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I am an Aries Sun/Libra rising/Capricorn Moon female. My Venus is in Pieces. As I look back on my life ( 26 turning 27 this year ) I started to wonder - how did I manage it all and stayed alive? My personal, love and education/career life have been a surreal ride. I have this saying about myself - how the Universe made me to make him giggle from time to time a bit. As for my inner feelings - I spent a large amount ( and fucked up in personal fields because of it ) searching for the one, the soulmate, the one to make me whole, thinking of myself as of a key waiting to be put in its rightfull lock, opening the door to an amazing world. Feeling like I have everything, but am nothing without the other half. I never forced things...had 2 boyfriends...one for 5, and the other 6 years. I have so much cruelty inside of me, and at the same time so much love. I wondered if anyone could give me an insight on my combo... Anyone dealing with same issues? Life stories... Anything... I just need to know am I alone in this (:

...hmm, my bestfriend is also Aries sun/Cap moon.. she too has never been without boyfriend since she was 13-14 too.. maybe 1 or 2 years in between.. I think she also feels she's nothing without a better half.. she is very much in love with her Taurus..

What can I say, maybe it's your pisces venus or libra rising? Pisces venus "need" other - but I'm quite unaware of this placement.. As for Libra rising, Libra is the sign of the "other", you feel complete when you relate, and it being your 1st house, the house of self it is how you see yourself too.

I'm 33 and I've had a total of 1 girlfriend for 2 years. I also have tons of love and tons of cruelty so I can relate. Basically, if I hate someone that takes advantage of the love side I will tear them to shreds and laugh about it internally, then cry about it after. Some of thoughts that go through my head sometimes really scare the crap out of me. I spent a better part of 15 years denying that aspect of myself because I hated it so much. Now I just know I have to live my life, and do what I think is right. So the anwser to your question is accept all aspects of yourself and know you are good enough because you do have that abundance of love to offer the right person. That by itself should make you feel more whole, because a person that is not whole and doesn't feel whole will still never feel whole no matter who they are with. Most people live in a state of denial as we all have aspects of ourselves that we don't like.

Learn to deal with the emotions straight away in whatever method you find most useful. Some it is physical activity. Some it is Meditating. Being in nature personally I find is really the best for me, but during the winter that just is not fun. Don't let those emotions build up and explode.

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I am an Aries Sun/Libra rising/Capricorn Moon female. My Venus is in Pieces. As I look back on my life ( 26 turning 27 this year ) I started to wonder - how did I manage it all and stayed alive? My personal, love and education/career life have been a surreal ride. I have this saying about myself - how the Universe made me to make him giggle from time to time a bit. As for my inner feelings - I spent a large amount ( and fucked up in personal fields because of it ) searching for the one, the soulmate, the one to make me whole, thinking of myself as of a key waiting to be put in its rightfull lock, opening the door to an amazing world. Feeling like I have everything, but am nothing without the other half. I never forced things...had 2 boyfriends...one for 5, and the other 6 years. I have so much cruelty inside of me, and at the same time so much love. I wondered if anyone could give me an insight on my combo... Anyone dealing with same issues? Life stories... Anything... I just need to know am I alone in this (:

Uh, Pisces is spelled P-I-S-C-E-S (we have pieces of this and that, but are not Pieces). 😡

🤗 cyber hugs!

Love,

Eva

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I am an Aries Sun/Libra rising/Capricorn Moon female. My Venus is in Pieces. As I look back on my life ( 26 turning 27 this year ) I started to wonder - how did I manage it all and stayed alive? My personal, love and education/career life have been a surreal ride. I have this saying about myself - how the Universe made me to make him giggle from time to time a bit. As for my inner feelings - I spent a large amount ( and fucked up in personal fields because of it ) searching for the one, the soulmate, the one to make me whole, thinking of myself as of a key waiting to be put in its rightfull lock, opening the door to an amazing world. Feeling like I have everything, but am nothing without the other half. I never forced things...had 2 boyfriends...one for 5, and the other 6 years. I have so much cruelty inside of me, and at the same time so much love. I wondered if anyone could give me an insight on my combo... Anyone dealing with same issues? Life stories... Anything... I just need to know am I alone in this (:

Uh, Pisces is spelled P-I-S-C-E-S (we have pieces of this and that, but are not Pieces). 😡

🤗 cyber hugs!

Love,

Eva

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Yes I know. I misspelled and do not find it crucial for the nature of my post. Sorry that You found Yourself offended. Thanks for that anyway, and for the love. :lmao:

All the best (:

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I'm 33 and I've had a total of 1 girlfriend for 2 years. I also have tons of love and tons of cruelty so I can relate. Basically, if I hate someone that takes advantage of the love side I will tear them to shreds and laugh about it internally, then cry about it after. Some of thoughts that go through my head sometimes really scare the crap out of me. I spent a better part of 15 years denying that aspect of myself because I hated it so much. Now I just know I have to live my life, and do what I think is right. So the anwser to your question is accept all aspects of yourself and know you are good enough because you do have that abundance of love to offer the right person. That by itself should make you feel more whole, because a person that is not whole and doesn't feel whole will still never feel whole no matter who they are with. Most people live in a state of denial as we all have aspects of ourselves that we don't like.

Learn to deal with the emotions straight away in whatever method you find most useful. Some it is physical activity. Some it is Meditating. Being in nature personally I find is really the best for me, but during the winter that just is not fun. Don't let those emotions build up and explode.

What are You ( speaking in terms of Astrology )? Thank You for Your post. I find it useful. Yes, the thought part - I can relate. I am trying really hard... I have been a loner my whole life, and believe me - everything about me is defined. I have my activities ( being an Aries - Kendo & Yoga are something I love ). I am rather educated and good in my field of work. People say I am very attractive. But, You know...there is always something missing. It's like with the cat in the box experiment. If You do not see it, it exists and doesn't at the same time. The point is - no matter how cool, successful, active I am...there is always something missing. I will unfortunately repeat myself and say - I have this inner spark which has the need to love and to be the flame of someone's world. Someone to build Your own reality with. I hate that. I hate the Libra part of me because I have the urge to be a great, independent woman. And I am a true friend. A guy gal by intrests and everything. But the girly little shit inside of me just keeps bringing chaos to my life. I gave my all to my ex's and ended up hating my life. (: glad that You are sorting out!

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I am an Aries Sun/Libra rising/Capricorn Moon female. My Venus is in Pieces. As I look back on my life ( 26 turning 27 this year ) I started to wonder - how did I manage it all and stayed alive? My personal, love and education/career life have been a surreal ride. I have this saying about myself - how the Universe made me to make him giggle from time to time a bit. As for my inner feelings - I spent a large amount ( and fucked up in personal fields because of it ) searching for the one, the soulmate, the one to make me whole, thinking of myself as of a key waiting to be put in its rightfull lock, opening the door to an amazing world. Feeling like I have everything, but am nothing without the other half. I never forced things...had 2 boyfriends...one for 5, and the other 6 years. I have so much cruelty inside of me, and at the same time so much love. I wondered if anyone could give me an insight on my combo... Anyone dealing with same issues? Life stories... Anything... I just need to know am I alone in this (:

Uh, Pisces is spelled P-I-S-C-E-S (we have pieces of this and that, but are not Pieces). 😡

🤗 cyber hugs!

Love,

Eva

Yes I know. I misspelled and do not find it crucial for the nature of my post. Sorry that You found Yourself offended. Thanks for that anyway, and for the love. :lmao:

All the best (:

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No worries. Have a nice weekend! 🤗 cyber hugs!

Love,

Eva

PS: Too long a story to tell you, but I too, have Pisces in Venus, and have had my horrible stories when it came to love. PM me and we can talk since we have TROLLS in here that have already heard my stories and are just too treetrunking unSYMPATHETIC/unEMPATHETIC that they hide behind a computer screen and post comments for all to read. I tend to use the BLOCK USER button (Eva blow on right index finger) all the time and will continue to do so.

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I am an Aries Sun/Libra rising/Capricorn Moon female. My Venus is in Pieces. As I look back on my life ( 26 turning 27 this year ) I started to wonder - how did I manage it all and stayed alive? My personal, love and education/career life have been a surreal ride. I have this saying about myself - how the Universe made me to make him giggle from time to time a bit. As for my inner feelings - I spent a large amount ( and fucked up in personal fields because of it ) searching for the one, the soulmate, the one to make me whole, thinking of myself as of a key waiting to be put in its rightfull lock, opening the door to an amazing world. Feeling like I have everything, but am nothing without the other half. I never forced things...had 2 boyfriends...one for 5, and the other 6 years. I have so much cruelty inside of me, and at the same time so much love. I wondered if anyone could give me an insight on my combo... Anyone dealing with same issues? Life stories... Anything... I just need to know am I alone in this (:

Uh, Pisces is spelled P-I-S-C-E-S (we have pieces of this and that, but are not Pieces). 😡

🤗 cyber hugs!

Love,

Eva

Yes I know. I misspelled and do not find it crucial for the nature of my post. Sorry that You found Yourself offended. Thanks for that anyway, and for the love. :lmao:

All the best (:

No worries. Have a nice weekend! 🤗 cyber hugs!

Love,

Eva

PS: Too long a story to tell you, but I too, have Pisces in Venus, and have had my horrible stories when it came to love. PM me and we can talk since we have TROLLS in here that have already heard my stories and are just too treetrunking unSYMPATHETIC/unEMPATHETIC that they hide behind a computer screen and post comments for all to read. I tend to use the BLOCK USER button (Eva blow on right index finger) all the time and will continue to do so.

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Sorry to hear hun! Some people have the need to be evil in order to justify their own existence and ego. Do not take it personal! Just be Your divine self. My mum and uncle are Pisces. They are the most loving, caring and deep people that I know. We do not see things in the same way ( me being Aries ), but I do love them. I think it's hard to wear Your heart on Your sleeve. Lots of love!

Well your Venus is in pieces, would be my guess. Maybe if you glued it back together things would improve?

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I'm 33 and I've had a total of 1 girlfriend for 2 years. I also have tons of love and tons of cruelty so I can relate. Basically, if I hate someone that takes advantage of the love side I will tear them to shreds and laugh about it internally, then cry about it after. Some of thoughts that go through my head sometimes really scare the crap out of me. I spent a better part of 15 years denying that aspect of myself because I hated it so much. Now I just know I have to live my life, and do what I think is right. So the anwser to your question is accept all aspects of yourself and know you are good enough because you do have that abundance of love to offer the right person. That by itself should make you feel more whole, because a person that is not whole and doesn't feel whole will still never feel whole no matter who they are with. Most people live in a state of denial as we all have aspects of ourselves that we don't like.

Learn to deal with the emotions straight away in whatever method you find most useful. Some it is physical activity. Some it is Meditating. Being in nature personally I find is really the best for me, but during the winter that just is not fun. Don't let those emotions build up and explode.

What are You ( speaking in terms of Astrology )? Thank You for Your post. I find it useful. Yes, the thought part - I can relate. I am trying really hard... I have been a loner my whole life, and believe me - everything about me is defined. I have my activities ( being an Aries - Kendo & Yoga are something I love ). I am rather educated and good in my field of work. People say I am very attractive. But, You know...there is always something missing. It's like with the cat in the box experiment. If You do not see it, it exists and doesn't at the same time. The point is - no matter how cool, successful, active I am...there is always something missing. I will unfortunately repeat myself and say - I have this inner spark which has the need to love and to be the flame of someone's world. Someone to build Your own reality with. I hate that. I hate the Libra part of me because I have the urge to be a great, independent woman. And I am a true friend. A guy gal by intrests and everything. But the girly little shit inside of me just keeps bringing chaos to my life. I gave my all to my ex's and ended up hating my life. (: glad that You are sorting out!

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I do understand what you mean about the missing love part. I feel the same way. While I can be alone and function and do the things I like. I have a part of me that wants that really special person, but everytime I put myself out there my heart gets crushed and ripped to shreds. Woman just don't seem to want a sensitive/caring man. They want that bad boy that will treat them like crap. Just makes no sense to me. Then I end up attracting women with 4 kids and I am suppose to just be the nice guy. Well no I want my own lol. Life sucks sometimes I guess. I really don't know where I will find it because it just seems like no one accepts anyone for who they are these days. I am expected to accept them, but they don't accept me. So I wish I had a better answer for you then that here I am basically being all dramatic about it. It is just a reality I have come to terms with. I say all this in a zen way since that won't come across in text form haha.

I think what I have learned is to not look for it. It will come to you. When I would look for it. I would meet people, but always the wrong people, when I didn't try to meet anyone thats when I met some decent people. So take care of yourself, and focus on you, and it will come when you're ready. 🙂

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I'm 33 and I've had a total of 1 girlfriend for 2 years. I also have tons of love and tons of cruelty so I can relate. Basically, if I hate someone that takes advantage of the love side I will tear them to shreds and laugh about it internally, then cry about it after. Some of thoughts that go through my head sometimes really scare the crap out of me. I spent a better part of 15 years denying that aspect of myself because I hated it so much. Now I just know I have to live my life, and do what I think is right. So the anwser to your question is accept all aspects of yourself and know you are good enough because you do have that abundance of love to offer the right person. That by itself should make you feel more whole, because a person that is not whole and doesn't feel whole will still never feel whole no matter who they are with. Most people live in a state of denial as we all have aspects of ourselves that we don't like.

Learn to deal with the emotions straight away in whatever method you find most useful. Some it is physical activity. Some it is Meditating. Being in nature personally I find is really the best for me, but during the winter that just is not fun. Don't let those emotions build up and explode.

What are You ( speaking in terms of Astrology )? Thank You for Your post. I find it useful. Yes, the thought part - I can relate. I am trying really hard... I have been a loner my whole life, and believe me - everything about me is defined. I have my activities ( being an Aries - Kendo & Yoga are something I love ). I am rather educated and good in my field of work. People say I am very attractive. But, You know...there is always something missing. It's like with the cat in the box experiment. If You do not see it, it exists and doesn't at the same time. The point is - no matter how cool, successful, active I am...there is always something missing. I will unfortunately repeat myself and say - I have this inner spark which has the need to love and to be the flame of someone's world. Someone to build Your own reality with. I hate that. I hate the Libra part of me because I have the urge to be a great, independent woman. And I am a true friend. A guy gal by intrests and everything. But the girly little shit inside of me just keeps bringing chaos to my life. I gave my all to my ex's and ended up hating my life. (: glad that You are sorting out!

I do understand what you mean about the missing love part. I feel the same way. While I can be alone and function and do the things I like. I have a part of me that wants that really special person, but everytime I put myself out there my heart gets crushed and ripped to shreds. Woman just don't seem to want a sensitive/caring man. They want that bad boy that will treat them like crap. Just makes no sense to me. Then I end up attracting women with 4 kids and I am suppose to just be the nice guy. Well no I want my own lol. Life sucks sometimes I guess. I really don't know where I will find it because it just seems like no one accepts anyone for who they are these days. I am expected to accept them, but they don't accept me. So I wish I had a better answer for you then that here I am basically being all dramatic about it. It is just a reality I have come to terms with. I say all this in a zen way since that won't come across in text form haha.

I think what I have learned is to not look for it. It will come to you. When I would look for it. I would meet people, but always the wrong people, when I didn't try to meet anyone thats when I met some decent people. So take care of yourself, and focus on you, and it will come when you're ready. 🙂

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YES! THIS IS EXACTLY HOW I FEEL! I DO NOT RUN...I HARDLY LIKE ANYONE ( NOT BECAUSE I AM STUCK UP - BUT PEOPLE REALLY ARE UNTRUE TO THEMSELVES )...You are right though...me 2...u know...every man loves the cruel, independent, self centered woman in me...but when I show my fragile side...well they lose interest...or destroy my other rational half... I am slowly learning this - to put myself first...and start thinking in this way - what do I want and how can I get it... but still...I work a looooot...and when I come home...there is this empty void inside of me...which I fill with alcohol and drugs. Just how I am...but one night of cuddles and nice words...I feel as if I can rule the world the next day... but men I have been with were cold and cruel ( Capricorn, Scorpio )....drained my spark 😢

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I'm 33 and I've had a total of 1 girlfriend for 2 years. I also have tons of love and tons of cruelty so I can relate. Basically, if I hate someone that takes advantage of the love side I will tear them to shreds and laugh about it internally, then cry about it after. Some of thoughts that go through my head sometimes really scare the crap out of me. I spent a better part of 15 years denying that aspect of myself because I hated it so much. Now I just know I have to live my life, and do what I think is right. So the anwser to your question is accept all aspects of yourself and know you are good enough because you do have that abundance of love to offer the right person. That by itself should make you feel more whole, because a person that is not whole and doesn't feel whole will still never feel whole no matter who they are with. Most people live in a state of denial as we all have aspects of ourselves that we don't like.

Learn to deal with the emotions straight away in whatever method you find most useful. Some it is physical activity. Some it is Meditating. Being in nature personally I find is really the best for me, but during the winter that just is not fun. Don't let those emotions build up and explode.

What are You ( speaking in terms of Astrology )? Thank You for Your post. I find it useful. Yes, the thought part - I can relate. I am trying really hard... I have been a loner my whole life, and believe me - everything about me is defined. I have my activities ( being an Aries - Kendo & Yoga are something I love ). I am rather educated and good in my field of work. People say I am very attractive. But, You know...there is always something missing. It's like with the cat in the box experiment. If You do not see it, it exists and doesn't at the same time. The point is - no matter how cool, successful, active I am...there is always something missing. I will unfortunately repeat myself and say - I have this inner spark which has the need to love and to be the flame of someone's world. Someone to build Your own reality with. I hate that. I hate the Libra part of me because I have the urge to be a great, independent woman. And I am a true friend. A guy gal by intrests and everything. But the girly little shit inside of me just keeps bringing chaos to my life. I gave my all to my ex's and ended up hating my life. (: glad that You are sorting out!

I do understand what you mean about the missing love part. I feel the same way. While I can be alone and function and do the things I like. I have a part of me that wants that really special person, but everytime I put myself out there my heart gets crushed and ripped to shreds. Woman just don't seem to want a sensitive/caring man. They want that bad boy that will treat them like crap. Just makes no sense to me. Then I end up attracting women with 4 kids and I am suppose to just be the nice guy. Well no I want my own lol. Life sucks sometimes I guess. I really don't know where I will find it because it just seems like no one accepts anyone for who they are these days. I am expected to accept them, but they don't accept me. So I wish I had a better answer for you then that here I am basically being all dramatic about it. It is just a reality I have come to terms with. I say all this in a zen way since that won't come across in text form haha.

I think what I have learned is to not look for it. It will come to you. When I would look for it. I would meet people, but always the wrong people, when I didn't try to meet anyone thats when I met some decent people. So take care of yourself, and focus on you, and it will come when you're ready. 🙂

YES! THIS IS EXACTLY HOW I FEEL! I DO NOT RUN...I HARDLY LIKE ANYONE ( NOT BECAUSE I AM STUCK UP - BUT PEOPLE REALLY ARE UNTRUE TO THEMSELVES )...You are right though...me 2...u know...every man loves the cruel, independent, self centered woman in me...but when I show my fragile side...well they lose interest...or destroy my other rational half... I am slowly learning this - to put myself first...and start thinking in this way - what do I want and how can I get it... but still...I work a looooot...and when I come home...there is this empty void inside of me...which I fill with alcohol and drugs. Just how I am...but one night of cuddles and nice words...I feel as if I can rule the world the next day... but men I have been with were cold and cruel ( Capricorn, Scorpio )....drained my spark 😢

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Funny a capricorn ruined me too. Took me a full year to recover from her. That is a really bad combo for us Aries. The capricorn seems really mean to us Aries because we have such a big difference on the outlook to life. So it really doesn't mix well with us. They generally have a soft heart, they just show it in a compeltely different way that is alien to us, and our way is alien to them. When you can come to terms with that you can move past the past, and take care of yourself. Put you first. 🙂

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I'm 33 and I've had a total of 1 girlfriend for 2 years. I also have tons of love and tons of cruelty so I can relate. Basically, if I hate someone that takes advantage of the love side I will tear them to shreds and laugh about it internally, then cry about it after. Some of thoughts that go through my head sometimes really scare the crap out of me. I spent a better part of 15 years denying that aspect of myself because I hated it so much. Now I just know I have to live my life, and do what I think is right. So the anwser to your question is accept all aspects of yourself and know you are good enough because you do have that abundance of love to offer the right person. That by itself should make you feel more whole, because a person that is not whole and doesn't feel whole will still never feel whole no matter who they are with. Most people live in a state of denial as we all have aspects of ourselves that we don't like.

Learn to deal with the emotions straight away in whatever method you find most useful. Some it is physical activity. Some it is Meditating. Being in nature personally I find is really the best for me, but during the winter that just is not fun. Don't let those emotions build up and explode.

What are You ( speaking in terms of Astrology )? Thank You for Your post. I find it useful. Yes, the thought part - I can relate. I am trying really hard... I have been a loner my whole life, and believe me - everything about me is defined. I have my activities ( being an Aries - Kendo & Yoga are something I love ). I am rather educated and good in my field of work. People say I am very attractive. But, You know...there is always something missing. It's like with the cat in the box experiment. If You do not see it, it exists and doesn't at the same time. The point is - no matter how cool, successful, active I am...there is always something missing. I will unfortunately repeat myself and say - I have this inner spark which has the need to love and to be the flame of someone's world. Someone to build Your own reality with. I hate that. I hate the Libra part of me because I have the urge to be a great, independent woman. And I am a true friend. A guy gal by intrests and everything. But the girly little shit inside of me just keeps bringing chaos to my life. I gave my all to my ex's and ended up hating my life. (: glad that You are sorting out!

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I am Aries Sun, Gemini Rising, Aqua Moon, Scorpio is in Saturn gives me really intense emotions. Sometimes I just can't hide them at all. See a grown man ball his eyes out? lol Heck my facebook is filled with love and puppies and kittens hahaha.

Been a loner also. I know the feeling. People say I am attractive also, and I feel like I am too, but I just don't ask woman out. Never have. Even my best friends wife sometimes jokes and says I married the wrong man right in front of my best friend hahahaha. She is a Cancer, and my Mom is a Cancer, she reminds me too much of my mom though. Just feels weird. Nice lady though.

It's not like I am lacking any confidence either. I just find asking a woman out in person awkward, and not really geninue. Like if I see an attractive woman at a store. It just feels weird. I think thats when I internalize it. It's like if I was her. Would I want some random dude coming up and asking for my phone number? My anwser is no haha. I think some woman see me as a bit arrogant and snobish because of that. I see many looking at me when in public, just makes me feel like a piece of meat though.

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I am an Aries Sun/Libra rising/Capricorn Moon female. My Venus is in Pieces. As I look back on my life ( 26 turning 27 this year ) I started to wonder - how did I manage it all and stayed alive? My personal, love and education/career life have been a surreal ride. I have this saying about myself - how the Universe made me to make him giggle from time to time a bit. As for my inner feelings - I spent a large amount ( and fucked up in personal fields because of it ) searching for the one, the soulmate, the one to make me whole, thinking of myself as of a key waiting to be put in its rightfull lock, opening the door to an amazing world. Feeling like I have everything, but am nothing without the other half. I never forced things...had 2 boyfriends...one for 5, and the other 6 years. I have so much cruelty inside of me, and at the same time so much love. I wondered if anyone could give me an insight on my combo... Anyone dealing with same issues? Life stories... Anything... I just need to know am I alone in this (:

@mission I think you are needed 😛

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I have been summoned.

Hello, MEA! I am a Aries Sun/Capricorn Moon/Libra Rising 25-year-old, and let me tell you, you are not going through this alone. The Aries Sun/Libra Rising combo, while able to make us fairly popular and able to meet many acquaintances (and even mates,) it doesn't really make longterm relationships easy. We seem very compromising (and we can be, to an extent) on the surface because of our Libra social nature. Little do people know that, while we can be very accommodating, we're also very stubborn to stick to our own paths and personal nature. -Especially- because of our Capricorn moon. My Leo BFFGF (Best-Friend-Forever-Girl-Friend, as we agreed to call her) dumped me on May 1st, 2016. I was going to propose to her last year. Leo and Aries relationships can be great, even though there's that tension of both wanting to be leader in some regard. However, Capricorn moon in Aries along with the awkward decision making due to the Libra rising that opposes the Aries nature, makes things much harder. Long story short, I refused to give up my dreams of making a living as a fine art photographer, and I didn't want to get a job working for someone else because that's just who I am. She dumped me and started dating someone who was financially stable, and she did it the day we both graduated with our two-year-degrees. (FFS, Leo, I understand we've been together for 3 years, but 2 of those were focused on school! Give me a chance to show you what I'm worth!) Well, anyway, I've been earning five figures with no boss since then.

As far as life goes, it has all been surreal. Have you ever felt like.. not you, as an individual, but that your entire life path was just.. different? I always have. Not because people put a spotlight on me and praise me, or send me on my way as an outcast, but there's just this sense that you are on a different voyage entirely and the day-to-day civilian routine is simply time wasted from following the path you feel destined to complete.

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I'm 33 and I've had a total of 1 girlfriend for 2 years. I also have tons of love and tons of cruelty so I can relate. Basically, if I hate someone that takes advantage of the love side I will tear them to shreds and laugh about it internally, then cry about it after. Some of thoughts that go through my head sometimes really scare the crap out of me. I spent a better part of 15 years denying that aspect of myself because I hated it so much. Now I just know I have to live my life, and do what I think is right. So the anwser to your question is accept all aspects of yourself and know you are good enough because you do have that abundance of love to offer the right person. That by itself should make you feel more whole, because a person that is not whole and doesn't feel whole will still never feel whole no matter who they are with. Most people live in a state of denial as we all have aspects of ourselves that we don't like.

Learn to deal with the emotions straight away in whatever method you find most useful. Some it is physical activity. Some it is Meditating. Being in nature personally I find is really the best for me, but during the winter that just is not fun. Don't let those emotions build up and explode.

What are You ( speaking in terms of Astrology )? Thank You for Your post. I find it useful. Yes, the thought part - I can relate. I am trying really hard... I have been a loner my whole life, and believe me - everything about me is defined. I have my activities ( being an Aries - Kendo & Yoga are something I love ). I am rather educated and good in my field of work. People say I am very attractive. But, You know...there is always something missing. It's like with the cat in the box experiment. If You do not see it, it exists and doesn't at the same time. The point is - no matter how cool, successful, active I am...there is always something missing. I will unfortunately repeat myself and say - I have this inner spark which has the need to love and to be the flame of someone's world. Someone to build Your own reality with. I hate that. I hate the Libra part of me because I have the urge to be a great, independent woman. And I am a true friend. A guy gal by intrests and everything. But the girly little shit inside of me just keeps bringing chaos to my life. I gave my all to my ex's and ended up hating my life. (: glad that You are sorting out!

I do understand what you mean about the missing love part. I feel the same way. While I can be alone and function and do the things I like. I have a part of me that wants that really special person, but everytime I put myself out there my heart gets crushed and ripped to shreds. Woman just don't seem to want a sensitive/caring man. They want that bad boy that will treat them like crap. Just makes no sense to me. Then I end up attracting women with 4 kids and I am suppose to just be the nice guy. Well no I want my own lol. Life sucks sometimes I guess. I really don't know where I will find it because it just seems like no one accepts anyone for who they are these days. I am expected to accept them, but they don't accept me. So I wish I had a better answer for you then that here I am basically being all dramatic about it. It is just a reality I have come to terms with. I say all this in a zen way since that won't come across in text form haha.

I think what I have learned is to not look for it. It will come to you. When I would look for it. I would meet people, but always the wrong people, when I didn't try to meet anyone thats when I met some decent people. So take care of yourself, and focus on you, and it will come when you're ready. 🙂

YES! THIS IS EXACTLY HOW I FEEL! I DO NOT RUN...I HARDLY LIKE ANYONE ( NOT BECAUSE I AM STUCK UP - BUT PEOPLE REALLY ARE UNTRUE TO THEMSELVES )...You are right though...me 2...u know...every man loves the cruel, independent, self centered woman in me...but when I show my fragile side...well they lose interest...or destroy my other rational half... I am slowly learning this - to put myself first...and start thinking in this way - what do I want and how can I get it... but still...I work a looooot...and when I come home...there is this empty void inside of me...which I fill with alcohol and drugs. Just how I am...but one night of cuddles and nice words...I feel as if I can rule the world the next day... but men I have been with were cold and cruel ( Capricorn, Scorpio )....drained my spark 😢

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You just described my experiences with life and love.

I'm a Pisces moon, I think that makes me needy internally.

I also fill my void with weed and sometimes alcohol. I'm a light drinker tho so I id rather smoke.

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I am an Aries Sun/Libra rising/Capricorn Moon female. My Venus is in Pieces. As I look back on my life ( 26 turning 27 this year ) I started to wonder - how did I manage it all and stayed alive? My personal, love and education/career life have been a surreal ride. I have this saying about myself - how the Universe made me to make him giggle from time to time a bit. As for my inner feelings - I spent a large amount ( and fucked up in personal fields because of it ) searching for the one, the soulmate, the one to make me whole, thinking of myself as of a key waiting to be put in its rightfull lock, opening the door to an amazing world. Feeling like I have everything, but am nothing without the other half. I never forced things...had 2 boyfriends...one for 5, and the other 6 years. I have so much cruelty inside of me, and at the same time so much love. I wondered if anyone could give me an insight on my combo... Anyone dealing with same issues? Life stories... Anything... I just need to know am I alone in this (:

@mission I think you are needed 😛

I have been summoned.

Hello, MEA! I am a Aries Sun/Capricorn Moon/Libra Rising 25-year-old, and let me tell you, you are not going through this alone. The Aries Sun/Libra Rising combo, while able to make us fairly popular and able to meet many acquaintances (and even mates,) it doesn't really make longterm relationships easy. We seem very compromising (and we can be, to an extent) on the surface because of our Libra social nature. Little do people know that, while we can be very accommodating, we're also very stubborn to stick to our own paths and personal nature. -Especially- because of our Capricorn moon. My Leo BFFGF (Best-Friend-Forever-Girl-Friend, as we agreed to call her) dumped me on May 1st, 2016. I was going to propose to her last year. Leo and Aries relationships can be great, even though there's that tension of both wanting to be leader in some regard. However, Capricorn moon in Aries along with the awkward decision making due to the Libra rising that opposes the Aries nature, makes things much harder. Long story short, I refused to give up my dreams of making a living as a fine art photographer, and I didn't want to get a job working for someone else because that's just who I am. She dumped me and started dating someone who was financially stable, and she did it the day we both graduated with our two-year-degrees. (FFS, Leo, I understand we've been together for 3 years, but 2 of those were focused on school! Give me a chance to show you what I'm worth!) Well, anyway, I've been earning five figures with no boss since then.

As far as life goes, it has all been surreal. Have you ever felt like.. not you, as an individual, but that your entire life path was just.. different? I always have. Not because people put a spotlight on me and praise me, or send me on my way as an outcast, but there's just this sense that you are on a different voyage entirely and the day-to-day civilian routine is simply time wasted from following the path you feel destined to complete.

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This is amazing. Hello astrological twin ( in some extent ). I love You! The positive aspect of our configuration lies in the fact that we are true to one thing and one thing alone - our perception of reality & ideals. I consider us pure. Inside feel - constant war torn between the need to simply live Your life the way You want it to be, the urge to succeed & the neccessity of being fair and honest above all. I agree - at first sight I am cold and reserved or highly agreeing and stimulative, but after some time I begin showing my Arian nature ( by the way I love our combo. because it makes any kind of faking something obsolete )... I will write to You more...So thrilled. But now - off to work -.- . I am certain we were made to achieve great things! As for me - I am a loner and always have been... Yes I have always felt different...never forced it...it simply is. We are hardest on ourselves.

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I am an Aries Sun/Libra rising/Capricorn Moon female. My Venus is in Pieces. As I look back on my life ( 26 turning 27 this year ) I started to wonder - how did I manage it all and stayed alive? My personal, love and education/career life have been a surreal ride. I have this saying about myself - how the Universe made me to make him giggle from time to time a bit. As for my inner feelings - I spent a large amount ( and fucked up in personal fields because of it ) searching for the one, the soulmate, the one to make me whole, thinking of myself as of a key waiting to be put in its rightfull lock, opening the door to an amazing world. Feeling like I have everything, but am nothing without the other half. I never forced things...had 2 boyfriends...one for 5, and the other 6 years. I have so much cruelty inside of me, and at the same time so much love. I wondered if anyone could give me an insight on my combo... Anyone dealing with same issues? Life stories... Anything... I just need to know am I alone in this (:

@mission I think you are needed 😛

I have been summoned.

Hello, MEA! I am a Aries Sun/Capricorn Moon/Libra Rising 25-year-old, and let me tell you, you are not going through this alone. The Aries Sun/Libra Rising combo, while able to make us fairly popular and able to meet many acquaintances (and even mates,) it doesn't really make longterm relationships easy. We seem very compromising (and we can be, to an extent) on the surface because of our Libra social nature. Little do people know that, while we can be very accommodating, we're also very stubborn to stick to our own paths and personal nature. -Especially- because of our Capricorn moon. My Leo BFFGF (Best-Friend-Forever-Girl-Friend, as we agreed to call her) dumped me on May 1st, 2016. I was going to propose to her last year. Leo and Aries relationships can be great, even though there's that tension of both wanting to be leader in some regard. However, Capricorn moon in Aries along with the awkward decision making due to the Libra rising that opposes the Aries nature, makes things much harder. Long story short, I refused to give up my dreams of making a living as a fine art photographer, and I didn't want to get a job working for someone else because that's just who I am. She dumped me and started dating someone who was financially stable, and she did it the day we both graduated with our two-year-degrees. (FFS, Leo, I understand we've been together for 3 years, but 2 of those were focused on school! Give me a chance to show you what I'm worth!) Well, anyway, I've been earning five figures with no boss since then.

As far as life goes, it has all been surreal. Have you ever felt like.. not you, as an individual, but that your entire life path was just.. different? I always have. Not because people put a spotlight on me and praise me, or send me on my way as an outcast, but there's just this sense that you are on a different voyage entirely and the day-to-day civilian routine is simply time wasted from following the path you feel destined to complete.

This is amazing. Hello astrological twin ( in some extent ). I love You! The positive aspect of our configuration lies in the fact that we are true to one thing and one thing alone - our perception of reality & ideals. I consider us pure. Inside feel - constant war torn between the need to simply live Your life the way You want it to be, the urge to succeed & the neccessity of being fair and honest above all. I agree - at first sight I am cold and reserved or highly agreeing and stimulative, but after some time I begin showing my Arian nature ( by the way I love our combo. because it makes any kind of faking something obsolete )... I will write to You more...So thrilled. But now - off to work -.- . I am certain we were made to achieve great things! As for me - I am a loner and always have been... Yes I have always felt different...never forced it...it simply is. We are hardest on ourselves.

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Nothing I can do but agree. 🙂