we broke up

that's all.

Aw, honey — I'm sorry.

who did u break up with

What happened?

after him saying first, that we should be exclusive, he loves me, we should get a dog, we should be together every day, we should get married, he decided that he doesn't know what he wants, is stressed out and everything is getting to him, I thought it's best we are not together. If a 39 year old man does not know if he wants to be with me, then I as sure as hell should not be with him. It's not over his ex wife, even if I'm sure that plays major part in it, even if he does not admit. Gem's feel things. We are weird that way. Always perceive things that are at the root.

Heels like my heart went hard and cold. I'm hurting, but maybe I'm not meant to be with anyone. Some people are meant to be alone. I embraced my solitude before and I will do it again.

He's not for me. Even if he admits and I know that we are at our best when together.

I'm letting go and I can't go back. It's too hard. Hurts too much to put pieces together just to have it all taken apart again.

Im sorry, roaming. I dont understand how someone can switch up like that. What exactly is he stressing about? Maybe he is having a panic attack about moving forward with you in a serious way because of what happened to him before? Which is understandable, but these things need to be talked out. He shouldn't run. SMH

idk. lost of crap is going on in his life that people do not get every day. he's stressing about possibly being deployed 4th time sometime soon and other stuff takes it's toll on him. we talked. he's miserable without me and I without him.

for now he asked me to give him some time and chance to fix things.

blah. I'm having an emotional hang over.

Sorry roaming 😢
I was hoping you would have better luck than I did.

meh. we break up, we are back.

stupid shit.
i'm sick of it.

it's bitter sweat and I dont feel appreciated as I should, but I'm having a hard time shaking that guy off 😢

really need to move on and I just seem stuck.
😢

I'm not happy. it feels like i'm chasing rainbows. everythign is phenomenal when we are together, but it's like pulling teeth now.

and it's hard not to call him back and stuff. but deep inside I know he's not that into me...

😢

Posted by roamingfree

... after him saying first, that we should be exclusive, he loves me, we should get a dog, we should be together every day, we should get married ...

... he decided that he doesn't know what he wants, is stressed out and everything is getting to him ...

... I thought it's best we are not together.

So, when he hit a low and life stressed him out ... you bailed on him.

A loyal and faithful partner will stand strong next to their partner during the lows in life.

You proved to be unloyal and unfaithful .... when got stressed and everything got to him, you left him.

He wants to raise a dog with a woman who loves him, and supports him .. I hope he finds her.

You ain't her.

Here's your history .... according to you ....

Posted by roamingfree

... I kissed a toad for 3 years who all did was abuse me ...

... than spent 10 years with a frog of Aqua who cheated and lied constantly ...

... had a thingy with CaprArius - who back stabbed me till not end ...

... it was a one Libra for a couple months who was way off his scales, and ended up being my stalker ...

... after that it was Cancer who was two timing me...

Seems like you always fail in relationships.

This time, according to what you said ... you bailed on him when he needed you the most. In reviewing your history with men, one begins to wonder if you showed them your unloyalty to them when they needed you .... so all the above happenings were in place because they felt betrayed by you.

It amazes me how emotionally stupid people are ....

yeah, well, after all that love mush, he pulled back and said he's not ready, doesn't want to talk about and when we do it just pisses him off - in his own words. He led me on and when I learned to believe him, he took all that back. He wants me to be his sounding board with nothing in return. He is going as far as retiring in 7 years and not knowing what and where he will be, one option is for him to be in MN so he's closer to me - does he really expect me to wait till he retires and think I'll still be around. Life does not work that way. If a man wants to be with a woman he will make it happen. If he does not, he will not lift a finger. If he just likes her, he will keep her around until something better comes along. That's how life works.
I do not want to be someone who is just for now. He's giving me nothing but false empty promises which he started himself and I never asked for and he is very readily taking them all back.
I often feel like a filler and someone just there because someone else is not there. He has feelings for me, but they are not the depth that he says they are and I do not feel at all that they are what I want them to be.

It's just not enough.

thank you Everyone.
we talked.
he is still adamant about us being together. We now have a time frame of a year and a half - that covers what I need to do here basically. He says he wants us. But being in military I do know why he is semi detached. I get it. He, according to him, wants nothing more than us being together.
We shall see. I will concentrate on doing my things.

He's a cusper with Cap. I'm hoping he's more of a Cap in this than Sag.

well, I"m going to see my man next week or so. he's talking venues for our wedding. even though we are not supposed to talk about the "thing" we are talking about it. and it's not me starting (tee hee hee).

Now what do I do with him?
I'm trying to keep cool about this, but no woman can help herself when a man is talking about venues for their wedding, even if she has not received a ring yet lol.

This guy will be the end of me. I tell you fellow Gems, he really will be.