Faria94
@Faria94
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Posted by Faria94
ok..so be very specific..abt the abortion thng,when I went to his house to look for him,he called his frnds nd his frnds told me that they would gnna spread the news of my pregnancy nd then both of our families gnna hav meetings nd all!I ws all shuttered to hear tht.So I decided to attempt suicide before my family got to know abt this.And then I took abortion pills nd couldn't consume so I fainted.My mum took me to the hospital nd had abortion.
Posted by TaurusBull1977
Your parents are clearly controlling you, and you're attempting to control him, and the situation.
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Posted by Faria94You're holding on....and he wants OUT!
I jst want to know why did he do all these if he has ever loved me!

Posted by Faria94the more you type the more i don't understand what you are holding on to and why.
Why would he even want an 'Out'?what was my fault?Am I the only one who is faulty?
He didn't even tell me that he wants a break-up.He just stopped contacting!nd that's it!He did that before as well!Moreover he told me he still loves me bt his actions are not like that.So I'm being in a really confusing situation!
Yes I believe in practicality but what is his practical sense?He used to tell me that if he even stopped contacting,he would come back!If he wanted an out,he could hav told me rather cheat me nd insulting me!
How am I trying to control him even?!?Honestly I'm not trying..I jst want him to be as before he was to be.That's it!But I didn't tell him to be like that or didn't force him.


Posted by Faria94you'll learn that in life, sometimes things just don't work out. it's not that you can't get over him. you are just choosing not to. you'll stop when you are ready.
Well..as it was my first relationship which is why I can't get over him,his promises,his memories nd a ton of doubts about his real feelings abt me!These are the things that I'm holding on!
And I'm holding on these because I still love him.He was my best friend and my first love.

Posted by Faria94
ok..so be very specific..abt the abortion thng,when I went to his house to look for him,he called his frnds nd his frnds told me that they would gnna spread the news of my pregnancy nd then both of our families gnna hav meetings nd all!I ws all shuttered to hear tht.So I decided to attempt suicide before my family got to know abt this.And then I took abortion pills nd couldn't consume so I fainted.My mum took me to the hospital nd had abortion.
Posted by Faria94Did you take the abortion pills because he asked you to...or did you take them after his friends threatened to tell your family out of shame?
Yes he told me to hav pills bt it ws quite late as I was pregnant more than 3mnths.He wanted me to hav an abortion bt I ws scared of having such operation.
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Posted by Faria94The only person required to make that decision was you.
If I had not that abortion then I might die!
And I'm holding him accountable bcz he didn't give me any decision on time.He had jst delayed it.I wanted the baby bt society would not let me to hav that as I'm an unmarried woman who has not completed her studies.Even he was not clear abt his decision abt the baby.I was all alone.How could I even take any decision alone but when I was pushed,threated,I took the decision.
If he didn't leave me then these situations would not occur,which is why I'm blaming him for all these.Am I doing the wrong thing?



Posted by Faria94Yeah you know that you gotta forget him right..
@piseanloves
Exactly! This was where I went mad at him more!Even when we were in a relationship he used to involve his frnds in our fights which made me more angry at him,nd I ccouldn't bt yelled at him. And when I got angry at him,he told his frnds that I always behaved like this!which is very much insulting for me.
I felt regretted for the abortion actually but I didn't hav any other option. Even when I went for tests nd talked to a doctor,she suggested me to hav an abortion as the baby wss not mature nd I might hav life risk! But though I didn't at the moment.



Posted by Faria94I can see why you love him.
@ColdFire17
No I did abuse him but he started first. He threatened me my elder sister's wedding nd my younger sister who us too young! I didn't threat him like that. I insulted him verbally as he had done so.
And about the pregnancy issue,he always came up with his frnds between us even we got misunderstood bcz one of his frnds. So I couldn't tolerate them to be a part of my personal problems.
Yes he is a man so he can let everyone know about the issue but he can't allow his frnds to do videos nd recordings of our conversations nd meetings!He can't threatened me to post vulgar nd nude pictures of mine. Is a man allowed to do so? Is a man allowed to give threats to inform my family?

Posted by Faria94
@JohnTheBaptist100
... taurus ... determination ... not share the same traits nd it's almost impossible for us to be in a relationship ....
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Posted by Faria94
... He had lost his respect frm me when he abused my family nd it was quite normal. But though as I had loved him,I still did contact with him to knw his health condition.
... warned him saying that he can't leave me later on,he didn't pay attention towards me....
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I am a Sagittarius woman and was in a relationship with a Taurus man for 1year.Before getting into the relationship we were best friends and I knew him for around 4 years.We belong to different religion and so it was a problem for us to let our family know about us,though he came to my mum and said he would convert his religion.My mum refused his proposal but though we built up our relationship.At first he pampered me a lot but gradually things went too much wrong between us.He used to make things right but he avoided to talk about our problems,our issues over fightings.Things got way too bitter when I got angry at him or yelled him,though after every fight I did apology to him saying not to hold on grudges over me but he used to do that.Things got toxicating on december when he finally exploited and threatened me about my family and abused my mother and sisters.But though I did contact with him as he was to have an operation but he continued to insult me.In the january we completely stopped contacting.He had told me once before our fight that if his operation would not be successful he would not continue as he might loose his capability to produce a child.But I cried over him saying that I didn t need anything except him,I would not let my family know about his problem but still he made me cry and guilt.In the february I got to know that I m pregnant so my friend told me to inform him.I did inform him but he didn t believe me rather he informed his friends about this.When I got to know about this,I abused him a lot.About one month later,he met me when I was about 3and a half month pregnant.He told me to have an abortion but I was so pissed off at him that I refused.He then told me that he wanted to talk and meet me. I kept waiting and he kept making emotional excuses and lies which kept my anger increased.I exploited and went to his home to check if he was really at home or not.I got him and he called all his friends.And then I got to know that his friends knew everything even they made recordings and videos of our conversations and meetings.When I was all shuttered and leaving he told me that he still loves me.I couldn t hold on my laugh and along with my tears.My family got to know about my pregnancy and had an abortion.Recently I met him along with my mum and told him that I had an abortion.He was shocked to know that cz he was thinking that I was lying about this.Right now we are not in any contact.
I dnt knw wht has he even thought abt!bd wht is he thinking abt!We are not in social media anymore.But I get to knw tht he went to places with his frnds nd cousins after all knowing this.
I had really loved him,more than anything,nd he knew tht.I've still feelings for him as I can't get over him.I dnt knw wht to do!I really want him to get back into my life but dnt knw how!