Im a BIG big girl :-)

I'm a big big girl

In a big big world

It's not a big big thing if you leave me

But I do do feel that

I do do will miss you much

Miss you much...

I can see the first leaf falling

It's all yellow and nice

It's so very cold outside

Like the way I'm feeling inside

I'm a big big girl

In a big big world

It's not a big big thing if you leave me

But I do do feel that

I do do will miss you much

Miss you much...

Outside it's now raining

And tears are falling from my eyes

Why did it have to happen

Why did it all have to end

I'm a big big girl

In a big big world

It's not a big big thing if you leave me

But I do do feel that

I do do will miss you much

Miss you much...

I have your arms around me ooooh like fire

But when I open my eyes

You're gone...

I'm a big big girl

In a big big world

It's not a big big thing if you leave me

But I do do feel that

I do do will miss you much

Miss you much...

I'm a big big girl

In a big big world

It's not a big big thing if you leave me

But I do feel I will miss you much

Miss you much...

Did you write that Eliza ?

LOL.. no thats a song 🙂

Ohhhhhh okay, is that how you are feeling now —??

but like you said cappie,

there are times when you miss the love and lots of attention you got from your EX 😢....MY X Scorpio gave me lots of attention and lovings....

I left you on the other psot because I had to leave my computer for a few moments, so I'm sorry about that ;-;

Why are you home on Saturday night, you don't feel like partying—?

Yeah, so did my ex cancer ... he was very attentive and I would be lying if I were to say that I didn't miss that.

if I were to say that I didn't miss that.

LOL... ya i guess we all want to feel loved and appreciated 🙂

eliza...why did you and your scoprio break up?

he writes twice a week or so and tells me all his fun experiences.... im amazed.. he says he loves it there... the people are soo sweet....he has a good heart... Hes a very spiritual and kind hearted guy....

Okay, so that's what happen ...

I've been involved with a scorpio so I know what those "tactics" are like. Actually, I've been involved with two out of three water signs (cancer, scorpio) along with knowing them as friends so I totally understand where you are coming from.

Like some people, I could state that it was all for the best but if I were to say that then I would't be real. However, I do believe that things happen for a reason and that you did what you thought was best at the time.

Yes he was fatherly( i like caring men) but he wanted to control my life and he even wanted to change me... my taste in clothes and colors..........

Seriously —? Man oh man, that scorpio that I was with tried to do the same thing to me 😢 He would act exactly like my father ... I mean this very literally because my father was a scorpio. OMG, he was very caring too ..... very sweet and gentle ... ONLY IF I DID WHAT HE SAID!

He wanted to change my look too, he told me that the way I looked just wasn't good enough, he only give me a few compliments on certain outfits and that was it ...... He wanted me to keep my hair totally straight and wanted me to dress like some movie star ......

Yikes I can't handle men like that. That controlling thing in scorpios is prob the main thing that causes aquas and scorps not to get on really well with eachother.

I don't have the physical and mental energy to be that controlling and it angers me when some guy thinks he can exert pressure on me to fall in line with his every whim. It makes me feel trapped and when I feel like that I start resenting my capturer.

'....He wanted me to keep my hair totally straight and wanted me to dress like some movie star..'


LOL... my scorp always gave me compliments and he likes my style but he thought i should wear more colorful outfits ( im usually in red, baby blue, all greens, and black)... he wanted me to be a 'packet of colors'... lol... i like all colors but some just dont suit me... like yellow and orange aint my thing and he would get a yellow dress and like bug me all the time to wear it..

o ya and wen we would go to his parties ( with all his soldier friends) he would want me to dress up 'modestly'.. LOL... what a funny guy 😛😛😛

Yep, my colors are reds, blues, black, and greens ( it's the only different color in my wardrobe -- I like khaki too 🙂 Yeah, around his friends I had to be more glamorous ...

I usually keep my hair in a assortment of buns (just because it't the easiest thing since I am really busy). He didn't understand that because he's not in college so he thought I was just lazy with my appearance ... so did the cancer guy

*** cappy wants to stick her middle finger up at both of them *** 😉

Yeah, around his friends I had to be more glamorous ..


LMAO.. and i bet he did all the shoppin for that night— lol... crazy guys 😛😛😛


he thought I was just lazy with my appearance


LOL.. ya men want you to be a hottie for them 24/7 which well you have to be to please them.... it doesnt take much effort on my part coz im stylish anyways 😛😛😛😛...jeeez im such a sooo darn into myself 😛😛😛

"but he wanted to control my life and he even wanted to change me... my taste in clothes and colors.......... "

-oh no eliza...that is not good. i could never be with someone like that. how long did you last with him?

that is why i LOVE aqua's ...b/c they don't try to control you at all. they love you for who you are and they accept you and your beliefs.

my friend is engaged to a leo and he is the worst i have ever seen! he controls every little thing she does all the time. never even lets her hang out with her friends b/c he does not trust her or her friends. if she does go out with a friend, he calls her about 15 times until he finds out where she is and then he shows up just to sit there and pout, and start a fight with any guy (including the bartender) that talks to her.

he calls her about 15 times until he finds out where she is

that sounds like my scorpio 🙂.... we dated for almost a year

oh my god...how did you do that eliza. i would have been gone after a week! i hate the thought of anyone controlling me... not gonna happen with this girlie 🙂

moonchild,


at first i loved it..u know your young and you feel sooooo much loved and i enjoyed his possessiveness but then a time comes when it just gets on ur nerves....i never dated a scorp before... 🙂...

how can you enjoy posessiveness? i view it as a major sign of weakness which is very unattractive. not for me...

how can you enjoy posessiveness?


i dont know i just enjoyed it at first 🙂... it seemed romantic.....u know someone wanting to know where i was all the time and checkin' on me but then it was too much and it seemed he didnt trust me at all..... and like ur friend's BF he too would pick up fights with my guy friends.... uuurrrggghhhh.... he acted like a lil' kid.... he was very childish....

sorry to hear that. i don't think anyone should have control over another person like that...especially not in a relationship. and if one person doesn't trust the other, what is the point ot being together? i stood by my aqua through everything and always trusted him b/c he never made me think deifferently. except towards the last 2 months together i started to wonder what was going on b/c he was acting different, etc. but still, i never accused him of anything b/c i trusted him to be with me. and now i find out that he was with another girl the whole time...even when i asked him if there was another girl he always said no. so, maybe trusting someone is not the way to go... i guess you have to listen to your gut feeling sometime also.

well, his moon is in libra which makes him a big flirt, even though he doesn't know it! it also makes him emotionally indecisive, and it leaves him constantly weighing his options (which explains why he needed to see if the grass was greener!). i believe his venus is in sag and mine is in leo, so i think we are compatible there...VERY strong physical chemistry between the two of us.

i think he felt that i wasn't happy and that he wasn't good enough for me, so he left me for someone on a lower level, so to speak. i never made him feel that way nor did i ever make him feel uncomfortable (he always felt that way and says he couldn't be himself around me), that is his own insecurity.

i know he was not unhappy with me, b/c he is now contacting me and coming to see me at my work, etc. i know he is missing me. and if he is so happy with her, why is he still keeping in touch with me...

yes, i still have feelings for him and yes, i want to get back together with him. but, i am afraid i will always worry if he is going to cheat again, or at least stray away from me when his curiosity arises or when he is unsure of his feelings. i think i am going to have to show him in a way what it is like to lose me b/c he has no idea what that is like. every time he is done playing the field he comes running back to me b/c he knows i will always be there for him...so he needs to feel what it is like to lose me in a sense.

i don't know if he will come back, but it seems like he is trying to by coming to see me at work. he is very non confrontational so for him to have visited me at work was a big step for him (b/c we have not seen each other in 2 months now). i think it is up to him now to make the move and figure out what he wants. that is why i am not contacting him now...he needs his space to figure out what he is going to do. i have to just move on with my life as i have been doing every day. but of course, my thoughts are still with him.

OMG!! Eliza - I havent read anythign besides that song & I used to sing that to an ex of mine about 8 years ago 😢

God that stirs up some nasty ass memories 😢