
antonarnia
@antonarnia
12 YearsVirgo
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Posted by xxnightbynight
ride the waves, and don't ask where they go. 😉
the beautiful yet agonizing heartbreak of life is realizing that through the pain, the darkness, the confusion, and the mystery... lies a great awakening... once you wake from the slumber of "a mediocre life" you'll see what lies out there.
Continue to do your studies on philosophies ... you seem like you're very spiritually in-tune... I like you.

Posted by moongirljj
We all have this picture in our minds as kids of how life will be, and how everything will just fall together naturally. For some it does, but often we seem to be wandering around aimlessly.
I'm sure that yes, you will find your calling. Until then all you can really do is push forward and try to make the best decisions possible, because the decisions we make now have far more impact on the future than we realize. I think life is too short to stick with something that makes you unhappy, you'd have wasted more time sticking at something you hated than giving up and starting again.
Seems like you're young and a bit too hard on yourself.
Baz Luhrman said "Don't worry if you don't know what to do with your life at 20, some of the most interesting people didn't know what they wanted to do at 20, some of the most interesting 40 year olds I know, still don't"
Just try to live for the day, do the best you can and enjoy the moment you are living in. Make it as great as you possibly can and think of your life purpose as being making a series of incredible moments, rather than trying to get everything figured out in one go. I suspect you will eventually find yourself exactly where you are meant to be.

Posted by JasonDeluca
I went through this when I was your age so I went and did whatever made me happy. I dropped out of school and went to school to learn massage therapy. I liked it so much I went on to learn other modalities of body work.
Point is, I was going to school for a science degree but I hated it. I did a 180 and found something that interested me. While I was in Massage school I worked at a coffee shop and lived in a cool little apartment and life was good. I got certified and now I could massage to make money and pay for more schooling. I just did the opposite.
I bet somewhere in that brain of yours you have some idea of what you want to do. Something that you keep pushing away because "people won't take me seriously" or "my dad will get pissed." Look, now is the time to explore and make mistakes. Try new things and if they turn out to flop, oh-well you have plenty of time to recover. At your age you are expected to fuck up at least a few times so take advantage of it!
Trust your gut and go with the flow. If you really want it you can make it happen if you believe in yourself.
Go DOOOOOOO EEEEEET!!!!
*this message brought to you by your polar opposite*
Be Well-

Posted by libraCUSPscorpio
I feel you, girl.
Let's be friends
Friends we are boo!

Posted by VirgoFlirt
'''It's worrying me that I'll always be the person that my family refers to as flighty. I don't want to be the "Oh, you know Nina, she's just in between jobs" type of human.'''
That's your problem. You can not in no way wory about what others THINK ABOUT YOU (you want ever get no where in life). Go the hell on and do what you want to do in life. I totaly get your statement because in the region you grew up in (The South LA). It's the same where I live at also. If I, so worried what others thought of me I'd be stuck back at 15 years old.
For the all the male friends liking you, I don't know what to really say because it is the same(females) with me also. Some of them you just have to ignore.
It'll be a few more years before you really know what you want in and out of life, so don't worry right now.

Posted by PotHeadVirgo22
@ OP
You have alot of similar placements as I. I find that strange. Do you feel the connection? The unvisited chemistry? I'm trying to see if it's just me...

Posted by BalmyTigress
I have couple of nature related images that I use when I feel a bit scared in life.
First is about growing to be who you're supposed to be. A plant or a tree doesn't attempt to look a certain way sometime in the future. All that they do is grow according to their surroundings and what kind of nutrition they get. Lack of nutrients and sunlight will make them wither and die, and plenty of sun and nutrients will make them grow and flourish. However, they'll still grow to the direction that is the best according to their surroundings and what they actually are. The important thing is not to have a plant that would look a certain way, but to have a plant that's healthy and strong. So you'll provide yourself with care and love and nurturing, and the rest will fall into place.
External circumstances are out of our control and anything could happen. What you know today might not be of any use to you tomorrow, but having a healthy outlook on life will always benefit you.
The second image is that of a surfer. The waves are so powerful that you can't control them, but you can ride them. Take in what ever life throws at you without expectations and work with what you're given. Just jump in and do what you can and do it with love and excitement. When ever you encounter a new thing, just embrace it with love. Accept it as it is. You'll notice that you can change the path of your life without changing your surroundings.
Just put in the energy to everything you do in a positive way and you'll get what you really want out of life. It may or may not be a career on a particular field, but regardless you'd be successful in life.

Posted by tiziani
Sounds like you have the mentality of "always be seen to be something" "any decision is better than no decision, as long as a decision is made"
So, maybe the opposite would be healthy for a while. Make no decisions. Do nothing. This is a way to find inner Zen.
And doing nothing never actually looking like doing literally nothing in real life.
A good example would be to find a job to earn enough cash to go on your own 6 month holiday away from the family, and simply Be. Then you'd have the consistency of holding down a living for a decent period but it would be all in the name of doing you.
Just my 2 cents. But don't worry, these are really what our 20s are for. Doing mistakes. As many new ones as possible. And, more importantly, learning from them.
"Life's not about waiting for the storms to pass...It's about learning to dance in the rain."
A popular quote that helps some.


Posted by antonarnia
The pressure of parents though. Geez.
They seem to think that I need direction. A specific goal to achieve. Or they worry that I'm leading down the wrong path by not having a certain structure to build upon that society deems to be acceptable. But I don't have a goal in mind that I want to conquer.
I don't know why I care so much about what my parentals think.
That's something I will work on.
As far as going on my own 6 month holiday, I have enough cash. But, I don't know what's holding me back.
Maybe I'm just scared of the world, and other people. By that I mean, there's a lot of sick fu*ks out in the world, and I'd hate to be abducted into sex slavery, for example.
Lulzlulzlulz. I, ehem, swear I'm not crazily paranoid.
I'd adventure though if I had a friend, a close friend, to join me.

Posted by LetltBPosted by antonarnia
The pressure of parents though. Geez.
They seem to think that I need direction. A specific goal to achieve. Or they worry that I'm leading down the wrong path by not having a certain structure to build upon that society deems to be acceptable. But I don't have a goal in mind that I want to conquer.
I don't know why I care so much about what my parentals think.
That's something I will work on.
As far as going on my own 6 month holiday, I have enough cash. But, I don't know what's holding me back.
Maybe I'm just scared of the world, and other people. By that I mean, there's a lot of sick fu*ks out in the world, and I'd hate to be abducted into sex slavery, for example.
Lulzlulzlulz. I, ehem, swear I'm not crazily paranoid.
I'd adventure though if I had a friend, a close friend, to join me.
Oh boy...I guess I might sound like your parents, not my intention. I'm outside the box looking in. But really, here's an example in the above where you say there's some "sick fu*ks" out there. We all know that, and if you find that's a negative overwhelming you take up a self defense class...another good outlet that will build confidence. It will quelch it. Every time a negative smacks you in the forehead, ask yourself, what can I do to make it positive? Get my drift?click to expand


Posted by Mr. Defense
You're only 23 years old, trust me, you have a LONG way to go. Just drop out of college. Don't feel obligated to go to college right away. All you're doing is incurring debt for no good reason. Here in Seattle, we have a lot of Starbucks Baristas with college degrees. Nothing wrong with working at starbucks, but with a college degree? I'll tell you why most of them have college degrees but work in jobs that don't require one. The reason why is because they too, just went through the motions and went to college "just because". People with no passion or ambition,usually have no idea as to how to use their degree. You don't seem to know what you want to do, so stop making your "inquiries" so expensive. Do things like travel more, get to know new people, and see what the world has to offer. This is the time in your life where you really should just be having fun. Again, just don't waste your time with school if that's not where you head is at. Don't feel bad about no attending college. Only go when you really have a passion for it, and you really know what you want to do.

Posted by LilyTree
Antonarnia,
Just from the way you spoke in your original post, and the fact that you're contemplating as you are, tells me you're going to be just fine. It's part of growing up. I know we tend to think we're grown since we're in our early twenties, but really, we aren't. You have a good heart and a great spirit. It's okay to have doubts and to feel down, but don't stay down for too long. You're too awesome for that. You owe it to yourself to give life your best shot. And don't be afraid to slow down and take things one step at a time. College will always be there. You can always complete your education when you're ready. I wish you all the best. You can do it and you will figure it out. 🙂)) Rock on!

Posted by CluelessCancer
Many people have suggested I read this book, never have, but maybe it'll help you


Posted by VullcanLazz
Yup,I know what you're going through.Today,I looked up at work around 10:30 a.m. and said what the bleep am I doing here.This is your time for exploring you and your life.You have no ties ,a condo,fiance,kids ,etc,so you have the freedom to go out into the world.There are hostels here you can stay,so you're not on the road as a single person.I don't know if they have any meet up groups in your area(Meet Up.com),there you can find a travel group,a cooking group,spirituality group etc-out of that group you might meet some gal(s) who would wanted to travel and it wouldn't be like you were going with a total stranger(s).Monster.com is a great place to look at jobs,at this point ,just look at the job descriptions so you have an idea about a different field that peaks your interest.We Virgos are so hard on ourselves.Don't be.They say go with what you love to do,but you are so multi-talented that ,it's your choice really.Maybe if you combined your skills.What if you did graphic art design for salons/their events/new products?You could work from your own webpage and wa la!A career that you could be mobile with.You could travel with your laptop and do the printing at any copy shop and mail it it from a UPS mail box store.Or not.Keep picking at it,you'll get it together.You're entitled to live your life.I'll leave you with this;
"Have faith in yourself,have faith in the Infinite.Faith is the only antidote for failure.Faith is the only agnncey through which the cosmic force of Infinite Intelligence can be harnessed by man."Think & Grow Rich by Napoleon Hill.



Posted by VullcanLazz
Well,no no condo or fiance.I just meant you have nothing holding you back except you.Glad you could use unfo!You got questions,I'll get answers✨opens and flaps fan covering half of face*a lady never tells her age.


Posted by antonarnia
Also, I don't have that many friends.
My current best friend [Taurus] I absolutely love her to death. She's seriously the best. We're on the same wavelength.
But we don't get to kick it that often because she's in school, and has a boyfriend. [Capricorn]
School part, I understand she needs to focus, and we can't hang because of that.
Boyfriend part, I don't understand. She's with him frequently, and will push off hanging out with me because he's super clingy. He's pretty winey when she wants to do something that doesn't include him. She'll wound up giving in to him, and not going out.
[But I can't give her a hard time for that because I sort of did the same thing to her while I was with my boyfriend] She wasn't single though.
I mean I have other friends, but we just have different lives.
Making friends that are girls, doesn't happen that often for me.
I have trust issue's when it comes to female friends.
Being friends with guys is natural to me. I relate to men more easily. [I grew up with three brothers, being the only girl]
As soon as my —guy friends?? start to come on to me, the friendship ends. I'm not into them, and they can't handle just being friends with me. I??ve lost a lot of male friends due to this issue. I did post about a Taurus male that was my friend, and we happened to kiss because we were both drunk. I'm not into him like that though. Which I told him from the beginning that I don't want anything more. I don't lead guys on. I'm very up front about how I feel.
So, basically I don't get along with many females.
And my male friends just want to fu*k me.
Sorry for rambling everybody.
I'm just frustrated with everything at the moment.
Is this a phase..
Will I ever find my calling in life, or just be a basket case that can't settle for a damn thing?


Posted by antonarniaPosted by VullcanLazz
Well,no no condo or fiance.I just meant you have nothing holding you back except you.Glad you could use unfo!You got questions,I'll get answers✨opens and flaps fan covering half of face*a lady never tells her age.
OH NO! I would never ask a lady her age! I was just simply inquiring for the day of your birth.click to expand
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Here goes,
FUCKKKKKZ. I JUST DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO ANYMORE.
I'm lost in life. I'm 23 years old, will be turning 24 this coming September.
I went to college subsequently graduating high school in 2008.
Withdrew after a semester, and decided that I wanted to pursue cosmetology.
I've been a licensed cosmetologist for 2 years now. After I graduated, I worked in a salon for about 6 months, but soon realized I don't want to do that for the rest of my life. For myself, I want better. A job with more structure/intelligence, not so much petty gossip, and what happened on Desperate Housewives. [By all means, I am not knocking cosmetologist. You guys work hard for thuh monaaay]
Anyways, after I quit my job in the salon, I went back to college. Currently enrolled for three semester now. Until I decided to withdraw from my classes a couple of weeks ago. AGH.
I just feel like I'm going through the motions. Attending college because it makes my father happy, and it keeps him off my back for the most part.
When I decided to go back, I was just going to major in business.
But then I started to fancy Graphic Design. [That was shortly lived after I realized how petty it is]
Now I'm into Psychology/Philosophy/Humanities.
I enjoy filling my brain with knowledge, but I don't have the drive or books smarts to pursue the degree I'm interested in.
School just isn't for me. It's difficult for me to excel in college, for which so far, I haven't been capable of doing what it takes [requirements] in the classroom in order to graduate.