I'm lonely (Page 2)

Human: you made it sound as i've been crying on your shoulder and when finally you asked me why i said"i don't know"
Don't try to pull it all on me,,,,he-he cause i wasn't crying,,,esp on your shoulder, and my problem wasn't pulled to world disater matters over here,,,
my posts were meant for one whpo posted "i'm lonely"......and poem just diregard them will be too hard to explain why did i posted at first place to you, i guess,,,,,,\\

Aqua 2

Well at least he gave you something to write about! Now you can move on to your next inspiration! One day all those sweet romantic poems will start to sound the same! NEXT!!!

and thanks for a distressing converstation! This is your fault!

Why should they sound the same—
Even if peson falls in love few times during the life it is never the same,,,,,so for me every poem is about certain momentum,,,so they all special,,,,,And talking about the poems , why somehow reading poems from 18 century - we feel,,,,maybe that means that we are still alive , if we feel something(i'm not comaring my poems to famous writers) but in poem we trying to catch a special moment, feeling to pass it by....to next person or next century....

Aqua 2

You have NO idea about love or real poetry!!! I am not at all impressed!

Seems to me that the "Lonely One" is there for a reason. It is tough when love is not around, but if it causes you to just strike out at others, or yourself, you are just sealing your fate. Love usually comes when you least expect it.
And it rarely comes to one with an "attitude"....so just try to get into something you enjoy, and when you stop worrying about it so much, it just may happen. NO RULES>>>REMEMBER?

AQUA2....No need to defend yourself to anyone, you have got what it takes, sometimes it is just a question of needs....and just like the song...You can't always get what you want, but you will find, somehow, you get what you need. You are very correct about loving yourself first...Another cannot do that for you.

So, lonely one, start loving yourself, and see then what happens....it will attract love to you, I'll bet.

Taurus Male

i feel sorry for you,,,,
maybe my poetry is not perfect at all,,,,,but if you are the person who talked to before,,,,and all this questions,,,,i think you are the one in need of advice and help....
so why you are so angry with people (or humans?) why you are so jumpy,,,don't get me wrong,but look up your questions....
Aqua 2...
And are you G-d to say true love or fake,,,real or not real....as long as poetry----i wasn't trying to impress it just a part of me, my feelings, my thoughts and i proud of them..

Or maybe i should start it like

hey, what's up, is something wrong? maybe somebody upset you?
do you want to share or still need time to go throu it by yourself? ?

Aqua 2

TM i love when you always up to date,it seems that you are not here, but i reality you are; just behind the since....i kn ow you don't like that kind of "girly talk".....have fun, enjoy yourself,,,,i'm trying to pin out a little poem about you and ML , hey if it be good you'll see it soon...
LOVE YA,,,,
bye

TM :
rules we brought up by me,,,,,lol
he got other flows,,and you really got it he is (or she) not human,,,sound more like "lonely";;;;;\

Cheers
Aqua 2

meant rules were brought up....

Aqua 2

"Seems to me that the "Lonely One" is there for a reason. It is tough when love is not around, but if it causes you to just strike out at others, or yourself, you are just sealing your fate."

How do you know what I have around?? I think you're full of crap. I maybe lonely but I am not a b******* artisit, like some people here. You want people to be honest and open their hearts when everything that comes out of your own mouth is BS?

I have serious issues that I need to talk about and you're on here to BS! Why don't you go down to the bar and do that!

You better get used to being lonely if you respond that way. You're the one that needs the bar, I would say.

Get your head out.

Taurus Male

Ok! Thank you.

Good night and have a good Labor Day!

MR LonelyHUMAN...
About TM poetry : i do't know why? Maybe your standards too high, but i loved his poem, because there he "caught" some personal feelings that he wanted people to "feel" & understand when they'll read his poem.
About why you are here....so do you want to start discussing your problems or concerns?What do you want to share?

Aqua 2

If you are presently alone, You are your own Lover.

TM, good advice. One is to love oneself before one can truly love another.

AFx2

This guy is upset because the ladies he tries to swoon are not going for it. And from how he seems to treat people on this board who are trying to help him, he probably is not going to get any closer to his goal.
Either you are going for the wrong ladies, or you are being someone they don't want. Why don't you ask THEM why, if you want to cut through any of the BS. Maybe you are too much in love with yourself....ever think of that? If you try to force it, it will never happen. Your impatience with people may be a key to the problem.

Good Luck

TM

To all comments directed at me last night and today-

You're all nuts!!!

and Aqua 2,

There is really no such thing as a bad poem or story or whatever; it is only a matter of personal preference or taste. TM's stuff was very good! I thought. I should have left the poetry comment out of the sentence.

I think the problem with the whole conversations was that you try and talk over me and maybe I am too simple in my approach to things. Maybe that is why there is a problem. I am not pseudo intellectual enough for you!

I don't really have any problems to talk about! Other than I could use a warm body next to me, but that will come in time. Other than that, I have a hysterically funny family that keeps me laughing (i.e. parents) and a wacky home life that keeps me amused and there is never a sane moment!

Later Days!

TM,

I thought the whole goal to attracting love was to love ones self? Now you are saying that I love myself too much or I am too in love with myself! You are confusing me? Which is it? Should I remain humble or should I become proud? How would you like me to be? I thought we should not try and be something we are not and to just be natural and not be a certain way to please another. If this is wrong too, then what is right, IYO? I too think you have valuable advice, so I am waiting on your response and I will be paying attention!WTF?

One more question. If you like someone, why would you want to change them? And why do you think I need help? And who said I was trying to swoon anyone? How do you know what is in my head? I know what I am and I know what I'm not. I am honest and I am not a mean person unless someone messes with me and I am do care about people! I don't set out to hurt anyone for fun and I really don't think I am bothering you or anybody else here. If I am, then just don't talk to me and I will do the same! There are other messageboards and I have other people I can talk to besides this one!

Adios

mr LonelyHuman ADIOS;

MHHHHH that kind of name i never recieved before-pseudo intelectuall.....
let me go back a little bit
-you post that lonely post-
-i responded that you should love yourself-
-than by my stupidity i wanted to post smth beautiful and i posted russian poem that have nothing to do with my love story+ plus couple of thought how life smth could be unfair in our eyes-but still it is all matter of faith-
-you started converstaion about why do i feel sorry,nobodys in control, blah-blah,about what will make me happy-
-i responded to all your questions-
-in a middle of my responds you criticize my poems,,my answers-
-BUT THAN I ASKED WHAT IS YOUR PROBLEM, WHY DO YOU TRY TO JUMP TO CONCLUSIONS? WHY DO YOU START PLYING MY SHRINK? i didn't ask you for that,,-
And now you are saying that Maybe YOU are not pseudo intelectuall for me? for my converstaion,,,,,,lolllllll
I'm sorry i don't like to judge ,
but how long ago you've seen you doctor?
There a certain line,,,,and smt i can be patient and smile forever-----but listen you jumped to conclusion about me first.

Aqua 2

mr adios?
listen and where that serious stuff you wanted to talk about?

Aqua 2

Lonley guy:

Why would I think you need help— You ASKED for it, did you not? You don't have to be a "psudo intellectual" or anything to please me or anyone. Loving yourself is, in reality, just being at ease with who you are, and being good to yourself...If you become too "in love with yourself" others will see that and will not want to "compete with you" to receive your affections. If you are a humble person by nature, BE that way....If you find yourself doing some strange "dance" just to get a warm body next to you, you are just doing yourself a dis-service (not the mention the other person). Too many people concern themselves with "acting a certain way" to please others, but with a person who loves you for YOU, you can drop any acting routine. If you are what you say you are, then it is just a matter of time before someone sees it, and your lonely time will end. Just let people see it. Maybe rejection has just got you down, so just keep plugging away, or just sit and cry in your soup. The choice is yours and yours alone. One thing is for sure... if you keep thinking everyone else is nuts, maybe it is you that is doing the "talking over" others. If you asking me about how I want you to be....just be yourself, bubba....unless you plan on becomming someone else.

Taurus Male

Ok!

Well, you must admit, I did make ya laugh!! and I was a little insane last night and I did bag on for hours about crazy stuff, jumping to conclusions, you're right!, so I never said I was perfect, but I don't think I bother anyone either. I was just trying to understand and that is the way it went in LOL!

I apologize for my rudness. As far as the serious problems, I think I was refering to what was going on at the moment! I really don't have any problems and everything is just fine, thank you for asking though!

I think I will go take along walk now, so thank you for your comments and I will remember them.

Wonderbox

Wonderbox:

I guess you did feel bored yesterday,,,,
Whu didn't you said ,that you bored maybe we will settle for more nice conversation, cause i felt bored too(at least untill u start questening me)
"my sweete pea" locked his horns, i guess he still trying to sort out all the stuff in his head, anyway i was alone and bored,,,-we could discuss smth more enjoing,,
I wish i can go and take a walk too, but it is rainhg in NY, i guess if you will want to talk about your walk post smth.
Chao....
Aqua 2

TM :
you know it sound funny, but sometimes words and phrases that you use(unique one) they are very, very similar to my fav horoscope http://www.astrofish.net/ .
By Kramer Wetzel,,,,maybe it is because you are both from Texas—?I swear words like bubba,,,seat and cry in your soup(ups it is a phrase alredy) and etc not mentioned so often at NY ,or maybe it is my luck of english?
Is it TEXAS thing? And do you like fishing?

Aqua 2

I would really enjoy hearing from any perfect person out there. That creature does not exist. And when you think about it, it sure helps the score curve for the rest of us, don't ya think?

AQUA 2 (I think u r almost perfect), please inform me on what "Smth" refers to. Is it Smith or what?
and what is the Russian word for it?

Hope this is not a dumb question.

TM

smth=something, my girlfriends always cut it short,like smbd=somebody and etc....and in russian it would be shto-nibud(something) or shto-libo(something),,could be o chem nibud(about something).
Thanks,for compliment and maybe search for perfection sometimes is a waste of time? Maybe because :
-nobody is perfect
- by perfect people view and mean different things.


Aqua 2

And it is not dumb question!
Tanks for compliment,,,and do you got more words like bubba,,,i love your expressions....
Aqua 2

Oh yes, the search for perfection is a waste of time, to be sure.

I agree TM,

Aqua 2 is pretty darn special and you

are not so bad yourself!

Thanks for the help! I didn't mean to cause any greif, I just get a little wild sometimes!

Aqua2,

When I was on my walk today (very nice!) I kept thinking about our converstation last night and the one thing that kept coming back to me was the message about feeding your Sweet Pea breakfast etc...for some reason that stayed with me and has fascinated me all day!!! As you know I am a little on the abnorm side anyway! LOL! I've been told before that "I could screw up a wet dream" so it probably wasn't what I was thinking it was, but I had fun wondering about it!

Thanks for your kindness!

Love,

Wonderbox

OHH
Wonderbox:
it a little bit another way,,,,i fixing him breakfast,than i'm sitting on his knees , he eats breakfst and feeds me,,i don't know what kind of wild you can get from it,,,,but even if i don't eat anyway i love to sit on his knees while he eats, maybe cause i know that he'll got to go,,,,ups i got a little bit carried away....lol
And wonderbox,,after taking to you yesterday i thought that maybe we did misread out signals to each other and i got to reassure him about how i feel about him, that he is still my only "lubochka"(love-russian), maybe we both been to tight up with arrands,,,,and if that is not gonna work, i guess i will go-listen you can't keep somebody who is can't decide.Know just that i need to know it now, cause it will take sometime to get back and why to harm yourself without reason.(sound easy,but will hurt as hell-that i know)

Aqua 2

one more thing
Wonderbox how is the weather?
Aqua 2

Wonderbox:

When one talks about what is "normal", it usually means what everyone seems to be that you are not, if you feel you are "abnormal". People who are different (in any way from the "norm")tend to "scare" many people, and that is an irrational fear, but it does exist.
I remember the days when, if you had long hair(man), you were considered a freak. Many people hide their differences, just to spare themselves those "petty judgements" to deal with from all of those "normal folks".
If you show you are different, then you will definitely feel more at ease with people who DON'T GIVE A HOOT about those differences, and believe me, they DO exist....and I think many have posted on this board, including yours truely. I am sure Aqua 2 has a Russian story about being "different". (It is a dilema everywhere, it seems).
You did not cause us any grief. We just hope that your grief goes away, that's all.

Taurus Male

Well, I did have something else in mind on the feeding.

Lubachoka or Sweet Pea? I love these little pet names...if you 'talk the talk' like you do to this board, then Lubachoka should melt like sugar in the rain! I know I would!!! And yes, love takes a long time to heal. That is why most people won't surrender until they know for sure what may happen to them.

I have made up my mind to not expect much from people and then when they do something unexpected it means so much more!

Your posts are always great to read and your poems are lovely. As a matter of fact I saved what you wrote a long time ago and I read it all the time and wonder what it would feel like to have someone write so beautifully for me. It would be the greatest gift one could ever receive, for real!

WB

Wonderbox i'm glad that you liked that poems,,,the thing is he never seen them i had them not really corrected and for a long time wanted to "clean" them up and reprint them nicely and give them us a gift,,but never really had a time>
So recently when i got them that "funky" silky pillow i wanted to wrap poems around it, but what happened my printer neded new ink,so i gave just pillow.I guess i'll give him poems as soon as i see him.
And on communication issue,,he is so self abbsorbed, quiet and silent so sometimes i want to talk about something....but than catching myself that probobly i'm going to sound stupid now,,,,,because his silince sooth me and realaxes also, seems that we don't need to talk sometimes ----silence and glances probobly are the best part of him....Thou it doesn't meant we don't talk at all, i like to tell him jokes:all kind of them.
Thanx for your sweet words,,,and what kind of person would you like to meet, what you looking in a mate?

Aqua 2

TM,

You are going way out of your way for me tonight and you really don't have to do that! I am REALLY OK! But you're a nice guy for trying! I do like to play alot and sometimes I get carried away and I am very sarcastic with my humor (Mercury Scorpio), but there is nothing to fear! I know where the line is, most of the time! I will tell you this, I do tend to read into things more than what may be intended? I always have. So, I find myself on the disappointed line more often than anything else and also I get disgusted with myself for acting that way! I also don't handle disappointments very well, and it takes me some time to deal with it. All this realting can be confusing to me. I can't really explain how I feel to someone< and I am much better at showing them. I could never display affection the way I want to unless I am there with them. Shy? I could with my touch though. Or with my dedication to them!

As far a my grief, what? I mean we all have trials and tribulations but there is nothing I can't handle!! Nothing at all!!! If you knew me well, you would know this! I have been through the worst and everything else is a cake walk, and I mean that truly!

Thanks for your energy TM,
I appreciate it!
Wonderbox

Aqua2,

What I need is not very much, but is everything! I don't care about money or material things! What I need is a man who is easy going(laid back), kind, maybe a even a little naive because such a great heart is, thy usually trust more than they should and I would never apologize for having too much heart!!! Strong, compassionate, and protective! Good sense of humor, and sensual, sexy, and a little aloof would be good too! Hard to come by that type of gem, I get a glimpse once and a while but I have yet to hold it in my hands!LOL! Maybe some day?

Wonderbox about not expecting much from people...
I guess sometimes it is right maybe because you got to rely just on yourself, but still we better expect something and hey, you never know-you can recieve it,,and if not listen it is not a point to stress yourself(better see glass as half full, than half empty)
Works for me,,,but i don't really accent my expectations in case if i'm not gonna recieve anything(not always work in close relationship----here it sould be giving without expecting anything in return),,,,I prefer to think that way,instead of reminding that s*** HAPPENS....and you know if you can't change situation-change the way how you see ,percieve it,,or (old jewish saing)if something don't have a solution, then it is not a problem.

Icecold glance,heart of steal
From day one i felt "apart",
Meaningless promises,cutting lies
What made me think we meant to be?
I felt sick,when you were around
One look in your eyes and i was dying.
Besides you never were there
And just pretend to care.
But times did changed
He makes me laugh, he warms my heart
So there is no more rainy skies
And maybe you will be surprised
I feel free and don't cry
Now i feel like a butterfly
And maybe he not always there
He always shows that he do care.

Aqua 2

Ok! Aqua, you got me going again and I can't stop! It is coming down like rain! I go from one emotion to the other! I feel completely drained but in a very good way~ You are so very special!!!

Got to go think a while, so I'll talk to you later!
WB

WB:

You've got what it takes, Hun....I know that. Taureans are more patient than most, and patience is what is required now. Your time will come, and I do wish it comes soon. (Just don't hide out
at the ole dugout too much)

Sincerely

Taurus Male

Wonderbox you are so sensitieve!
Listen i'm giving you 2 thumbs up on refusing to settle for less in a mate but sometimes our heart speak for us and it hard to resist.
Anyway when heart talk we cross out all list that we prepared before,,but you got to let that feeling sweep you off:besides i'm sure you'll find that gem soon waitig for you with all qualities you'been hoping for(o.k maybe not all, but most of them) cause nobody is perfect and we can't predict who we will fall inlove with.

I feel lonely without you
Thou it seems that
there is no other choice for now.
I blame that greater power
Between you and me,
That power decides when we shall be.
But i'm strong ,i'll keep my faith
Life is a full of "bumps".
And just a memory of your smile
Keeps me warm at the dark hour.
I must addmit when we first met,
for this i wasn't prepared .
But now i grow up!
and not feeling ready to give up.

Aqua 2

Wonderbox never gave up,,,,lol
talk to you later.

Good mornin,

How are my Taurean babies today, or my Sweet Lubochka(I love that!!)

I hope you all got the day off!

Auaq2, the weather in SC is actually nice today! We've had alot of rain and no sun for about a week now; today the sun is out and it is cooler than normal and there is no humidity! Good walking weather.

I am waiting for my sis to get off work and then we are going over to see my parents. The big state fair is going on and maybe me and my sis will go later! I like to see all the displays and what people make etc.

What the heck happened to Jerry Lewis! I know he has been very ill, but I almost didn't recognize him! It's a shame that someone who has done so much to help people is plauged with his own illnesses! He said he refuses to let it get him down, and the reason he stays happy is because will forever be a 9 year old little boy! HAH! I thought that was terrific! Way to go Jerry!!!

OK, have a great day and be careful out there or in there!

Love and big ((((HUG))))),
Wonderbox

And your right, Wonderbox will never give up!! LOL

PS Another excellent poem!!! Loved it!

Taurus Bull, you hang in there too and maybe we will both find what we are looking for!

Love
WB

Hello WB:
I was glad to hear from you,,,,
Yeh i love fairs too, but i guess i'll spent the rest of the day chilling at home,,it is still raining in NY and going to be that way till thursday.
Thanx ,,maybe next time i'll try to translate russian poem(not mine) , but don't take it too close(it almost like that one where she didn't love him and he wished her to be loved by somebody else as strong as he did)....o,k i got to go i'm making home made punch from fresh rasbberies and strawberrys,,,
Enjoy your labor day and have fun with your family....
Talk to you later.
TM ! How are you doing? I wish you to enjoy Labor Day, how is the weather in TX? And what about that Aqua?(is your question about "signs" or interpritation of them was about Aqua?)
Take care,,,by-bye.

Aqua 2

jerry Lewis has a problem. I heard he compulsively eats between five to six bannana split sundaes each day.

No you are wrong!!! Jerry Lewis has fybromyalgia and has had spinal menigitis and now has a lung problem and he is on steriods(presidinoide?) He is a good man and he just raised another 60 million for MD! I really wish you would not slander decent people!!! It bothers me.

AQ2,

"maybe next time i'll try to translate russian poem(not mine) , but don't take it too close(it almost like that one where she didn't love him and he wished her to be loved by somebody else as strong as he did)"

Hehe! I will try not to get to into it, but it's very hard. God forbid I ever go see an opera, that might be too much for me to handle! LOL

Nobody wanted to go to the fair with me! I'll go tomorrow early and sis promised to go too! But had a good time with the folks and my dad who is a excellent guitarist and singer played us a song by Merle Haggard the tune was 'It's Not Love but It's Not Bad' it was great!

Got to go take care of some chores cu later.

WB

Sounds more like an "Aqua 2" vent post here!

WB:
It seem like you really had fun,,,,i love guitar music, tried to learn how to play, know a little bit but far from saying that i can play,,,,maybe one day.
Listen is it your emotions or imagination or both? I mean you reaction on that poem,,the thing that he dedicated her poem and left seemed to upset you?
Are you sensetive the same at unfairness issues? Ijust wanted to hear your point on that,... By the way how old are you?(if it is not too rude) Accept my appology upfront if it is!
O.K i talk to you soon,,,,and do you have a hobby,,,,did you ever thought try a drama class or actors training- i thought you could be good at that.
by-bye,,,take care,,,and the most imortant thing is to smile...

Aqua 2(hope it didn't sound very stupid)

Wow! With such smart people helping you out Aqua, I was thinking to myself, "what can I add of any value here to make this gal feel better?". And then it clicked. This may sound really over simplified, but listen. I don't know if you're familiar with the band America...but many times when I have felt lonely, I have been hugely comforted by the song (I'm pretty sure this is the title) "Lonely People". An excerpt (from memory, so sorry if I screw up the lyrics): "This is for all the lonely people, thinking that life has passed them by--Don't give up until you drink from the silver cup and ride that highway in the sky". It is a very pretty song. It is also deeper than you might think....anyway, there is no black and white, clearcut solution to resolving feelings of loneliness. Just know that every moment you feel alone, there are millions--MILLIONS of other people in the world who feel exactly the same way. You are never truly alone. And if your loneliness stems from unrequited love, then remember this famous quote: "I know it, whate'er befall; I feel it, when I sorrow most: 'Tis better to have loved and lost, than never to have loved at all."

You need to cry, get it all out of your system, and you would be surprised how fast you run out of tears! You will suddenly say to yourself, "what am I doing?! I want to LIVE!" And then my lovely one, you will experience an emotional rebirth, and you will have learned your own personal lesson from the experience and you will be ready to take on life like the true happy warrior you were meant to be! Just think to yourself, "Yeah? Got through that, so bring it on, life. NEXT!"

I so wish you happiness and peace! Trust me, loneliness is just another emotion, and all emotions pass. None are constant. You are feeling bad because this is an opportunity to become stronger, more experienced and it's an opportunity change for the better, believe it or not. There is also a famous quote that I will no doubt unintentionally botch...(lol)it goes something like this: "I thank God for all the negative feelings I've felt because without them I would have no way of measuring happiness."

Get some sleep, have a good cry and listen to that song I told you about! : )

Thinking of you,
Heather