How do you let out anger?

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Eleventh
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I don't let it out that's my problem.

I withdraw into a lower frequency of consciousness where I create my own personal hell where I go over the same thing over and over in my mind until I'm so highly strung that anything can trigger a purge of emotion and therefore I either self harm or start destroying things, I broke my phone 2 weeks ago I didn't want to but I didn't want to stick the kitchen knife in my hand to take my mind off the shit so the phone had to go...

Lately though I've been changing my thought patterns and it seems to be working, I was having a horrible night at work and my mind was on repeat with the same shit over and over again and I wanted to run out the doors onto the highway hoping it would be a big truck that kills me, but I knew I had to fix this and would you believe that I started racking my brains for things to be greatful for, it started of slow and I was making a mockery of the practice but i started to feel the rewiring happen and I could feel my consciousness start to elevate and I started to become self aware and then I was back to my old self but I felt like I had given birth to a baby, I was exhausted, I wanted to cry tears of happiness and I felt love in me...

I'm still learning how to control my anger but that sensation is something I look forward to having again....

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Posted by The_eleventh_sign_11
I don't let it out that's my problem.

I withdraw into a lower frequency of consciousness where I create my own personal hell where I go over the same thing over and over in my mind until I'm so highly strung that anything can trigger a purge of emotion and therefore I either self harm or start destroying things, I broke my phone 2 weeks ago I didn't want to but I didn't want to stick the kitchen knife in my hand to take my mind off the shit so the phone had to go...

Lately though I've been changing my thought patterns and it seems to be working, I was having a horrible night at work and my mind was on repeat with the same shit over and over again and I wanted to run out the doors onto the highway hoping it would be a big truck that kills me, but I knew I had to fix this and would you believe that I started racking my brains for things to be greatful for, it started of slow and I was making a mockery of the practice but i started to feel the rewiring happen and I could feel my consciousness start to elevate and I started to become self aware and then I was back to my old self but I felt like I had given birth to a baby, I was exhausted, I wanted to cry tears of happiness and I felt love in me...

I'm still learning how to control my anger but that sensation is something I look forward to having again....


You basically described what I feel in words I can't explain