cant shake)


I wish i could get better control of my own freaking emotions, i am starting to wonder is it possible.............

"but good thing is you always manage to bounce back and get back to your child-like Gem modes yourselves"

lol preparing to bounce. 😉

BOUNCED!!!!! Thanks! LMAO, thank GAWDDDDDDDD!

You seem to be sad a lot lately ........ hope you found your way out of your gloom.

so, how was the blind date?

PA~ Thanks for asking, the date was Wonderful/& HORRIBLE, i met me a "real" undercover brother. Had a great time until a point and had to ask this less than a gentleman to take me home. He apologized the whole way home sincerely, but there will not be another "date" with him. Went out last night for a couple hours w/another new acquaintance, no chemistry, but great guy who has a wonderful mind. He blew my phone up to much already, so, IDK about even a possible friend w/him.

Sad, yes, I am fighting all the inner emotions i am feeling w/Virgo. He was around from Halloween til Christmas. And again, no word, just POOF! I got alot of closure i didnt have before from the May dates we had. I am also wondering if i am not "Menopause" at this point, I think i have enough symptoms to be. I have been a emotional roller coaster internally and so ready to get off the ride, LOL! No hot flashes, but lots of other symptoms. Doctors appointment in the near future, I should find out then i would think. Its such a Bitch getting older, but i started young so it is to be expected i would think.

I sure miss that damn man! (virgo)
Seen Aqua tonight, boy, am i sexually frustrated and sick of emotions.....but glad Aqua has finally given me a couple months peace.
Daughter left and went back to college so some "empty nest" sydrome to throw in there and i am gonna be a grandma again too this year......love the babies, wish my son would slow down and do a bit better before making so many baby's mommas....
So lots going on, up and down, thus is life, i have been a bit overwhelmed by it all and no one really to lean on, sometimes the "sex" is a way of relief and when Virgo comes and "plays" these games, boy, it just sends me in a bad way when he disappears like this.......its still all on me, i should not "need" anyone, but sometimes its nice and I have not had much of that in my life, someone to ever just hold me and be w/me for me.

Yeah, it does sound like age thing .. it catches up to screw with emotions. It's like ... you spend your whole life taking care of things, your family, your man, and then you're like what about me. Here I am doing all the caring for everything, making sure everybody has what they need to comfortable and happy .... and there isnt' anybody to care for the care-giver because everybody is just used to the care-giver giving and doesnt' look around to see that that person is being depleted.

I went through that a couple years ago .. it gets better, PGA. It really does. After the hot flashes though, once their finished then you'll feel back to normal.

Everyone is different ... it only took me several years to get through menopause. Hopefully, it will wont' take you long either. All the sadness stops when your cycle stops. One day .. it's just finished, and then back to your emotional norm. Just look at what you have to look forward too ... no more periods, NEVER have to worry about pregnancy ... yay!!!!

PA~ With the new "promiscuous" life i have been expierencing, no pregnancy would be great, besides, my kids are not too sure they will deal w/it if i did. Needless to say, i dont want too, and do all i can to insure it wont happen, so/w that said, fear, of ending up one of the 40 year olds that is not suppose to have to worry about it anyway, and here is "miracle" baby! (terrible horrible dont want too!) Its "me" time, I want to keep it, the grandbabies will be better, i can send them home and still play!

I think i have been in this stage for a little over a year, maybe closer to two, early finish would be great!

"With the new "promiscuous" life i have been expierencing"



lol, sounds like fun 😛 .. and scary 😢

I haven't made it there yet, to that point .. probably won't, I don't really like sex (with other people 😉).

Count me in FF, I got some steel toe boats to protect my little toes! I am armed and ready!

I am hitting the bricks already w/the resume, this job i got is not paying me! Work for free, HELL NO!

LOL boots, steal toe boots for those toes.......;p

Please pray for my family, we are losing a valuable member of our family, he was a WWII vet and so important to my daughters and myself, my girls called him grandpa, his wife grandma, they are by birth my uncle adn aunt...........we are feeling the loss already......please pray for his passing to be easy and painless and for his soul to be set free from all this life has put on it to dwell in love and peace and w/his father.

He is a great man in our lives...........working on going home to say goodbye, its complicated.........


My heart is broken for this loss.

thanks for your prayers