I don't even know how to start this because I feel like it's so complicated...at least because it is in my head. I'm a libra woman and am having a dilema with an Aries man. Let me try to explain as much as possible. So we met like three years ago, I instantly fell for him but he was moving away in like 2months to study in another country so I didn't say anything (at this time we only knew each other for like 4 months but we clicked so much). When he left I just said whatever but he literally messaged me everyday...everyday. We would talk at night because of time zones every night it was amazing lol. Eventually he even convinced me to study with him and guess what... a year later I'm here studying with him (of course cause he is here but it was also a dream to study abroad... We became best friends but the thing is we spoke about everyhting we wanted in a relationship and how his parents and mine are strict whatever. My parents only let me come here because he is here because they kind of put a trust on him to watch over me and he really enjoyed that so much he wouldn't let me go to clubs without him. Sooo a month after I find out he had a girlfriend he made while he was here and I was back home but the thing is I couldn't say anything because well we are friends. While he was with her he told me she wasn't serious and would only go see her every two weeks but since we live in dorms we would eat, talk, study, and watch movies together. But nothing sexual would ever happen because I didn't want to be that girl either. It got to the point where I told him I couldn't be cooking for him because it made me uncomfortable and he understood but yeah we even took a trip alone for a week and shared a room...nothing happen but like I'm trying to explain how deep the "friendship" was that he didn't even take his gf.I loved it but Anyways I tried moving on and was sort of seeing another guy cause I thought since he had a gf what is the point. When he found out about the guy I was seeing he came to my room, took me out to eat and started asking me if I was going to be with this guy and that it wasn't a good idea blah blah. I told him I wasn't sure yet and that I wanted to take things slow with the new guy. A month after he breaks up with his gf and at the same time I wasn't so into the other guy lol. So, we start spending almost everyday together, this time we get really close, we cuddled and watched movies from 9pm till like 7am and talk and laugh. We would go out...basically a couple without the title and no sex. People started asking if I was with him too. We end up taking another trip with another couple and I shared a room with him again. One morning we cuddled in our underwear for the first time and huggded all morning and that night we ended up making out all night, it started to get really intense and almost had sex but he stopped and said he couldn't do this to me because I'm his best friend, he started apologizing and I said don't we both want this and he said not your my best friend and I respect you I can't have feelings like that for you.. So a little back ground both of us are quite religious. I'm a virgin and so yeah he really believes I should wait to be married. So we didn't speak for like 3 days and when we talked he told me he didn't want to fall in love here that he is abroad and he can be free and that I don't want him like a boyfriend because he just plays with girls and has sex and leaves and he said he would never do that to me. He said that with me it would be very serious. I kept asking if he has feelings but he never answered. He then asked me to just stay friends with him like nothing happened and I told him that I couldn't because if I was doing the same things I would still think he had feelings and it would hurt me. He begged me to stay friends and said how I could ruin a 3 year friendship. ANyways I cut it off I told him with friends we could pretend everything is fine but it' s done. Now we see each other sometimes when we are with friends and we don't really make contact. He started putting lots on his social media like to show what he is doing but I do the opposite I just don't look at any of his stuff and rarely put up stuff on instagram or anything. But his post have been like stuff about things I like or stuff we do or his face and he seems sad. Even some people tell me if he's okay and I say well I think so and act like nothing. The thing is will he come back? WIll he admit he likes me if he does? or will he just let me move on and be so prideful? I'm confused. Please helpp 😢
