whats the deal with this guy??

25 years ago, 15 yrs old, this libra grabs me and kisses me, I push him away and tell him he has to grow up before that happens..lol, he tells me now, that when I said that, he thought, challenge accepted. lol.. from that time on, we hung around each other and were part of same "click". go forward to age 23. Out at a friends house party and he grabs me and begans kissing me, I didnt stop him that time. We began seeing each other for well over a year. I even became pregnant, but had a tubal pregnancy that ruptured. At some point I decided that it was time to grow up and I moved to the neighbooring town. I only seen him a couple times after that. We grew our seperate ways. I would here about him from time to time and we both got married and began our own families. 2 years ago I heard his wife passed away. About 9 months after his wife died, he finds me on facebook. We began talking At this time I am going through seperation. He is still having hard time with passing of wife, of course, and has 4 young children at home. His life is basically a wreck, drinking, etc. We become great friends, and are really a shoulder for each other and eventually we end up together, in bed. Of course there is chemistry and history and now a very close friendship, stronger than our younger years by far. In the beginning of this, I don't really think of it going anywhere. Mostly because of how much he drinks and I know he is grieving wife and feel like we are just being there for each other. Time goes on, we don't see each other all the time, but talk weekly and see each other every coupe weeks. I began to have some feelings for him, and occasionally bring it up, but, always saying, I am not ready for anything, and he says same thing. By now I am divorced.THis has been gonig on for over a year now. I know that there are other girls that he sees, and I have seen other guys, but a couple months ago, I tell him , I am tired of this dating thing and I only want to be with him, although I am not ready for relationship. He really doesnt say much, only that he likes that idea. I never got any idea of what he thinking. September he goes to treatment. Been sober ever sence and I know that he was bale to talk about his wife passing and etc. I talk to him when he is there and am strong supporter of him being sober and feel like we are getting closer. So he has been home for 2 weeks and I have seen him 3 times. We still live in seperate towns, so its hard with work and our own fa

Sooo, you two are basically clinging on to the past of when it was young love, confusing the emotions involved with stress of these life changing events with actual feelings toward eachother?

...Kay.

So, you are suggesting that we are only together due to emotiional stress and theres no genuine feelings? How is that?