Growing pain

Losing friends
Learning yourself
Setting goals

I'm in such a weird place in my life right now. I'm turning 25 in February and I don't know how I feel about that. There's nothing I can do about it because it's going to happen, but it's weird. I've finally gotten to a place in my life where I realize what I want to do and how I want to do it. This is great and all, but its also started to effect my personal relationships with my friends.

I haven't really hung out with any of my friends in like months. I just don't feel compelled to. All I think about is school, work, and my future. I don't even factor in my social life unless it's sex. I've been feeling really disconnected these past 3 years. Like I'm transitioning. When my friends want to hang out it feels pointless. Like why? Maybe Im just a shitty friend.

Are these have growing pains or what? I'm so uncomfortable 😢 everything feels weird

I'm so conscious of everything now. I'm always in my head 😢

Everything in life involves some upkeep. I think it's good you're focusing on goals to move forward in life, but if you neglect your friends then don't go crying when you finally take a look back and realize that no one's around. Personally, being an 11th house sun, friends are probably the most important thing to me, or tied with having a partner. If you're the type who can survive well with only a few friends or on your own, then I guess you have nothing to worry about. Wish I could be like that.

At the same time, it doesn't sound like things with you are all that happy, either. Why do you feel disconnected? Is it because you've been focused on things other than socializing or is there a different reason? When did it start (before, after you started focusing on these goals)? Always being in your head doesn't sound good either. Makes me think of anxiety disorders, low self confidence, or other healthy things.

*or other unhealthy things

I think what you are describing is fairly normal for mid 20s women. To me anyhow. Paths start diverging as everyone chooses how they wish to set up their lives.

I see no real issue here. Nothing that isn't just called "life"
*shrugs*