Working

Here is the deal??_.I have worked at the same place for over 4 years and in the past time promotions have ensued and made some good friends with the persons I??ve worked with.

However in the last two years it's been a roller coaster ride. I have had major lows with my performance and I have done steady at other times. But I can seem to catch my footing. I sometimes hate to come to work. And this is the first real professional position I??ve held but I'm always falling short some way or another. I analyze the circumstances and demands on my work, and still can't keep up with what is asked. I'm not a computer so I know I have to look at things twice sometimes three times to catch any errors. But the people over my projects may not see it that way and consider it slow turnaround or not focusing the first time around.

Sometimes I believe that my peers really believe that I'm stupid or not skilled enough. Why all the insecurities? I never felt like a beat down person at work, but now I do. Nothing I do is ever good enough. How can this Saggie make life better at work?

Aren't you the same one that was having problems with females at work a few months ago?
Sounds like it's getting shittier. 😢 I'm sorry.

Ovi thanks! For the input. I have been thinking of hypnosis as an answer finder for what I'm dealing with.

Unfortunately I don't have positive work environment where we are helping each other eliminate errors. Mostly it is where someone points it out loudly and makes you look bad to your superiors to the point where everyone in your environment is approaching you with stupidity. My coworker is mostly the person that puts this on me. the attitude they take is negative where the reaction is —No this is all wrong?? but there was a small misunderstanding. Or —there are so many errors in your work??, but they intern missed errors on completely different things in the same work.

There is possibly no way that things will improve. I may be looking at moving on some way or another.

And BRI you are correct, things have mostly changed for the good, but I think that there is a cloud that will forever be cast on the work enviro.

I am suspicious that the primary person involved in the previous problems (who is also team lead at work) is why these work problems persist.

Ovi thanks! For the input. I have been thinking of hypnosis as an answer finder for what I'm dealing with.

Unfortunately I don't have positive work environment where we are helping each other eliminate errors. Mostly it is where someone points it out loudly and makes you look bad to your superiors to the point where everyone in your environment is approaching you with stupidity. My coworker is mostly the person that puts this on me. the attitude they take is negative where the reaction is —No this is all wrong?? but there was a small misunderstanding. Or —there are so many errors in your work??, but they intern missed errors on completely different things in the same work.

There is possibly no way that things will improve. I may be looking at moving on some way or another.

And BRI you are correct, things have mostly changed for the good, but I think that there is a cloud that will forever be cast on the work enviro.

I am suspicious that the primary person involved in the previous problems (who is also team lead at work) is why these work problems persist.

oil and gas....

it's very competitive enviro and everyone is out to prove the other dumb.

I don't believe that for a second ... I know for a fact that people's energy can be changed, for I do it on a daily basis.

Unfortunately, most people are negative who have no clue and think they are positive ... until I get a hold of them and reflect this negative energy back onto them .. suddenly, they are singing a different tune, and talking about how "good" it is, as compared to what I've put in their face. Sadly, they have no idea whatsoever that it was their own energy I was smacking them with 😢

Nevermind that ..... it can be done ..... I'm 100% certain it can. 🙂



Here you are just like I described above ..... you think you want positive, you think you would like to be all about the good parts of your profession, the positive energy .. however, your attention is on pure negative, failures. Take yourself out of the equation and read what you wrote as if it were somebody else ........ you have yourself believing that you are already defeated. You have to realize your own energies, if you are to rise above this. You cannot waddle in what is bad and actually expect it to have a good outcome.

People do that all the time, and really believe that they are looking at the bright side of things, simply because they are miserable in how horrible and have an inkling by looking at others that it could be different, but, their focus, their concentration is actually on what/why it's fucked up.




Here's a start that you can try ........ bypass this girl completely, for it doesn't matter how terrible she is .. in fact, if you make her matter, such as I've seen thus far in your postings, then in her terribleness is where you are focused. Forget her ... to your other co-workers is where I want you to go.


Pick one a day, it doesn't matter who, look at their work, and say ........ "That's a great idea"

Next day, go to another and say ...... "Brilliant, wow."

Next day, go to another and say ...... "Dude, show me how you did that, I love it"



Even if thier work is wrong .... doesn't matter. The wrongness doesn't matter in the individual work because it is in the teamwork that you are trying to create, and once these people begin to comprehend that your aim is to unite, rather than divide .. then the terrible girl will be history because everybody will choose of their own volition to go with what you've created by people are by nature ..... seeking better.