Aqua moon - I hate you!

You protect me from what hurts me, but so much I can’t tell what’s true sometimes. It takes so much work to get through those walls. I blame it on that freaking Cap for running away but when I’m hurt I’m super great at distraction!

It’s just when you do open up & let me fall in love, can you never let it go? When it’s not good for me, isn’t that enough to let it go? 🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️ I swear it’s not the Sag sun lol

I just hate you aqua moon & maybe my aqua Saturn too.. yeah yeah yeah I’m entering second Saturn return soon. Kill me now 😂😂😂

I’m just venting btw and who said aqua moon isn’t emotional?

Posted by Maxian

I concur, when we open up and let them peel off our layers we are so doomed ☠

I’m screwed, I should’ve blocked him 🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️

Posted by Clumsy_Wumsy

My mom is a Cap sun Aqua moon. She's what I called the walking freezer. LOL!

My ex Aqua husband is an Aqua sun Aqua moon with Cancer rising. Now that dude even when he speaks like he's calm, he's quite a mess. I'm glad our marriage went down the hill.

I told you to block him the other time, didn't I? Oh you stubborn Sag. Haha!

Lol! Yes you did.. & yes I’m stubborn but partially because emotions/logic are not in line..more in line but only when both agree that it’s over. I always think with him that it’s been a growth experience ( me getting stronger and being able to not care, but I obviously still care 🤪) I caved and sent a little text. Hi-I’m okay and that leads to him now calling me & telling me we belong together and he wants to try again for real this time 🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️ Apparently it was half ass before after we had broke up from the real relationship.. because he wasn’t ready? Omfg seriously? Logic says nooooo & emotions damn it you adorable asshole how do you know how to get through that freaking wall!)

& lol on the mess… I had to do a lot of work on myself mostly because I wasn’t willing to face reality of my marriage. It’s still tough after you’ve let someone in & been in love with them. It’s a lot of freaking work to walk away and most people don’t come back. So it works mostly until someone else can’t let it go ! & honestly I don’t block because it doesn’t change the fact there is still emotion there. The last time I slammed a door in someone’s face, I married a rebound 🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️ And it didn’t go away even with no contact until I actively worked through it. I have actively worked through this but apparently not all the way! 🤪

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My mom is a Cap sun Aqua moon. She's what I called the walking freezer. LOL!

My ex Aqua husband is an Aqua sun Aqua moon with Cancer rising. Now that dude even when he speaks like he's calm, he's quite a mess. I'm glad our marriage went down the hill.

I told you to block him the other time, didn't I? Oh you stubborn Sag. Haha!

Lol! Yes you did.. & yes I’m stubborn but partially because emotions/logic are not in line..more in line but only when both agree that it’s over. I always think with him that it’s been a growth experience ( me getting stronger and being able to not care, but I obviously still care 🤪) I caved and sent a little text. Hi-I’m okay and that leads to him now calling me & telling me we belong together and he wants to try again for real this time 🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️ Apparently it was half ass before after we had broke up from the real relationship.. because he wasn’t ready? Omfg seriously? Logic says nooooo & emotions damn it you adorable asshole how do you know how to get through that freaking wall!)

& lol on the mess… I had to do a lot of work on myself mostly because I wasn’t willing to face reality of my marriage. It’s still tough after you’ve let someone in & been in love with them. It’s a lot of freaking work to walk away and most people don’t come back. So it works mostly until someone else can’t let it go ! & honestly I don’t block because it doesn’t change the fact there is still emotion there. The last time I slammed a door in someone’s face, I married a rebound 🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️ And it didn’t go away even with no contact until I actively worked through it. I have actively worked through this but apparently not all the way! 🤪

Hmm...this reminds me of my story with that ex Sag of mine. That repeating pattern! I have to cut him off in order for me to move on with my effing life. I know he wouldn't block me and that was one of the reason why I chose to delete and blocked him off. It took me a long time to heal but without any contacts, it makes things easier.

You need to hate him to love you. Ok maybe hate is a big word. You need to leave him to find you. It ain't easy but you need to do it. You need to delete his number and block him. In this case, (which I hope his number is not in your head), and slowly move on. I did just that and when I'm finally out of his prison, that feeling omg! It's like I'm free totally. It feels so good. Try it please unless you wants him back as well. Haaaa!

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I actually did walk away, have blocked him in the past. I found peace, wasn’t being pulled, said screw you. My problem is I still care and am nice.. I don’t care like I did before. I’ve worked through most of it. The problem is I didn’t find that life. I don’t think it’s about him but about me. Plus I don’t really believe him. It’s been almost 4 years. But he has grown quite a bit & made a lot of progress I have to admit. I listened last night, he wants to try and I’m thinking I so do not want to put myself through that again…(it’s been a couple of years since that pattern) he’s asking & perhaps I felt a little pull and that’s why I’m pissed at my aqua moon. But aqua moon has mostly been guarded for a long time. I know I need to be more open again, but to him? Not so sure.

Perhaps it’s just a reminder of I need to be open & maybe need to deal with him once & for all.

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My mom is a Cap sun Aqua moon. She's what I called the walking freezer. LOL!

My ex Aqua husband is an Aqua sun Aqua moon with Cancer rising. Now that dude even when he speaks like he's calm, he's quite a mess. I'm glad our marriage went down the hill.

I told you to block him the other time, didn't I? Oh you stubborn Sag. Haha!

Lol! Yes you did.. & yes I’m stubborn but partially because emotions/logic are not in line..more in line but only when both agree that it’s over. I always think with him that it’s been a growth experience ( me getting stronger and being able to not care, but I obviously still care 🤪) I caved and sent a little text. Hi-I’m okay and that leads to him now calling me & telling me we belong together and he wants to try again for real this time 🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️ Apparently it was half ass before after we had broke up from the real relationship.. because he wasn’t ready? Omfg seriously? Logic says nooooo & emotions damn it you adorable asshole how do you know how to get through that freaking wall!)

& lol on the mess… I had to do a lot of work on myself mostly because I wasn’t willing to face reality of my marriage. It’s still tough after you’ve let someone in & been in love with them. It’s a lot of freaking work to walk away and most people don’t come back. So it works mostly until someone else can’t let it go ! & honestly I don’t block because it doesn’t change the fact there is still emotion there. The last time I slammed a door in someone’s face, I married a rebound 🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️ And it didn’t go away even with no contact until I actively worked through it. I have actively worked through this but apparently not all the way! 🤪

Hmm...this reminds me of my story with that ex Sag of mine. That repeating pattern! I have to cut him off in order for me to move on with my effing life. I know he wouldn't block me and that was one of the reason why I chose to delete and blocked him off. It took me a long time to heal but without any contacts, it makes things easier.

You need to hate him to love you. Ok maybe hate is a big word. You need to leave him to find you. It ain't easy but you need to do it. You need to delete his number and block him. In this case, (which I hope his number is not in your head), and slowly move on. I did just that and when I'm finally out of his prison, that feeling omg! It's like I'm free totally. It feels so good. Try it please unless you wants him back as well. Haaaa!

I actually did walk away, have blocked him in the past. I found peace, wasn’t being pulled, said screw you. My problem is I still care and am nice.. I don’t care like I did before. I’ve worked through most of it. The problem is I didn’t find that life. I don’t think it’s about him but about me. Plus I don’t really believe him. It’s been almost 4 years. But he has grown quite a bit & made a lot of progress I have to admit. I listened last night, he wants to try and I’m thinking I so do not want to put myself through that again…(it’s been a couple of years since that pattern) he’s asking & perhaps I felt a little pull and that’s why I’m pissed at my aqua moon. But aqua moon has mostly been guarded for a long time. I know I need to be more open again, but to him? Not so sure.

Perhaps it’s just a reminder of I need to be open & maybe need to deal with him once & for all.

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This sounds like capricorn bits at play here.

Try and progress.. key words.

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Posted by Clumsy_Wumsy

My mom is a Cap sun Aqua moon. She's what I called the walking freezer. LOL!

My ex Aqua husband is an Aqua sun Aqua moon with Cancer rising. Now that dude even when he speaks like he's calm, he's quite a mess. I'm glad our marriage went down the hill.

I told you to block him the other time, didn't I? Oh you stubborn Sag. Haha!

Lol! Yes you did.. & yes I’m stubborn but partially because emotions/logic are not in line..more in line but only when both agree that it’s over. I always think with him that it’s been a growth experience ( me getting stronger and being able to not care, but I obviously still care 🤪) I caved and sent a little text. Hi-I’m okay and that leads to him now calling me & telling me we belong together and he wants to try again for real this time 🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️ Apparently it was half ass before after we had broke up from the real relationship.. because he wasn’t ready? Omfg seriously? Logic says nooooo & emotions damn it you adorable asshole how do you know how to get through that freaking wall!)

& lol on the mess… I had to do a lot of work on myself mostly because I wasn’t willing to face reality of my marriage. It’s still tough after you’ve let someone in & been in love with them. It’s a lot of freaking work to walk away and most people don’t come back. So it works mostly until someone else can’t let it go ! & honestly I don’t block because it doesn’t change the fact there is still emotion there. The last time I slammed a door in someone’s face, I married a rebound 🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️ And it didn’t go away even with no contact until I actively worked through it. I have actively worked through this but apparently not all the way! 🤪

Hmm...this reminds me of my story with that ex Sag of mine. That repeating pattern! I have to cut him off in order for me to move on with my effing life. I know he wouldn't block me and that was one of the reason why I chose to delete and blocked him off. It took me a long time to heal but without any contacts, it makes things easier.

You need to hate him to love you. Ok maybe hate is a big word. You need to leave him to find you. It ain't easy but you need to do it. You need to delete his number and block him. In this case, (which I hope his number is not in your head), and slowly move on. I did just that and when I'm finally out of his prison, that feeling omg! It's like I'm free totally. It feels so good. Try it please unless you wants him back as well. Haaaa!

I actually did walk away, have blocked him in the past. I found peace, wasn’t being pulled, said screw you. My problem is I still care and am nice.. I don’t care like I did before. I’ve worked through most of it. The problem is I didn’t find that life. I don’t think it’s about him but about me. Plus I don’t really believe him. It’s been almost 4 years. But he has grown quite a bit & made a lot of progress I have to admit. I listened last night, he wants to try and I’m thinking I so do not want to put myself through that again…(it’s been a couple of years since that pattern) he’s asking & perhaps I felt a little pull and that’s why I’m pissed at my aqua moon. But aqua moon has mostly been guarded for a long time. I know I need to be more open again, but to him? Not so sure.

Perhaps it’s just a reminder of I need to be open & maybe need to deal with him once & for all.

This sounds like capricorn bits at play here.

Try and progress.. key words.

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Yes we both are cap dominant. He was in a bad place after a divorce, financially & emotionally devastated. Trust was hard, me being more successful than him and I tried to help encourage what he needed to do and he has been working on all that since we broke up. When we were trying again a couple of years ago he was saying he knew we were going to end up together but he didn’t want a relationship right then. I said that wasn’t acceptable, we had been in one for a year and half prior to that. We both dated others. Now he’s in settling down mode, recovered, buying some property, saved money etc feels more like he could be a partner… wants a real relationship again.. he always reached out to me occasionally , and says if I would do the same we could work on it. Me not sure, cuz havent I given it enough tries, havent I been hurt enough? The connection is still there.. we talk on the phone & it feels like years ago. Crazy. He accepts me for me, encourages my career growth, my hard working, we have fun together, and that’s rare tbh. So then I find myself thinking about it..

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You protect me from what hurts me, but so much I can’t tell what’s true sometimes. It takes so much work to get through those walls. I blame it on that freaking Cap for running away but when I’m hurt I’m super great at distraction!

It’s just when you do open up & let me fall in love, can you never let it go? When it’s not good for me, isn’t that enough to let it go? 🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️ I swear it’s not the Sag sun lol

I just hate you aqua moon & maybe my aqua Saturn too.. yeah yeah yeah I’m entering second Saturn return soon. Kill me now 😂😂😂

I’m just venting btw and who said aqua moon isn’t emotional?

Sorry to hear you're a hot a** mess just like the rest ❤️. Makes me appreciate my overly preoccupied, easily distracted Moon so much more now....

Vent away. Your Sag bits will kick in soon enough. And personally, I think your Sag bits does play a role. I have yet to meet a Sag that didn't love deeply (not saying this was that). You all usually just don't get stuck there.

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You protect me from what hurts me, but so much I can’t tell what’s true sometimes. It takes so much work to get through those walls. I blame it on that freaking Cap for running away but when I’m hurt I’m super great at distraction!

It’s just when you do open up & let me fall in love, can you never let it go? When it’s not good for me, isn’t that enough to let it go? 🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️ I swear it’s not the Sag sun lol

I just hate you aqua moon & maybe my aqua Saturn too.. yeah yeah yeah I’m entering second Saturn return soon. Kill me now 😂😂😂

I’m just venting btw and who said aqua moon isn’t emotional?

Sorry to hear you're a hot a** mess just like the rest ❤️. Makes me appreciate my overly preoccupied, easily distracted Moon so much more now....

Vent away. Your Sag bits will kick in soon enough. And personally, I think your Sag bits does play a role. I have yet to meet a Sag that didn't love deeply (not saying this was that). You all usually just don't get stuck there.

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Lol definite love, but a lot of confusion with him which I think was really due to him not being ready for the relationship we were in. Probably I wasn’t ready either. Yes I love deeply that’s why I am so guarded & don’t allow it often.

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My mom is a Cap sun Aqua moon. She's what I called the walking freezer. LOL!

My ex Aqua husband is an Aqua sun Aqua moon with Cancer rising. Now that dude even when he speaks like he's calm, he's quite a mess. I'm glad our marriage went down the hill.

I told you to block him the other time, didn't I? Oh you stubborn Sag. Haha!

Lol! Yes you did.. & yes I’m stubborn but partially because emotions/logic are not in line..more in line but only when both agree that it’s over. I always think with him that it’s been a growth experience ( me getting stronger and being able to not care, but I obviously still care 🤪) I caved and sent a little text. Hi-I’m okay and that leads to him now calling me & telling me we belong together and he wants to try again for real this time 🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️ Apparently it was half ass before after we had broke up from the real relationship.. because he wasn’t ready? Omfg seriously? Logic says nooooo & emotions damn it you adorable asshole how do you know how to get through that freaking wall!)

& lol on the mess… I had to do a lot of work on myself mostly because I wasn’t willing to face reality of my marriage. It’s still tough after you’ve let someone in & been in love with them. It’s a lot of freaking work to walk away and most people don’t come back. So it works mostly until someone else can’t let it go ! & honestly I don’t block because it doesn’t change the fact there is still emotion there. The last time I slammed a door in someone’s face, I married a rebound 🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️ And it didn’t go away even with no contact until I actively worked through it. I have actively worked through this but apparently not all the way! 🤪

Hmm...this reminds me of my story with that ex Sag of mine. That repeating pattern! I have to cut him off in order for me to move on with my effing life. I know he wouldn't block me and that was one of the reason why I chose to delete and blocked him off. It took me a long time to heal but without any contacts, it makes things easier.

You need to hate him to love you. Ok maybe hate is a big word. You need to leave him to find you. It ain't easy but you need to do it. You need to delete his number and block him. In this case, (which I hope his number is not in your head), and slowly move on. I did just that and when I'm finally out of his prison, that feeling omg! It's like I'm free totally. It feels so good. Try it please unless you wants him back as well. Haaaa!

I actually did walk away, have blocked him in the past. I found peace, wasn’t being pulled, said screw you. My problem is I still care and am nice.. I don’t care like I did before. I’ve worked through most of it. The problem is I didn’t find that life. I don’t think it’s about him but about me. Plus I don’t really believe him. It’s been almost 4 years. But he has grown quite a bit & made a lot of progress I have to admit. I listened last night, he wants to try and I’m thinking I so do not want to put myself through that again…(it’s been a couple of years since that pattern) he’s asking & perhaps I felt a little pull and that’s why I’m pissed at my aqua moon. But aqua moon has mostly been guarded for a long time. I know I need to be more open again, but to him? Not so sure.

Perhaps it’s just a reminder of I need to be open & maybe need to deal with him once & for all.

This sounds like capricorn bits at play here.

Try and progress.. key words.

Yes we both are cap dominant. He was in a bad place after a divorce, financially & emotionally devastated. Trust was hard, me being more successful than him and I tried to help encourage what he needed to do and he has been working on all that since we broke up. When we were trying again a couple of years ago he was saying he knew we were going to end up together but he didn’t want a relationship right then. I said that wasn’t acceptable, we had been in one for a year and half prior to that. We both dated others. Now he’s in settling down mode, recovered, buying some property, saved money etc feels more like he could be a partner… wants a real relationship again.. he always reached out to me occasionally , and says if I would do the same we could work on it. Me not sure, cuz havent I given it enough tries, havent I been hurt enough? The connection is still there.. we talk on the phone & it feels like years ago. Crazy. He accepts me for me, encourages my career growth, my hard working, we have fun together, and that’s rare tbh. So then I find myself thinking about it..

If he is all in now, it's not a wonky offer.

And don't accept less! Make sure he works for it!

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If is exactly it. Lol not sure if I’m willing to find out, but we are talking anyway.

Ok aqua moon I’ll be nicer to you. Yes it takes a bit of time to adjust,I get it. You’re afraid sag sun is going to just go for the ride. We’ve learned by now his patterns though… That stupid love bombing and then freaking out. We are starting to get irritated already. Think I’ll just sit back and enjoy the show 😂 it’s better not to be so attached, I suppose we are working through it after all 🙂

If I blocked him, it would be over. But I think I may still be learning lessons. It doesn’t matter, right now I’m concentrating on me. Studying for the CPA exam & tax season starting in a couple of months. No worries, we will not get dragged through the mud again. We are strong enough ❤️ Lol all my parts talking to each other 🤪🤪🤣🤣😁😁