Aquarius/Taurus/Cancer love triangle- help!

I am caught between a Cancer with an Aqua moon and an Aqua with a Taurus moon. I'm a Taurus with an Aqua moon...

The basics: I met the Aqua fresh after a breakup with my long term partner of 10 years. I fell for him madly. He made me feel safe and taken care of. My emotional unavailability at this time caused me to break up with him multiple times because I was still healing from that fresh breakup... What ended it for real was that the Aqua lied to me; he had been on a dating app but told me it was just to talk to someone about us (we were having problems at the time). I freaked out, said I could never trust him again, and ended the relationship. It lasted on and off for about a year (but we were living together by the end).

I then started seeing this Cancer, who at first pushed me away and didn't reciprocate my feelings. I fell for him really hard in the beginning, but his behavior left me cold. We had a huge fight because I think he realized he was losing me, he tried to patch things up, but I had already moved on emotionally from him, and he became extremely angry that he had taken a step forward only to have me slap his hand (so to speak).

In the aftermath of that breakup, the Aqua was still texting me every day, saying he loves me, asking to see me, asking how I am, even texting me good morning and goodnight every day, etc. When I became single, I started meeting up with him to do platonic things, basically rekindling a friendship, but all the while saying I didn't want a relationship with him. Of course eventually we got closer and it got to the point where he was in my apartment, we would order take out and talk and he would end up spending the night so he didn't have to go home so late at night... We would fool around sometimes and I'd regret it the next day because I felt like I didn't know what I was doing with him and I was being really unclear and unfair. It was basically like a push and pull constantly where we would get close, I'd freak out, he'd back away out of respect, then a few days would go by, and we were texting again and saying we missed each other...

We have a square between our Venus and Mars signs but we also have a trine between Venus and Mars... I've read that the square causes an on-off type of relationship that usually isn't lasting. I can definitely feel this aspect in our bond. I don't know if there is a way to overcome it.

Then the Cancer comes back around after months of silence and having me thinking he'll never talk to me again. I had written him off, deleted our texts and photos from my phone, and forgot about him. He confessed all of these really deep emotional things that he had been not saying out of fear. We ended up having sex after meeting again to "talk"; the sexual chemistry that we have is VERY strong (our Mars signs are sextile). I wasn't expecting the sex, but I think he was wanting to "seal" things in this way, and show me that he wanted me and really was attracted to me, etc.

The crazy thing is that I don't feel an emotional bond to him anymore like I did in the beginning. I immediately regretted the sex the next day... It's almost like I was in love with him once, and now I can't be again. I keep thinking it wouldn't hurt me at all if I never spoke to him again.

Meanwhile, the thought of not seeing the Aqua again is painful, even though I'm not sure we can be a couple, I feel so close to the Aqua emotionally; we have cried in front of each other and taken care of each other when sick, I have told him everything about myself and he accepts all the ugliness about me too, etc.

Even thought the Cancer and I have more common interests and are closer in age, I feel that the Cancer and I don't have this same closeness for some reason. There is a lack of "romance" between us I suppose. It's very strange. When I look into his eyes, I actually don't feel anything... The Cancer and I have that damn Venus Opposition Uranus in our synastry.... He also has it in his natal chart... We also have Sun Opposition Jupiter, which scares me.

When I look into the Aqua's eyes I sometimes get tears in my eyes because I can feel how much he loves me. I love to hear him call me beautiful, I love to talk to him and joke with him. I feel like I NEED him in my life in some way, I'm just not sure we can get it together to be a real couple again...

I am just here hoping for any advice you could give me... I am so confused and lost...

Here's my advice.

Learn to be alone, and be happy. You perpetually have someone just lingering the whole time.

JFC, you jump from guy to guy and fall for each one.

you love the aqua, what's the problem here?

Posted by Endless

you love the aqua, what's the problem here?

I'm laughing because I just re-read everything I wrote and that's definitely how it sounds... Thank you for your comment. I guess sometimes people can be so confused they can't think straight in these situations.

Posted by Endless

you love the aqua, what's the problem here?

xd thats what i saw too...

emotionally that's where your heart is at .

Posted by Aquaman4848

Aqua and taurus.......Nooooooooo plzzzz Nooooo

Yeah, but there's more to compatibility than sun signs 🙂

@taurusgirl9000 where is your venus? that mirrored sun conj. moon (by sign) is very nice with the aqua....if I believed in astrology I'd lean towards that, espec. given how you describe the actual chemistry/emotions....if I were you I would just tell them both, given how rocky its been, that you don't want anything too serious or committed/exclusive, and then date both dudes....let things play out and time will reveal it....

Posted by Metatron

@taurusgirl9000 where is your venus? that mirrored sun conj. moon (by sign) is very nice with the aqua....if I believed in astrology I'd lean towards that, espec. given how you describe the actual chemistry/emotions....if I were you I would just tell them both, given how rocky its been, that you don't want anything too serious or committed/exclusive, and then date both dudes....let things play out and time will reveal it....

My Venus is in Aries... I actually thought the other day that I should just be alone to really figure this out and tell them both to let me be for a while.

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Posted by Metatron

@taurusgirl9000 where is your venus? that mirrored sun conj. moon (by sign) is very nice with the aqua....if I believed in astrology I'd lean towards that, espec. given how you describe the actual chemistry/emotions....if I were you I would just tell them both, given how rocky its been, that you don't want anything too serious or committed/exclusive, and then date both dudes....let things play out and time will reveal it....

My Venus is in Aries... I actually thought the other day that I should just be alone to really figure this out and tell them both to let me be for a while.

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alone for the summer definitely doesn't sound so fun to me, but fair enough...

lol, you said you dumped the aqua months ago.

I know because i've been on the fence with some taurus for years now and your posts really sealed the deal on the opinion of "unappreciative eartherners".

But tensions are high lately LOL, i might even ask her out one of these days.

Posted by Aquaman4848

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Posted by Aquaman4848

Aqua and taurus.......Nooooooooo plzzzz Nooooo

Yeah, but there's more to compatibility than sun signs 🙂

No no no still no...... U will break that aqua 😑

What if he get to know u had sex with other guy, while he was still trying hard for u day and night...u were on his mind all the time...he had hopes...

But u are not worth, he doesn't know that...

So leave him with some nice letter or something🙃

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I told him I was seeing someone else once the Cancer and I got involved and the Aqua didn’t change his tune a bit. So, you’re wrong.

Posted by Mr_Pinchy

lol, you said you dumped the aqua months ago.

I know because i've been on the fence with some taurus for years now and your posts really sealed the deal on the opinion of "unappreciative eartherners".

But tensions are high lately LOL, i might even ask her out one of these days.

Oh, leave the poor girl alone, would ya?

Posted by taurusgirl9000

Posted by Mr_Pinchy

lol, you said you dumped the aqua months ago.

I know because i've been on the fence with some taurus for years now and your posts really sealed the deal on the opinion of "unappreciative eartherners".

But tensions are high lately LOL, i might even ask her out one of these days.

Oh, leave the poor girl alone, would ya?

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