Walls

So I'm at this birthday party last night and the birthday boy decides that he wants to have a "get to know you better" one on one pow wow with me.

As the conversation goes on I'm realizing in the back of my head that I am more closed off than I realized.

How did these walls get so high? I have no idea how to break them down now.

I'm reminded of what the Pisces told me when I met up with him. He told me that my walls were so high that he is barely hanging off the edge trying to get over them.

I thought maybe it was just him because I knew he was lying to me but I'm seeing now that it is with everyone.

How do I tear down my walls? Not completly down but low enough to let some people in?

Posted by Loyal

Question what made you put them up so high in the first place?

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I with you on this! I have no clue why I’m so standoffish. I’ve never really been hurt by love enough to be scared to do it again. But I still don’t know why I can’t give it my all. It sucks. And men don’t really understand me fully. It takes years.

I don’t know how to show everything and open up in the beginning and don’t even know why anyone would even want to see everything at once.

Seems like a bore.

But if you find the answer. Please let me know!

WTF is up with the walls?

Is it a ‘real’ thing same as ‘running away because afraid to get feelings ha hurt’ bullshit?

Posted by mudra_

Yessssss for that oct 19th bday boy lol

Just gotta let go and trust, lioness. Not every experience is going to hurt you in some way. Especially if it's not going in a romantic way.

Last night wasnt his official bday. But I did just realize he is a Libra and Libra men and I get along really well. Lol

Posted by bumboklatt

You need someone with patience which is hard to find these days. This is common with mutable energy. Since your a 12th houser theyre notorious for having difficulty in relationships

Yes, patience is important with me. Not many people are.

  Walls are usually placed because of standards. The more red flags, the higher the standard. People with high standards are usually more more patient than those with lower standards. They believe time will reveal peoples true character and that also, respect must be earned first.

  In social gatherings, one can learn to lower that guard naturally because most are acquaintances. But in personal gatherings, only time will tell when to shorten the wall, as it is much harder to master because you are trying to place value on someone else.