Libra2388
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It's getting worse
You can be anyone this time around. you can be anything this time around. you can do anything this time around. you're the first generation in human history to know how to control your own nervous system. change your own reality. blow your own mind. make up your own mind. you can be anything this time around. you can be god this time around. you've got to be god this time around. you can be anyone this time around. you can be krishna you remember him, body paint, barefoot, flute, standing down by the riverside, flirting with cowmadez. why not be krishna, god of love, this time around. hare krishna. you can be shiva this time around, sitting on your tiger skin, naked. you can be anyone this time around. john and yoko this time around.
i saw the best minds of my generation destroyed by madness.
allen ginsberg this time around. starving, historical, naked, dragging themselves through the negro streets, at dawn, looking for an angry fix. angel headed hipsters, burning for the ancient, shuddering connection to the starry dynamo in the machinery of night. you can be maharishi this time around, you can be anyone this time around, sit in a cave in the himalayas, with a ten foot erection, making love with the universe, and laughing and smiling, loving this time around. you can even be high priest of lsd this time around, running around, trying to turn on the world this time around. you can be goddess of love this time around, in fact, why settle for less than goddess of love this time around. and why take less than that from any man you meet this time around. be cherished, and loved, admired, worshiped, as goddess of love this time around. you can be anyone this time around. you can sing with a band this time around. you can be a rolling stone, or grateful dead, or fly in a jefferson airplane this time around. you can make it a beauty trip this time around, make music this time around. you can be anything this time around. you can be sky, earth, or mountain this time around. you can be water, thunder, wind, lake, fire, this time around, changing, cycling, be it all this time around.
i saw the best minds of my generation destroyed by madness.
allen ginsberg this time around. starving, historical, naked, dragging themselves through the negro streets, at dawn, looking for an angry fix. angel headed hipsters, burning for the ancient, shuddering connection to the starry dynamo in the machinery of night. you can be maharishi this time around, you can be anyone this time around, sit in a cave in the himalayas, with a ten foot erection, making love with the universe, and laughing and smiling, loving this time around. you can even be high priest of lsd this time around, running around, trying to turn on the world this time around. you can be goddess of love this time around, in fact, why settle for less than goddess of love this time around. and why take less than that from any man you meet this time around. be cherished, and loved, admired, worshiped, as goddess of love this time around. you can be anyone this time around. you can sing with a band this time around. you can be a rolling stone, or grateful dead, or fly in a jefferson airplane this time around. you can make it a beauty trip this time around, make music this time around. you can be anything this time around. you can be sky, earth, or mountain this time around. you can be water, thunder, wind, lake, fire, this time around, changing, cycling, be it all this time around.
Feedback from outside world:
Sometimes, some people take relationships very very seriously. These are the people who think it over again and again to make sure it is the right choice. There's no rush in such things as people mature at different rates. They are probably buying time Focusing on themselves. That's where your focus should be too.
Sometimes, some people take relationships very very seriously. These are the people who think it over again and again to make sure it is the right choice. There's no rush in such things as people mature at different rates. They are probably buying time Focusing on themselves. That's where your focus should be too.
Posted by spica
Feedback from outside world:
Sometimes, some people take relationships very very seriously. These are the people who think it over again and again to make sure it is the right choice. There's no rush in such things as people mature at different rates. They are probably buying time Focusing on themselves. That's where your focus should be too.
I Iike that a lot. That's easier to understand. I just hate missing people but I'm am trying to use my free time on myself. What you said put me at eas this morning. Thx.
Yea it is hard. But yea we talked two weeks ago. Thats when he was just asking how I was and stuff. But nothing since than. I feel its unfair as well and thats the part of me that is mad. All I want is for him to stop pushing me away. I guess I wil have to have a discussion with him because really this past month has been hell.
Ive noticed on this journey that in the past with my relationships I was more caught up on the rejection part. Like the only reason I "missed" them was because I didnt want to feel rejected. But if they did come back and express their love for me I would be turned off and end up ending it anyway because deep down even though I was hurting I knew it was best to be apart. I was just having a hard time getting ovver the rejection.
BUT this time its different. I have never really cared so deeply about someone so its not that im concentrated on the rejection part im just concentrated on how he really did mean something to me and that I really do miss him. Im not really hurt either. I just really miss him. I miss him like crazy.
Ive noticed on this journey that in the past with my relationships I was more caught up on the rejection part. Like the only reason I "missed" them was because I didnt want to feel rejected. But if they did come back and express their love for me I would be turned off and end up ending it anyway because deep down even though I was hurting I knew it was best to be apart. I was just having a hard time getting ovver the rejection.
BUT this time its different. I have never really cared so deeply about someone so its not that im concentrated on the rejection part im just concentrated on how he really did mean something to me and that I really do miss him. Im not really hurt either. I just really miss him. I miss him like crazy.
It feels like forever! Lol he's a Scorpio though. I don't know much about signs but from what I've read he matches up.
Other than disappearing without much reason not really. He hasnt done this before and maybe it feels like forever of him being away its more im just confused I guess. The time he started getting distant was around August. But I just thought maybe thats because of his situation he had all summer. He would still make contact with me but he just didnt seem like himself I guess. Than weeks ago he just completly pulled back. When I did give him the opportunity to say it was over or he felt differently about me he didnt. Still hasnt but hasnt wanted to see me or talk to me either.
Its just confusing because all summer he was all about keeping us going and even before his situation he asked if I was still going to be there for him and I told him yes. During the summer he always told me he appreciated that. We were good. So Im just confused and really missing him.
Its just I really do feel like all contact is on him. Hes pushed me away so much that it seems like thats what he needs. It still hurts tho.
What exactly do you mean losing himself in the relationship?
Its just confusing because all summer he was all about keeping us going and even before his situation he asked if I was still going to be there for him and I told him yes. During the summer he always told me he appreciated that. We were good. So Im just confused and really missing him.
Its just I really do feel like all contact is on him. Hes pushed me away so much that it seems like thats what he needs. It still hurts tho.
What exactly do you mean losing himself in the relationship?
Posted by oldskoolflavor
maybe by his behavior, he's trying to figure out a few things:
"I told her everything is cool ... does she really trust my word though ?
how would she handle long absences/withdrawals ? would she slip?"
he's NOT interested in who you present yourself as to the world ..
he has to commit to the REAL you
So are you implying that this is a test to see how I react if im still by his side in the end? If ill slip and do what is expected or not expected? What shows that I havent been the real me?
Posted by oldskoolflavor
SMFH
*bangs head agst the wall*
What's that for?
and okay I guess I can c what yr saying. You do make an interesting point. Still sucks for me.
A part of me wants to do that but theres something stopping me. I feel like I put so much on the table for him that I feel like it's his turn to come get me. I guess I could think about that some more. Isn't it always told that when a guy needs space to just leave him aline till he seeks you out again?
Everywhere you go that's what been told to women.
I appreciate your feedback a lot. You have open my mind to other things and I do appreciate that.
Everywhere you go that's what been told to women.
I appreciate your feedback a lot. You have open my mind to other things and I do appreciate that.
I don't believe in "taking breaks." Doing so is running from the problems, not facing them.
If he can't maintain a stable relationship with you & be stressed at the same time then there's no point in being together. Life & stress never go away so is a "break" something you should expect every time life gets tough for him? That's not fair to either of you.
If he can't maintain a stable relationship with you & be stressed at the same time then there's no point in being together. Life & stress never go away so is a "break" something you should expect every time life gets tough for him? That's not fair to either of you.
It's good though that he's not leading you on or getting your hopes up.
It could be worse! He could be lying to you, geeking your head up & coming up short every time
1 of the best advantages of being in a relationship is the fact that when you're down, you can always count on your partner to comfort you, therefore the 2 of you can go through it TOGETHER
The fact that his stress is outweighing his need to continually be there for you oughta tell you something.
Not that he's a bad person, that he's seeng other girls or that he's playing mind games. But moreso that if THIS is what it's gonna be like every time he's stressed, are you sure it's even worth it?
Don't apologize for being hurt, for wanting answers or even for harping on this. That's what someone whose been left high & dry usually does. It's completely normal & human!
Life is supposed to feel a little less fulfilling when there's nothing you can do when your loved ones are hurting or going through something
Continue to focus on you & give him his "space." But before you guys officially get back together & remain working on the relationship, make sure you address this issue with him.
Let him know that you understand that he's going through alot, but that it's not fair to you to be left in the dark & left hanging. Hell, for all he knows, you could be going through something devestating right now, but yet he'd never know b/c he's so absorbed in his own problem.
When he entered into the relationship with you, he should've traded the "I's" for "WE's." Unless he knows how to do that, the relationship won't last
It could be worse! He could be lying to you, geeking your head up & coming up short every time
1 of the best advantages of being in a relationship is the fact that when you're down, you can always count on your partner to comfort you, therefore the 2 of you can go through it TOGETHER
The fact that his stress is outweighing his need to continually be there for you oughta tell you something.
Not that he's a bad person, that he's seeng other girls or that he's playing mind games. But moreso that if THIS is what it's gonna be like every time he's stressed, are you sure it's even worth it?
Don't apologize for being hurt, for wanting answers or even for harping on this. That's what someone whose been left high & dry usually does. It's completely normal & human!
Life is supposed to feel a little less fulfilling when there's nothing you can do when your loved ones are hurting or going through something
Continue to focus on you & give him his "space." But before you guys officially get back together & remain working on the relationship, make sure you address this issue with him.
Let him know that you understand that he's going through alot, but that it's not fair to you to be left in the dark & left hanging. Hell, for all he knows, you could be going through something devestating right now, but yet he'd never know b/c he's so absorbed in his own problem.
When he entered into the relationship with you, he should've traded the "I's" for "WE's." Unless he knows how to do that, the relationship won't last
Posted by krysrenee7
It's good though that he's not leading you on or getting your hopes up.
It could be worse! He could be lying to you, geeking your head up & coming up short every time
1 of the best advantages of being in a relationship is the fact that when you're down, you can always count on your partner to comfort you, therefore the 2 of you can go through it TOGETHER
The fact that his stress is outweighing his need to continually be there for you oughta tell you something.
Not that he's a bad person, that he's seeng other girls or that he's playing mind games. But moreso that if THIS is what it's gonna be like every time he's stressed, are you sure it's even worth it?
Don't apologize for being hurt, for wanting answers or even for harping on this. That's what someone whose been left high & dry usually does. It's completely normal & human!
Life is supposed to feel a little less fulfilling when there's nothing you can do when your loved ones are hurting or going through something
Continue to focus on you & give him his "space." But before you guys officially get back together & remain working on the relationship, make sure you address this issue with him.
Let him know that you understand that he's going through alot, but that it's not fair to you to be left in the dark & left hanging. Hell, for all he knows, you could be going through something devestating right now, but yet he'd never know b/c he's so absorbed in his own problem.
When he entered into the relationship with you, he should've traded the "I's" for "WE's." Unless he knows how to do that, the relationship won't last
I agree with you and maybe it is just me going threw the motions of him being gone. Its just the days that I get so low but still have to put on a smilr ya know?
I do think about him being like this all the time... I wonder stuff like that a lot. So indeed if he does come back trying to make it work I will talk to him then about how un cool that was.Thanks for your feedback. Very much appreciated.
YOu make it sound like you have to endure something that wasn't your choice ... yet, everything you do is your choice.
He doesn't make you wait .. you choose to do it.
if you don't like your own choices ... then that's your problem, not his.
He doesn't make you wait .. you choose to do it.
if you don't like your own choices ... then that's your problem, not his.
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Its been about a month since my boyfriend told me he was going threw things and needed some space. All summer he went threw a very struggling time with work and his finances and I stood by him the whole way threw. So it kind of shocked me when he needed time away eventhough he really appreciated what I did for him. So I promised myself to just give him his space.
I miss him like crazy though. I miss him more and more each day. Not less and less. I find myself asking the universe to bring him back to me. Its just the more time goes on the more I feel like its hopeless. The last time we talked was about two weeks ago and he was seeing how I was and what my new work/school schedule was and things like that. But not trying to see me or anything.
I am confused because he never broke things off. When he told me he needed space I had asked if he was done and he said "no not at all just going threw somethings". He never gave anything back as well. I still have things over at his place and havent asked for them back either.
I am a little bruside from him pushing me away especially after being there for him. I feel like ive done all I can do and pushing more wouldnt do much good either. Apart of me wants to be mad but the other part still wants to love him. I cant tell whether my insecurity is making me feel low about the situation or if this is just normal.
I havent been sitting at home moping around or anything. Ive been hanging out with my friends, I got a new hair cut and have been really focusing on me and school. Trying to focus more of my energy on my goal list and who I want to be as a person. Since I have a lot more free time I feel like I should occupy it.
I just still feel myself waiting for him to come back. Im just so confused. Its easy to occupy myself physically but emotionally my heart just doesnt want to let go. It feels like each day is worse with missing him rather than getting better. The sad thing to me is I am able to act so nonchalnt to the outside world that everyone thinks im fine but deep down im not. My grandmother always said fake it till you make it and thats all I've been doing but havent made much of anything besides my outside appearence. Any advice from anyone that can relate or anything? Dont feel like talking to my fam or friends about it I needed some advice from the outside world.