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He sounds genuine and is opening up. ~shifty eyes side to side~

Yes, I totally agree with you Star. The only way he will see my heart again is if he has shown me through his actions that his intentions are good.

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I wish it was soul searching. I'm thinking probably not. Having said all that I'm still connected and have been working really hard to get in connected. I'm lost. After the reading I got the other day with 4 major arcana etc. death lovers high priestess karma
I'm not making any sense am I? Lol

All majors? wooooh that is pretty heavy! Death means to move on and transform, with the lover..move on from lover

Two nights ago I did a horseshoe reading on my career path. He's always in the back of my mind and we are "alike" spiritually so anytime I do stuff like this I have a hard time keeping him from my mind.
Anyway.
Past - death
Present - lovers
Positive - high priestess
Negatives - Page of wands
House - King of wands
Action - Karma
Outcome - Ten of Cups.
Heavy hitters. Wow

Karma card? Do you mean card 10 Wheel of Fortune fixed? He is a Scorp with Venus in Scorp—? RUUUUUUNNN!! 😄

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What's wrong with scorpios with venus in scorpio?

Wow, I actually slept for the first time in weeks, and for a whole 8 hours!

Star I didn't know you were a Venus in Scorpio! I think your such a sweet lady, and you talk about it like its a disease. 😄 Maybe I just get it.
I read the article and it was insightful. Scorp could be jealous but like me, doesn't allow it.
He was very open in the beginning and was able to show his emotions. It wasn't until mid January that I saw the Scorpio in Venus man that is described in that article. Seems falling for someone brings that out in him or maybe its just the Scorpio bits that had him shut down. His Virgo moon seems to cause conflict as well. For as much as he loves to indulge his passions that Virgo moon pipes up and says "Hey, wait a second, this isn't practical". How am I doing so far? I haven't ever really considered his whole chart and how each works with the other as I just didn't know enough about it. Understanding what happened is like salve to my wounds though. Does that make sense?

As Impulsv mentioned, a person can do a lot of growing in two months and I know I sure have. This place allows me the freedom to be myself and then it shows me my flaws in a way I've never experienced before. It is enlightening and I absolutely adore it. I think because I can be somewhat intimidating to those trying to get to know me that rather than working through the things that make them uncomfortable its easier to just walk away. Those that do know me know I am a freaking softy and just brush that intensity away. Finding someone that can face that known intensity and want to work through it with me is very unusual.

He worked to get me to respond. He apologized, and he validated our connection and his feelings towards me. He wanted to know what I was thinking and called bullshit on my frostiness. He said "I know you feel the same about me, I can feel it through the damn phone". I never could hide squat from him. He and I talked about how fast our relationship progressed and how that scared him. I responded "I'm a Cancer moon. Deal. Lol." He said then that the part of me that he is most attracted to is that side of me, the one that's a little sarcastic or goofy. That is who he feels safest with. I can understand that, because I know me so much better now than I did before. Amongst all of the talking we did the most important for me was to see if that heart of his was open for business. Lol. He said that there was no way he could be intimate with me the way tha

...He said that there was no way he could be intimate with me the way that he was if his heart was not involved and how could I not see that.

So, here I am this morning with a full nights sleep, refreshed, and thinking I might just have some fun and live life. If he shows me with his actions that he is serious and not playing me for a fool I will let him stay. What do you think?

Good Morning FB... I hear you on the making mountains out of molehills. Also funny you should mention being active vs passive. I was just thinking about that this morning. Lol
You are reading my mind ~spookiness~ hehe.

I feel content. He is off working and doing his thing making sure I knew he was putting his cell phone in his locker until 7:30 tonight. We had a good conversation and this gives us time to process. Very nicely done.

Also, I wanted to mention that when I broke up with him last time I did not take liberties here on Dxp to whine and cry, bitch and moan. I shut down and you guys didn't hear from me for awhile. If it should happen, and my need for pre-emptive measures is coming into play here, I will take liberties here on Dxp should I have to end it again. I expect you will all be supportive and caring with no "I told you so's". You owe me. Wahahahahah! 😆

Good Morning to you too Star. Yes! that mercury Rx is in the back of my mind with Scorp. When is it done? !!?

... and might I add, this isn't a pick up where we left off. We have agreed there is a lot to us, and agreed we ran into some problems but we haven't really discussed moving forward and how we plan on doing that. Technically, we are not back together yet. Just working through some stuff.

Your son is a Venus in Scorp too? That is so awesome that he has a Mamma that will help him understand himself better. 🙂

Thankyou for the hugs Star (((Hugs)) to you too.

You should go sleep then GS.

On second thought, maybe you are not a morning person and if that's the case I can relate.

I won't, and thankyou for the advice. Now stop snoring your wakin the whole household. Lol

Posted by FixedWater
...He said that there was no way he could be intimate with me the way that he was if his heart was not involved and how could I not see that.

So, here I am this morning with a full nights sleep, refreshed, and thinking I might just have some fun and live life. If he shows me with his actions that he is serious and not playing me for a fool I will let him stay. What do you think?

I think you know what to do lady. Start using your own intuition.

As well:

Posted by FixedWater
I think because I can be somewhat intimidating to those trying to get to know me that rather than working through the things that make them uncomfortable its easier to just walk away. Those that do know me know I am a freaking softy and just brush that intensity away. Finding someone that can face that known intensity and want to work through it with me is very unusual.

While you are expecting him to "work through it with you", perhaps do some work yourself. If people find you intimidating, try to make it easier for people (namely him) to come to you when issues arise.


Also, this:

Posted by FrostAndBite

You can be observant and cautious, but just make sure it doesn't cross the line into 'quick to make a mountain out of a molehill'.
Also, resist being a passive participant, be an active one.

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Plus I just love when someone else is happy with a Scorp man, since they don't get too much love round here, haha.

Agreed.

Posted by FixedWater
I expect you will all be supportive and caring with no "I told you so's".

😏....good luck with that.


😄 I'm teasing, I'm teasing..... I don't typically do the "I told you so" (except with one Gem months ago because she was arrogant).... but in all seriousness, you've been reading the same board as I have right? The gifs will be waiting. The support will be too.

If this goes side ways, just take a shot of your best tequila and take your pepperin' like a champ.



(pepperin' = verbal beating given with love)

All the best Fixed!

I think you're right PR.. I am only just realizing that my intuition is pretty reliable.
I have always viewed myself so much differently than how others apparently see me. In my mind I am the picture of innocence and approachability. Haha! I am learning there's more to me than that, which is good too. I will accept and work with it. Learn to find a nice balance. Give each other the time we need to be able to learn, know, and trust these amazing intricacies within.

Being an active participant should be easier now. My confidence level is up, my life is moving forward with my career choices made, and my kids are set up and happy.

My comment to moon not very long ago was that there was no way I would walk away from another Scorp. I find all that intensity like being at "Home".

Take my peppering like a champ ... Ahahaha!

~good thing PR explained that cause I've never heard that slang before~
~remember to pick up a bottle of tequila~

Thankyou PR, I sure do appreciate all the input. 😄

Posted by FixedWater
Take my peppering like a champ ... Ahahaha!

~good thing PR explained that cause I've never heard that slang before~

😄 West Indian slang. To "peppa" someone (aka add pepper or heat/fire under someone's ass after a mistake) is done to make the person feel so uncomfortable that he/she learns their lesson, so they don't make the same mistake again. It can be harsh (for sensitive folks), but it is done with love and a lot of humour. Usually done within your close circle.

With DXP, I'm not sure how much genuine love is being applied, but I do believe some folks care.

I adore that slang and will adopt it, if I may. 🙂

I believe that too... some folks do care.

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Posted by FixedWater
Good Morning to you too Star. Yes! that mercury Rx is in the back of my mind with Scorp. When is it done? !!?

July 1st it goes direct, but the effects can last up to a week...they say don't make any major decisions during a rx or else they can come back to bite you on the bum ! 😄

Yes i am trying to guide my lad through the downfalls of Venus in Scorp......god help him!!!

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That's perfect, I wasn't going to agree to see him until the first or second week in July, should it come to that.

Good luck with your Lad, with you guiding him I am sure he will be amazing. 🙂

I love being called "Sister", Sister. 😄

I wish my Mother had gotten to know our inner workings like you are with your Son, and I do with my kids. I have found astrology to be very helpful in getting to know who I am. I think, if I can show them how natural it is to be this way or that, they will be more accepting of their flaws. More confident with who they are. They can take something that they have decided they don't like and work on it to make it better in their own eyes. To me, this will be a huge advantage for them, as with yours, and any other parents that use astrology as a "tool" to help guide their children.

That intensity is really comfortable for me, but I also believe in balance. I no more want to be there all the time than I want to be goofy and silly all the time. I want to maintain balance within as that's where I am the most content.

Did you get to the part about the make up sex yet?

Yeah but why else read a romance novel? Come on, get to the good part! lol

My point! Not any old dick is novel worthy. 😉

Haha! You guys are too fun! 😆 I couldn't get on Dxp, freaking malware.

A little update... 😆
Scorp and I are feeling each other out. Not literally Kim! HaHa, but emotionally.
He texts me in the morning at about 5am before he goes on the floor and then again when he is done work at 7:30. We talk about light things mostly although there was one fairly heated convo, and yup, its still there.
BUT
He feels "numb", he is not his vibrant self. He took a bit of a beating this past few months while we were apart. Is it because we were apart? He did say when I 'left him' that made him sad.
I want to take him in my arms and hold him and love him. I can heal him...
I want to take my own heart in my hands and keep it in one piece...

So for now, I am walking the fine line hoping he doesn't show up at my door because I will jump up on him, wrap my arms around him and well...
If he does I might be lost in that black hole again. I haven't been with anyone else since he and I were together and if I go there with him I am fucked. (literally and figuratively hehe)

I feel confident and powerful within, not because of control over him or us but I think because I am loving me?

"Scorp and I are feeling each other out. Not literally Kim!"

Damn. I'm sick of the paperbacks. I need a hot story. Thought you were gonna come thru for me!

Insert this paragraph between the last two paragraphs above:

In our conversations he has been hinting at how my apartments coming?
That we haven't had a glass of wine together in quite some time...
That he flies home today...
That he will be sleeping for the 7 days he's off...

He hints. I THINK that if he wants to see me he should take the bulls by the horns and ask me out on a date no? Otherwise, wouldn't we just be picking up where we left off? I don't want to be there again, that is why I broke it off. I think it's questionable what his intentions or "needs" are. That is my gut instinct so far so I have not taken the bait. What do you think? I know Scorp shows his love and affection in the bedroom but can I realistically go there knowing I will attach again no matter what his intentions are? I am a little confused how to handle this and think I should continue to put him off until mid July.

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"Scorp and I are feeling each other out. Not literally Kim!"

Damn. I'm sick of the paperbacks. I need a hot story. Thought you were gonna come thru for me!

This is the best kinda Scorp romance... long and drawn out till you cant stand the suspense anymore! Oh I do love foreplay. hehe

Why did i just rub my hands together and giggle with glee? I hope he shows up. I hope, I hope, I hope!
Living through your sex life is all i have left.

WHAT! I missed the part about mid-July before. You can't do that to me!

Ah, him, I meant him. You can't so that to him. Yeah.

Posted by starlover
Sisters in crime 🙂

Yes the astro stuff is very useful for kids...my lad is surrounded by Leos at school and i asked him what he feels about them and he says *annoying and ego ego ego* 😄 haha

Balance?? What is that 😛....haha...i never maintained much balance in my life until i found myself single and now i am starting to do all that work on myself that i didn't before, cos i was too busy giving most of my energy to men

How could i have done that—?!!!

lol
xxx

Yes, Sister's in Crime 🙂 I love your new Avi!
Leo's do have a fairly hefty ego. I think it's cute as long as I don't have to deal with the "Diva" when their ego's get bruised.
That is it, isn't it? Balance, and seriously sometimes I think OMG 'you're' a lot of work!! They think we are high maintenance Pfffffffft!

Haha! I was prepared to hide... 😆

Omg we'd have fun hanging out, you are hilarious. Btw, I was thinking the same thing a few weeks ago with you and your boss (till I found out more of the details)

Posted by starlover
Moon, Venus is in detriment in Scorpio which means it can be dangerous and overly intense (especially in love)

I have it


lol

read this, if you dare 🙂

http://www.astrologymarina.com/2013/08/venus-in-scorpio.html

Ok, that could be hard to have, but I'm still not seeing the downside....except the part about falling in love with people they can't have.

Boss? Oh, my scorp and I work together but he's not over me.

*slips away for a bagel*

Can Scorps get over Scorps? Lol
I don't think so...

Hey! Im starving... I want some Bagel... ~pouting~

I think I should just come out with it and ask ... Do you Love Me? Then he can run screamin' for the hills and I can go back to pretending I don't think about him.

It wasn't that good.

I would sooo tell him. But I suck at love.

So do I...
My Brain and my Heart are at odds all the time. They just don't see eye to eye! >😢

Posted by starlover
...am hearing lots of stories where the man is either scared, or not sure how he feels, the women are left hanging and putting thier lives on hold. i would say to any woman, decide how long you will wait around and then close the book. i have been reading for a woman that has been waiting around for a man for 5years. She still asks *how does he feel about me, what does he want with us*....this guy isnt really able to give her what she want, but she still *hopes*

What are you trying to say star?

I don't stand a chance?

My brain and my heart are talking to me on Dxp! Wow! Good thing I'm not smoking anything wacky or I'd really be tripping. 😆

You guys are awesome and you couldn't have summed up where I am any better. I think Scorp is my Twin. I cannot let him go even if every part of me wants to send him to 'somewhere far away' for all the hurt he's done. So innocent is he in his self-centered and self-pity stage to not understand who he's hurting and how much. I don't think he could handle that weight right now. He is transitioning, and I see where he's at and I think 'Oh, if you only knew where you were going and how amazing it is you would get yourself out of your head and come take my hand'. That Man that I fell for is in there, I am going to try to honour him in that way and avoid the use of the word "Assclown" in the future if at all possible (No Promises!)If we cannot be together now, he will still always be my mirror and in my heart we belong together... sooner or later. So my brain (Star) says to this "You Idiot!" and shakes it's head at me. I know, what are the chances I'm not going to get hurt? I am trying to take it cool, and put up some proper boundaries because I am on damage control. I have stocked up on Kleenex and Tequila and am ready for my peppering. Lol

Then again, I asked the Universe last fall to send me my One and Only, that I was ready.
Since then... chaos hehe
Did I mention? I had a gut feeling yesterday that he was wearing my chain, so I asked him if he was and he said 'No, but I have it beside me'. Awwwww

Just to clarify that part about my brain calling me an idiot... that's me saying that to me, not Star as I do not think Star would call a sister an idiot. 🙂 It was simply in reference to Star's take on the chance I am taking with my heart and soul and whether or not it's really worth it.