How do I open up to my love!

I am not sure if this is an Aries trait but I have always had a really hard time opening up and talking about my feelings or even asking questions this is only if I am very interested in that person. I’m not sure if I am asking it the right way or even if I should ask, I am so in my head. I do think that this can get on my cappys nerves, because I see him trying, and I end up flat on my face with nothing to nervous so if I could some how break through my own insecurities, I know he will let go of his. I am just not sure where to start.

See we have had a friendship and known each other since high school he wanted me then but he is 3 years younger. So when he graduated I told him we could give it a try. We did, but the age difference really got me. But after that I probably didn’t see him again until 2004 and he was married, my stomach was flipping around, so crazy! But in 2012 we ran into each other and it seemed as if we were going to give it a try again after all these years, but it seemed as if I did something said something and he shit down and started something with another girl, broke my heart! I got in a relationship and when we split up a few months later he is on my couch visiting my ex’s cousin! And then this is still going on and on! I know he is coming around but I am not saying or doing the right things! Can someone tell me what I should do.p

No it’s same for me. I’m talking to a guy now and he commented twice that I have no emotions and we can’t both be the men in the relationship. This def hurt my feelings but I don’t know what do? He told me he’s feeling me, barely calls or text me tho, so I can’t open up to that, seems like lies to me. But His comment stood out and I’m hoping this doesn’t hold me back in relationships, as I very much want one. I want to get married.