I lost my taurus (Page 4)

Btw i want to say, apart from the negative people who have been kinda rude on here. U guys are pretty cool for helping me. I still have a bit more to go but without yr help and suggestions i wouldnt of came this far for letting go of the past. And ik, im weird because rome wasnt built in a day but im a special case and within weeks ive changed my tune and i only see the hills that i must cross from here on out.

Posted by Brandonb55

Posted by Musicology

Posted by Brandonb55

Posted by Musicology
Why haven't you both talked about this?

We did talk about it, all she kept telling me was to leave her alone and to seek help becaude im aparently unwell. Im not unwell, i just wanted to talk to her and she just saw me talking to her as me begging for her back. I told her im happy for her that she was able to move on from someone she thought was the most amazing man on earth but she didnt give a fuck. Just saw me as this needy little spitfuck that wanted her back so bad.

Why did she think you were unwell? Maybe it had to do moreso with this than that.

I completely lost myself and became obsessive without realising it. My mind and complete sanity was warped after she invited me over that night.

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Maybe that had something to do with it. It happens. Just take it easy and try to reach normalcy. Overtime it'll fade.

It allready has. Im good now

Just a quick update and something i think is funny that happened. Ive been doing much better, only think about her once in a while and when i do its usually just a quick pass in my mind. I no longer feel sad, or depressed. I did however hear one of her favorite songs in a store and a tear came to my eye but im sure that'll stop shortly. And onto the funny bit. I was hanging out with one of our mutual freinds, she looks at me kinda weird for a few seconds and has this moment of omg. She told me her new bf looks exactly like me just a taller less attractive version. I didnt want to beleive it until she showed me a pic of him from fb and made me do a side by side comparison in the mirror. I am slightly dumbfounded by this new discovery but yet, i dont really care all that much about it. Just found ot funny that she traded me in for a slightly bigger model.

I was broken due to a 5 year relationship that i really didnt want to be apart of. I tried to put my foot down but she did what she pleased regaurdless and i let it happen. Im no longer that man who she was with, im the actual me.

Fair enough, i tried but persistence was key there. Like i sad, i was broken. I didnt really give myself much time to pick up the peices even tho i was not wanting to be in the relationship for the last year with my ex before last but it doesnt excuse that my boundries were not set. I had some but i was way too lenient to follow through

What? The loves money more than anything? I kinda figured but i just didnt say anything

True. Also i just came to the sudden fear that im hoping she doesnt see this. If she does, i would of opened pandoras box and unleashed hell apon myself.... oh well too late now.

Posted by PEITHO
Are you saying Taurus women aren't sexy?

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Posted by Brandonb55
Im not sadistic, she treated me like shit the last two months. She wants me back she needs to prove to me that me and her isnt just annother fling that she runs away from again. Its not sadistic its being careful and holding onto my pride.

You are caught up emotionally and digging in with your claws. Women like and respect men who won't put up with our shit.

I like Bulls but they can be major players and game players. Cut this woman off, she is not worth it, and find a sexy Sag. Or Crab 😉

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I beleive your taking what that person said out of context.

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True. Also i just came to the sudden fear that im hoping she doesnt see this. If she does, i would of opened pandoras box and unleashed hell apon myself.... oh well too late now.

Yeah, if you wanted privacy... You shouldn't have added your photo to profile pic.

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Even if i didnt, im sure she woulda put two and two together

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True. Also i just came to the sudden fear that im hoping she doesnt see this. If she does, i would of opened pandoras box and unleashed hell apon myself.... oh well too late now.

Yeah, if you wanted privacy... You shouldn't have added your photo to profile pic.

Even if i didnt, im sure she woulda put two and two together

Is your name Brandon? Lol!!! Oh well, doesn't matter now!

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Im not creative when coming up with names. You should see the ones i give my characters in dnd

Today, i noticed that my ex left one tbing between us unblocked. I sent her a message saying that since ive fucked myself over enough as is, im blocking her from it so i cant do it more. I told her id see her around and for some weird ass reason i decided it was a good idea to put aomething on there that is from her favorite movie that the lovers said to eachother to show their love. And then said goodbye then blocked her. I feel like i fucked up there but i want to know ur input on it.

I wasnt trying to play any games with her, i just wrote it and didnt think about what i was doing :/ ik i fucked up but i doubt she even ises that app anymore...

The come what may was accidentally written while i was listening to that song. I love the movie as well its moulin rouge btw. But it was just written in there without realising it. Also its not the only one i have her blocked from. Theres quite a few i blocked her from before she started doing the same. I was trying to keep myself from being able to talk to her in general

Im trying. I dont want to love her anymore. Truly, i dont, i just want to get over her and get on with my life. I dont like crying into my pillow when i think of her or i see a movie we watched together for the first time for either of us. I just, cant lwt go for some reason. Idk, it might be because we lived in my moms house where im living now for almost a year and having so many fond memories among each and every inch of this house (excluding my parents and sisters room) is whats making it so damn hard. Im doing the best i can with what ive got, thats all that matters right?

There's something with water and earth relationships. The earth person might not find the water stable in terms of emotions I guess. I got stressed out by this Cancer guy being really happy and then being depressed like I can't keep up with his emotions that I sometimes point it out that he's too emotional and needs to let things go.
Anyway you seem like a nice guy but she moved on already. I'm sure you'll find someone that's worth it and won't leave you.

Idk if she really has. I talked with one of our mutual freinds about her. I guess she doesnt spend a single day away from him, she gets high way more than she has ever done. I guess she drinks more than usual and she doesnt act like her carefree self. That and shes extremely concerned with me and going back to my old ways. I guess i should say i almost over dosed on a mountain of coke when i was 15. But anyways everyone says she might not be over me, just using all of this as one huge bandaid.

She is still loving you but she has decided and you have to move on,
Imho, as taurus girl, nothing you can do about it
Go look for someone else.. Just avoid taurus girls,

Get over her quick... 🙂 good luck

Posted by shelovesDee
She is still loving you but she has decided and you have to move on,
Imho, as taurus girl, nothing you can do about it
Go look for someone else.. Just avoid taurus girls,

Thats easier said then done. Like i said, i dont want to love her anymore, id just much rather move on with my life and forget i loved her to begin with. But i cant, ive never had this problem getting over someone. Its as if my heart is forbidding me to let go even tho my brain keeps telling it to.

I can feel you, dude...
She will need years to forget you
She knows that, but she left

Big guys dont cry, cheers..

Posted by shelovesDee
I can feel you, dude...
She will need years to forget you
She knows that, but she left

Big guys dont cry, cheers..

I havent stopped crying for months. I can only put a cork in so far into an allready full bottle. I actually woke up a few weeks back wearing the knecklace ahe made me. I aparently sleep walked around my room found it and put it on. I was told that by my mother cuz she heard me trip and fall a couple times and it makes sence cuz i woke up with my ribs bruised lol. But i drempt that she came over to my house and gave it back to me, and put it on me. I hate what my heart is doing but it wont quit. And ive been unable to bring myself to remove it since i found it draped off my kneck.

You know when my cancer, my ex hubby left me, i dreamt of him everynight for months...
I know exactly how you feel
I remember when i had his photos slide show on my laptop with a sad love song on my ears..and wet pillows at nights when im alone, it was like hell

Go look for someone else who can heal you, it might not completely do but it will warm your heart for a bit

Dont recall memories, get up, dig a hole, and bury it

I wont be able to do that until i get out of the house that holds half a years worth of memories. Im dealing with it as much as i can but i can only do so much with what im given. Honestly i have to stay away from the front of the house because on the tailgate of my stepdads truck holds the sharpest knife. Which is entirely easier said than done since i kinda have to go out front to go to work lol.

Just close your eyes when you walk out the door, the sharpest knife wont hurt lol

Posted by shelovesDee
Just close your eyes when you walk out the door, the sharpest knife wont hurt lol

Lol

Posted by scorpx3
I lost my taurus too 😢 still extremely heartbroken but trying to do with what I can.

I feel ya there. And i just found out that my ex unblocked me from one of her two profiles on fb. I dodnt go looking for her was actually searching for a freind who shares the same first name as my ex. When she blocked me her profile wasnt in the search thingy and since curiosity is my drug, i clicked it to see what would happen. It opened her profile and ive knon this for about 4-5 days now? Anyways, i want to msg her and tell her there isnt anything she will find on my fb that will justify her leaving me and that she can block me again if she wishes or just block her. But at the same time, i want to just leave it be for a while and let her see all the sad poems i find more appealing than any others and yeah. Im conflicted in my thoughts, because curiosity is pointing at both factors but neither outweighs the other.

Its sunny out and im walking from my freinds house so please excuse any typos i may have put^

Idk if im so lucky for her to be thinking of me like that. She might just be curious as to what im doing in life since she left.

Yeah ik. I just still see her face in my 5 year plan. I have been asked about where i see myself in 5 years and ive never had a face to go with it. I finally did. And shes gone. Im trying to move on but its as if there is a roadblock stopping me from doing so

Bless you, it will pass , you seem like a great guy, she's out there, mrs right, waiting, don't stop looking, l know its hard now, but it will get easier.

Posted by piscespoppy
Bless you, it will pass , you seem like a great guy, she's out there, mrs right, waiting, don't stop looking, l know its hard now, but it will get easier.

I just am stopping my search for the time being. Ill start again when im ready