I really would like some honest advice. First off, I'm a married Pisces-Aries cusp woman, 29. Although I feel that I relate more to my pisces side. My Scorpio affair partner is 35 married to a Capricorn. We both have 2 kids, failing marriages. My husband was a serial cheater with strippers/prostitutes, doesn't justify my behavior but he really was a jerk. Anyways We had what I would consider an emotional affair now for over a year. We've never physically met. Just online conversations. We found eachother on instagram through hashtags. I believe I liked one of his kids pictures then we started following each other. At first glance we both have so much in common. I saw his profile and was like wow what a great guy. But did not initiate conversation. Eventually I put my snap chat name on my instagram and that's when I first heard from him. He added me on snap chat and sent me a message saying I had cute kids. It really took off from there. We messaged each other all day long. Sometimes into late night. He wanted to know everything about me. He said that. We swapped pics daily he told me I was stunning, beautiful, gorgeous, perfect 10. I found him so handsome as well. We both confessed that each of was eachothers perfect match all around. Really he checks off all the boxes on my perfect man list. He's a great man and a great dad to his kids. We called eachother baby, love, etc. he told me he missed me all the time. Told me I was like the one that got away. One time he was like "want to be a step mom lol?" He always told me I was a badass mom. I fell hard for this guy. I truly believed he was my soul mate and still do. All the while knowing this was trouble. We never made plans to physically meet. Both bogged down with daily responsibilities. I was even pregnant for 9 months of our interaction, he was always there to talk to and I really enjoyed him. But I was also really bummed that he wasn't mine. He would message me while on family camping trips telling me he wished I was there. He always told me of his marital problems and that he wanted to divorce but was really conflicted due to the kids. He said it would be a "no brainer" if it weren't for his kids. He told me a lot of his skeletons and confided in me. This to me meant that he really cared for me. I know scorpios don't just open up to anyone. I remember when we first started talking he said " usually im better at playing it cool, but with you I'm all in" and "where were you 10 years ago?" so I know he really liked me. So here is where it gets weird. My marriage was really coming to a breaking point my husband became abusive and I needed to get out so I made arrangements to finally leave my marriage. I mentioned it to my Scorpio but no details. I always tried to spare him details and keep it light hearted. I didn't want him to think I was leaving my marriage for him. He asked questions and said he was worried about me. I could tell he was trying to cheer me up and being really sweet as usual. Then, on the day I'm moving away from my husband he sends me a message. "I think I need to delete my instagram and snap chat" Now that was our only form of communication we never exchanged phone numbers. Inside my heart sank. I thought to myself why is he doing this today? Of all days. I responded "why" and he said " long story. Likely ending in divorce." I said "I'm sorry, hope I didn't get you in trouble or something" then he says " you didn't. Regardless of what happens here I do care for you. But I've got some serious soul searching I need to do" then I said "I understand" and then he was GONE. 😢 😢 😢 I was devastated. We went from talking every day to nothing in a blink of an eye. So my question is, did I do this?! Was he freaked out about me leaving my marriage that he felt like he needed to disappear? I mean he could have just deleted or blocked me but he totally deleted his social media accounts. And would he say he was getting divorced if he didn't meant it? Maybe he is trying to sort through his feelings and decide if he wants to divorce or save his marriage. I don't know, my heart aches for him and I have no way of knowing what happened or if I should have professed my love for him. Was that a test to see if I cared about him? Did I fail?! Ugh. I just never wanted to come on too strong, I know Scorpio men need to be in control. I do have his email. Should I email him? Or let him go? Honestly, I'd go to the ends of the earth for this man. Sounds crazy and it is. But isn't that what true love is like? I'm spinning out someone set me straight. Was I just an ego boost? I'm so confused.
