Feeling vs Thinking

These are more thoughts I've just had about being rejected by a certain lovely young libra woman.

There's how I feel. I feel like I've been terribly misunderstood. I understand that she isn't interested, and thats fine, that doesn't bother me. It's the wondering whether or not she might be if it weren't for the "fact" that she's misunderstood me somehow that bothers me. I feel lost. I'm upset because I expect myself to be over this. I should be. But I think about it constantly. It feels like she and her friends all think I'm crazy or stupid because there's something that they all know and understand and I don't, so somehow I'm not at their level and I'm an idiot for thinking I ever could be. If thats true, I want to know what I'm missing, but I feel like none of them think it's worth their time to help me figure it out, and when they think they have offered useful information, but I still don't understand, they get angry that I'm not getting it.

So then the question is, is this all just a head trip that I'm going through, and they're really all just a bunch of assholes who I shouldn't be listening to and getting my feelings hurt over, or is there really something to it, and if so, what?

And then there's what I think, which is that I'm losing my mind trying to figure all this out, and it's a waste of time and it's not worth trying to figure out, and I should just let it go. But then on the other hand, maybe there's a really important lesson I need to learn from it, and if I let it go, I won't learn what I need to. Or maybe letting it go IS the lesson I need to learn. I'm so lost.

how did she misunderstand you?
in any case why would you care what her friends think?

imo...i just think you need to let this go, where's your self confidence? tell these girls to fuck off and move on. to me it sounds like they're trying to "help you" is more of them mocking you.

Well, I mean, I'm thinking everything that you've all said, I'm just not feeling it.

I'm wondering if I should just forget about women and being social for a while. Just sort of be a hermit, maybe go abroad at some point. Travel around. I dunno.