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Well something odd has happened... Amidst the back and forth, rollercoaster I have been on with my bull, something inside me changed.
We are no longer together but we still connect, talk, see each other here and there and hook up as well. I have concluded that I know what my feelings are and I love him. Entirely.
I love him in a weird way though, unlike I've loved someone ever. Its in the way that although we are not together, but the limbo isn't hurting me. I feel ok with him going and coming as he sorts himself out, I can honestly only pray he finds the path hes looking for. But for me, I don't feel that loneliness or that pain from being separated anymore. I feel like fighting for us in a subtle way, with patience. Just to wait for him, love him and be patient for his return.
I feel ok with this for some weird fucking reason
I feel ok with not hearing from him, I understand now
But I still want to be there for him, I feel all this love for him and he's in my thoughts, however, I feel safe in the space between us.
I think I finally went nuts. This is not normal for me. Is this normal in general—? Im posting this in Scorpio forum too because I think I lost it honestly.
Posted by Koniuchaa
Haven’t we all....
I really think I did LOL
Posted by wildflower
Well something odd has happened... Amidst the back and forth, rollercoaster I have been on with my bull, something inside me changed.We are no longer together but we still connect, talk, see each other here and there and hook up as well. I have concluded that I know what my feelings are and I love him. Entirely.
I love him in a weird way though, unlike I've loved someone ever. Its in the way that although we are not together, but the limbo isn't hurting me. I feel ok with him going and coming as he sorts himself out, I can honestly only pray he finds the path hes looking for. But for me, I don't feel that loneliness or that pain from being separated anymore. I feel like fighting for us in a subtle way, with patience. Just to wait for him, love him and be patient for his return.
I feel ok with this for some weird fucking reason
I feel ok with not hearing from him, I understand now
But I still want to be there for him, I feel all this love for him and he's in my thoughts, however, I feel safe in the space between us.
I think I finally went nuts. This is not normal for me. Is this normal in general—? Im posting this in Scorpio forum too because I think I lost it honestly.
You need that GTL life, gym tennis laundry.
Posted by wildflower
Well something odd has happened... Amidst the back and forth, rollercoaster I have been on with my bull, something inside me changed.We are no longer together but we still connect, talk, see each other here and there and hook up as well. I have concluded that I know what my feelings are and I love him. Entirely.
I love him in a weird way though, unlike I've loved someone ever. Its in the way that although we are not together, but the limbo isn't hurting me. I feel ok with him going and coming as he sorts himself out, I can honestly only pray he finds the path hes looking for. But for me, I don't feel that loneliness or that pain from being separated anymore. I feel like fighting for us in a subtle way, with patience. Just to wait for him, love him and be patient for his return.
I feel ok with this for some weird fucking reason
I feel ok with not hearing from him, I understand now
But I still want to be there for him, I feel all this love for him and he's in my thoughts, however, I feel safe in the space between us.
I think I finally went nuts. This is not normal for me. Is this normal in general—? Im posting this in Scorpio forum too because I think I lost it honestly.
It sounds like a kind of agape love.
However, there is an opportunity cost, while he is coming and going, like you said, you are remaining in limbo. Unable to move on. Limbo is stuck. How long you want to stay in this state is up to you but it's not living, it's suspended animation possibly because the thought of doing something else is something you are not emotionally ready for. There is comfort in the known.
you still had marbles ?
I feel like that's a stage of greif when you break up.
im sure you will feel different when and if you see things not going your way with him.
i.e. he starts seeing someone else.
I say this from personal experience and regret (at that time)
all things happen with purpose.
Posted by wildflower
Well something odd has happened... Amidst the back and forth, rollercoaster I have been on with my bull, something inside me changed.We are no longer together but we still connect, talk, see each other here and there and hook up as well. I have concluded that I know what my feelings are and I love him. Entirely.
I love him in a weird way though, unlike I've loved someone ever. Its in the way that although we are not together, but the limbo isn't hurting me. I feel ok with him going and coming as he sorts himself out, I can honestly only pray he finds the path hes looking for. But for me, I don't feel that loneliness or that pain from being separated anymore. I feel like fighting for us in a subtle way, with patience. Just to wait for him, love him and be patient for his return.
I feel ok with this for some weird fucking reason
I feel ok with not hearing from him, I understand now
But I still want to be there for him, I feel all this love for him and he's in my thoughts, however, I feel safe in the space between us.
I think I finally went nuts. This is not normal for me. Is this normal in general—? Im posting this in Scorpio forum too because I think I lost it honestly.
It sounds like a kind of agape love.
However, there is an opportunity cost, while he is coming and going, like you said, you are remaining in limbo. Unable to move on. Limbo is stuck. How long you want to stay in this state is up to you but it's not living, it's suspended animation possibly because the thought of doing something else is something you are not emotionally ready for. There is comfort in the known.
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This message helped me so much... made me realize that stagnant isn't good, and being comfortable with his distance at the expense of myself isn't the best for me. I feel like I am done
Posted by Sodapop
My advice is to not be friends at least until you’re detached or made your peace with the breakup.Only because I don’t want my ex to slowly wean off of me and think oh, turns out I’m not that into her after all, cause he never misses you or feels that loss. It’s only you that’s hanging there waiting on him.
What will happen if he meets another woman and tells you all about her?
Protect yourself. Put your self first. Put what you NEED and deserve first. It took me a while to get that.
Thank youuuuu! You're right. I think thats a problem I have, idk how to put myself first all of the time. Or be ok with putting myself first. Im so happy I posted here and with y'alls feedback, I see that Im fuggin up. Like he aint shit lol how am I ok with this?? The end is near. How do I protect myself though?
Posted by sagittariusxo
I feel like that's a stage of greif when you break up.im sure you will feel different when and if you see things not going your way with him.
i.e. he starts seeing someone else.
I say this from personal experience and regret (at that time)
all things happen with purpose.
I realize now that you are right.. the end may be near for me :/ Problem is that, (idk if a Scorp thing) but once Im done w u, I am done. no looking back
Posted by Sodapop
My advice is to not be friends at least until you’re detached or made your peace with the breakup.Only because I don’t want my ex to slowly wean off of me and think oh, turns out I’m not that into her after all, cause he never misses you or feels that loss. It’s only you that’s hanging there waiting on him.
What will happen if he meets another woman and tells you all about her?
Protect yourself. Put your self first. Put what you NEED and deserve first. It took me a while to get that.
Thank youuuuu! You're right. I think thats a problem I have, idk how to put myself first all of the time. Or be ok with putting myself first. Im so happy I posted here and with y'alls feedback, I see that Im fuggin up. Like he aint shit lol how am I ok with this?? The end is near. How do I protect myself though?
I would put space and distance between the two of you. That’s how you get your power and control back. When you’re constantly talking to them you’re just overwhelmed with all kinds of feelings that blur the truth, if you step back you’ll start seeing things in a clearer way, and you’ll feel empowered again!
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Should I say something before putting space/distance? Because I have done that from time to time and we are on good terms but it will go good, get great and then he like backtracks. Its like F U dude lol like wtfffff how do you do that? Im annoyed at myself for falling for him and this dumb situation
Posted by wildflower
Well something odd has happened... Amidst the back and forth, rollercoaster I have been on with my bull, something inside me changed.We are no longer together but we still connect, talk, see each other here and there and hook up as well. I have concluded that I know what my feelings are and I love him. Entirely.
I love him in a weird way though, unlike I've loved someone ever. Its in the way that although we are not together, but the limbo isn't hurting me. I feel ok with him going and coming as he sorts himself out, I can honestly only pray he finds the path hes looking for. But for me, I don't feel that loneliness or that pain from being separated anymore. I feel like fighting for us in a subtle way, with patience. Just to wait for him, love him and be patient for his return.
I feel ok with this for some weird fucking reason
I feel ok with not hearing from him, I understand now
But I still want to be there for him, I feel all this love for him and he's in my thoughts, however, I feel safe in the space between us.
I think I finally went nuts. This is not normal for me. Is this normal in general—? Im posting this in Scorpio forum too because I think I lost it honestly.
It sounds like a kind of agape love.
However, there is an opportunity cost, while he is coming and going, like you said, you are remaining in limbo. Unable to move on. Limbo is stuck. How long you want to stay in this state is up to you but it's not living, it's suspended animation possibly because the thought of doing something else is something you are not emotionally ready for. There is comfort in the known.
This message helped me so much... made me realize that stagnant isn't good, and being comfortable with his distance at the expense of myself isn't the best for me. I feel like I am done
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i'm glad it helped. i didn't mean for you to cut things off (unless that's what you want!)
i think with those things you do it for as long as it works for you. like you said, you were feeling safe and sometimes that's what you need. when you start wanting to feel something else (and safe no longer holds the appeal it once did), you will move on. the love will still be there but it will be while you are also loving yourself and the potential of your future.
i guess i was saying that if you needed a period of suspended animation to transition to your next phase then that was cool. i just wouldn't want you to feel that that was it, the end of your story.
Posted by sagittariusxo
I feel like that's a stage of greif when you break up.im sure you will feel different when and if you see things not going your way with him.
i.e. he starts seeing someone else.
I say this from personal experience and regret (at that time)
all things happen with purpose.
I realize now that you are right.. the end may be near for me :/ Problem is that, (idk if a Scorp thing) but once Im done w u, I am done. no looking back
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I consider myself the same way. as some point I lose interest. its sad but I just kinda accept it.
its important that follow that intuition and allow things to unfold while you focus on what you need to be happy.
I hope that me and mine will work out but Im open to all of lifes lessons.
Posted by Sodapop
My advice is to not be friends at least until you’re detached or made your peace with the breakup.Only because I don’t want my ex to slowly wean off of me and think oh, turns out I’m not that into her after all, cause he never misses you or feels that loss. It’s only you that’s hanging there waiting on him.
What will happen if he meets another woman and tells you all about her?
Protect yourself. Put your self first. Put what you NEED and deserve first. It took me a while to get that.
Thank youuuuu! You're right. I think thats a problem I have, idk how to put myself first all of the time. Or be ok with putting myself first. Im so happy I posted here and with y'alls feedback, I see that Im fuggin up. Like he aint shit lol how am I ok with this?? The end is near. How do I protect myself though?
I would put space and distance between the two of you. That’s how you get your power and control back. When you’re constantly talking to them you’re just overwhelmed with all kinds of feelings that blur the truth, if you step back you’ll start seeing things in a clearer way, and you’ll feel empowered again!
Should I say something before putting space/distance? Because I have done that from time to time and we are on good terms but it will go good, get great and then he like backtracks. Its like F U dude lol like wtfffff how do you do that? Im annoyed at myself for falling for him and this dumb situation
I know that back and forth hurts way more than just one clean breakup. I’m trying to attempt a clean breakup this time and it really feels much better cause I’m starting to get a hang on my emotions again and I think this makes you interesting again once you just walk away without looking back.
You could tell him goodbye or just do it, it’s really up to you on how you want to proceed. Leave it on friendly terms though and don’t burn bridges.
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Well I followed your advice and said goodbye :/ Its weird, when I originally posted that wasn't even my intent but it just feels like the right thing to do, I need to put myself first and make distance between us where he knows that I am not willing to do this back and forth. Its too much. So yup, bye it is. I realize I cant meet my next if Im focused on my ex. My heart hurts rn but its for the best
Posted by wildflower
Well something odd has happened... Amidst the back and forth, rollercoaster I have been on with my bull, something inside me changed.We are no longer together but we still connect, talk, see each other here and there and hook up as well. I have concluded that I know what my feelings are and I love him. Entirely.
I love him in a weird way though, unlike I've loved someone ever. Its in the way that although we are not together, but the limbo isn't hurting me. I feel ok with him going and coming as he sorts himself out, I can honestly only pray he finds the path hes looking for. But for me, I don't feel that loneliness or that pain from being separated anymore. I feel like fighting for us in a subtle way, with patience. Just to wait for him, love him and be patient for his return.
I feel ok with this for some weird fucking reason
I feel ok with not hearing from him, I understand now
But I still want to be there for him, I feel all this love for him and he's in my thoughts, however, I feel safe in the space between us.
I think I finally went nuts. This is not normal for me. Is this normal in general—? Im posting this in Scorpio forum too because I think I lost it honestly.
It sounds like a kind of agape love.
However, there is an opportunity cost, while he is coming and going, like you said, you are remaining in limbo. Unable to move on. Limbo is stuck. How long you want to stay in this state is up to you but it's not living, it's suspended animation possibly because the thought of doing something else is something you are not emotionally ready for. There is comfort in the known.
This message helped me so much... made me realize that stagnant isn't good, and being comfortable with his distance at the expense of myself isn't the best for me. I feel like I am done
i'm glad it helped. i didn't mean for you to cut things off (unless that's what you want!)
i think with those things you do it for as long as it works for you. like you said, you were feeling safe and sometimes that's what you need. when you start wanting to feel something else (and safe no longer holds the appeal it once did), you will move on. the love will still be there but it will be while you are also loving yourself and the potential of your future.
i guess i was saying that if you needed a period of suspended animation to transition to your next phase then that was cool. i just wouldn't want you to feel that that was it, the end of your story.
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I just think that limbo and feeling safe and comfort in limbo isn't good and will get me nowhere. I wasn't originally planning to say good bye but I had to. I think it is for the best, this is not the kind of love I want. I want someone who fights for me, truth is her gave up on us (for whatever reason) so I said good bye and I am moving forward 😭
Posted by sagittariusxo
I feel like that's a stage of greif when you break up.im sure you will feel different when and if you see things not going your way with him.
i.e. he starts seeing someone else.
I say this from personal experience and regret (at that time)
all things happen with purpose.
I realize now that you are right.. the end may be near for me :/ Problem is that, (idk if a Scorp thing) but once Im done w u, I am done. no looking back
I consider myself the same way. as some point I lose interest. its sad but I just kinda accept it.
its important that follow that intuition and allow things to unfold while you focus on what you need to be happy.
I hope that me and mine will work out but Im open to all of lifes lessons.
click to expand
I have many sag placements, particularly my venus and ascendant so maybe thats how I have that in common w you. Its just better this way. I've learned my lessons
Posted by wildflower
Well something odd has happened... Amidst the back and forth, rollercoaster I have been on with my bull, something inside me changed.We are no longer together but we still connect, talk, see each other here and there and hook up as well. I have concluded that I know what my feelings are and I love him. Entirely.
I love him in a weird way though, unlike I've loved someone ever. Its in the way that although we are not together, but the limbo isn't hurting me. I feel ok with him going and coming as he sorts himself out, I can honestly only pray he finds the path hes looking for. But for me, I don't feel that loneliness or that pain from being separated anymore. I feel like fighting for us in a subtle way, with patience. Just to wait for him, love him and be patient for his return.
I feel ok with this for some weird fucking reason
I feel ok with not hearing from him, I understand now
But I still want to be there for him, I feel all this love for him and he's in my thoughts, however, I feel safe in the space between us.
I think I finally went nuts. This is not normal for me. Is this normal in general—? Im posting this in Scorpio forum too because I think I lost it honestly.
It sounds like a kind of agape love.
However, there is an opportunity cost, while he is coming and going, like you said, you are remaining in limbo. Unable to move on. Limbo is stuck. How long you want to stay in this state is up to you but it's not living, it's suspended animation possibly because the thought of doing something else is something you are not emotionally ready for. There is comfort in the known.
This message helped me so much... made me realize that stagnant isn't good, and being comfortable with his distance at the expense of myself isn't the best for me. I feel like I am done
i'm glad it helped. i didn't mean for you to cut things off (unless that's what you want!)
i think with those things you do it for as long as it works for you. like you said, you were feeling safe and sometimes that's what you need. when you start wanting to feel something else (and safe no longer holds the appeal it once did), you will move on. the love will still be there but it will be while you are also loving yourself and the potential of your future.
i guess i was saying that if you needed a period of suspended animation to transition to your next phase then that was cool. i just wouldn't want you to feel that that was it, the end of your story.
I just think that limbo and feeling safe and comfort in limbo isn't good and will get me nowhere. I wasn't originally planning to say good bye but I had to. I think it is for the best, this is not the kind of love I want. I want someone who fights for me, truth is her gave up on us (for whatever reason) so I said good bye and I am moving forward 😭
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then i wish you all the best. 🙂
Posted by Sodapop
My advice is to not be friends at least until you’re detached or made your peace with the breakup.Only because I don’t want my ex to slowly wean off of me and think oh, turns out I’m not that into her after all, cause he never misses you or feels that loss. It’s only you that’s hanging there waiting on him.
What will happen if he meets another woman and tells you all about her?
Protect yourself. Put your self first. Put what you NEED and deserve first. It took me a while to get that.
Thank youuuuu! You're right. I think thats a problem I have, idk how to put myself first all of the time. Or be ok with putting myself first. Im so happy I posted here and with y'alls feedback, I see that Im fuggin up. Like he aint shit lol how am I ok with this?? The end is near. How do I protect myself though?
I would put space and distance between the two of you. That’s how you get your power and control back. When you’re constantly talking to them you’re just overwhelmed with all kinds of feelings that blur the truth, if you step back you’ll start seeing things in a clearer way, and you’ll feel empowered again!
Should I say something before putting space/distance? Because I have done that from time to time and we are on good terms but it will go good, get great and then he like backtracks. Its like F U dude lol like wtfffff how do you do that? Im annoyed at myself for falling for him and this dumb situation
I know that back and forth hurts way more than just one clean breakup. I’m trying to attempt a clean breakup this time and it really feels much better cause I’m starting to get a hang on my emotions again and I think this makes you interesting again once you just walk away without looking back.
You could tell him goodbye or just do it, it’s really up to you on how you want to proceed. Leave it on friendly terms though and don’t burn bridges.
Well I followed your advice and said goodbye :/ Its weird, when I originally posted that wasn't even my intent but it just feels like the right thing to do, I need to put myself first and make distance between us where he knows that I am not willing to do this back and forth. Its too much. So yup, bye it is. I realize I cant meet my next if Im focused on my ex. My heart hurts rn but its for the best
Ugh my heart hurts for you. I feel your pain. I could have written this myself. You’re definitely doing the right thing even if now it goes against every fiber in your being. Hopefully time will prove it to you when you meet someone who will love you like you really deserve.
Hugs! PM if you need to be sad about it, I’m in your shoes too.
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OMG!! so I said bye and now Im losing it because I spilled my whole heart and he responded and I just can't with myself. IDK what to doooo, plz help
Posted by Koniuchaa
Haven’t we all....
No! I never had any...
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