the most painful year. 2018

this year has been one of the most painful years i have gone through. the only thing good about this year was my granddaughter being born. i still have the most painful thing i have ever done in my life to do, and i have had a very painful life. the thought of leaving my kids and grand kids is like a million knifes stabbing me.

I’m sorry the year fucked you up. Bright side: only way forward is up?

Posted by LadyNeptune

I’m sorry the year fucked you up. Bright side: only way forward is up?

so true. i will find my way back to my kids some how.

You’ll be back!

You’ll be visiting!

Maybe it’ll be the best year after all because you made life changing desicion. 👍

Do u have to go to jail or something?

Posted by WitchmitchAries

Posted by LadyNeptune

I’m sorry the year fucked you up. Bright side: only way forward is up?

so true. i will find my way back to my kids some how.

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Children are a blessing.

Posted by DMV

Do u have to go to jail or something?

She is moving to NY!

Posted by Gemitati

You’ll be back!

You’ll be visiting!

Maybe it’ll be the best year after all because you made life changing desicion. 👍

i really hoping so, and not making more of a mess.

Posted by DMV

Do u have to go to jail or something?

well i would be fed in jail. lol no.

i spent a week with my youngest daughter this week and took care of my new grandbaby and know i will not be here to watch her grow up.

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Posted by Gemitati

You’ll be back!

You’ll be visiting!

Maybe it’ll be the best year after all because you made life changing desicion. 👍

i really hoping so, and not making more of a mess.

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Snap out of this kind of thinking and you won’t! You’ll be fine. Hugs?

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Posted by Gemitati

You’ll be back!

You’ll be visiting!

Maybe it’ll be the best year after all because you made life changing desicion. 👍

i really hoping so, and not making more of a mess.

Snap out of this kind of thinking and you won’t! You’ll be fine. Hugs?

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i am trying. i had just spent some time with my granddaughter this week and it hit me. i will not see her grow up. thats very hard.

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i spent a week with my youngest daughter this week and took care of my new grandbaby and know i will not be here to watch her grow up.

Are you dying?

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bet you wish i was. lol

Posted by RooSagicorn

I’m sorry. There is FaceTime & phone. Things change, so keep your chin up!

It’s been a hell of a year for me too. 2019 will be better!! Just gotta believe.

its got to be better next year. i will get something worked out.

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i spent a week with my youngest daughter this week and took care of my new grandbaby and know i will not be here to watch her grow up.

Are you dying?

bet you wish i was. lol

Not really, but ok

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😆

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i spent a week with my youngest daughter this week and took care of my new grandbaby and know i will not be here to watch her grow up.

Are you dying?

bet you wish i was. lol

Not really, but ok

😆

So dramatic

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yea, the twins want to come out and play i guess. gem rising. 😆

Posted by tiziani

I'd be scared of that kind of change myself, but hey you're honest about it so you're that much closer to doing it.

you were so right about my year. HUG

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Posted by tiziani

I'd be scared of that kind of change myself, but hey you're honest about it so you're that much closer to doing it.

you were so right about my year. HUG

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you said i will stand alone in the end. i am the lone wolf. 😆 she wolf

I'm still reeling a bit from the fact your Virgo ex-husband remarried so quickly after you left him smdh.

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i spent a week with my youngest daughter this week and took care of my new grandbaby and know i will not be here to watch her grow up.

Are you dying?

bet you wish i was. lol

Not really, but ok

😆

So dramatic

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Separation anxiety.

Posted by Ram416

I'm still reeling a bit from the fact your Virgo ex-husband remarried so quickly after you left him smdh.

i really was not. i saw it coming. i even said it was going to happen to the kids. 😆. i know him better then he knows himself.

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i spent a week with my youngest daughter this week and took care of my new grandbaby and know i will not be here to watch her grow up.

Are you dying?

bet you wish i was. lol

Not really, but ok

😆

So dramatic

Separation anxiety.

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soo freakin true. i am already getting it and i have not left yet. i was taking care of my granddaughter this week and thinking how i wont see her grow up and walk and all that cute stuff. plus the girls have been having some hard shit going on and i cant help them.

Posted by shakedown

Sounds rough, but it can't stay that way forever. Brighter days are coming 🌞.

i will find my way back some how. but the time away is going to be hard. kids grow up fast and i will miss out on a lot of their stuff. but my brother is the only one who wants to help me get back on my feet again. my kids have problems of their own and cant help me.

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Sounds rough, but it can't stay that way forever. Brighter days are coming 🌞.

i will find my way back some how. but the time away is going to be hard. kids grow up fast and i will miss out on a lot of their stuff. but my brother is the only one who wants to help me get back on my feet again. my kids have problems of their own and cant help me.

Yes, you will find your way back. You said you've had a really tough life thus far, yet each time you made it. This time will be no different and I'm grateful you are not alone and have your brother.

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lol i have never met him person. i found him in 2012. we only been chatting or phone calls

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Posted by shakedown

Sounds rough, but it can't stay that way forever. Brighter days are coming 🌞.

i will find my way back some how. but the time away is going to be hard. kids grow up fast and i will miss out on a lot of their stuff. but my brother is the only one who wants to help me get back on my feet again. my kids have problems of their own and cant help me.

Yes, you will find your way back. You said you've had a really tough life thus far, yet each time you made it. This time will be no different and I'm grateful you are not alone and have your brother.

lol i have never met him person. i found him in 2012. we only been chatting or phone calls

So you've been chatting with him for 6 years, Is it a comfortable relationship?

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well it is really hard to tell what a person is really like just from phone and texts. i will find out when i get there. if it dont go well i will be hitch hiking back to AZ.

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Posted by shakedown

Sounds rough, but it can't stay that way forever. Brighter days are coming 🌞.

i will find my way back some how. but the time away is going to be hard. kids grow up fast and i will miss out on a lot of their stuff. but my brother is the only one who wants to help me get back on my feet again. my kids have problems of their own and cant help me.

Yes, you will find your way back. You said you've had a really tough life thus far, yet each time you made it. This time will be no different and I'm grateful you are not alone and have your brother.

lol i have never met him person. i found him in 2012. we only been chatting or phone calls

So you've been chatting with him for 6 years, Is it a comfortable relationship?

well it is really hard to tell what a person is really like just from phone and texts. i will find out when i get there. if it dont go well i will be hitch hiking back to AZ.

I can understand that and it does indeed sound like a more than difficult and painful situation. The positives are although you have never met, he is indeed you brother. The fact that your entire life has been painful and you endured only means you will continue to do so (you really don't have much of a choice). Unfortunately, you can't change it, so once again, you'll have to find that inner strength and keep enduring. I'm so sorry for your trials and hope things work in your favor.

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thank you

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Posted by shakedown

Sounds rough, but it can't stay that way forever. Brighter days are coming 🌞.

i will find my way back some how. but the time away is going to be hard. kids grow up fast and i will miss out on a lot of their stuff. but my brother is the only one who wants to help me get back on my feet again. my kids have problems of their own and cant help me.

Yes, you will find your way back. You said you've had a really tough life thus far, yet each time you made it. This time will be no different and I'm grateful you are not alone and have your brother.

lol i have never met him person. i found him in 2012. we only been chatting or phone calls

So you've been chatting with him for 6 years, Is it a comfortable relationship?

well it is really hard to tell what a person is really like just from phone and texts. i will find out when i get there. if it dont go well i will be hitch hiking back to AZ.

I can understand that and it does indeed sound like a more than difficult and painful situation. The positives are although you have never met, he is indeed you brother. The fact that your entire life has been painful and you endured only means you will continue to do so (you really don't have much of a choice). Unfortunately, you can't change it, so once again, you'll have to find that inner strength and keep enduring. I'm so sorry for your trials and hope things work in your favor.

thank you

You're welcome and I really hope things turn around.

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storms dont last forever but can last a long ass time. 😆

This has been the worst year for me as well but also the best. It was one of the hardest because I left my abusive husband, was a single mom, failed at so many things.. struggled to survive.. saved my trauma head on.. but good because I’ve grown, I found love.. I found a career, I have my own home.. my kiddo is doing better than ever. I feel like it was a season this year for planting and next year we can actually have he fruit from the seeds? Dunno. It’s a weird perspective lol

Posted by Cancerleo91

This has been the worst year for me as well but also the best. It was one of the hardest because I left my abusive husband, was a single mom, failed at so many things.. struggled to survive.. saved my trauma head on.. but good because I’ve grown, I found love.. I found a career, I have my own home.. my kiddo is doing better than ever. I feel like it was a season this year for planting and next year we can actually have he fruit from the seeds? Dunno. It’s a weird perspective lol

next year will be so much better. i think still hard but better.

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Posted by Cancerleo91

This has been the worst year for me as well but also the best. It was one of the hardest because I left my abusive husband, was a single mom, failed at so many things.. struggled to survive.. saved my trauma head on.. but good because I’ve grown, I found love.. I found a career, I have my own home.. my kiddo is doing better than ever. I feel like it was a season this year for planting and next year we can actually have he fruit from the seeds? Dunno. It’s a weird perspective lol

next year will be so much better. i think still hard but better.

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I agree. We got this!