Libra focus on Other

I focus so much on other people that it causes me stress because I ultimately neglect my own needs. My Libra placements are Sun, Asc, & Mercury.

How are other Libs in this area?

Do focus enough/well on yourself?

What are your major placements?

Lol.. Thanks sugar.

I've been thinking about this today because anytime I disappoint just about anyone in nearly any way I feel so awfully guilty for it and possibly for longer than is "normal." Even little stupid things. Part of it is because I want to do everything perfect and correct the first time every time. It's so annoying.

Also straight up real confession, when other people don't like me, it typically makes me so sad. It's ridiculous. Pathetic even perhaps. There are exceptions, like if I truly hate someone or think they are 100% awful with no redeeming qualities I don't care. But the problem is that I have this annoying ability to see the silver lining in *almost every* cloud. I acknowledge all the bad and good so there are only a handful of people I truly dislike 100% .

What's your moon sign, Duchess?

When I was younger, yeah, I put everyone around me first because I felt like I had to help my mom and do my part. I raised her kids, took care of the house, pretty much did all her motherly duties while she worked overseas. Although I attributed this more to the cultural belief that family is everything and family first.

But something happened that made me realize they really didn't care about my personal well-being and if they can sell me for money, they would. It actually happened!

So I realized, fuck this shit! These people I love more than my life care more about money than me!!! I better care more about myself because I'm completely ALONE. None of them really cares about me.

As for others liking me or not, I don't care. I just don't like backstabbers or people being nice in front of me but says negative stuff behind my back. That's nasty! That pisses me off too & I confront them.

What we all have in common is seeing the silver lining and seeing the good in everyone even if they did me wrong, I can still rationalize and try to understand why they did what they did.

I don't expect anything in return when I help others or show how much I care but I have personal boundaries no one can cross and if they do, they won't be a part of my life anymore. So in a way, I am balanced. I look after my own well-being first before helping others.

It's all good, Sugar. It's been one helluva life but it's been worth living.

My family is still a part of my life and we put that in the past but I know what they're capable of doing so I still keep my guard up.

My husband always remind me that given the chance or if shit hits the fan, even my bro or sis would trade me for money if they could or if they had to.

I do believe him but it doesn't hurt because at least now I know if it ever came to that point, I know where to stand and I should put myself first.