Camilleisrad
@Camilleisrad
8 Years
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The first 8 months we were living in the same city and he was VERY attached to me, wanted kids, wanted monogamy, but I was 24 at the time (aka too fucking young for that shit) and him 35 (and already had/has two kids and a house in the country).
He very badly did not want me to move but at the time it seemed like the best thing for my career and I like to move to new cities as often as possible to experience new things and challenge myself (basically adult version of semester abroad). I will usually be gone for a year and come back a year. The entire time I was gone (a little over a year) we still talked (though not as often) and I tried to visit him as often as possible, at least once a month, sometimes once a week.
So basically I finally came back three months ago, which we had both been talking about and saying we were very excited about, and the day I get here he ices me out. I freak out, text him "wtf is wrong with you?!," etc, etc. He tells me he just found out his mom is dying and right now he needs space. Whatever. After three weeks of being ignored I basically text him and ask if he's done yet cause I'm dying to see him and I can't live without him. AND HE SAYS "can't talk, have a gf now, nothing personal, night"!!!!!!!
So yeah. This was three months ago and obviously he hasn't come back yet so normally I would have moved on by now but unfortunately we work together and every time we see each other he like stares at me from across the room. And he always tries to make excuses to talk to me, flirt with me, zip up the back of my dress. And like when Scorpios are done aren't they supposed to be DONE?! No small talk, no longing stares? AND very shortly before he did the ice and the break (like 3 days before) he tried to come inside me (which you know is like the classic Scorpio trying to keep you forever thing). Oh, and I call him like 3 times a week and text him late night heartfelt bs and I always ask him to block my number so I can get it through my head that it's over and there's no hope and he always refuses and will never explain why. He even tries to pretend like he's blocked my number by always rejecting my calls immediately but I know he hasn't because one time I called him at work to see if his phone would ring and it did. Also I asked him to block me on fb so I couldn't fb stalk him and like feed my own sorrows and guess what he did >.> he blocked me on messenger >.> so I can still look at all his pics and think abt him all the time 🙄.
So yeah, Idk if he's trying to show me what it's like to be abandoned (bc I know he felt abandoned after I moved and he has Venus in libra - trying to make things fair) or scare me into monogamy/commitment or just plain fuck with my head. Or I guess test to see how long I'll wait for him (like he did for me). So, like, wtf does this guy want and how am I supposed to respond?!